Dead Flowers E-Book

Nicola Monaghan

• Herausgeber: Verve Books
• Kategorie: Gesellschafts- und Liebesromane
• Sprache: Englisch

Veröffentlichungsjahr: 2019

Beschreibung

She doesn’t trust the police. She used to be one of them.

Hardened by ten years on the murder squad, DNA analyst Doctor Sian Love has seen it all. So when she finds human remains in the basement of her new home, she knows the drill.

Except this time it’s different. This time, it’s personal...

A page-turning cold case investigation, Dead Flowers is an intriguing, multi-layered story perfect for fans of Kate Atkinson’s Case Histories and British crime dramas like Line of Duty and Unforgotten.

Shortlisted for the UEA Crime Fiction Award 2019

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'Old murders, family secrets and long-told lies are the ingredients of this splendid, gripping crime novel' - William Ryan

'Nicola Monaghan has a talent for making characters real in remarkably few words' - The Bookbag

'A beautifully crafted dual narrative story of deadly familial secrets and lies' - Henry Sutton, Professor of Creative Writing and Crime Fiction at University of East Anglia

Leseprobe

DEAD FLOWERS

Nicola Monaghan

Verve Books

Table of Contents

Title Page

For my parents

October 1967 | A Whiter Shade of Pale

October 2017 | HOME

ALES

CELLAR

July 1970 | Band of Gold

The Wonder of You

October 2017 | DOOR

TIME

BREAK

July 1970 | In the Summertime

You Can Get It If You Really Want

October 2017 | CRIME

SCENE

VIEW

July 1970 | Spirit in the Sky

Ain't No Mountain High Enough

October 2017 | VISTA

TUNDRA

FREEZING

August 1970 | I'll Say Forever My Love

Bridge Over Troubled Water

Can't Help Falling in Love

October 2017 | PHASE 1

PHASE 2

PHASE 3

September 1970 | All I Have to Do Is Dream

Let's Work Together

Don't Cry Daddy

November 2017 | FATAL

FLAW

FAULT

October 1970 | Sugar Sugar

Travellin' Band

November 2017 | DISHONESTY

CONFESSION

SCANDAL

November 1970 | Everything Is Beautiful

Black Night

November 2017 | TROUBLE

DOUBLE

TAKE

February 1971 | Mama Told Me (Not to Come)

I Hear You Knocking

November 2017 | HEART

BREAK

March 1971 | He's Gonna Step on You Again

Another Day

November 2017 | DOWN

DIRT

May 1971 | There Goes My Everything

Won't Get Fooled Again

November 2017 | DARK

GRAVE

June 1971 | I'm Still Waiting

Double Barrel

It's Impossible

November 2017 | BIRTH

LOVE

June 1971 | Baby Jump

November 2017 | BABY

JUMP

GUN

June 1971 | Heaven Must Have Sent You

November 2017 | SUICIDE

BLONDE

June 1971 | Devil’s Answer

November 2017 | DEAD

FLOWERS

July 1971 | Peace Train

December 2017 | LEAVES

Acknowledgements

About Nicola Monaghan

Praise for Nicola Monaghan’s previous works

‘Monaghan's convincing characters swing unpredictably between terrifying and tender, and the often violent encounters usually have a bleakly funny edge’ -Independent (London)

‘A gripping, mile-a-minute British debut. Enthralling’ - Kirkus Reviews

‘Monaghan's novel is direct and deceptively simple. In spite of suffering there are surprising touches of humour and tenderness that bloom like flowers on asphalt’ - Times

‘Monaghan's is a powerful, loving, and honest new voice’ - AL Kennedy, author ofParadiseandSo I Am Glad

‘The pace and claustrophobic atmosphere also serve to make this an almost unbearably tense read at times’ -Daily Mail

Also by Nicola Monaghan

The Killing Jar

Starfishing

The Okinawa Dragon

The Night Lingers and other stories

The Troll trilogy

For my parents

October 1967

A Whiter Shade of Pale

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The Loggerheads pub, Nottingham

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It was Saturday night glad times in the Loggerheads pub and Harry was propping up the bar with his skinny red streak of a pal Bobby O’Quaid. An old man a couple of tables away tipped his hat at the pair of them. Harry lifted a hand to wave then slicked back his dark hair, pomade leaving a sticky film on his fingers.

The three old crows who sat together in the corner most nights and drank gin until they fell over were cackling away. The oldest one shouted out. ‘Oi, Harry, come and chat with us, duck.’

Bobby turned to him with one raised eyebrow. ‘They’re after your body again, Harry. Watch ‘em, that’s all I’m saying.’

‘Well, I havenay had sisters afore, so could well be tempted,’ Harry said, laughing and slapping Bobby on the back. The carpet sucked at the soles of his shoes as he walked towards their table.

The three women grinned at Harry as he approached. Not a one of them had a full head of hair and their mouths were missing several teeth, except the smallest who had perfect chops that could only be false. ‘Hello, my lovelies,’ he said. ‘What’re ye lassies up to tonight?’ He fixed them with his lively blue eyes and gave them the big smile that he knew made ladies' hearts beat a flutter.

‘Gladys’us brought her tarots,’ one of them said. The one with the false gnashers was holding a pack of cards.

‘I’ll do a reading for you, if you want, me duck,’ Gladys told him. ‘You don’t have to cross me palm with silver or owt like that. I just like the cut of your jib.’

‘I’m no sure, lassie,’ Harry said. ‘I’ll no have a thing to do with that carry-on.’ His voice was playful, though, at odds with the words. ‘Ah, gwaan then. What harm’s in it?’

Gladys glanced up at him through her lashes, looking weirdly coquettish. She handed him the deck to shuffle. Then she took the cards back and dealt them on to the table in a cross formation. Harry had seen this before; his Granny Mac used to do the tarot. She swore by them and would deal the cards whenever she had a decision to make.

The old woman turned the cards face-up, one then another, announcing them as she went. Bobby strolled across and watched over Harry’s shoulder. ‘The King of Swords,’ Gladys said, ‘oh my goodnight.’ She turned more cards. ‘Now don’t be startled, young man. This un’s death but don’t take it all literal.’ She looked up, and her eyes met Harry’s. ‘The Trent’ll run red with the blood of trees before you see your end,’ she told him.

Harry and Bobby exchanged a doubtful look. Then Harry lifted a hand to his forehead, play-acting a dramatic shiver and making the old ladies laugh. Gladys continued to slowly turn cards over and announce their names.

‘The Three of Swords.’ Turn. ‘The Wheel of Fortune.’ Turn. ‘The Lovers.’ This card had a picture of a half-naked couple on it, wrapped up in each other and tangled with ivy.

‘Ooh err,’ said Bobby, elbowing Harry with a smirk on his face.

‘There’s a big future for you here,’ Gladys said, looking at Harry with a very level gaze. She glanced down at the table with a frown. ‘You’ll have fame, be in all the papers. They’ll talk about you long after you’ve passed on from this world.’

Harry let out a comic gasp, then clasped his hand over his mouth.

‘More than that,’ she said. ‘You’ll be king of your world.’ Gladys smiled in a far-off way.

The tallest woman spoke, her voice rich and deep. ‘King of it all,’ she said, her words like an echo. She pointed at a card. ‘Wheel of fortune,’ she said, ‘and the King of Swords.’ She smiled and tapped the side of her nose, as if there were an in-joke that Harry should know about.

Gladys turned her head to take in the whole cross again. She pushed at one or two of the cards, adjusting their positions ever so slightly against the scratches in the wood.

Bobby pointed at the Lovers’ card. ‘What’s this ’un about?’ he said, winking at Harry.

‘I see a beautiful young woman. Oh, yeah, one heck of a looker, she is, this gell,’ the third old bird piped up. ‘I see you, nearly half a century after the day you both get wed, wrapped in each other’s arms.’

‘What about me?’ Bobby nudged Harry again. He was enjoying this a bit too much.

‘You’ll do alright,’ Gladys said. ‘You’ll be happy, in the end.’

‘Fame and fortune sounds better, being honest.’

Gladys smiled like she knew all his secrets, rocking gently in her chair. Dancing to her own tune. ‘I see something good here for your children,’ she said, and left it at that.

‘What about my weans?’ Harry said. ‘How many? Will they be happy and rich?’ He was grinning and catching Bobby’s high mood.

Gladys grabbed the cards and cleared them quickly. ‘The Tarot don’t tell you everything,’ she said.

The women turned towards each other then, and back to their glasses of gin and orange. Whatever they had wanted from Harry, it was over now.

‘What the hell were that about?’ Bobby said, as they walked back to the bar. ‘Blood of trees!’

Harry shrugged. He wasn’t smiling anymore. The way she’d suddenly packed up the cards when he’d asked that question about children had put the willies up him.

They stood at the bar and he ordered two more pints of mild. He thought about the cards. The pints were handed over and he took a big gulp. Bobby stood beside him, staring into space as he took his first sup.

‘Penny for ’em,’ Bobby said.

Harry took another gulp of his drink and shrugged. ‘Naw, I cannay believe in any of that shite, anyways,’ he said. But he closed his eyes and all he could see was a picture from the cards; three swords piercing a heart, and blood. Blood, gurgling and bubbling and thickening like it was boiling in a pot, leaking all over the sticky floor of the pub and pooling at his feet.

October 2017

HOME

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The former Loggerheads pub (permanently closed), Nottingham

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Sian dropped the box on the bedroom floor and a cloud of dust flew up, making her cough. She looked around and was hit by nostalgia so heavy that it felt like a presence in the room. She hadn’t been in the top rooms of the Loggerheads public house for years and it was dragging her back in time.

Kris appeared at the door carrying two boxes with such ease that he made them look empty.

‘I see we have the usual Sian Love approach going on here,’ he said. He walked over and placed the boxes carefully against the wall. ‘You’ll break your stuff.’

‘I barely own anything breakable,’ she said.

Kris turned towards her and raised one eyebrow. ‘Previous house moves?’

‘Oi!’ Sian aimed a playful slap at his shoulder and he ducked away from her. She couldn’t help smiling as she saw the laughter in his warm brown eyes.

‘How you manage to run a methodical lab and not just break all the test tubes is beyond me.’ His voice was teasing.

‘Work’s different,’ she said, taking him seriously, although her forensics research role didn’t involve handling test tubes or equipment very often these days. ‘I’m handling people’s DNA, all their innermost secrets. It’s more important than a few books and knick-knacks.’

Kris grinned. ‘It suits me if you break things. Gives you an excuse to call someone tall, dark and handsome to help you fix it all up, Love,’ he said. He had this affectation of calling her by her surname like this, a habit formed when she’d been his boss, back when they’d first met working together on the local murder squad. Sian liked it, though.

‘Excuse me, but I can fix my own things, thanks,’ she told him, her grin carrying in the tone of her voice.

‘I’m just trying to help you here, giving you some good excuses for getting me over. Your loss if you can’t see that this is for your benefit.’ The words got quieter as he headed towards the stairs.

Sian looked around the room. It was going to take forever to unpack all of this stuff. She pushed a box aside and picked up a suitcase. She could at least put a few things in the closet. She reached up, opening the door, and was hit by a long-forgotten scent of old cloth and mothballs. It filled up her mouth and nose and, for a moment, she couldn’t breathe. She was back with her Uncle Rob, years ago. She could hear his voice, as clear as if he were here in the room. Ran off with a Scotsman, Sianey. And she could see the clothes she’d found that day, smell them again. Classic, figure-hugging dresses with floaty skirts, high, glamorous heels, and silk stockings.

Sian held on to the cupboard door handle, dizzy and confused. A Scotsman, a black man, the milkman, Uncle Rob had changed it every time he told the story. She knew now that those clothes could never have been his wife’s, even if she had existed. They’d been from a different era altogether, like something the femme fatale in a film noir might have worn. Sian’s fingers tingled again with the feeling of silk and she was filled with longing, and with fear that she hadn’t known her uncle at all.

All at once, Sian needed to be out of that room. She needed to not be alone. She rushed on to the landing and galloped down the stairs, taking them two at a time, her heart racing. She swung off the bottom step, holding on to the banister. She had to stop herself short to avoid colliding with Kris, who was waiting in the hallway.

‘What next?’ he said.

She shrugged. Kris grabbed her and pulled her into a kiss. She pulled away and noticed Elvis sitting neatly and calmly by the back door.

‘You need to bark, boy!’ she said, opening it wide for him. ‘I’m not psychic.’

‘Maybe he is and he doesn’t understand why you’re not getting him,’ Kris said. He put on a silly, dreadful American accent. ‘What’s that, Elvis? There’s a boy stuck down the well?’

Elvis strolled outside and dug at a patch of concrete. Sian watched him, the urgency of his claws and sniffing. It reminded her of earlier that day, when he’d lost his precious teddy toy underneath the sofa.

‘Tea?’ Kris asked her, cutting across her thoughts with a warm smile.

‘That’d be nice,’ she said. It would be. Nice. And Kris was nice, too, wasn’t he? He’d looked after her, been there and pretty much saved her life, more than once, since they’d first met on the force over a decade ago. She really needed to get over whatever was holding her back with him.

Sian sat down on one of the fold-out chairs in the kitchen as the kettle boiled. She’d scrubbed and scrubbed the cupboards and surfaces in here but the colours still looked muted by grime. Kris got up and dug in the boxes on the worktop, pulling out some teabags and a couple of mugs. He turned towards Sian. ‘OK, DCI Love. I’ve known you for long enough now. What’s wrong?’

‘Nothing.’ Sian was shaking her head. ‘And I haven’t been a DCI for a very long time, matey.’ She wasn’t sure she wanted reminding of how senior she’d been by the time she’d left the force, how complicit that made her feel about everything that she’d seen, even if she had walked out in protest. She’d hated the blurred lines of policing, the corruption and sexism she’d seen, and the racism too, directed at Kris.

‘Well, I ain’t going to call you Doctor Love.’ Kris clicked his tongue against his teeth. ‘Not gonna happen.’ He rolled his eyes. ‘Come on, it’s never nothing. I’m not that young and naive.’

‘Two years!’ Sian was talking through a broad grin. ‘You are literally two years younger!’

Kris shrugged. ‘Gotta take my advantages where I can find them, babe. Wouldn’t even beat you in a fight.’ He took milk out of the fridge and turned to look straight at her. ‘So, c’mon. What’s up?’

Sian let out a long sigh. ‘Oh, I dunno. Can’t put my finger on it. Just being back here after all these years.’

Kris glanced across at her and for a horrible moment Sian thought he was about to come over and hug her. But perhaps he really had known her long enough. He carried on making the tea and then brought the mugs over, plonking one down in front of her on the pasting table that she was using as her temporary dining furniture. ‘Weird circumstances. You’re still grieving for him and now, moving into your uncle’s place. Everything here must remind you of him.’

‘Yeah,’ she said. She half-smiled. ‘Although I haven’t got a clue why he left it all to me.’

‘Families are weird,’ Kris said.

‘Especially mine.’

Kris cocked an eyebrow. ‘Not stupid enough to get drawn in by that,’ he said.

They let the silence rest for a moment and both sipped at tea. Sian cupped her hands around the mug and felt it warm her.

A loud scratching sound came from the other side of the kitchen door along with a gentle whimper. Sian got up and walked into the hallway; Kris followed. They both watched Elvis, who was scratching at the cellar door. ‘Leave it, boy,’ she said. Then louder, ‘Leave it!’ Elvis came away, a good boy. Her dog was also ex-police; retired now but very well trained. ‘There must be something there,’ she said. ‘He only does that when there’s something there.’ She swung the door open and flicked on the light, spotting something furry and matted on the top step and recoiling for a moment, thinking it was a rat. She realised it was just his teddy toy. The door didn’t quite catch properly, and the bear must have slipped the other side and got shut there.

‘Ah ha!’ Kris said. ‘The big softy.’

Sian laughed lightly, handing Elvis his toy. Her dog bounded off and sat down with it, chewing at one of the cloth ears. Her toolbox was on the hallway floor, waiting to be taken down into the cellar, and she placed it in front of the door to keep it shut.

‘Can we go out or something? Get a drink.’ A tight fist of anxiety squeezed her stomach.

‘Sure,’ Kris said, making the word sound uncertain.

Sian grabbed her coat from where she’d slung it over the top of the living room door. Elvis padded after her. ‘Not this time, boy,’ she said. She checked her pocket for her keys. Glancing up, she saw Kris locking the back door. As if he lived here, too.

Kris walked down the hallway, squeezing past her and out into the street. Sian turned, taking a last look at Elvis. ‘You be a good boy,’ she said. ‘No digging or scratching at things. OK?’

He tipped his head to the side, as if trying to understand what she was saying. She smiled at him, which made him tip his head to the other side.

‘You coming?’ Kris called back, yards up the street already.

Sian turned from her dog and shut the door, locking it. She could feel the broken coin on her uncle’s old keyring, cold against her hand. Uncle Rob had left her a pub but he’d also left her this weird mystery; half of a Mizpah love pendant. Somewhere in the world there was a second half coin that would fit with this one perfectly, completing the words of its broken promise. She had no idea where it had come from but its existence put a very different light on his jokes about a wife who had run away.

ALES

The Pitcher and Piano, High Pavement, Nottingham

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‘My uncle used to call this place Twat Church,’ Sian said, gesturing around at the drinkers in what used to be the Unitarian Church before it was bought and renovated by an upmarket pub chain.

Kris laughed loudly and brought a hand to his mouth to stop himself spitting beer. ‘You shouldn’t swear like that, young lady. In the house of God!’

‘Yeah, well, God moved out a while ago, and all the twats moved in.’ The old building was packed with drunk, noisy groups; more than one of them looked like stag parties. A few tables away, someone shouted ‘who are ya’ and his friends joined in so loudly it swallowed all the air.

Sian tipped her head back as she took a swallow from her beer, taking in the high ceiling and the stone arches along the side that had been turned into balconies. There were several large stained-glass windows and even the framed mirrors on the walls were arched to fit with this style. It was very in keeping with where the building had come from.

‘Better to turn churches into pubs than to turn pubs into luxury flats,’ Kris said.

Sian gave him a level stare. ‘The Loggerheads hasn’t made any money for about a million years.’

‘Yeah, but maybe your uncle wasn’t a businessman. With you at the helm, it could be a different story.’ He slid a hand around her waist.

‘Oh, my uncle was very definitely a businessman.’

‘Oh, really?’ There was a sudden light in his eyes. ‘A “businessman”?’ He made air quotes with one hand.

Sian nodded. This had been code on their squad for someone who did a certain type of business, not much of it legal. She let out a small nostalgic laugh. ‘He joked when I joined the force that he wouldn’t be able to talk to me anymore.’ She looked up at Kris. ‘Cos, y’know, you don’t talk to police.’ She imitated a strong Nottingham accent.

‘Your family gets more interesting by the second.’

‘Believe me, they really don’t,’ Sian said, looking over his shoulder at one of those arched mirrors behind them, sensing trouble somewhere. She saw the reflection of two men the other end of the bar doing the drunken wankers’ dance, edging themselves closer, then further away from one another, on the brink of a fight. Sian felt her chest tighten. She checked where the exits were. She looked at the men, assessing their weights and heights and anything around that might help immobilise them if necessary.

‘So, c’mon, Love, what’s the problem with the Loggerheads?’ Kris stepped back so that he could look into her eyes. ‘It’s a bit creepy, I’ll give you that.’

Sian took Kris’s hand, manoeuvring him away from the potential fight and towards an empty table. ‘You’re sounding like my mum, now,’ she said. ‘Don’t move into that pub, it’s a dark, bad place.’ She was putting on a fortune teller voice, each word heavy with meaning. Her eyes were still on the two men, though, and she was relieved to see a bouncer intervene and tell them to leave.

‘Whoo-oo-ooo!’ Kris said, making a token effort of waving a hand and wiggling his fingers. ‘But you’re better than that. You don’t believe in that shit.’ It was left unsaid between them, the crime scenes they’d witnessed together. Sian had always been struck by the absence around a dead body; that was what unnerved you, not the sense of any kind of spirit or presence in the room.

With a deep breath, as if she were about to dive underwater, Sian took another swallow of her beer then came back up for air. ‘I dunno. I’ve always had a weird time at that pub. I ran away to Uncle Rob when I was fifteen,’ she said. ‘I’d just found out that David wasn’t my real dad and I was furious. Uncle Rob took me in but he told my mother I was there and she turned up screaming like a banshee.’ She stared down at the table, remembering it so clearly, the twist to her mum’s face. She’d thought it was rage at the time, pure, blind anger, but now, as she tried to picture it again, she saw fear there instead. ‘She threatened to drag me out the place by my hair.’ She was shaking her head and felt the prickle of tears in her eyes. She pulled against the feeling, her throat tightening. ‘I think I was more upset with Rob, in the end. He was supposed to be my cool uncle who played the drums and owned a pub. But he went straight off tittle-tattling to my mum.’

Kris looked thoughtful and was quiet for a moment. ‘Quite a big deal, something like that. What it does to a family,’ he said.

A sip of drink, marking time whilst she gave herself space to think.

‘How’d you find out? Birth certificate?’ he asked her.

Sian let out a bitter little laugh. ‘No, nothing as simple as that. It’s David’s name on my birth certificate. But he has the wrong colour eyes.’

‘You what?’

Sian waved her beer about as if to illustrate what she was saying. ‘You can blame good old-fashioned O-level biology,’ she said. ‘Two blue-eyed parents can’t have a brown-eyed child, etcetera. I read that, and kept staring in the mirror to see if my eyes were really some kind of odd shade of green that gave the impression of brown, or had some blue in there somewhere, right in the middle near my iris. I tried to persuade myself that what I’d read had to be wrong. But it nagged at me until I blurted something out in the middle of a row like a total cliché. You know the drill, the “you’re not my dad!” obligatory teenage strop.’

‘Did they deny it?’ Kris’s eyes were shining.

‘Well, I was bloody expecting them to, but no. Mum just crumbled. She sat down, fell back, actually, as if I’d punched her. And she said, no, he’s not. And then started giving me the third degree about who’d told me. When I explained about the eye colour she seemed relieved.’ Sian shook her head. ‘I couldn’t believe they’d lied to me all those years. Lied to the bloody registrar too, the pair of them. Mind you, poor old dad. I mean, David dad. He probably didn’t know that long before I did. I dunno. He just seemed gobsmacked by the whole thing.’

Kris had gone very quiet and was staring at her. She hadn’t meant to say as much as this.

‘What about Tom?’’ he asked, finally, and Sian realised he’d been trying to work out how to phrase the question about her younger brother.

She laughed; a sharp, bitter sound. ‘Lovely Tom? No, David’s his dad, because he’s lovely Tom and life is always lovely for him. That’s the rule.’

‘You make it sound like you don’t think he’s very lovely at all!’

‘Sorry.’ Sian sat up straighter. ‘It’s not his fault. Him and his lovely blue eyes.’

‘Okaaaay,’ Kris said.

‘Anyway,’ she said, running a hand through her blonde, cropped hair. ‘It was all wrong, my premise. I know that now. There are a bunch of ways that blue-eyed parents can have brown-eyed kids. My genetic father might very well have blue eyes for all I know. It’s all much more complicated than that biology class.’ She paused and looked at Kris. ‘I just happened to have been right at the same time as being wrong,’ she said.

‘That’s fucking mental.’

‘Yup.’

‘And you said your family wasn’t that interesting,’ he said.

‘Fucked-up is not the same as interesting.’

They both sipped beer at the same time and their eyes caught. Kris put his glass down and reached across the table for Sian’s hand. ‘And you’re not even as fucked-up as you should be,’ he said. He cleared his throat. ‘Sorry, that was supposed to be funny but came out wrong.’

There it was; that tight, pinching squeeze of anxiety again. She leaned back in her chair and looked around the crowded bar. She considered getting another drink but staying out didn’t appeal. ‘Listen, I’m knackered. I’m going to go home. Get an early night.’

‘On your own,’ Kris said. It was a statement not a question. Sian pulled at the corners of the label on her beer bottle and didn’t say anything. She knew that she needed to be better than this with Kris, that the way she pushed him away had broken them up before. But she couldn’t help it.

Kris downed the last of his beer then shook his head. ‘What’s wrong, Sian? We getting a bit too close?’ She noticed the use of her first name and knew that she’d upset him.

‘I’m just tired.’

Kris stood up and put on his jacket. ‘Fine,’ he said. He waited for a moment, like he was expecting her to change her mind. Then he zipped up his coat and walked away.

Sian watched him go through another mirror. She felt like everyone in the bar was watching him leave, watching the two of them. But, actually, he was walking slowly, with his usual lazy swagger and she wouldn’t even have realised he was pissed off if she hadn’t known him so well. She wished she could stop upsetting him and just be normal. One day, he’d decide he’d had enough of her nonsense, the way her ex had promised her when he first heard they were together. He’ll realise you’re a psycho bitch soon enough. She could hear the words, her ex-boyfriend’s voice, so loud and clear that she almost expected him to appear in the arched glass of the mirror as she stared into it.

She turned on instinct, the ghost of an itch in the middle of her shoulders like there really was someone behind her. But there was nobody there.

CELLAR

Narrow Marsh, Nottingham

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Sian came down the steep steps past the Contemporary Art Gallery, her eyes tracing the Nottingham lace patterns in its concrete walls. She could feel the history around her; Narrow Marsh, as it used to be, full of crime and squalor. She felt separated from the slums and violence by the finest of membranes, like if she pushed hard enough she could burst through and find herself years back in time.

The sign from the old Loggerheads pub was rattling in the wind, making a crashing sound against its frame. Sian checked up and down the street for any signs of trouble but could see nothing except leaves being blown and buffeted against the pavement. She could hear Elvis, barking and howling the other side of the door. He wasn’t usually that bothered when she went out for a couple of hours but the combination of the high winds and being somewhere new were probably to blame. She dug into her bag to get her keys and his barking got more urgent. ‘It’s just me, you silly sod,’ she said. She opened the door and he came bounding over, doing the dance of love he did whenever she came home, nuzzling her, then rocking from back to front paws. She leaned down to give the German Shepherd a proper scratch behind his ears and let him lick her nose, then locked and bolted the front door, shutting out Narrow Marsh and the dark.

Elvis ran through the hallway to the back door. Sian grabbed the key from a hook on the wall; he was trying to force the door open before she could unlock it. Finally, he burst outside and jumped into the air, barking at the night sky. The house felt damp and chilly so Sian went into the kitchen and turned the heating on. She wasn’t sleepy enough for bed. She rooted through the boxes searching for something to drink, and glasses. She could only find an old bottle of amaretto and the plastic beakers from the bathroom. She poured herself a drink and slipped through to the living room, collapsing on the sofa and kicking off her shoes.

Sitting back, Sian tried to relax. She took a sip from her drink. It had a thickness and a rich, high taste. She couldn’t shake the idea that part of the slick flavour was old toothpaste. She heard Elvis, scratching at the cellar door again. She ignored him for as long as she could. Then he popped his head into the room and stared at her. ‘Fine,’ she said, putting down her drink and walking back through to the hall. She closed and locked the back door. ‘I can see I’m not going to get any peace here. Let’s go and find out what’s down there.’

Sian moved her toolbox and opened the cellar door, flicking on the light switch. There was a bright flash below and then darkness as the bulb blew. ‘How’s that for a sign,’ she muttered, with a nervous laugh.  She tilted the door back and reached into her toolbox, finding a torch. Then she picked up the box in case she needed tools when she got down there. Elvis scratched at the door again then looked up at her expectantly. ‘You know, boy, the rule is never go down into the cellar.’ She smiled at her own joke. And then she pushed open the door and he barged past her and rushed down the stairs, barking.

Sian followed him, shining the torch ahead of her. She tripped slightly as she misjudged the last step then righted herself. At the bottom of the stairs there was a high, sweet smell, reminiscent of old bins. She put the toolbox down on the floor. Elvis was scratching at the far wall and turned towards her, barking. He started to whimper and then pace the floor in a way she’d never seen him do before.

Sian felt the temperature of the room drop. She knew this was the effect of adrenaline on her body but the feeling struck home, nonetheless. Because Elvis wasn’t any old retired police dog. He was a cadaver dog. Elvis had been trained to find the dead.

July 1970

Band of Gold

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The Loggerheads pub

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It was a hot and humid midsummer evening and the sky had only bothered to darken to a vague kind of indigo. Angela Donnelly had left her husband seven days previous, and looked full of the same kind of doubt as the sky. Her sister Marilyn was skipping down Cliff Road ahead of her, drunk on the wonder of the night, as well as the cherry brandies that were dancing in her belly. Angela had been drinking too, but she wasn’t skipping anywhere.

Marilyn tipped open the door to the Loggerheads pub and the sound of people having fun came roaring out. Angela followed to the door but turned at the last minute, looking carefully down the street behind her, checking. Trying to see into the shadows down alleys and twitchells. There wasn’t a soul lurking in any of the dark places.

The lounge was packed to the rafters with a Saturday night crowd, their bellies full of beer and freedom. A Beatles song was coming out the jukebox and there were shouts and jeers from men playing skittles in the alley out back. Marilyn was at the bar, holding out a ten bob note like it was a ticket for something. Angela stood behind her, pulling at her borrowed minidress as if to stretch it longer. She turned and looked around for a table. A man nearby waved over at her. He was very good-looking, with lots of dark hair and intense blue eyes. Self-consciously, she smiled back. She fluffed her hair, which was cut into a short fashionable bob. The right kind of haircut for an independent modern woman who wanted to make a new start.

Angela grabbed the half pint of lager and lime Marilyn had handed her and they both headed over to the fellow, who was sitting with a pal and gesturing at a pair of spare seats at the table.

The man looked up at her and smiled, his eyes soft. ‘Glad to meet ye, hen,’ he said, with a very strong Scottish accent. ‘It’s no every day I meet such a beautiful wee lassie as yoursel.’ Angela blushed bright red. She pulled at her dress again before sitting down.

‘My name’s Angela,’ she said, holding out her hand stiffly. The man took her fingers in his and kissed them. The blush bit deeper into her cheeks.

‘Angela, Angela, Angel girl,’ he said. He made it sound like a song. ‘I’m Harry, and this here’s my pal Bobby Q.’ He indicated his friend, a tall youth with red hair, who was grinning and chatting with Marilyn like everything was already decided. Harry held out a packet of Park Drive to Angela and she took one. He lit her cigarette and then his own.

Angela smiled at Harry. ‘Why Bobby Q?’ she said.

‘On account of the darts,’ Harry said. ‘He puts Q up on the scoreboard, from his surname, because there isnay any other Qs.’

Angela tried to think of something else to ask him. She loved his accent. She wanted to listen to him speak.

‘Bobby’s driving to Skeg next Sunday and says there’s space for us in his motor car,’ Marilyn said. She winked at Angela, who stared back and tipped her glass a little bit too quickly. She coughed and spluttered.

Harry patted her softly on her back. ‘That one got a bone in it?’ he said, making her laugh and cough some more.

‘Bobby’s from Ireland,’ Marilyn said.

‘Originally,’ he said. ‘Well, I were born there.’ He had a Nottingham accent now.

‘Like my da and, well, like, erm, lots of other people I know,’ Angela said. She sounded like she’d swallowed as many words as she’d spoken. She took a drink, like she was washing something down. Marilyn and Bobby had started up their own conversation again, giggling with heads close together, and Angela watched as her sister slipped from her chair and on to Bobby’s knee.

‘Your da and other people?’ Harry said, amused.

‘Yes,’ Angela said. She looked past Harry, over his shoulder, scanning the room.

Harry turned his head to follow Angela’s gaze. Quickly, whilst he was looking away, she pushed her hand into the pocket of her minidress and slipped off her wedding ring. She took a deep swallow as he turned back towards her.

‘Someone ye looking for?’ Harry said, turning back.

Angela shook her head and forced a smile. ‘You’re from Scotland,’ she said.

Harry laughed, showing all his teeth. ‘No getting anything past ye, is there, eh?’ He took a big swig of his drink, still smiling broadly. ‘Glasgow,’ he told her, although it sounded like a struggle for him to pronounce the w. ‘You been?’

Angela shook her head. ‘We went caravanning up to the Lake District once. That’s as far as I’ve been. But my da told me Scotland was very beautiful. Not as nice as Ireland, though, he’d always say.’

‘I’ll raise a glass to that,’ Harry said. ‘To Ireland and its many beauties.’ He winked at Angela, and softly placed his hand on the space between her shoulders, lightly touching her back. She could feel the heat of his fingers against her bare skin.

‘Oh, you charmer, you,’ she said, but she raised her glass.

‘So, are you courting?’ he said. ‘Nice wee lassie like yoursel. I’d have thought the boys were queuing up.’

Angela shook her head. Her eyes were wide and panicked.

‘Naybody important, eh?’ Harry said, as if he were deciding it.

Angela didn’t correct him. A flush rose from the pale skin at the base of her neck and into her cheeks. And then Bobby kissed Marilyn, and Harry turned towards Angela, grinning. Angela took a last drag from the cigarette and stood up, stubbing it out into the ashtray. Her legs were shaky as she walked towards the back of the pub.

The toilets at the Loggerheads were the other side of a backyard. Angela went into the ladies’, pushing the door hard so that it rattled on its hinges. The sounds of people having fun were muffled and far away. She locked herself in a cubicle. She put the toilet seat down and sat on it, her head in her hands. They were just having a drink and a chat with Harry and Bobby. Marilyn could do what she wanted but Angela didn’t have to join in with any shenanigans.

Opening the door, she went over to the sink. She splashed cold water on to her face, rubbed it into her cheeks. She’d had too much to drink. It was all right for Marilyn; she was more used to this kind of thing.

Angela glanced up into the mirror and caught her own eyes. Then Jack’s behind her. He was standing so close she could feel his breath against her neck and smell the alcohol. She turned towards him.

‘You’ve been following me,’ she said.

‘So?’ he said. ‘You’re my wife, supposed to be. I have a right to know what you’re on with.’ His voice was low.

‘Leave me alone, Jack.’

Angela tried to duck past Jack but he grabbed hold of her dress. A seam ripped as he yanked her hard towards him. She struggled away from him and managed to get out through the door and into the yard. She was breathing hard and fast. Then she pulled away from him again and her wedding ring flew out of her pocket. They both stared as it bounced across the yard, making musical sounds as it hit one stone, then the next.

‘Bitch!’ Jack shouted. He flung himself at Angela and wrapped both of his arms around her middle, jerking her back towards him. She screamed; loudly. Then he shoved her, throwing her with some force into the back wall of the pub. She was winded and struggling for breath. She managed to stand up and he pushed her to the floor again. Then he picked her up, grabbing her by the collar of her dress and pressing her into the wall.

Jack pulled Angela towards him and then thrust her hard into the wall again. Her eyes watered.

‘What the bleddy hell do you think you’re playing at?’ he said, spitting the words into her face.

Angela turned her head away from Jack. She was crying, letting out pathetic little moans begging him to stop, please. ‘Nowt’s going off. I don’t even know them blokes.’ She could smell his breath, sour from the drink.

‘Exactly,’ Jack said. ‘My mam always said you was a wrong ‘un.’ He brought his face close. His eyes were narrow and menacing and his teeth were gritted. His mouth made a sharp line, the same as the time he’d bitten her, right on the cheek. ‘Sitting in the pub with fellers you don’t know. Sitting there, carrying on, in clothes like them.’ He nodded down at the minidress.

‘Hey you!’ The voice had an authority about it as it carried across the yard. That Scottish accent again. Harry. ‘See you with the broken nose.’