Everything Will Be All Right E-Book

Constance Emmett

• Herausgeber: Next Chapter
• Kategorie: Gesellschafts- und Liebesromane
• Sprache: Englisch

Veröffentlichungsjahr: 2022

Beschreibung

Splintered by emigration, World War Two and long-kept secrets, the Prestons are a family grappling with the past and dislocation.

Belfast, 1941. Meg Preston’s seventeen-year-old nephew Robert Henderson is planning to enlist in the Royal Navy, both to escape his smothering parents and the dawning knowledge that he is gay. Meanwhile, Meg and her partner Lillian Watson escape the bombing of Belfast to the Causeway Coast of Northern Ireland.

Years later, the post mid-century sectarian violence, known as The Troubles, erupts. Throughout their lives, members of the Preston family are split into strongly supporting one another, or barely holding together. Facing the misogynistic mores of their time, can they find the strength to reunite?

Enduring the stresses of intimate relationships and global catastrophes, but thriving due to the relief found in community both inside and outside of the family, the Prestons' story is one that resonates during our own, stressful times as well.

Leseprobe

EVERYTHING WILL BE ALL RIGHT

FINDING THEIR WAY HOME BOOK 2

CONSTANCE EMMETT

CONTENTS

1. Firestorm—May 1941

2. Escape— May 1941

3. Sojourn’s End—August 1941

4. The New World—Christmas Week 1941

5. New York

6. The Official Secrets Act—February 1942

7. Liberty—May 1944

8. Adrift—May-June 1944

9. Rescued—August 1944

10. The Furies—August 1944

11. Four Winds—Autumn 1944

12. The Season When To Come And When To Go—Autumn 1944

13. Demobbed—September 1946

14. The Toasts Of New York—December 1957

15. Just Us—December 1968

16. Party Turn—December 1968

17. Burntollet Bridge—4 January 1969

18. Everything Will Be All Right—Winter-Spring 1969

19. Home Again, Home Again, Jiggity Jog—July 1969

20. Welcome Home, Missus—July 1969

About the Author

Acknowledgments

Copyright (C) 2019 Constance Emmett

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Published 2021 by Next Chapter

Edited by Elizabeth N. Love

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This book is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents are the product of the author’s imagination and are used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual events, locales, or persons, living or dead, is purely coincidental.

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For Agnes, my grandmother— In the undiscovered country, standing in a Belfast street

FIRESTORM—MAY 1941

BELFAST NORTHERN IRELAND

The sirens woke them at one o’clock in the morning. Seventeen-year-old Robert Henderson threw the bedclothes off, trapping the sleeping cat. His father barked from the doorway, “Close them curtains.” The cat scrambled out from under and dashed between his feet.

The searchlights rotated through the window and transformed the little room where Robert had slept his entire life into an unfamiliar stage set. Briefly, the light picked out the large wall map of the North Atlantic bristling with the colored pins Robert attached following news reports of sea battles—white for Canadian, red for British, blue for American, yellow for rest of world, and black for German.

Frantically pulling the window closed and the blackout curtains to, Robert whipped around and knocked two ship models off the shelf and onto the crystal wireless set he’d just finished building. Listening to them clatter, he muttered, “Ach,” picked up his waiting pile of clothes and school bag, jammed his feet into trainers and rushed into the hall.

“Florrie!” called his father as he clumped downstairs in his untied leather-soled oxfords, the torchlight bobbing. Entangled with the panicked cat at the bottom, he shouted, “Bloody cat!”

Juggling a handbag and too many clothes, his mother shepherded Robert ahead of her to the top of the stairs.

After the bombing raid in April, the three Hendersons built tidy piles of clothes each night before bed, with shoes to be stepped into without bending and tying. Florrie’s younger sister, Meg Preston, had advised her family to form this habit, based on her Women’s Volunteer Service experience of having to leave the house at a moment’s notice.

Carrying his folded school uniform and book bag, Robert took the stairs two at a time down to his waiting father. He had taken Aunt Meg’s advice a step further and after a nightly bath, donned clean pants, vest and socks beneath a dark blue school tracksuit worn to bed each night. If the worst happened, he did not want to be found undressed in the street.

Picking her way carefully down the stairs, his mother shouted over the loud drone of airplanes, “We said we’d go down shelter last time, didn’t we? Ralph!”

Standing at the bottom of the stairs and signaling them on, his father yelled, “Too late. They’re here. Quick! Quick!” He gestured with urgency and the family ducked under the stairs and onto the mattress placed there for comfort during the raids.

His mother tossed her handbag and clothes to the back of the little space, wartime storage for their photos in albums and frames, and important documents. She squeezed in next to her seated son and her husband followed.

Robert watched the cat race from the kitchen to the parlor and back, skittering on the hardwood floor.

As fast as the drone of the planes intensified, sounding like a swarm of giant bees hovering over them, the booms and crashes of dropping bombs overwhelmed all sound. The ceilings and walls of the small house on Great Northern Street vibrated, hurting Robert’s ears. Felt through the floor and mattress, the house shook at its foundation. The hall light flickered and died.

He felt his mother’s arm go around his back and, glancing left, watched her other arm curl around her husband’s shoulders. Robert pulled away from her embrace.

At the first close blast, Robert curled forward to touch his forehead to his raised knees. Squeezing his eyes shut, he cupped his palms tightly over his ears and repeated the Lord’s Prayer—waiting and praying for the end.

His mother pulled his huddled form to her and wrapped her arms around his head.

The house stopped shaking. Robert pushed out of Florrie’s arms and sat up, listening. The crashes, booms and intense drone moved off, faded, and, finally, stopped. The rain of plaster dust lessened, becoming a thick mist swirling in the air.

Nobody spoke until the continuous all clear siren finished, a wait of two minutes, a lifetime’s wait.

Ralph crawled out first. “Stay here. I want to check the upstairs.”

“Ralph!”

“I’m all right, Florrie.” As he walked back down the hall, the light of his torch twirled, picking out items on the coat rack, and the framed and embroidered “Peace be to this house, Luke 10:5” on the wall above the umbrella stand.

Robert listened to his father’s hesitant tread moving up the stairs.

The hall light came on again just as the telephone rang. Robert and his mother looked at one another. “I’ll go,” said Robert.

She swung her arm out like a railway crossing barrier in front of his chest. “No.”

Crawling out awkwardly, her broad backside blocked his view as she struggled to get to her feet. She walked to the kitchen, one hand holding the wall. He watched her hesitate before peeking inside, then entering.

Robert clambered out and was on his feet in the one smooth motion of youth. He walked into the kitchen and glanced at the old pendulum clock ticking on the fireplace mantel. It was not even half one in the morning.

Holding the heavy Bakelite receiver, Florrie said, “Aye, we’re fine, I think, thank God. Ralph’s checking the house now. Bout ye? Oh, aye? They were above us? How do you know? What? Have you heard from Meg or David? Hello? Lizzie, are you there? Hello? Hello? Lizzie? Operator?” After listening for a moment, then pushing at the handset cradle buttons impatiently, she said, “The line’s gone dead—Lizzie and Tom are worried about their boys.” Looking down quickly, she tightened the belt of her pink chenille bathrobe.

Ralph came into the room. “Upstairs looks all right, but we’ll have to check the outside in the daylight. The searchlights are still going. I thought I heard the ack-acks.” He sat down at the table.

“At least we had searchlights and ack-acks this time,” said Florrie. She turned, filled the kettle at the old Belfast sink and placed it on the hob. “Lizzie thinks the RAF were here this time. She and Tom worried their sons were flying overhead in their Hurricanes, fighting the Germans.”

“I thought Aunt Lizzie didn’t know where they were stationed even,” said Robert.

Florrie shrugged. “I don’t know, but it must be very worrying for your aunt and uncle having their sons up in airplanes.” Pointing at him, she said, “Don’t you think of joining the RAF!”

The cat jumped onto Robert’s lap, startling him. She settled and began purring. “Beatrice! Poor wee thing.” Her claws began to knead gently into his tracksuit.

“Oh, aye? She nearly broke my neck for me.” Ralph leaned over and petted her tortoiseshell head, gently stroking down the fur that stood up. “There, there, wee puss.”

Florrie began to wipe the table clean. “Ach. There’s this muck over everything again to clean.” She threw the cloth down and sat down, her hand balled in a fist and held to her mouth. Tears ran down her face, making rivulets in the patina of dust on her cheeks.

“Me eyes burn, this grit’s everywhere and it smells awful, like, like rotten eggs. I can’t stand any more of this, I really can’t.” She gave over to crying into her open hands.

“I’ll help c-clean, Mum, don’t c-cry.”

She pulled her hands away to say, “What if next time they drop a bomb on us? We’re not safe here!”

His mother sobbed. Standing, Ralph bent down, put his arms around her and kissed her dust-covered hair, plaited down her back for bed. “Aye, that’s right, lass, you have a good cry. But the Germans are interested in the dockyards and the ships, not us. Don’t worry, love. And we’ll work together like last time. We’ll start upstairs. I’ll mop the ceilings and walls, you dust the furniture and Robert will Hoover behind us, then we’ll come downstairs and do the same. We’ll wash all the bedding as a right little team. It’ll take no time. Now, I’ll make sandwiches and the tea. You rest yourself, love.” Opening the cupboard, he took out a bottle of whiskey and poured three small glasses. Without comment, he placed one in front of his wife and one at his son’s place. “First, get that into you and don’t argue.”

“He’s too young to drink this.”

“He’s not. Sip it now, Robert—don’t gulp it. It’s what needed. I’m shaking like a leaf—I don’t know about you two.” Contrary to his own advice, Ralph downed his whiskey, poured another, and took the loaf out of the breadbox.

Wiping her eyes with a handkerchief, Florrie said, “How many more times before we’re all killed? We had them fellas with their wee bombs in the ‘20s, but they never bothered us here. But now we’ve got the Luftwaffe over our heads…what’s to become of us, Ralph? Should we leave the city?”

A chill rippled along Robert’s spine. He took a sip and felt warmth and calm spread into his chest as he watched his father slice bread. From the shiny top of his bald head to the tips of his highly polished brown oxfords, Ralph Henderson was a beacon of calm and safety when something threatened his family.

“Ach, we’ll be fine. The RAF will sort them, you’ll see. Don’t fret, lass.”

The cat’s purr grew louder as the house settled into quiet.

“It’s amazing the electrics are back on,” Robert said, “but I’ll sort lamps and candles, in case.”

Looking at him, Ralph said, “Go on, then. Good lad.”

Belfast still smelled of the burning fires when the wind blew from the east and north, but the yellow miasma smelling and tasting of rotten eggs had dissipated. Robert ran home from the tram call on the Lisburn Road, a few blocks from the house. He wished it could have been a longer run, one without flapping bags to carry—a loose, free, long-distance run. He loved that sort of run along the Lagan River or along the Cave Hill ridge down into the city, the runs he took with the cross-country team at school. Shutting the front door, he stood in the hall catching his breath and listening to the sound of women speaking quietly. Mum. Aunt Lizzie. Aunt Meg. He hung his book and gym bags over the bannister and walked into the kitchen.

His mother and two aunts sat around the table, the tea things crowding the middle. Meg, the palest and thinnest sister even in normal times, looked drawn and tired, the purple circles under her eyes prominent. His mother was flushed, her dark hair tied up and covered in the wrap she wore when cleaning. Even though he saw Lizzie nearly every day, she looked older and thinner, a shrunken version of his buxom mother.

“Hiya.”

Meg looked up at him and smiled. “Hiya, Curly. Grand to see you. I think you’ve grown since we last met—have you?”

“Here, have some tea, love,” said his mother, pouring a cup, “and some sandwiches. Lizzie brought cake.”

He sat down, used to the fuss made over him.

“Don’t get your hopes up, mind. Not much of a cake with no butter and a thimble of sugar. I was saying I think wee Tom and Will flew Hurricanes over us the other night, protecting us from a worse bombing,” said Lizzie, smiling and nodding.

“Hmmm?” he answered, pulling the knot in his striped tie loose.

Florrie said, “He has grown, just recently. Boys don’t stop for years, do they? But Ralph is tall, and I am, so…would you just look at the jacket sleeves crawling up his arms?”

Flushing under the women’s scrutiny, he pulled his arms off the table.

His mother looked at him a moment longer before continuing, “You were very late getting home. Is term over?”

Robert cursed himself for blushing. Ignoring her first comment, he answered, “I sat my last maths exam, my last exam period. At morning chapel they told us the summer term would continue, but by the end of the day, they called us back and cancelled the rest of term for the upper sixth. They’ll post a letter to you and Da.” He blew on his tea before sipping. “I’m lucky I could sit my last exam. I cleared out my cupboard, so I’m graduated.”

His mother reached out to touch him, but he shied away a half-inch, enough that she noticed. She continued to look at him, her eyes narrowed.

“S-sorry I was late, Mum.” His color deepened thinking about why he was late. After school was dismissed, he’d gone to the Royal Navy recruiting office in Belfast City Hall. After briefly waiting on a line consisting of two other bombing-inspired enlistees, he’d spoken to a recruiter who’d assured him he would be eligible to enlist with proof that he was seventeen years old with a passing school certificate.

The recruiter had lit a cigarette and said, “With no conscription in Northern Ireland and most men in this bloody country standing around with their hands in their pockets, even after these raids, we need every man we can find to protect King and country.”

Robert had left the office realizing that when his school certificate arrived, he really could enlist, an action he’d spent many hours thinking about. As though in a trance, he’d walked out through the portico of the massive Victorian building to brilliant green grounds.

To reach his tram call across the square, he had to pass through a gauntlet of boys his age, lounging on the lawn and hurling vulgar epithets at the passersby. Turning their attention to Robert, several made kissing noises, while another offered to share a part of his anatomy, and the rest laughed. He’d hurried away, face burning.

Meg’s hearty “Congratulations!” brought him back to the present.

“Our wee Tom and Will took the A levels in maths and physics, and passed the RAF exams,” said Lizzie, chin up.

“And what is it you think he’s done? He’s only just taken A levels in maths and physics, and he’s taken his general exams in history and Latin, too,” said his mother too loudly, her flush deepening. “He’s too young to join up and I hope he never does!”

Feeling a drop of his mother’s rage, Robert watched Lizzie and thought, Whenever I was forced to spend time in my aunt and uncle’s house,weefeckin’Tom and Will pinched and punched me, sat on me till I couldn’t breathe, and like those ones today, called me a faggot. Only, they made fun of my stutter while they were at it. “R-r-robert’s a f-f-faggot!” I’d stagger out of their lair after those sessions like a tormented animal, but I never complained. RAF heroes are they now? I just may show them, alright.

As Lizzie summoned her response, chest rising, Meg quickly interrupted, “Listen, I’ve got to get back. We’ve to return the canteen truck to the depot this afternoon. Tomorrow morning we’ll buy the train tickets. Pray the trains are running. So, what do you say? Will you come? How many tickets am I buying?”

Pulling her annoyed gaze from Lizzie’s and glancing quickly at Robert, his mother turned to Meg and said, “I have to talk to Ralph, but I’d like to go, take Robert to safety, if just for a wee while. I’m sure Ralph will agree, but I don’t know he’ll come. He just this minute got a steady job again.” Florrie shook her head. “The daft man wouldn’t leave the cat, to boot.”

“The cat could come with you,” said Meg. “We wouldn’t mind.”

Lizzie fidgeted, folding and refolding her napkin. “I, I want to stay, in case the boys get leave and come home. I wouldn’t want to miss them. It wouldn’t be nice.”

“I’m sure the boys would wish you and Tom safely out of Belfast,” said Meg.

Lizzie, her eyes darting from Meg to Florrie said, “Anyway, Tom wouldn’t leave the business, of that I’m sure. He’s in demand now the electrics are down so often. Not that the city has paid him since these raids began.”

“Go? Go where?” asked Robert.

“To Portstewart, to Lillian’s aunt’s cottages, you remember the place,” said Meg.

“Oh, aye. It’s grand up there. To stay?” asked Robert.

“For the foreseeable, yes. It’s not safe here,” said Meg.

His mother asked, “Who’s going then?”

“Lillian, Beryl, her son Albert, and Mildred Greer. We’re packing all the food we can manage and hope we don’t get caught by the ration men!” Meg laughed. To Robert, she said, “Albert will be good company for you. We’re bringing the two dogs—Albert’s wee Bobby and Gordie, the beautiful Irish Setter Martin found on the day…the day he died. David’s out clearing rubble for long stretches, so he can’t care for a dog properly, asked us to take him.”

“Oh, yes. Florrie told us about Mildred Greer’s mother being killed. Terrible. And she’s living with you, now, is she?” asked Lizzie. “And the father?”

Teacup halfway to her mouth, Meg’s brow furrowed. “Mildred’s father? Long dead.”

“No. Albert’s…you mentioned Beryl, but. What’s the surname?”

“MacKinley. Albert’s father was at the shipyard during the Easter Tuesday raid. He’s not been found.”

“My good Lord,” said Lizzie, shaking her head.

“Anyway, the Greer house was flattened along with Beryl’s next door—the Watson’s, the house where Lillian and Beryl grew up—their mother had already moved up to Portstewart to live with her sister, thank heavens. Lillian’s aunt is the one who owns the vacation cottages, Mrs. Kerr, she is. She’s also the postmistress and runs a wee store with it. Lillian and Mildred hope to keep the typewriting business going in Portstewart.”

Lizzie nodded and said, “Watson, yes. I remember both Lillian’s mother and Mrs. Greer well, from church. Mildred’s my age, a wee bit older maybe?” She broke off a small piece of cake and ate it.

“About.”

“But what about David? Will he go back to Dublin? We’ve seen little of him since he came home,” said Florrie, frowning.

Shaking her head, Meg said, “No, I’ve not been able to talk him into coming to Portstewart. His friend Martin died and—because Martin died, David wants to stay here and continue clearing rubble, try to find survivors, alive.” Her brow creased.

“That was a terrible thing, eh?” asked Lizzie.

“What happened?” asked Robert.

Meg slumped slightly, “It was up on the Antrim Road. All the houses had been badly damaged—most demolished. Martin was digging in the rubble, with your Uncle David and many other men. Martin fell into some sort of hole. We tried to get him out, the soldiers tried too, but he was killed.” Meg straightened her back. “So now you know why we’re leaving. I hope you and your mum will come, your da, too.”

“Robert, run over to Lizzie’s. Your father’s helping Tom fix some damage to the house. Ask him about going while Meg is here,” said Florrie.

“Alright.” Robert stood up, gulped the rest of the tea and pushed a sandwich end into his mouth.

“I’ll leave with you, Robert. I must get back to number 34,” said Meg, standing. The belt cinched around the waist of her dark green Women’s Voluntary Service overall revealed how thin she’d become. “Ring me later, Florrie, if the line’s back on…I tried ringing New York earlier to let Annie know we were alive, but the line was down.” She looked at Robert. “Will you run over to ours if the line’s down later? Let us know how many tickets to buy?”

His mouth full, he nodded vigorously and mumbled, “Mmmph.”

“You tried to ring New York? But trunk calls are so dear…Annie’s barely written us since they left ten years ago,” said Florrie, looking at Lizzie under her eyelashes, who murmured her agreement.

Meg pursed her lips before answering, “Nor to me, but I thought our sister might be worried after news of the blitz. It must be in their newspapers. Jinny would have let Annie know we were alive, you know she would’ve.”

Florrie looked down. Lizzie folded her arms and sniffed.

Meg looked quickly at Robert. “I must be off, so. Lizzie, I hope you reconsider. Hundreds, thousands have walked out of the city, some in their nightclothes so desperate to flee—Lily and I see them. We don’t know how many more of these raids we’ll have—two in as many days and getting worse. We mightn’t survive the next one.”

ESCAPE— MAY 1941

PORTSTEWART, NORTHERN IRELAND

Leaning on a shovel, defeated by a section of scrubby grass, Meg spun around at the man’s greeting. Smiling, she said, “Frank MacDermott! I’m told we’re neighbors, but where’ve you been since we arrived? It’s been two weeks!” She pulled off a work glove and they shook hands.

Dressed in baggie trousers cinched tight by a thick belt, a soft, collarless shirt under a patched jacket, the wiry man had grown thin in his sixties. His blue eyes bright in a sunburned face under a flat cap, the maternal uncle of Mary O’Neill—lover and betrayer of the young Meg—said, “Just home from fishing the Lower Bann. Bagged duck and hare while there, too. Are you here for good?” His sonorous voice belied his weedy appearance.

“We don’t know. Lillian and I decided to leave before the bombs got us—bringing our sisters and nephews, and our friend Mildred Greer. Maybe you know, but Mrs. Kerr is Lillian’s aunt and Mrs. Watson her mum. Lucky for us Mrs. Kerr let us this cabin. We’re cozy, like sardines, and with two dogs in the mix, but safe. I’d like to try and put in a garden, since the rationing’s getting worse…sorry, I’m blathering. But you’re living in a cottage here, is that right?”

Frank pushed his cap back to reveal a pale forehead leading to grey curls. “Aye, the Carstairs house was shelled a few times—too close for my taste. Mrs. Kerr and Mrs. Watson needed help and everyone was nervy about invasion, so the ladies hired me and let me the wee cottage up the hill from yours. You were lucky—the rest of the cottages were already let to others who’d fled Belfast. Anyway, I could help you dig and plant a garden. It looks like there once was a garden ‘round the back of yours. It gets the most sun on the place, whenever it deigns to come out. I’d dig it.” Frank scanned the misty edge of the property, the views of sea and mountain beyond lost in fog.

“This fog has been in place since we arrived. Does it never lift? But if you would show us what to do, we’ll dig it. Lillian and her sister Beryl have gone up to Londonderry to try to find jobs today, but there’s three of us women here now and we have two strong boys to help.”

“Grand. I’ll get me shovels and pitchforks. Give me five minutes. I have good dung for ye, but I’ll have to ask a pal for more. Can you pay him? It’ll be dirt cheap.” Frank grinned.

Laughing, Meg said, “I’ll take all the help I can get. We’re city people, so.”

“You’re alright. I can help with the rationing, too, you know, if you’re willing to…bend a wee bit. I help Mrs. Kerr and Mrs. Watson, fine Protestant ladies like yourself…it’s the way for us all to get on, and it helps with me rent here. Mostly it’s me chickens, or me fishing, or trading with farmers, nothing like the black marketeers in them government films at the cinema.”

“Aye, we’re willing to bend. We’re four women, two dogs and the two boys eat a lot.” She rolled her eyes.

“Is that lovely Irish Setter yours? He’s a beauty. I like the look of the wee black and ginger terrier, although he’s threatened to nip me ankle, but that’s what wee dogs are like.” He laughed.

“Were they bothering you in your yard? I’m sorry.”

“They’re fine. They can’t worry the chickens much—the girls have a nice high house with perches and a closed fence all around, so. Alright, so, we’ll chat about what I can get and what it costs another time.” He looked at her for a moment. “You look just the same.”

“Oh, go on with ye. But you do.”

His blue eyes twinkled. “The palaver on ye!” But his eyes lost their twinkle as he asked, “Remember the night we held off the IRA, come to burn the house and kill Mr. Carstairs, the poor man already murdered and buried in yon Protestant churchyard? Mother of God.”

“Aye, I do, and I remember his murder in Belfast, caught in the crossfire between police and IRA, so they said. 1922…a terrible year.” She sighed. “But you held them off here. I often think of it, wonder how we weren’t shot dead and say a prayer, thanking you for my life. Mary enjoyed every moment of it, but I was never so terrified…not until last month.”

“No need to worry about IRA here, not like those ones that night.” Lowering his voice, he added, “We’ve our own local branch and I spoke to the lads in ‘22, to the top man. We’ve never had trouble since. I hope we never do, but I know who to talk to, should all that start up again, being a good Catholic and inclined to the cause.” Frank was silent a moment before saying, “Listen, I’ll get this off me chest so there’s nothing hanging like, you know, in the air between us,” he took a deep breath, “about Mary, she’s never here now. She stays down in Dublin.”

Meg’s face colored. “It’s what she wanted.”

“Ach, Mary never knew what she wanted, and never wanted what she had. But them shares Carstairs left her? Most in woolen and clothing factories, now they’re making uniforms and parachutes. She’s doing well for herself, enjoying herself in Dublin.”

“Maybe,” said Meg, quietly.

Frank watched Meg for a moment before saying, “Aye, Mary’s happiness never lasted long afore she banjaxed it herself. God help her.”

Three hours later Albert and Robert were still digging under Frank’s baleful eye and spirited instructions. Taking a breather, Meg watched a mud-flecked Florrie concentrating on turning the dug area over with a pitchfork. In another section of the large rectangle being dug, Mildred alternated between digging, turning the soil and wiping her face with her white apron, now dirt streaked. A stocky figure in a floral dress, Mildred’s forehead was creased with concentration. Meg smiled as she watched her crinkly grey hair shake with her efforts, one oxford-clad shoe on the shovel top, one firmly on the ground.

Looking past them, Meg leant on her shovel handle and watched the fog lift from the sea.

“Look!” She pointed. As though a curtain had been lifted, the sea reappeared, as did hundreds of boats, small and large, like toys in a vast bathtub.

The two boys ran to the edge of the yard, the dogs bounding behind. The adults joined them and propped their tired arms on the fence top.

“Have you never seen them before?” asked Frank.

“We hear horns and bells, especially at night. But the fog has been so thick since we arrived…,” said Mildred, wiping her flushed face with a clean patch of the apron.

“They’ve been out there a long time now. Londonderry is the refueling port for the convoys crossing and back from Canada and America. Look there, boys, them big ones sailing east with all the wee ones around it? They’re merchant ships in convoy, with navy corvettes, Royal Navy or Canadian. They’ve made it across. And underneath them all, God knows how many U-boats lurking, following.”

Mildred hugged herself, her short arms barely reaching across her plump chest.

Florrie said, “Heavens, Mister, em, you’ve given me the shivers.”

“They daren’t torpedo them here, the Royal Navy mans the guns along the shore, and on patrol ships, they’ve got the depth charges for the U-boats, too. That’s a sound to hear, I’ll tell ye.”

Frank gestured to the boys and said, “All right, lads, back to work. Let’s give the ladies a wee rest.”

After parting the gap in the barbed wire, Albert held it open for Robert, and walked through after him.

Robert pointed to the skull-and-cross-boned signs warning of mines. “I thought you said we were going to a pond. Are we really allowed to swim here?”

Pointing down to the bowl of surf trapped by a keyhole-shaped rock formation, Albert said, “It’s the sea, but it’s called Herring Pond by the locals, since it’s nearly closed off from the rest of the shore. See? It looks like a pond. The army and navy put barbed wire along the entire length of shoreline, but they turn a blind eye to us having a swim here.”

Two men in rubber suits sat adjusting air tanks on the other side of the pond. “What are those fellas doing?”

“Practicing their diving. Herring Pond is a draw for divers since it’s deep and clear. You can see down to the bottom. Do you swim much?”

Robert leant forward and peered down. “At school—we learnt strokes in a pool.”

“When the tides are right, it’s very safe here.”

Looking unsure, Robert asked, “Are they right now?”

“Oh, yes. I’m an excellent swimmer, so don’t worry.”

Robert looked away, smirking. It’s official then, is it? He’s excellent at everything.The bicycle ride here was filled with the wonders of Albert.

Pulling his striped polo shirt over his head, Albert said, “Come in, Robert, it will feel good after all that digging and dunging.” He took his trousers off and stood in old red swimming trunks, faded in most places to a mottled dark pink. Grinning at Robert, he smoothed back his red-blond hair.

God, he’s a long drink of water, but he’s muscled, I’ll say that for him. Must be all that excellent swimming, eh?

“Alright. I’ve to put my t-trunks on.”

“Rightee-o. Here I go!” Looking over the edge of the rocks that captured a bit of the Atlantic, Albert jumped.

Robert could see him swimming underwater to the middle, where he erupted straight up in the air, his torso and head dripping. “Whoo!”

The divers laughed and one shouted, “Aye, cold enough to freeze thon bollocks off.”

Treading water and waving at him, Albert yelled, “Jump in, Robert!”

Before Robert pulled his trousers off, he looked around and, finding no women or girls about, quickly pulled his kex off, too. One foot and leg went into the swim trunks smoothly, the other foot caught in the inner netting, but he managed to keep his balance while pulling the foot through and the trunks up.

One diver yelled, “Hey up! Hang on, boy, your big dark lad is going to shrivel on ye!”

Tying the string of the trunks’ waistband tight around him, Robert muttered, “They’re k-killing themselves laughing—wish they would.”

Although Albert had jumped off the rocks without hesitation, the edge of the cliff gave Robert pause. He walked over to the ladder anchored in cement that led down into the water.

“Only lassies use them stairs, and we know well you’re no lass!” The divers now were red-faced and wheezing.

Albert swam over to the bottom of the ladder. “Jump when you get down farther. You can’t walk in, it’s too cold.”

Robert froze.

“It will grow back, we swear!” The fat jokester slapped his thick thighs encased in rubber while his skinny friend doubled over with mirth.

Albert pulled himself up onto the underwater steps. He was close enough to speak in a lower voice. “Those two won’t quit till you’re in—come down halfway, then jump.” Having delivered his advice, he retreated and swam back to the middle of the pond.

Robert climbed onto the ladder and began his descent, but once his feet hit the surf, he stopped. Stuck halfway and facing the rocks, he clung to the ladder as waves of frigid seawater doused him from feet to backside in swells.

In panic and agony, he let go of the ladder rails. Falling backwards, his back slapped hard on the water. Submerged, the icy realm and the sting of the flop were stunning. He opened his eyes and looked up to the clear blue sky. After a moment, Albert filled the view, diving to yank him up to the surface.

Up on the surface he gasped. Albert held onto to him. “Can you tread water?”

“Aye. Ow! My arm.”

Albert let go of him. As he’d been taught, Robert moved his arms and legs and to his surprise, he remained afloat.

From across the pond, “Here! That’ll sting later. Worse than a belly flop but easier on the lad.” More laughter.

Albert turned around and said, “Please, Mister, would you give us a chance?” Something in Albert’s voice must have contained the perfect mix of authority and respect, because the fat jokester diver waved and yelled, “Aye, you’re alright.”

Turning back to Robert, Albert said, “We can go back up, if you like.”

“After all that? You must be joking me. Anyway, the water feels good now. I’ll stay a wee while. At least until those devils either drown or leave.”

Smiling, Albert said, “Good on ye. But keep moving or you’ll freeze.”

They’d ridden their bicycles down to the harbor from Herring Pond and left them propped against the pub’s whitewashed wall. Half-pints in hand, they wandered back outside and sat at a wooden table on the water’s edge.

“Thanks again for getting those two to finally shut it.”

“School is good for certain things and one is learning how to tell people to shut it so they do—including bullies and even teachers.”

“And that works at The Hall? You must be rich to afford that place.”

Albert laughed and said, “Sometimes. Not at all rich. Scholarship dayboy and complete swot, at your service. Swim team, rowing team, drama society, science club. Blue and gold, rah, rah, rah——I do it all. Shameless. Since I’m a dayboy and a scholarship boy, son of a shipyard man, that puts me on the bottom rung for the rich rugby players at school. Puts me in my place.” He arched a blond eyebrow and laughed again. “Somebody has to…what about you?”

“Castlereagh College. I just got my leaving cert—I think I have, I mean. I’ve not gotten the results yet, but I’m fairly certain.”

“Castlereagh! Are you rich?”

“Rich! No. My da’s boss is an alum and he put in a good word after I qualified for the entrance exam. I only received a partial scholarship, but enough so I could attend, because my father could afford the rest. But I know what you mean about being a dayboy and a scholarship boy.”

“What’s your father do?”

“He was a candy salesman. Did well for himself, not to mention the candy he brought home for us, but along came the war. No sweets available, no candy salesmen. He works a stall with some pals at St. George Market now, selling whatever they can get their hands on. Bread one day, hats the next. It’s fun to visit him there—one of his friends works the Ulster fry-up van. Not much of a fry-up these days—he can only make farl and baps—no sausage, no bacon, no tomatoes, sometimes eggs. Anyway, I’m lucky this was my last term because he’s out of money—I wouldn’t have been able to go on with school.” Robert took a sip of ale. “Your father, he was k-killed in a raid? Meg said.”

Albert took a swig and licked his upper lip. “Aye. He was a fitter at Harland and Wolff. We think he was killed during the Easter raid.”

Robert watched Albert’s tongue flick over the golden stubble on his upper lip.

“He was on shift, but never came home after the raid. He’s not been found and so his death has not been confirmed. My mum’s waiting for restitution from H&W or the government, but she says it may take years. We lost our house, too. The last two years I won the top H&W scholarship for employees’ children—hence The Hall.”

“Sorry about your father,” said Robert.

Albert shrugged. “Thanks. He was a mild man, never one to call attention to himself. But he may have seemed so in comparison to my mother, who’s loud and raring to go. Thankfully I had Lillian and my grandmother to show me there was a middle path in life. I wish I’d known my grandfather better, longer, but he died when I was a kid. He was a fine open ocean swimmer. Lillian and I plan to train for a relay swim with a team, once the war is over. It will take a lot of training. From down there,” he pointed to the strand, “across to Inishowen.”

Robert looked at the wide expanse of water indicated and shuddered. “Can you really swim that far?”

“We’ll see, but we hope to. My grandfather did it. Anyway, the raids were terrible, but I needn’t tell you that. My cat disappeared in that raid, too. Good old Red, our ginger tom. We never found him either. Before we came up here, I’d gone back to our street a few times a week to look for him. Our neighbors were all gone, so there was nobody to ask about old Red.” He drank some ale. “Maybe he’s alive and somebody took him in.” Albert cleared his throat. “Mum survived, so did wee Bobby and so did I. Mildred too, of course, but not her mum—nice old lady, Mrs. Greer. Ach, drink up before I cry in my ale. We have time for another before we’re due back for tea. How’s your back? Your arm?”

“Sore.” Grinning at Albert, Robert raised his glass and said, “Cheers!”

“Cheers! What did you get your leaving cert in?”

“Maths, physics—took A-levels in those—and the leaving exams in history and Latin. I only did the one sport, cross-country. I like to run.”

“Maths and physics! I’m impressed, and with the history and Latin, too, not to mention the running. Listen, I can be an awful arse, Robert, but put up with me a wee while and you’ll see I have a more, a more…”

“Excellent side?”

Albert laughed and said, “Bastard! Aye, I’m owed that one.”

“Ah well, I’ll give over…you said you wanted to be a scientist—what k-kind?”

“I want to be a biologist. I’m studying biology and chemistry—I’ll sit the A-levels in them. I have to study maths and physics, but I’m only alright with them—no A-levels there, I don’t think, but I’ll swot for them and see. I’ll sit A-levels in art history, maybe. I was going for German, but I’ve stopped studying it for obvious reasons. I love Latin, but I’ll sit the leaving exam, not the A-levels. Did you like Latin? I love having the words in my mouth, don’t you? Habemus clara futura! It makes me happy just to say them—felix tam clama.”

Robert nearly snorted the ale he’d just sipped. “Ha! But you should stick with German. Somebody needs to understand what the bastards are up to. What will happen next term for you?”

“I’m talking with my mum and Aunt Lillian about finding a school up here. Coleraine College is a possibility. If they get the good jobs they hope to with the Yanks in Londonderry, I’ll apply for a scholarship to make up the rest. I don’t want to miss too much time off school.”

Robert cocked his head. “There are Yanks in Londonderry? Doing what?”

“It’s hush-hush, nobody’s supposed to know. Helping with the war effort.”

“I didn’t know. How do you know?”

“Somehow my mum and aunt knew about the jobs on offer and who was offering.”

“I knew about the Royal Navy station and refueling depot, but not the Yanks—them being here can only help us.” He looked out over the water for a moment. “Are you really only fifteen? You seem older. I’d have thought you were seventeen or eighteen.”

Laughing, Albert said, “I’m nearly sixteen. Anyway, it’s my size, I think. It’s saved me from the school rugby players and most adults have to look up at me so they treat me as though I’m older. I sound older because I have confidence.” He grinned. “It’s freeing not being treated like a kid.” He shrugged and smiled. “Anyway, the H&W scholarship won’t come through next term, it’s all government contracts for them now so their money is literally not their own. I want to go to university, so the next school has to be something decent, but it can’t be expensive, nothing like The Hall. That’s alright—I hated the bloody place. What about you? What are you going to do?”

“Not university. There’s no money for it and I’m up to here with school. I like understanding how things work—something technical would suit me. But as a matter of fact, I was thinking of joining the navy.”

Albert’s mouth fell open a little. “The navy! But you’ll be sent into the North Atlantic or somewhere else extremely dangerous.”

“Probably.” Robert pulled his shoulders back. “I’m considering it, seriously, enough so that I talked to a recruiter. Not a word to anyone. Promise?”

“Aye, I promise. But why do you want to join?”

After Robert drained his glass, he said, “If you want to know the truth, I want to get away from my p-parents and out into the world, learn what the navy can teach me. I need a wee bit of t-toughening, too. I’ve no job, no training, no money of my own, so.”

Tracing the rim of the ale mug with a long index finger, Albert said, “Just when I thought we might be great pals, you’re leaving. I’m astonished you want to join the navy. Aren’t you afraid?”

“I will be, I’m sure. I’ve never gone anywhere on me own. I won’t tell my parents ahead of joining, I don’t know about my father, but my mother will go mad—she b-babies me, and it’ll be better if it’s done and dusted.”

“Will you tell me? Ahead of time?”

“I will. I’m not sure about this, mind, not entirely. My round.” He collected the two glasses. “In the meantime, would you help me with swimming? I don’t want to join the navy only to drown.”

Albert smiled. “Of course—will you help me with maths and physics swotting?”

“It sounds like a good summer, after all,” said Robert, standing.

“Only if you don’t run away to join the navy, so don’t.”

Robert grinned, turned, and walked toward the pub. He heard Albert’s shouted, “Crisps!” and waved to recognize the request.

SOJOURN’S END—AUGUST 1941

PORTSTEWART

“We’re off then,” said Albert, standing in the kitchen doorway. “My college tour is scheduled for three o’clock—we’ll do the messages first.”

Lillian turned from the Belfast sink, a dripping plate in hand. She looked Albert up and down, then over at Meg, who nodded. “Hang on a minute.” Lillian put the dish in the drainer and after wiping her hands on a tea towel, squeezed past Albert.

“Where is she going?”

“You’ll see,” said Meg, kneading bread dough at the counter.

Robert joined Albert in the doorway. “We’ll miss the train if you keep hanging about.”

Behind them, Lillian said, “Coming through.” She carried an old tin lockbox and put it on the table. Opening the lid, she counted out notes and coins, and brought out his clothing ration book. “You can’t spend your life in school uniforms. We’ll have to sort you for winter another time, but today, buy yourself jacket and trousers, mufti, in addition to the school clothes, and good shoes, too. Make sure nothing is tight or only just the right length—the fit should offer a little extra…”

Meg laughed and said, “Time.”

Lillian said, “Aye. And buy whatever else you need. Socks and em…” she waved her hand, “underthings.”

“But I’ve to pay for the school uniform today—the whole kit, mind—jacket, trousers, tie, shirts, athletic gear—you’ve seen the list.”

“Aye, I know. This should be enough for everything.” She handed the ration book and cash to him, turned back to the box, and fished out more coins. Stuffing them into his hand, she added, “Take yourselves for lunch. There used to be very nice places for lunch along the river in Coleraine.”

Meg asked, “And what about you, Robert—do you need anything. New shoes?” Dressed in jacket and trousers only slightly too short in the arms and legs, Robert said, “No, Aunt, thank you. I’ll make do with these. The shoes fit.”

“Are you sure?”

“Aye and thanks. Albert, we should go if we’re going.”

“Thanks to both of you.” Albert kissed Lillian’s cheek and the boys ran out the back door and across the garden to the bicycle shed.

At the window above the sink, Lillian watched them run across the yard. “Oh well, if they miss one train, they’ll get another. It’s early in the day.” Lowering her voice, she added, “My sister does not pay enough attention to that boy. Not like yours does to Robert.”

“Aye. Florrie pays a lot of attention to Robert. Maybe too much?”

“Where is Florrie?” asked Lillian.

Meg sighed. “In the washing shed. I suspect she took our washing to do, too, even though I’ve asked her not to, more than once.”

Lillian frowned. “Ach, I do wish she wouldn’t.”

“I know. Where’s Beryl?”

“Took a cup of tea back to bed. My sister was out past the curfew, again.”

Meg said, “She’ll get caught, one of these times. And Mildred?”

“Gone to Lough Foyle with Frank for mussels.” Lillian came and leant against the counter next to Meg.

“Lough Foyle with Frank!” Meg laughed.

“Aye. He asked and she said yes. I’m looking forward to the mussels.”

“Good, because I want to talk to you while we’re alone.” Alternating folding and kneading the dough, Meg said, “So, except for this blissful moment, we’re never alone. It’s driving me mad—if it’s not your sister or mine, it’s Mildred, or your mother and aunt, or everyone including Frank clogging the rooms. You’re only home for any length of time at the weekends, and they’re spent working. We’ve spent three months jammed together except at night when we’re paired with our sisters, not together. I’m fond of them all, but there’s no relief.” Meg gave the dough a particularly vicious thump down onto the wooden breadboard.

“I know and I’m sorry, but this housing arrangement won’t last forever, I’ll talk to my aunt about letting us a second cottage, but at the moment I don’t see what we can do.” Lillian folded her arms.

“Nothing. There’s absolutely nothing to be done I understand that. I just wanted to say it. I wanted to talk to you about the boys—that’s what’s worrying me.”

“The boys! What about them?” Lillian’s voice rose.

Raising one floury finger to her lips, Meg said, “Ssh. Perhaps I am mad already, but they seem to spend all their time alone together. Too much time alone?”

Lillian’s brow furrowed. “But they seem busy enough. Are they not working in the garden enough? Or helping Frank?”

“They are busy, and they do work hard. When they’re not working with Frank or in our garden, Robert is helping Albert with maths, or they cycle to Herring Pond to swim and have a pint after—I don’t mind that they have a pint at the pub, but don’t tell my sister. It’s just that they are always together, alone together mostly. Stuck like glue.”

“Meg, I can’t understand you. We’d hoped they would become friends and they have—very good friends.”

“Yes, but…directly after meals they’re off to the bottom of the garden, or to the strand, or in their room with the door shut. They’re never apart and mostly alone, together. I don’t know. I’ll just say it—” Meg lowered her voice to whisper. “I think they’re in love and I don’t know what we should do about it.”

“In love!” Lillian’s whooped.

“Ssh!”

Laughing, Lillian asked, “You don’t mean it?”

Meg continued to look worried.

“You’re serious,” said Lillian.

“Aye. And I want to know whether you think we should speak to them. I wouldn’t want them to get into any trouble, and they could, you know. It’s against the law for them and they may not realize it.”

Lillian frowned. “Speak to them? How?”

“What do you mean, how?” Meg picked up the formed bread dough.

“As in, ‘Robert, Albert, we’ve noticed you’re in love?’ Like that? I don’t think we can do that, Meg, even if you speak to Robert alone and I talk to Albert alone—whether they are in love or not, we can’t ask them.”

Still holding the dough, Meg asked, “No?”

“No. Either way would be devastation—if they are good friends and nothing else, it would ruin the friendship. And if they are in love, is it our business?”

Meg put the dough into a large tan bowl and covered it with a tea towel. “Well…I remember what it was like for me when I was sixteen. It was a devastation, that’s exactly what it was.”

“Oh, but neither of our lads is like those awful ones…what were the names?”

“Amy Lyon and her boyfriend Bill. Bill…I can’t remember his name.”

“What she did to you, what they tried to do was criminal. Actually criminal. Horrible.”