Letters of Quixote E-Book

Anand Bose

• Herausgeber: BookRix
• Kategorie: Gesellschafts- und Liebesromane
• Sprache: Englisch
• Veröffentlichungsjahr: 2021

Beschreibung

This novel is the outcome of a dialogic encounter with many texts on relgion, fiction, literature and philosophy. The author as coined new idioms, new thoughts, new epiphanies, and new ideas on literature and philosophy. The author is fascinated with the love of reading and writing. The prose of this fiction has new veins of thoughts. 

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Anand Bose

Letters of Quixote

Dedicated to my loving Papa late Prof V A Mathen BoseBookRix GmbH & Co. KG80331 Munich

An Encounter with a Shaman

This happened to me recently. A shaman from an Indian tribe is pervading my consciousness. I welcomed him into my soul, yet I wonder who he is? And what is his purpose in my life? He keeps smiling all the time. I put the wishes of my soul into him. Yes, he is a part and parcel of my alter-ego, my higher self. I hope to have embedded my consciousness with him and hope that he will perfect out my plans in the journey of life. Yes, he is an art and a passionate living consciousness

Assorted Tales

A South Eastern Rendezvous

An image of a winsome South East Asian girl has appeared in my mind. In the dream, I saw her being very fond of me and loving me to her heart’s content. I wonder when I can meet her. Yes, my dream has to come true. I want a woman who is loving and caring and who is a passionate bed.

Plot in the Novel

I have finished writing a novel. I was in a fix as to how to carry the plot of murder forwards. Then my subconscious spoke to me and said: use the powers of a psychic to unravel the plot and this is what I exactly did.

Letter for Sartre

Dear Sartre,

You are my fondest admirer. I believe that you will appear in my dreams and speak to my subconscious. Help me manifest an optimistic reality. Dear Sartre, I have finished writing a novel and since I am a newcomer, I need money to publish it. The only source I have is lottery tickets and I pray that you will manifest the first prize for me in the coming days. Thank you, Sartre, for answering my prayers.

Ashwni

Ashwni is a girl whom I met on a dating site. We used to enjoy hours and hours of erotic conversion on the phone. I loved it when she exclaimed: ‘you have made me soaking wet’. Sad to say, I lost her contact after my wife deleted her number.

A Suicide Note

I don’t know what to write! Things in my life has not been going according to my wishes. I feel utter regret in having lived my life this far. I ponder on the meaning of death and yet I have no answer. I wish to end my life, but I am caught up in the paradox of living life and yet taking away of my life. Yes, I have great fear of dying and I don’t have the guts to carry it out. Yes, someday I might, when my will is stronger.

Woe

Woe occupies my heart. Fear is a paranoid asylum. My mind is filled with the thorns of anxiety. Misery in me is like a dark sky at night. I long to be cajoled and comforted. Even the ones whom I have loved have written me off. They condemn my personality as being mad. I have lost all hope. Yes, I ask to myself what is the meaning of life? Is life’s meaning a hell of shit? Is life’s meaning a cornucopia of garbage? Is life a cataclysm of dung? Why does not luck favor me? Why does the fairy Godmother of fortune hear my pleas? I am shriveled and wasted. My mind is a torpedo of disaster. My failures in life are the barbed-wire of a bullet. I feel lost, wounded, sick and helpless. Not a soul is kind to me. I hate this shithole life of mine.

Women in my life

Mother

My relationship with her is sour. She is very dominating and holds the key of my purse. I have to beg and plead to her for my daily allowances. Yes, she is a witch who uses the crystal ball to imprison me.

Wife

She is domineering and arrogant and bitchy. She constantly threatens me to out me in an asylum. She stands in opposition to all my dreams. She is a Christian with spiritual pride.

Mignonette

She is twice my age and she is my significant other. With her, I have loved the poetry of the bed. But alas, she is only interested in my money. The ungrateful bitch does not have an iota of thanks for the favors I have done.

Anita

I have met her on a dating site. There was many a time when she invited me for a fuck. But I was so overladen with guilt that on the journey to her house, at halfway, I turned back. Now I carry I sense of regret for having done this.   

Borges the Writer

I recall fondly the story of the Aleph written by Borges. He transforms the letter of the Aleph into a magic realism of fantasy. The Aleph becomes a palace with his pen. Then the Aleph is turned into an hourglass. Then the Aleph becomes a map and then he dreams the Aleph of books being written.

Assorted Tales

Autobiographical Self

Dam it! I have reached fifty years of my life. I haven’t achieved anything. My savings and bank balances are nil. I believe myself to be a writer. Yes, I have published many books but all are free and not only that they are e-books. Now I have completed a thriller novel. Since I am a newcomer, I have to shelve out money. The only way to publishing my book is, I have to win a lottery. I still work in my mother’s school as an English Teacher. My mother doles out just a measly sum to meet the cost of cigarettes. I have lost interest in teaching dumb kids. I wonder what I will be in the next few years. I want to retire and devote my whole self to writing. I wonder when I can do it. Then there is my fictional-self. It is a global vagabond. It is a self that has loved women. It is a self that has smoked pot. It is a lonely and tiny inner self. The fictional self loves art, aesthetics, philosophy, poetry and fiction. It is a self, based on fantasy. Yes, it is a self that wants to love and enjoy the poetry of the bed with many lovers. It is a self that wants to write and travel all around the world. It is a self that lives in inner time. It is a consciousness that is poetic and metaphoric. I wonder how I can merge the fictional self with the real self.  I epitomize the fictional self and celebrate it in a drunken euphoria.

Where am I

This is my imagination. I am in a lying-down position. My eyes are closed. There are many paying homage to me. My soul hovers above me. I am laid to rest. Yet, I wonder why my soul is living. I am being carried now and after the service, I am lowered into the ground. There I lie lifeless. Soon maggots eat my earthly body. For them, it is a hungry and sumptuous meal. My soul is wandering in the universe. It merges with the poetic beauty of the sunset. It feels the fragrance of the full moon. It floats in billions of stars and galaxies. At last, my soul is without religion is at peace with itself.

Ode to Sylva

You father of mind control, thank you for teaching Altered States of the Mind. I welcome you to come into my soul and be a part of me, my higher self and alter-ego. Teach my mind to accomplish wishes into a manifestation of reality. I welcome you into my soul of being. Speak to me and train me so that I can live to the fullest. Help me to merge my fictional self with the real self.

Assorted Tales

Dollarocrasy

Dollarocrasy is a neologism for the art of being rich. May dollarocracy pursue me all the days of my life from today onwards.

Bank Account

I knew that my bank account is nil. But still, I thought that I might have received money from the selling of my books. My books were priced at a meager sum. So, with an optimistic thought, I pressed the keys of the ATM and to my sadness what came out was 27 cents. Then my book publisher also told me that I have only 0.66 Euro and they will make a payment only after reaching 1000 Euro. I sunk into a melancholy that can’t be explained.

Devil’s Help

Devil’s help is an idiom for getting things done and wishes being fulfilled. May I experience a devil’s help that will lead me to fortune.

Scenery

I watch their beautiful lips and I become hungry to plant kisses of poetry on them. I observe their small formed breasts and I am filled with burning desire to sing songs on them. I fantasize on their orifices lying hidden behind their clothes and I want to permeate the ritual of music on them.

Written Off

My family and my relatives have written me off. They proclaim that I am mad. How I wish to be separated from my mother and wife. They are both antagonists of my self. Yes, I want to live life to the fullest.

Hearing

I was recently on Facebook and by chance, I happened to see a page that advertised on writing skills. In it, I found Dan Brown was talking: suspense is the art of telling readers what you know and what they don’t know. Again, he said: all you need is a single idea that can be expanded into a novel. I smiled in beatific bliss as this is what I exactly did. The only flaw is I don’t have money to publish my work. Next, I came across Joyce Carol Oates saying: writing begins when you confound your taboos. I agree with her and at times I feel ashamed of my writing as it challenges the norms and conventions of society.

Idioms

Jonah’s Journey

God had asked Jonah to go to Nineveh to address the people to repent. But Jonah went to Tarshish and during the journey there came a big storm. Lots were cast and then Jonah was dumped into the sea. He was swallowed by a whale which spat him out after three days near the coast of Nineveh.

Jonah’s journey as an idiom means a victory, fortune, and success after a trying and troublesome situation.

In my walk of life, I am experiencing Jonah’s Journey.

Nineveh

When Jonah preached to the people in Nineveh, they repented and God did appreciate their repentance and did not bring the city to ruin.

Nineveh as an Idiom means having favor in God’s sight.

If you have a Nineveh in your life, you will be blessed.

Assorted Tales

Bookshelf

I am an avid collector of books. I would love to spend money on them lavishly. Every day I gaze at them with wondrous splendor. There are modern classics, books on philosophy and postmodernism and also poetry. There are also autobiographies. Some books are stout, others are feverishly thin. Every day, I think of expanding the volume of books I have but lack money does not permit me to do so. I have classified book readers into three types: they are gluttons, gourmets and connoisseurs. Gluttons are those who read pulp for the purpose of general entertainment. Gourmets are those who read a wide spread of genres but have no reflection on them. And connoisseurs are those who read books and delve into interpretations.

Windfall

For years, I have been taking lotteries. But luck’s charm has not yielded to me. Yes, I have been able to win a measly sum of not more than 100$. Of recent, I am not able to win any prize. Yes, I need money for publishing my book, since I am a new comer in the field. I hope my Fairy God Mother stretches forth her magic wand at strike me with large windfall gains.

Chicken

My mother has bought 4 chickens. They are so tame that you can touch and pet them. I am always in wonder about the nature’s instinct they have. Their pen is a little high about 5 meters from the ground. When the time is 6:40 PM, they enter their pen without fussing or complaint. None need to show them to do it. Nature has gifted them with an uncanny ability to locate their homes in ease.

Dependence

My mother and my wife run a small school. I feel exasperated as I have to depend on them for my financial needs. Each day, they give me a minute sum of 3 dollars and that’s only enough to buy cigarettes and one lottery ticket. If I threaten them, they threaten me to put me in an asylum. How I wish to have an independent job and be separated from them.

Assorted Tales

Forgery

I had applied for a teacher’s job in the Middle East. They demanded a letter of recommendation from the previous school in which I had worked. There was no way of getting one. So, I went to the school website and by luck, I saw the seal and the Principal’s signature. I copied it and wrote my own application.

Jakarta Memoir

I was in an internet café and I saw a lady at the counter and I was standing close to her, in a position that I brushed her buttocks. She gave me an eye of interest and she went up. I like a fool did not follow the cues she gave. Yes, I missed a wonderful screw.

Uroboros

Uroboros the symbol of a serpent biting its tail connotes the evil one Satan-Lucifer as a being of infinity. I have recently published a novel titled: Uroboros. But I don’t have the money to publish it. I am asking Uroboros to help me in my venture and I have made a pact with him that if grants the first prize for tomorrow’s Kerala lottery draw, I will give him all honor, praise glory, and worship.

Shoot Arrows to the Sky

Shoot arrows to the sky is an idiom for asking divine help and providence.

I shoot arrows to the sky in order to win windfalls.

Assorted Tales

Conversation

Son: ‘Give me hundred rupees.

Mother: ‘Are you out of your mind? Are you insane? I will call the cops and put you in an asylum’.

Son: ‘I am begging you to dole out 100 Bucks’

Mother: ‘Go to hell. I can’t do it right now.

A Tryst with a Publisher

I have completed a novel and I sent samples to a publisher and they became interested in my work. However, they charge a fee of 1500$. Now, I don’t have the money with me. Every day they used to call me. And I used to keep the dates postponing by giving them silly excuses. Then I chose to end this fiasco by sending them an SMS. In it I said: the money for the book was invested in a private financial company which became bankrupt. The truth is I don’t have the money and I am dependent on winning a windfall. Whatever I am telling the publisher is all a fib.

A Rendezvous with a Real Estate Dealer

I made an appointment with a real estate dealer in order to buy a house. The broker invited me to come and visit the project. Every time when the day came, I used to ring them up and tell them lies like: my father is dead, I am going out of station, I have Corona, and so on. I finally decided to end this fiasco and I sent them an SMS saying that I am financially broke and I can’t make a commitment right now. So, please excuse me.

Rain an Epiphany

The Rain is pouring as showers of music. Thunder is a growling heavy metal music. I love the sound of the falling rain, the rhythm of pulsating music. I became a dreamy admirer and the echoes of rain melody in my ears. Rain now, pouring making the earth a kaleidoscope. I am receiving its bounty with a grateful heart. My whole body is vibrating as mellifluous poetry. I become a dreamy habitat, and I resonate with the love of nature in my heart. I am feeling so loved, serene and peaceful with myself. The rain swallows all the disappointments of the day.  

Assorted Tales

Uroboros

I have completed a novel titled: Uroboros. Uroboros as a symbol shows a Serpent biting its own tail. I do not have the money to publish my novel. I thought that Spirit of the Devil in Lucifer will fetch me money through a windfall gain. I appealed to him earnestly in prayer. But nothing of that sort has happened. I realized that Uroboros is simply an idol having no power. I feel disappointed and dejected. Oh, how I wish I could publish my novel.

Asstrology

Astrology is asse’s trology. Both the negative things and the positive things connoted by them rarely happen. I have stopped reading astrology. Some of them say: you can accept a sudden monetary gain again others say: you will get a windfall and still there are fuckers who say: litigation, loss of reputation and imprisonment are likely to happen. Astrologers often use words like ‘may’ and ‘likely’.  They are assholes who are not sure of anything. To hell with them.

Epiphany of the Sun Set

The son is passion in the evening, a music so serene. I watch the mystic pink hues covering the sky with the texture of a poet. I watch the birds flirting in the sky and saying bye-bye to the day. The colors of the sun are Monet’s paintbrush. Time of beauty settles like a lyrical stream. The sun is a  passionate lover bequeathing roses to the one whom he loves. I feel the warmth of the zephyr of the evening caressing my cheeks. I feel so contented and happy and I marvel at the creator who has made such a marvelous art possible.

Assorted Tales

Conversation

I have completed a novel and I need money for publishing it. Finally, an idea came to me to contact my well-off cousin in Hong Kong. So, I phoned him up and I said to him that I need money to publish my book. He told me he is outside the house and as soon as he reached home, he will call me. I waited for hours and hours but no call came. I feel so disappointed and devasted.

Epiphany about a Butterfly

You mystic druid, yellow in hue, how you dance in the zephyr, carrying hope and luck on your wings, you poetic marvel, you a lullaby landscape, you echo of a dream, you a passionate music, you beauty on wings, in you abide all my feeling and emotions.

Assorted Tales

The Lottery

Every day I purchase few lottery tickets with the eagerness to win prizes. In the end, when the results come in the evening, I become forlorn. None of the tickets win a single prize. I end up the ritual of the day by tearing the tickets and throwing them into the dustbin.

Don’t Mess with a Jew

We all know Hitler’s persecution and antagonism towards the Jews which ultimately led to his downfall.

Don’t Mess with a Jew as an idiom means refraining from doing something that will lead to your downfall.

In my life, I don’t want to mess with a Jew.

Peter’s Denial

When the rooster crowed three times, Peter denied Jesus Christ as he was afraid.

Peter’s denial as an Idiom means: not standing up for justice and truth due to fear.

In my lifetime there is not a single instance of Peter’s Denial.

Devil’s Antidote

Devil’s antidote as an Idiom means getting a huge windfall gain.

Yes, I would like to have the Devil’s antidote.

My First Date  

Sheba was a college beauty. One day, she started smiling at me. I also smiled back in return. I did not have the courage to speak to her. I did not have the courage to speak to her.  But later on, I did.  Then we fixed a date to go to watch a movie. We had to travel by train. We stood at the entrance and she held my hands. Her skin was so soft as cheese. My whole body as shivering with excitement. I loved the texture and feel of her hands. Later on, we went into the movie theatre. It was dark inside and that is when I did the first kiss.  Butterflies melted in my mouth when kissed her. I put my fingers through her frock and cuddled her breasts. Yes, I was on cloud nine when I did all these things.

Dog's Day Out

Dog’s Day Out is an idiom for winning a sumptuous jackpot windfall.

I would like to experience a Dog’s Day Out in my life.

Two Idioms

Book Burning

Book Burning is an Idiom for media censorship.

China is a country that’s practicing book burning.

Book Burning is not healthy for a democracy.

Hitler’s Nazi Germany practiced book burning.

Climax Freud

Climax Freud is an Idiom for a positive reality emerging out of a dream

I wish to experience Climax Freud.

Assorted Tales

Oxophor

An Oxophor coined from Metaphor and Ox contains a word with two divergent meanings. For example, the word Missionary has sexual and amorous meaning and also a religious one. Therefore, Missionary is an Oxophor.

Rachel

She, now dead was called the darling Grand Mummy. She is a nun. Here nun is used as an Idiom and it connotes a person who gives sex for the love of it and seeks no money in return. She was the sex teacher for all the young males of the village. A novice who had an experience with her invited me to try her out. And I did! I broke my virginity in her sumptuous orifices and I have no regrets for it. I have practiced with her many times. My body became a yielding vessel of the poetry of passion.

Assorted Tales

Jehovah’s Magic Wand

Jehovah’s magic wand is an idiom for getting a large sum of money in a windfall.

Oh, how I wish to experience Jehovah’s Magic wand in my life.

The Lunch

Recently my wife and myself were invited to a govt. sponsored program which entails special schemes for autistic children. We have an autistic child. I dropped my wife and went back home. Then my wife called me and said there is lunch. So, I went back again to have lunch. The lunch was a sumptuous one. So, I had a free lunch without attending the meeting.

Sister

Recently my sister who lives in Bangalore came back home. My mother used to give me money for buying provisions and out of it, the extra balance I would take for buying cigarettes and lotteries. Then when my sister came, she used to do the marketing and I lost the chance of getting extra money.  

Assorted Tales

Bastardize 

Bastardize is an idiom for making bad and unfavorable government policies.

The Modi government of India has bastardized the country with demonetization, farm laws and citizenship amendment act.

Hitler bastardized Nazi Germany with the persecution of the Jews.

The Chinese are bastardizing the country by not upholding democratic norms and values.

The Junta and Myanmar had bastardized the country by the removal of the democratic leader Aung San Suki.

The Photo 

It’s a photo in black and white taken decades ago. I see my mother as a small girl. I wonder how she has grown up and has reared a son like me. Yes, I have had difficult moments with my mother, but I still love her and respect her a lot. The photo also reminds me own childhood which has not been a happy one.

Epiphany

Yellow wings melody in the air—a sign of blissful flight— there now you perch on the window still—you queen of beauty—there now you are in poetic flight—now whispering in the mind—you are my soul’s addiction—you are my dream of better days to come.