Secret Protocols E-Book

Peter Vansittart

• Herausgeber: Peter Owen Publishers
• Kategorie: Gesellschafts- und Liebesromane
• Sprache: Englisch
• Veröffentlichungsjahr: 2014

Seitenzahl: 600

Beschreibung

Peter Vansittart has been acclaimed as England s greatest living historical novelist for several decades. Now aged eighty-five, Secret Protocols is his final novel and will secure the an increased readership to match his reputation. Erich s odyssey begins when his Estonian childhood is ended by the outbreak of the Second World War. He arrives in Paris, where in 1945 his life seems full of promise. But a love affair drives him to England to work for the Estonian government-in-exile. His imagined island of monarchs, Churchill and gentlemen evaporates into one of scornful youth, insular adults and an underground of spies, political crooks and fanatics. Sojourns in Europe further underline that war and corruption are not extinct and that, in his own life, the most profound shocks are those of friendship and love. Beneath the drift towards a united Europe Erich realizes that treaties do not always end war, that solemn rites cannot guarantee love and that the inevitable can fail to happen.

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PRAISE FOR SECRET PROTOCOLS

‘One of our most ingenious, daring and brilliant novelists, and one admired by other writers.’ – Alan Massie

‘Inventive and witty, exceptionally exhilarating … His prose is a delight.’ – Nina Badwen

‘A teeming, vivid, unruly fairground of experience, jostling with brilliant detail and palpable immediacy.’ – Alan Hollinghurst

‘Unsurpassed at rendering with compelling immediacy the terrors and furies of catastrophic change.’ – Mary Renault

‘His prose shimmers like a mosaic … Peter Vansittart has a genuine historical imagination.’ – Peter Levi

SECRET PROTOCOLS

Erich’s odyssey begins when his Estonian childhood is ended by the outbreak of the Second World War. He arrives in Paris, where in 1945 his life seems full of promise. But a love affair drives him to England to work for the Estonian government-in-exile.

His imagined island of monarchs, Churchill and ‘gentlemen’ evaporates into one of scornful youth, insular adults and an underground of spies, political crooks and fanatics. Sojourns in Europe further underline that war and corruption are not extinct and that, in his own life, the most profound shocks are those of friendship and love. Beneath the drift towards a united Europe Erich realizes that treaties do not always end war, that solemn rites cannot guarantee love and that the inevitable can fail to happen.

PETER VANSITTART (1920–2008) was educated at Haileybury and Worcester College, Oxford. He taught and lectured on English and history, and he reviewed for a number of national newspapers and periodicals. He wrote more than forty works of fiction and non-fiction, many published by Peter Owen.

To Mark Valentine

CONTENTS

Prologue

One: Estonian Turret

Two: Meinnenberg

Three: Paris Conference

Four: London Embassy

Five: Mediterranean Garden

Six: Home

NOTE

Modern Estonian poems quoted here are from The Literary Review Quarterly, edited by Clarence R. Decker and Charles Angoff (Fair-leigh Dickinson University, 1965). For more ancient verses I am indebted to The Great Bear, edited by L. Honko, S. Timonen, M. Branch and K. Bosley (Finnish Literary Society, 1993), given me in kindness by Robin Ashenden. I am indebted to Estonia (Allen and Unwin, 1938), by my former history teacher, J. Hampden Jackson; to Ian Thomson’s Sailing to Tallinn (London Magazine, edited by Alan Ross, 1989); and to Stefan George: Poems, translated by Carol North Valhope and Ernst Morwitz (Kegan Paul, 1944). For Rilke, I owe much to the translations by J. B. Leishman, published by the Hogarth Press. Ogygia, several times mentioned, is, of course, Calypso’s island in the Odyssey, Calypso herself mentioned in Aleksis Rannit’s poem ‘On the Island of Ogygia’, quoted in the text. Every effort has been made to contact copyright holders. If any who have not been acknowledged wish to get in touch they may contact me care of my publishers.

‘I had never before then dreamed that I would become interested in Estonia or bourgeois democracy. Nevertheless, I kept listening to his loving tales of twenty free years of that unsensational, work-loving small people. I heard about the principles of the Estonian Constitution, modelled on the best European examples and how their One-House Parliament of one hundred members had worked.’ – Alexander Solzhenitsyn, The Gulag Archipelago

PROLOGUE

Wilfrid’s hands were soothing, as though caressing a bird, while containing skills in calligraphy and sculpture. In the extremity of winter 1944 he had no time for either.

Amongst the incalculable inmates of Meinnenberg language had largely dwindled to brusque signs and animal grunts for food and sexual bargaining. Song could be more common than speech – raucous, often wordless hymn tunes and ditties popular throughout Europe. They would begin, then subside to vague hummings, left unfinished like so much else. Discussion had become useless or incriminating, though in sudden disputes almost forgotten words reappeared – Crocodile, Hannibal, Jesuit – yelled with barbaric vehemence otherwise lacking in the listless, undernourished, cunning and scared. Some rages seemed a disguise for those with several languages, though risking none of them, while occasionally someone whistled a fragment of Mozart or exhibited a graceful gesture, unable to resist impulses from former days.

At times Wilfrid could be likened to the shaman, revered in the North long into the Christian Era, advising, healing, confronting demons, exorcizing omens. His authority, more assiduous than assertive, made him appear taller than he really was. His slender physique looked deceptively fragile, for he worked longer than any, while, within grime and shabbiness, retaining a certain elegance with carelessly worn scarves and clean overalls. Fastidious, gently enquiring, he possessed courtesy without condescension. Listening to suggestions, more often to complaints, debating rudimentary morals with bully or thief, he almost always appeared to be withholding a smile only out of respect for the occasion.

Such restraint could nevertheless entrap. Once, a Griefer, the Grabber, tried to ingratiate by insinuating that one couple were secret Jews. At the next communal meeting, Wilfrid, his smile breaking free, praised the two for their honourable lineage, casually adding that the Grabber might disagree. He was heard in silence, but, after a night scuffle, the Grabber vanished.

Sometimes, as if to himself, Wilfrid would quote some poem, in one of which statues began to hear, stillness soften to its own music, grotesquely at odds with the pared-down Meinnenberg existence. Though at ease even with the most degenerate, he was intimate only with himself.

The intake remained constant: deaths from disease, exhaustion, gangrene, suicide were replaced by fugitives, deserters, unclassifiables. Over a million Poles and Balts had been deported to the USSR, but, after Stalingrad, the Red counter-attack somewhat loosened civilian grip. Here, polyglots of diverse backgrounds were equally unshaven, soiled, ageing prematurely. Children withered most quickly, and were culled by malnutrition and tuberculosis. Germans had been trained by: Don’t think. The Führer will think for you. A French child’s presence was inexplicable, for though he worked willingly he never spoke, until dying, when he uttered very distinctly, ‘C’est évidemment un personage d’importance’, finally murmuring, ‘J’espère.’

Most were ground down to a beaten, almost witless blur, evolving into another Europe, a reluctant, suspicious unity. They breathed an atmosphere of an aimless, monotonous holiday, raw fact and wavering fantasy inextricably competing, a continual babble suggesting a slum in the last days of imperial Rome. The failure of Count von Stauffenberg’s attempt to kill Hitler in the July Plot, though known, interested very few, so numbed were curiosity and hope.

A girl had been sold by her father for a sack of potatoes; a man, almost blinded by noxious liquor from a secret still, unexpectedly boasted that he had founded a bank. Meanwhile, battles still demolished East Prussia, though Berlin must soon fall. ‘I intend to plunder,’ the Reichsmarschall had declared in his glory, ‘and plunder thoroughly’, though plunder was the least atrocity we awaited. Simultaneously, we heard rumours of a glittering, phantasmagorical festival for his birthday, extravagance unlimited, medieval costumes, blaring music, courtly dances, streams of wine, grandiose roasts from days and nights of hunting, while alien bombers flew over regions left undefended.

We ourselves lingered in furtive paralysis, Displaced Persons in a nether world where colours, laughter, juicy food were ill-remembered romance, while frontiers toppled and eastern hordes returned.

The monotony was occasionally relieved by extra rations, dubiously procured, even by a ‘ball’, the dancers more intent on propping each other up than in risking free movement, accompanied by a mouth-organ and a drum improvised from old tin.

Clawing for survival, all must learn the tricks. To dither might ensure starvation or assault. At food doles, the experienced waited, the last drops of soup being thicker. Details, once small, were magnified: a ribbon, dirty crust, stick, had the richness once held by coins. A spasm of pain or fatigue could be as menacing as a stranger. As if in a fairy-tale, everything was something else: talisman, omen, warning. Like artists, we studied others’ bodies, the language of eyes, mouths, hands. A limp, groan, scar, twitch signalled a threat or appeal. Our own faces we forgot. Before fleeing, the SS had forbidden mirrors and confiscated forks, knives, spectacles. A face with remnants of beauty was a perilous target.

ESTONIAN TURRET

1

A child imagines himself special, the universe fining down to his whims. At mirrors, I slowly, ceremoniously, put fingers to my lips, hiding the extraordinary from those I most loved. A precaution against losing that love, which would hurt like a whip or iodine.

Like a fox, I had my domain, jealously guarded, a turret perched above the large, rambling Manor, its thick, ochred chimneys narrowing towards the top. From there, like an Emperor Earth, I surveyed the neat, disciplined park encircled by pasture bordered by Lake – ‘the Lady’ – and Forest both spread under huge skies to lonely farms and, across flat marsh, to the Sound.

Tiny squeaks and patters in the roof were outriders from Forest, to be withstood by woodman’s vigilance.

Trees, like birds, had voices: one old gardener could hear the different replies of beech, willow, aspen, oaks, pine to the wind. Any tree, even when silent, had a story. Trees had lives, thus, like animals and, with the moon aglow, thoughts.Within each tree was a face. A woodcutter, felling an oak, saw a tissuous form escaping, hiding in air. Forest had recesses hinting at dangers, questions unanswered, perhaps unanswerable, save, of course, by trees, questions I never asked, fearing to be thought stupid.Words, when uttered, in unpleasant magic transformed private knowledge to the ridiculous.

I flinched at knowing too much, instinctively wanting trees, animals, people, particularly myself, to preserve mystery. On days still as paint, trees might yet stir and rustle, which, in tales, betokened presences, perhaps imaginary though watchful. Exploring, I glimpsed fleeting shapes and once heard distant drumbeats, or Forest’s heart. Forest was outpost of the giant, wooded North that had repulsed Rome. Southwards, in another forest, the German, Arminius, had for ever defeated the legions of Caesar Augustus.

So often had Charlemagne’s Franks invaded Livonia that when an uncle mentioned the Flight from the Franc, I could only imagine danger from a new Charlemagne.

Forest paths disappeared into fern and scrub. I glimpsed the woodpecker’s crimson crown, the yellow of a fallen aspen. In a clearing stood a lofty, irregular boulder, deeply grooved, with vague shoulders. We called it Fenris’ Grave, though villagers named it differently, incomprehensibly. Fenris? The wolf, son of wicked Loki, fated to devour Allfather Wotan at Ragnarok, the Last Battle, when the world shook with flame, sun and moon perished. I see from afar the downfall of the Fighting Gods. Heimdall, Valhalla’s watchman, had lost a hand chaining Fenris, to delay disaster. He also had nine mothers, an unenviable asset, the Herr General considered. Fenris might still lie under the dense, upright stone, struggling to wrench himself free. I cherished my engraving of an ancestor clasping Thor, though Father slightly spoilt it by relating it to an Estonian, anti-German caricature. Explanations killed. After dark the Night Mare rode the sky.Why? No matter.

The paths might be preparing surprise, perhaps ambush by Forest Uncle, immemorial Bear or some Master of the Forest, bark crusted or disguised as an elk. Where paths crossed in sudden embrace a patch of air, peculiarly colourless, might disclose a squat, grinning figure, greenish, unearthly, peaked face wrinkled as a map, with a riddle, warning or malicious joke.

When snow fell, servants chuckled that beds were being made in heaven; woodmen said that lightning created mushrooms.

Forest Uncle excited me more than lightning or Fenris. Wars occurred because people had once been bears, and Forest Uncle was more real than many visitors and relatives. Bears had actually vanished but, like Christ, might return. A cook was said to have been dismissed for ‘Bear Dancing’ in the library, regarded with awe and alarm in the kitchen, as though it were a temple of Loki and at very least storing strange knowledge. Our steward, Herr Max, grander and more aloof than Father, declared that the silence of books was terrible.

In Baltic legend people prayed for deliverance from Turks, little better than bears.Yet Forest Uncle, if capricious as God, protected trees, birds, animals and could glisten like the weather-cock over the stables, which could fly to the moon when dusk turned green. Conceivably, a prowler might stumble against him in darkness. He was known to have fathered a child in a distant village, as indeed had the moon. Undeniably, the folk there were large, shaggy, surly. The mother had died giving birth to ‘large claws’.

Once I saw, though never rediscovered, a tree stump, its surface flat as a plate, reputed to expect offerings to Forest Uncle, and a circlet of wild violets was undeniably rotting near by. Traditionally, he demanded the first fish or bird killed on St George’s Day. Under the Weeping Oak, by the Lake, virgins – very scarce, grumbled the housekeeper – were said to sing for lovers with dead fathers and full purses.

In Forest, silences were less than silent, shadows more intense. Kitchen folk spoke of a lost shrine to the Lady, washed once annually, reclothed, garlanded, standing rigid while a girl was drowned. Lake, wide, darkly fringed by thickets, thus covered scores of bodies, her silvery hazes the breath of the dead. Sometimes the water shuddered, as if a dripping head, scaled and unblinking, might break surface. Further away, in the Sound, children whispered about a snake encircling the world. ‘Rubbish,’ Mother said. ‘Nonsense, dear, but not rubbish.’ Father’s quiet tones implied rebuke.

Telephone wires streaked everywhere, to Reval, Berlin, Hamburg, Munich, Riga. Moscow? Better not ask.

From my Turret I saw the Pole star, which an ostler called Nail of the Sky, fixed above the giant tree or mountain upholding the universe. Once I saw, or thought I saw, a grey tower looming above trees but never rediscovered it, despite frequent attempts. Poems, however, showed that what did not exist could nevertheless be real, like the world-snake.

I read of the betrayal of Baldur, young and beloved, from whom our Baltic was named. Baldur, Redeemer, Shining One. Watching bundles of rain rolling in from the Sound, I rejoiced that he had survived Ragnarok, and I strove to connect him with those incessant in adult talk, in some Other World beyond the day: the Umbrella Bearer; the Cripple in the White House; the Champagne Baron; the Reichsmarschall; the Gutter King; the Moscow Ogre; Frau Simpson, the American. Adults were always busy, smiling, handshaking, whispering, allowing me to enjoy village auction-fairs, with rickety stalls piled with shoes, jerkins, old spades, scythes, querns, where dancers in broad black hats, red shirts, yellow skirts and breeches formed circles to croaks and squeals from queerly shaped instruments. Youths hitherto loud and boastful slunk into a certain tent I never dared approach, once hearing a woman’s voice from within. ‘You shouldn’t drink from the sea, darling; it’s touched by sailors ‘whatnots.’

Mindful of the farrier’s warning that the sky played tricks, I watched night swirling with polar tints, iced reds and greens, flimsy blues, billowing in masses, splintering into whites and yellows, flashing far away, simultaneously glimmering in our ponds.

Under certain lights, tree, water, bird, like portraits, were about to utter the extraordinary.

2

The estate was much diminished after Estonia’s secession from Russia, following an interregnum during which Berlin schemed for Baltic kingdoms, Estonia, like its sisters, a Hohenzollern Fürstentum, outflings of ‘Germania’ beloved by poets and singers.

My family and friends, of German ancestry, retained assumptions still feudal, our dependants the grandchildren of serfs. Though formally Estonian, the Germanic caste, High Folk, still considered itself proconsular. One neighbour had formerly been entitled to style himself Hereditary Imperial Councillor and sometimes still did so. Father once said that Germans were natural rulers, without disclosing whether he approved.

Whatever our failings, we were trusted more than the Russians: Whites or Reds, they remained Bear People, greedy, oppressive, unchanging.

The Manor was two hours’ drive from Reval and adjoined the Sound, tributary of the Gulf of Finland. Landscapes were placid, unremarkable, with grey islands, sallow plains of grass and rye, small hills darkened by Forest.

Father, austere but friendly, his grey beard like a harmless dagger, informed us that locals spoke a Finnish–Ugrian dialect. Of our domestic household only Herr Max was fully German. Mother was English, thus adding to my stories and words.Very pretty, she looked fragile as a vase; high wind might break her. Her green reticule, clasped in gold, must contain jewels, ‘compromising letters’, a flask of poison. She, like Father, habitually spoke German, occasionally French; we all had some pidgin Estonian. Nineteenth-century nationalism had revived Livonian languages, against Russian oppressors and German landlords.

Once, in a neighbouring town, I saw a small procession watched by an expressionless crowd, carrying a large golden sun-disc on a pole, singing in German:

We’ve given up the Christian line,

For Christ was just a Jewish swine.

Wrinkling with distaste, Mother said, ‘Hooligans!’ in the tone reserved for incompetent servants. At another time, in unusual irritation, Father exclaimed, ‘Hegel!’ as if expecting my intelligent response, which did not come. Another mystery, Hegel suggested, not, I discovered, in total absurdity, a monster, hungry for prey, scared of Ragnarok.

I need open the Turret to none. Small, it was also boundless, housing an Emperor Earth.Downstairs, parents were handsome as Margrafs and Margraffins in old paintings, but I stared sadly into glass, striving for some marvellous detail of bone or frown reiterating my powerful lineage, that of crusaders against Danes, Russians, Poles, Russians, wresting Estonia from the Danish King, slaughtering pagans, grabbing walrus-bone and, from their Table of Honour, bawling, ‘The Sword is our Pope.’ The Herr General said that Pope Innocent IV pardoned any criminal who joined the Teutonic Order, its black cross on white cloak cruel yet splendid. I read, too, of Livonian Knights, Knights of the Garter, of the Golden Fleece, of the Star, forbidden to flee in defeat. Also Counts of the Rhine, Brothers of the Sword, beaked, metallic, competing with Robber Knights, magic bears, evil planets. An oak-bred prince, an ash that taught the alphabet, tall castles staring bare above wooded, wistful valleys. Germania.

My thoughts were exceptional, real marvels: of abyss, wolf, murderous bishops, troll country and of the Sound abruptly drowning islands, towns, estates, so that Rising Tide became code for my sudden change of mood, dismissed by mother as sulks, until I overheard the Herr General state that ‘sulkiness’ was deployed by those of too little imagination against those with too much.

Rising Tide could be dispelled by a smile, rush of sunlight through thick winterset, fiery cloud over the Lake. Or deep, tolling words from Pastor Ulrich in his small, wooden church, ‘In Heaven ye shall have Peace, in the World, Tribulation, but be of Good Cheer, for I have overcome the World.’ Heavy, black-bearded, he had probably done so, like Tsar Peter, and Friedrich der Grosse, Old Fritz, mighty Prussian, though no Knight of Germania like Lohengrin, Parsifal, Siegfried, Charlemagne, Barbarossa and Conradin, last of the stupendous Hohenstaufen, his young, naked limbs, a block, a reeking neck.

The Manor had remote, dusty attics, darkened stairs, winding passages tinged with mothballs, polish, camphor, gun-oil, dog, often so oppressive that I sniffed ghosts. In the kitchen they spoke of house-spirits, their cordiality unreliable, their anger perilous, hiding in cupboards, scuttles, lofts. A derelict cowshed sheltered a red-eyed imp so that, even at nine, I avoided it when shadows were dense and hungry.

One room, black-panelled, was sunk in gloom; another, with frayed crimson hangings, smelt of hay, with a mirror so blotched that, gazing, I saw someone else. The Rose Room, boudoir, first line of a story, was never used and seemed forbidden. To my questions the servants, though I believed they loved me, affected deafness. I would cautiously open the door to see whether anything had been changed, perhaps by spirits, but it was always newly dusted, with fresh flowers, the lumpily framed portraits of High Folk bravely watching. The curved, padded chairs, tapestries of hunts and moonlit woods, were unaltered, the Rose Room another adult secret.

On all levels the past intruded. An old laundry-woman possessed a copper bowl in which, she asserted, dwelt an ancestral frog. I wanted to put it in a stove, then await a flash, then mist, black or bloody.

The kitchen nourished imagination with its tales and gossip, its hams, pungent herrings, strings of onions hanging from smoke-grimed rafters, the great stove patterned with swans, leaves, reeds. One scullery maid each morning greeted every utensil by name, wishing them fortune. For her, a plate, cup, bucket had a human face.

Everywhere portraits hung, ranged between stuffed heads of wolf and elk, the top right-hand corner of a wall always covered, for there demons hid. Portraits described eras – of Wallenstein, star-crazed warrior; of Old Fritz, frozen in triumphs – faces spectral and narrow under helmets or wigs, hands with pistols or tasselled swords. Armour gleamed beneath starred cloaks, a watch dangled from a neck seemingly blue with cold, spectacles disfigured a slender girl holding a rose, some Winter Queen in purple cap rimmed with gold. I would stand at attention beneath one portrait: powdered hair, calm, reflective face, high collar and stock, grey coat sprayed with medals, a locket on silver chain, holding what Father called an Icelandic gyrfalcon. An ancestor, a sort of knight, Count von der Pahlen, inspirer of the murder of Paul, mad Tsar, son of Catherine the Great and father of Alexander, who had defeated Napoleon in the snow. I would have liked sharing a name with Pahlen, who could thus have still lived somewhere within me.

On Great Family occasions, past faces reappeared: one day my own must join them, hard behind their joviality. Did people follow their faces or create them, as if with modelling clay, some very carelessly? Could the Rose Room be haunted by Count Pahlen, patriot or traitor?

History lingered like dust. In mother’s books were the Black Prince encased in shadow, Queen Victoria in diamonds, her Empire straddling the globe with turbaned soldiers and huge grey ships, the House of Lords retained – the Herr General considered – by the English spirit of fun. He used the English word, which I could not quite understand. Edward, the boy king, dwindled to a white, despairing face at a Tower window.

In the hushed library, amid dim, magical volumes, was suspended a curled headpiece with runic signs, cut from a bear’s skull and reputed to make heroes invisible; for a coward it was too large. Testing this, I was almost smothered.

Books were not imprisoned but lay everywhere, in neglected alcoves, on antique tables, in scented bedrooms, oaken bible-boxes and elaborately gilded cabinets and in what Herr Estate Manager Bruest called the first place of general interest on leaving the hall. Father would select a book and shyly offer it or leave it beside my plate like a password. His books were mostly German but with some French. Adult books I seldom read in full, usually opening them at random to read a few fragments, enticing, if incomprehensible, then feeling gifted with superior knowledge. One book had the magnetic powers of a riddle:

I saw the Pharaohs gazing through millennia

With eyes of stone, by tears of ours burdened,

By dreams of ours weighed.

Words were skates, speeding me to horizons where dwelt Pharaohs, Pahlens, Cyclops scared of green, trolls that burst if they saw sunrise. They were almost visible in dusky corridors where antlered heads seemed to thrust through woodwork, binding me to Forest, where winter sky was scattered, handfuls of milk frozen between black branches.

My insights ceased to be unique when, confiding some to the Herr General, I learnt they were common to young adults, a phrase comforting distress that had reduced me lower than Hegel. I continued to collect phrases like birds’ eggs, pocketknives, pens, songs. ‘Rounder than a grouse egg.’ ‘Larger than an ox-eye flower.’ ‘Lower than a daughter-in-law’s spirit.’ These I gathered from our dependants, die Eibleute. Stable jokes and rhymes were darker, the tales more menacing. Lost children were, in fact, betrayed by the hungry witch. ‘They tasted delicious.’ Less exciting was that tiny Estonia had been sired by Kalev, son of divine Kaara, who rode the North on an eagle, and whose other son ruled the Underworld. From Mother’s English stories I learnt the danger of fingerprints and of leaving footprints in mud.

Wind carried more stories. Starkad was approaching, valorous, treacherous, famed, ridiculed, mighty singer forgetting his songs, protected by one god, cursed by another, incurably wounded but indomitable slayer of monsters, avenger of wrongs but jealous and thieving. An apt symbol of Estonia, the Herr General thought.

That Wotan was lord, not only of war but of music, poetry, prophecy and ‘the depths’, was all-powerful but had hung nine days on a tree puzzled me until Father suggested that, too often, music and wickedness were identical, so were power and powerlessness, like Germans in Estonia. Like Starkad? He smiled, as if at a joke, small, not very funny.

Father told few stories. The Herr General’s were not of Baldur but often of Loki, slippery and clever. The Teutonic, Baltic and Slavonic supernatural appeared a single mess of realistic enchantment, struggles against fate, through which stalked Hrolf, Kraki, Swipdagere, Svendal the Stranger, Frodi the Unthinking, Thorkill Red-Beard. Behind them, harvesters still shouted Svendal, Frodi, without knowing why, threw corn-cobs into the last sheaf before lighting it, watching rodents flee, spirits of the field. Flames ‘grew up’ in efforts to reach the sky. In November, Dead Month, servants were allowed a night’s freedom for orgiastic village celebrations of St Catherine, protector of cattle, and for the annual return of ancestors. Could Pahlen ever come? Apparently not. A scarecrow, Old Mart, earlier St Martin, originally, perhaps Mars, was periodically stuffed with wool, dyed green. And at midsummer God walked the grain fields and children dared each other to touch old Mother Stick’s hump for good luck. This I never risked, fearing a red curse or explosion.

Village children had two birthdays, one solemn, celebrated in church, the other rowdy, in the communal sauna. Conceivably, they aged at twice my own speed, and their early stoops and wrinkles supported this.

Vernacular phrases continued to illuminate. ‘Dark as the cuckoo’s shadow on a cemetery gate’, though to utter them would risk courteous derision. From the Turret nothing changed. Seagulls flashed silver, in the margin of stories. The Lake now glittered, now sank into mist. The sun was low on one horizon, the moon high above another. In a velvet-covered notebook – Father’s gift – I wrote, very proudly: ‘I will never permit myself to become another.’ Mysteriously, I later found beneath this, in handwriting almost, but not quite my own: ‘Use your eyes, but first keep them on yourself.’

Through summers I gazed down on expensive adults, die ersteGesellschaft, chattering on lawns, lighting cigars, standing in straw hats or under dainty parasols. Or, half seen through tall, clipped hedges, playing tennis, older folk clustered by rose-trees, drinking tea in deckchairs by the old summer-house, wheeled to face the sun, while children played in shrubberies, darted between trees, quarrelled. When possible I hid from them. Most were adept at games, brutally eager to win, and I disliked their taunts – ‘Book Lover’, ‘Clumsy Boots’, ‘Stump Head’ – ceasing only when the Herr General discovered my talent for tennis, for which I was winning small silver cups, not of the finest quality.

When Gulf breezes quickened and leaves staled, the men moved towards Forest with guns slanted, followed by bearers in green jackets with brass badges, carrying game-bags, dogs frisking around them.

As if both inside and outside the countryside was the girl who ran. She daily sped past our gates, resolute, absorbed in the way ahead. None of us knew her name, she might descend from Margarita-Who-Grieves or Marie-Filled-with-Woes. She might be pursued by the Seventy-Seven Devils of the Sound, for ever fleeing down dirt roads through woods, across fields. Once she paused to fasten a shoe and I dared, in German, to ask her name. Her black eyes were incredulous and at once she was gone. She, too, must know things. Servants shook their heads but said nothing until finally she never reappeared, a scullion gibing that she had tripped over the edge of the world. At sight of an animal wounded, or ostracized by the herd, I remembered the girl who ran.

3

Father was respected by our staff, as ‘Buckle-breasted’, Mother as ‘Brooch-breasted’ and was less popular. The Herr General was ‘Elk-Victor’, an outdoor strider, which my parents were not. From him I learnt to identify footprints, claw-marks, wing-patterns, the habits of crane and lark, fox and seal. Also Teutonic epics, Livonian hunting rituals, with their placatory invocations to the victims.

Mother was soft-spoken, vivacious, even coquettish, proud that the British had helped Germans and Balts evict the Reds at Narvik, 1919. I loved, without much liking her – feelings I traced, surely inaccurately, to her maid’s belief that the third finger of a woman’s left hand contained a spirit that only a gold ring could awake. Mother’s finger shone golden and was thus endowed with power splendid but unendearing.

She was small, fair, careless, with white, slender hands lying for display on her lap, on the table, rings removed only at the piano, when playing brilliant, jazzy rhythms, incongruous in the vaulted, raftered music-room. Her manner, in retrospect, suggested an unwalled Englischer Garten, bright in its very defencelessness.

Father, scholarly, reserved, finely boned, somewhat dry, tired around mouth and eyes, grey hair scrupulously tidy, and with his High Folk beard, came from long generations of Baltic barons, Volksgruppe. He had rather melancholy eyes, dignified regard for Haydn, Mozart, Saint-Simon’s Mémoires, Turgenev’s novels, though reticent about Pahlen, the regicide. His forebears had emigrated from Westphalia to join the Teutonic Knights, brutal overlords, ‘Wolf People’, though protective against the hated Muscovites. Peter, Bronze Horseman, and Catherine, ‘Frau Potemkin’, were remembered as dragons. For his underlings, Herr Max, German and bullying as Bismarck, was always ‘the Tsar’ or ‘Hetman’. From some book I never forgot an engraving of a bearded face under a peaked, jewelled cap, eyes wide, staring, and an inscription: Thou has shed the blood of righteous men, O Tsar. Behind us all, defence against Untermenschen, was the Herr General.

Tall, broad as a door, brown hair cut close, firmly carved face unlined, florid, clean-shaven, he had eyes deeply blue beneath heavy lids, reflecting moods seldom precisely ascertainable, though doubtless shrewd and appearing older than his agility. Related to the still influential Benkendorffs, Tiesenhausens, Meyendorffs, he was wealthy, with an estate larger than ours. He was restless, roaming across rooms rather than merely crossing them and often abroad on what I assumed to be adventures. In 1937 he was over thirty, for, after training at the Imperial Staff College in St Petersburg, he had commanded a German White Russian force after the 1917 Revolution. Years afterwards I understood that he had helped establish a complex of arms foundries, airfields and training bases in Soviet Russia to help Germany circumvent the Versailles Treaty. Of Estonians, he told me that they all hoped their neighbour’s cow would die and assured Mother that a German Republic was not paradox but contradiction. ‘The Reich has iron heart and a lonely spendthrift soul.’ Of the Führer, no glamorous Hohenstaufen, he said that he had heard him declare that no truth existed, scientific or moral.

He was often with us, dancing, playing tennis, advising Herr Breust, reading in the library.With Mother at the piano, he would, though as if joking, sing the Teutonic Knight’s anthem, ‘Nach dem Osten Woll’n wir Reiten’.

From him I gathered yet more stories. He had seen a live tortoise once touched by Goethe, who knew himself to be very great and had been on bad terms with no less than Hegel. Now a civilian but always ‘Herr General’, he had large interests in Germany, Sweden, Poland, with people always, as he put it, badgering him to be of service. Occasionally, perhaps inadvertently, he referred to Germany as ‘Home’. Unmarried, he treated us all with equal affability, though on terms very much his own. His photograph frequently appeared in newspapers, uniformed at a reunion, tail-coated at the Opera or racecourse, riding with the Swedish King’s nephew, Count Folke Bernadotte, conferring with rich Germans with names Father considered unwholesome – Stinnes, Thyssen, Hugenburg, Ribbentrop, the last always pronounced by the Herr General himself with such vehemence that I long thought this a swear word.

For Mother, I was a toy to be fondled but easily removed and, despite my accumulation of birthdays, never ageing, always ‘My Pet’. Father behaved as if I were a friend of longish standing, not intimate but well worth consideration. The Herr General, easily imaginable as grandson of an oak, would address me like an elder brother, more experienced but sharing some disdain for the worthy but slow-witted, the stolid-tongued, drinking punctilious toasts, laughs like the squashing of giant toads, all in a game with rules not yet entirely comprehensible.

‘You and I, Erich …’ he would begin, before seeking my help in inspecting a horse, proposing a tennis knock-up or a quick walk in Forest. He was generous to servants, gave balls at his Schloss, presented me with a folio of bird paintings, a sporting gun, a racquet, each string a different colour, given him by Mr Vines, American champion. His humour was more finely edged than his imposing demeanour, which, if not stagy, must sometimes have been carefully staged. I also believed, without evidence, that his pocket often contained a pistol.

Altogether, he was a figure more of dimly seen Germania than of the strident, go-ahead Third Reich. Once, in Forest, he halted, as if to confide a secret perhaps dangerous, even produce the pistol. ‘If you glance into a pheasant’s cold, still eye, you’ll realize that, whatever you admire about the bird, you will never love it.’ Hitherto, I had cherished pheasants but suddenly hated them.

At German monarchist celebrations he was very prominent, medalled, belted, sworded, his uniform strictly cut for his upright form as he hastened between groups, assured, friendly, while I coveted his black cane with jewelled knob. Outside, he need never call for Caspar, his elk-hound, for his eyes could summon, quell, excite animals as he must have done his soldiers.

‘Always remember, Erich, that languages, certain tunes, conquer space more rapidly than Führers or commissars, any Madam Chiang or Mrs Eleanor, certainly any general.’ His thick, straw-coloured brows contracted. ‘Here’s a trick. Close your eyes, imagine masts, then follow your thoughts. They may try for the world’s end, like Alexander. You may conclude that leadership in our motley Europe is a lyric for some, an accusation for others, and for many …’ his cigar swooped dismissively, ‘nothing at all.’ He did not confide his own disposition, his crisp, solid head gleamed above his fur collar, and, without knowing why, I felt grateful.

His smile was never a grin but a serious token of intimacy, and he finished with what sounded like a warning, ‘Of great and ruined Rome, the world-wooed dream’, which I was to discover from Father’s favourite poet, Stefan George.

At meals, on Mother’s right, the Herr General was outsize: seldom loud but powerful, as if from energies explosive and irresistible. His shirt glistened, his glass was obsequiously refilled, his opinions were undisputed and his anecdotes, lightly told, almost offhand, placed me in history.

‘Kaiser Franz-Josef. The Old Gentleman. His state banquets were always twelve courses, but he was indifferent to food and loathed banquets. Protocol demanded that, when he had disposed of his own dish, all plates were instantly whisked away, even of guests who had not started. The meal might thus be completed within the hour, many dishes undelivered, the high and mighty departing virtually unfed.’

I sensed he was talking to me alone.

Mother, when she cared, could hold her own, teasing, flattering, with the strengths of contrast. Her flimsy gowns, bare shoulders, her jewels and scents, low exclamations and rippling laugh, could shelter slyness, the subtlety of the weak. Her flirtatiousness was akin to her childish handwriting and petulance at cards.

From her chatter and music I now judge that, for her, the presentation of a rose or visiting card outmatched the thunder of war and revolution. In her presence, the telephone was uncannily alive, transforming her from indolence to laughter, from silky drowsiness on tasselled, cloudy cushions to an excited rush to the hall. I absorbed hearing her English childhood: grandmother’s escapades at Windsor, a formal shoot to which certain people could not be invited, laments when the old queen died.

Father, with his polite withdrawals, was less vivid. I did not then realize that they could seldom be seen talking together with any intimacy. For them to saunter hand in hand through Forest was unthinkable. At the brilliant dinner-table they held fine balance. Father’s grave dignity held pace with the Herr General’s ebullience, Mother’s glistening skin and eyes redressing the weight of ageing ladies and whiskered, boiled-looking gentlemen.

I was often fascinated by adults, less by recondite allusions than by chance details: a footman’s white gloves fluttering like butterflies behind tidy heads; clutches of candle-lit roses in slim silver shafts; a dead moth on a lady’s hair; a glance, queerly secretive, darting between a hussar major and a young lady whom I had earlier seen introduced to each other as strangers. One old lady, always in twinkling black, regularly allowed me a single, unchanging remark – did I know that cats’ eyes expanded with the moon? – then, duty done, ignoring me, to mutual satisfaction.

When disregarded, I yet felt particularly strong. My sharply cut goblet, when upright, reflected people as composed, secure, but, when tilted, made them caricatures: faces were smothered by beards or noses, collapsed into oblongs, blobs, slashes; a magnified earring, at a hand-shift, vanished into an abnormally swollen neck.

Most adults were scarcely distinct from the animals they so cherished. Elderly aunts were covered by hard, cracking rind, grandee cousins very possibly had tails, high-heeled ladies stepped precariously, like water-birds, others resembled lame kangaroos. All women flourished plumes, furs, skins: they shuffled, fluttered, preened; they frisked, nuzzled, rumbled, clucked and clicked; they pecked and embraced in small, ritual gestures, then stalked back to their dens. Some, like overweight hippos, lay in mud baths at Kunessaare, scarcely breathing, their curved bellies doubtless platforms for coffee or herons. Periodically they lifted a snout, grunted, laboriously rubbed against sludge, then relaxed in bubbles.

I remember Gerda von Hörsen, so obedient to her husband that, on his death, she neighed slightly, then followed, quietly dying.

Table talk was in German, with French interpolations whenever something should be kept from servants. Herr Max might place a silver cock between the candles, during over-heated discussion, the traditional precaution against ill will. Now, 1938, disagreeable flavours made the cock more necessary. Several names always attracted dispute, diplomatic coughs, alarming silence. The Reich was a rampart against Russia. I heard a joke about Hector, tamer of horses, and Herr Churchill, wearer of hats. All I know of the latter was that Mother once called him Mr Chatterbox.

Our group mostly had sentimental regard, though scarcely active loyalty, not to Konstantin Päts, former peasant, now president of Estonia, but to the High Gentleman, the exiled Kaiser Wilhelm II. He was, however, mentioned less often than the Gutter King, ersatz Wolf, the Führer, much praised for promising that Germany would never injure European peace. Though the Herr General was conspicuously silent, most agreed that with the mounting Czech crisis, the Wehrmacht officers, modern knights, would depose the Führer and restore the Kaiser.

I could see Gutter King, dubious Wolf, as Robber-Knight in grass-green Loden jacket and foolish-looking shorts, prancing opposite the solid moustached Bear Chief in his golden-domed Moscow castle. Estate hands muttered, like their forebears, about the Russian Boot.

Faces flushed over the wine, tongues shook out half-stories.

‘Did you know, General, that precious Adolf informed the Reichsmarschall that he, Adolf, was the second Richard Wagner?’

The Herr General’s smile, often lopsided, went full and boyish. ‘I would not be astonished if Hermann failed to identify the first.’

A quip about Goering as Marshal of Telephones eluded me: I could imagine only a tusked warlord detained from battle by immoderate love of talk.

‘Flying champion though he was,’ the Herr General continued, ‘rather lovable in certain lights, I am sometimes forced to wonder whether, in all meanings save the most blatant, he has sufficient stomach.’

That he was ever forced into anything was as unbelievable as the legendary bridge made from fingernails of the dead.

‘Well, you know him, General. After your Karinhall hunts …’

‘I’ve taken care, Hilde, to be on respectful terms. He’s the Corporal’s only trustworthy friend.’

Unexpectedly he looked across at me and winked. I pitied the lonely Corporal, abandoned by all save Reichsmarschall and Herr General, and wondered who he was.

‘I will never forget my first sight of Goering.’ The Herr General turned to Mother, her eyes round as coins, brightly admiring. ‘He was in toga planted with emeralds, gold shorts, gold sandals, toenails crimson. More jewels in his scabbard. He had artificial tan, pasted thick, eyelids smeared blue. The lion beside him was as tame as his hounds.’

Germania in person. And lion! Also, the pistol, perhaps, perhaps not, in the Herr General’s pocket. And Pahlen, laughing with the Tsar he was to kill.

Debate swung to the Spanish Civil War, which, apparently, the Führer wished to prolong, mortally to divide Russia, France, Britain, Italy. The Herr General, conversational, lucid, attentive to Mother, punctiliously mindful of Father as host, frequently paused for assent without imposing it.

‘I’m archaic, Theo. A cave-monster. I regret the decline of duelling. The duel is prompt, vivid, conclusive. As for the widow we discussed earlier, I remember not her taste for duelling but her head for heights. She married successively a Hessian margrave, a French duke, though of Bonaparte variety, and a Bavarian prince with blood he assumed older than Adam’s.’

Mother led a flurry of laughter, Father smiled but as if at something else. Afterwards, in the Turret, I coveted gold lion, jewelled toga, then thought of bloodied feet dancing towards me in red shoes. I drifted against an Estonian poem Father had translated for me:

What they built in morning had fallen by noon,

What they raised at noon was broken by sundown,

Twelve masons conferred, as I have heard tell,

What must be done to maintain the wall?

She of my wives the first to arrive,

Her ashes so sweet we must mix in the lime.

4

Light summer nights; northern glimmer opened swiftly on spectacular dawns and shrill birds. More phrases, overheard or plucked from books: Fearful Outcome, First Equerry, The Great Gate of Kiev, Unnatural Practices. Masturbation gave access to further delights, though, when boasting to a stable-lad, his crude rejoinder showed these were not unique.

I read greedily about the French Revolution, more engrossed with chance episodes than in principles: M. Dutart, arrested on suspicion of being suspect; Mirabeau’s thunder; citizens denouncing themselves, transfixed by the bright glow of Sainte Guillotine. The Revolutionary Calendar was beautiful: Month of Buds, Month of Flowers, Meadow Month, Harvest Month.

Less instructive was school, a modernized hunting lodge for sons of Germanic gentry. Later, I must go to the Domschule at Reval, then to the German-dominated Tartu University. Lessons were strict and dull. I had no intimates, no enemies, desired neither promotion nor demotion, sat secure in private knowledge.Yet my fellows were pleasant, their parents family friends, always meeting at picnics, tennis, sailings down the Sound. Girls were aloof, guarded by Swedish nannies, at tennis moving with straight legs. What were they like? Impossible to ask. Paintings, statues might deceive, books were evasive, movies out of reach.

For companions I preferred coarse estate trainees, who, dodging work, would join me swimming, riding, climbing. Mihkel, Aadu, Juri. They asked my help in writing or reading German, sometimes asking about the Reich’s New Order.

On long summer afternoons families sailed to ‘Ogygia Island’, for wine, roaming cliffs and rocks, children’s games, the wide sands tropical in intensity of light. I began stories: ‘Es war einmal …’

Mother promised me a trip across water to Helsinki, always forgetting to do so, though apt to speak as if we had already been there. I had seen Reval and admired the copper spires.We stayed at the Lion d’Or, near Catherine the Great’s Kadriov Palace. ‘She added twenty-five thousand versts to her empire,’ Father said. ‘You might not consider this womanly restraint.’

Days were familiar but not monotonous. In the library Father would be reading, reading, reading, Mother entertaining friends, as if dreading loneliness, though loneliness, I now knew, was not the same as being alone. Pahlen would have understood. Then a hand might descend on my shoulder. The Herr General and Caspar had returned from Reval, Warsaw, Berlin, requesting, as he put it, the honour of my company. He knew my eagerness for tales of the Wide World. General Skobelov ordering himself to be whipped to death by ladies in a ‘Moscow hotel’.

Together we observed April wood-sorrel under fresh leaves, blue speedwell, mayflies quivering above greeny-white water, the November heron. He spoke of marshy Estonian humour, adding that we could well do without it. He described the Teutonic Knights and hunger for the East, hitherto dangerous for Germany. ‘It will need a fiery dragon to extirpate it.’

Unable to recognize ‘extirpate’, I imagined him commanding the Right Wing, dispersing communists and Germany’s eastern enemies with a flick of a whip, like an English lord. That he could ever undergo Rising Tide was unthinkable. He often laughed at himself but with the stance of one who could easily afford it. ‘Our Herr General is a poet.’ Father’s voice was inexpressive.

The Herr General stood with me, while birds rustled, the sky blue pieces between leaves. He shrugged at a passing woodman, bowed, trudging, saluting him like a teacher compassionate to a pupil under detention.

‘Swedes once ruled here, better than our animal knights, prisoners of the toxic. I’ve heard a farmer sigh for what he called the Golden Swedes, as if he remembered them himself. Later, these regions were mutilated in Peter’s Great Northern War with Sweden. This was the Great Wrath. Forests in flames, fields blackened, all towns destroyed, except Reval. Kalmuks, Peter’s delight but most primitive of the eastern hordes, he ordered to stamp down any survivals. People, beasts, plants. His generalissimo soon boasted that nothing remained to destroy. He was the only cock left crowing from Lake Peipus to the Gulf of Riga. We Germans supported the Tsar, to maintain our position.’

The Great Wrath. Peasants’ ears and noses severed in heaps. I shivered in delicious horror, glad that Europe would never again endure such pain. But what was toxic?

The Herr General’s eyes, clear blue, occasionally grey, gazed beyond the hedge. ‘The Estonians clung to us like burrs, though we despised them as Mischling, which you can render as Inferior Stock.’ Elder-brother smile. ‘During the delicate, high-stepping era of Lermontov, Mozart, Scott, Goethe, the peasants were actually imploring us not to renounce rights to flog them. They regarded this as a sort of love, as wives did their men’s brutality. Inferior Stock was becalmed in what I call Africa: animal, instinctive, stagnant. Estonian children could be sold for a handful of roubles, a bottle of vodka or kaas, for a cartwheel, a hound of suspect breeding, even for an old pipe.With post-war native independence, we Germans have had to share some of the cake.’

His voice, deep, fluent, could also change colour. Now it darkened. ‘These people, with their little parliament, busy agrarian unions, their pretty army, are learning to organize. We must remember to look over our shoulders.’

Involuntarily, I did so, made foolish by his pretence of not noticing but knowing I must reconsider our servants and retainers. There was frequent talk of Estonians on farms confiscated from the High Folk but behaving more harshly.

The Herr General gently pressed my arm. ‘Other matters may, quite soon, concern you more directly.You could see butcher-boy Stalin fulfilling Tsar Peter’s testament. He directed that Russia should expand without conscience, at whatever cost. One way of uniting Europe.’

We were walking back. ‘My great-grandfather, Erich, a privy councillor at the Russian court, desired universities, academies, high schools, but to exclude offspring of cooks, washerwomen, cobblers, fishmongers, domestics and Jews. He was killed, probably very justly, during the Polish rebellion.’

5

Foreign names were being repeated, greeted with disdainful pouts, approving nods, difficult silences. Colonel Beck, General Franco, Litvinov, Chamberlain – the English Mr J’aime Berlin. Prague, Memel, Danzig, Geneva, the League. England, Mother was told, reproachfully, coveted military bases in Estonia, possibly to pass to Russia in an anti-German deal. I might have English cousins selling Gulf harbours in a spirit of fun. In sly attentiveness, I heard talk of Russia preparing to attack Finland.

In America, realm of gangsters and huge cars, a youth, in protest of having been born, was suing his parents.

Father was speaking even less, Mother chattered like a hungry bird or Mr Churchill. The Herr General, though preparing for another journey, another adventure, sat with us, intervening only when asked to, as arguments flowed between faces ageing and well-fed.

‘Four prima donnas descending on Munich, eh? Well, we’ll hear whatever they choose to tell us.’

‘A city for the cultured drinker. For ladies, too expensive. First-class toys. And down at Schwabing, despite the squalor, you’ll find attempts at genuine art. Some mysticism, very elementary.’

The Munich Crisis bottled up a new war.We heard on the wireless the Reichsmarschall address the Czechs. ‘I pledge my word of honour that we only want better relations between us.’

Our spring came early, a scherzo of satiny buds, waterside harebells, swallows darting into reeds. But, without warning, two neighbouring families departed to Germany, leaving their estates for sale. Our own friends. Tenants began emigrating, or fleeing to Poland, abandoning their leases. A visitor informed us that the White Lady of Padiski had been seen trailing through a ballroom, an apparition foretelling trouble unless she carried a cowslip.

Mother trilled with gaiety. ‘So tell me, Joseph, what was she carrying?’

‘Nothing, dearest lady. Nothing at all.’

Yesterday, amid snowstorms, the German army had seized Czechoslovakia. Back with us in green and brown riding attire and a regimental tie certainly not Estonian, the Herr General joined us in the Small Drawing-Room, sitting, slightly apart by the fire, as if in a stage-box, while others closed in over schnapps and dispute.

A paunched, spade-bearded old gentleman, Alpine climber, President of the Ritterschaft, Court of Honour of the Baltic Nobility, grunted like a badger. ‘Should it come …’ he dropped the words, rather than passing them, ‘our interests will be respected. The Führer needs us. We, it may appear, need him. The country, too, of course. He’s scarcely the last word in culture, but he knows his own mind about the Soviet eczema.’

‘Tonight he sleeps in Prague. Castle of the Bohemian Kings. Queer contrast. But he’s not the worse of our continent’s afflictions.’

‘Questionable means, I suppose. Nevertheless, Bismarck himself … But we can trust him not to distribute bon-bons to those we need not name.’

‘Lithuania should surrender Memel. That can only strengthen us against the Bear. I understand that the good gentlemen in Reval have rejected the Kremlin’s guarantee of frontiers.’

‘Rightly so. That Georgian cannibal’s lost in a swamp, having butchered his officer corps and party élite. Scoundrels devour scoundrels as France so often showed, while showing little else. God be praised, the Reds have never been weaker. The Estonian Parliament, where foolishness is not unknown, at least knows how to treat communism. But an ungrateful lot. Dr Goebbels maintains that grumbling is the soul shitting. Not how his wife would express it, or so I suppose.With my own ears I heard …’ His ears, high and pointed as a goblin’s.

‘Those that live by the sword, Kurt … for once the Saviour’s text may be amply justified, apparently in Finland. If we ourselves must choose between Bear and Wolf …’

‘But is there a choice, Bruno? Our little Burgomaster, Päts …’

‘The choice is within our grasp. Perfect chalice, I could say Grail, Baltic independence, whatever the Finnish digression, suits the Great Powers. Cordon sanitaire, to put it so. The newspaper public is fatalistic, waiting for something to happen, while the lout in Moscow, the booming patrician in Washington, my Lord Halifax and the rest, dangle their gifts, few though they may be.’

The slabbed, mottled features grimaced as if over a chosen cigar, and still the Herr General warmed his hands, silent, but attentive as the voice continued. ‘Europe manoeuvres, it scarcely evolves. In its disunity is our safety. The Wolf cannot mate with the Bear, so smaller creatures can sit in the sun. But conceivably the time of lean kine and glutton philosophy is ending. So …’

Though he was wholly ignored, I suddenly fancied that Herr Max, formally black and white, dispensing liqueurs, had become more eavesdropper than servant. Then, exhausted, the chipped faces curved in one motion to the big man by the fire.

The Herr General’s nod was deceptively apologetic. ‘I have long had the notion, it would be presumptuous to call it more, but simple, and vital as a comma.Your newspaper public, Luther’s Herr Omnes, remains in astrological time, while dependent on science. The mystique of stars, oaths, flags, numbers … to escape this would be genuine revolution, not yet accomplished, barely attempted. And in any age, life had convinced me that history is maintained by a Ten Per Cent Factor. About this proportion passionately loves art, religion, charity. The equivalent is equally passionate in hating them. The remainder drift, at behest of fashion and leadership. This clarifies contemporary events, and, since you were discussing choice, surely this is already made. The lean kine are selected for requisite disposal.’

Though his manner was negligent, tolerant, unassertive, the eyes, so blue in the lofty, mobile face, were hard, as if summing up before sentence.

‘Latvia and, should it survive, Finland will submit to Russia in what is courteously called Mutual Assistance.’ His gesture was that of crumpling paper. Someone began, ‘And Germany …’

‘Ah.’ The pause was calculated, and, at several conflicting voices, Herr Max stooped to hear, almost to participate.

‘A hand on the tiller, General.Well and good, now that London and Paris relinquish the race and Washington declines to compete. Yet, if Hitler moves against the Soviets, who gets crushed in the middle?’

‘Amongst others, the League, endlessly disputing not only the righteousness of force but its validity. Civilization too readily assumes that people are rational.’

The Herr General looked aside, to the stags and shields carved along the fireplace. ‘A hand on the tiller? To cleave to that is better than writing of feelings one has never possessed.’

Further talk led to ‘the Italian bag of noise’, but I was confused, merging this with my private scraps of knowledge: Forest Uncle, Pahlen, der Alte Friedrich, Robespierre’s tinted spectacles – ‘He who trembles is Guilty’ – the disappearance of my favourite house-maid and a bloodied mass of feathers outside the possessed cowshed. Safely in bed, I thought of the girl who ran, now naked, speeding through moonlight, invitation to fondle myself, frantic for pursuit and deliverance.

6

That summer, 1939, not Stalin but Herr Hitler first signed non-aggression promises, safeguarding Estonia and Latvia. Did anyone sign promises of aggression? Russian threats to Finland got louder, and, in one rumour, the Red Army had crossed the frontier. Britain and France promised help but were only permitting a few anti-Russian demonstrations and counter-demonstrations. Hitler could still rescue the Finns from his lifelong enemy. The Reichsmarschall, papers announced, had assured all Germans that, should war ever come, he had rendered their skies totally immune to attack.

That summer was exciting and frightening as fire. I see from afar the downfall of the Fighting Gods. Few people turned up for picnics; at school, many were absent. To my question about a dark-haired boy to whom I owed a kroon, the gym sergeant merely shrugged. ‘People of that sort, my good Erich, are advised to leg it.’

Our servants, like the villagers, were very quiet – like, Herr Max grumbled, gamblers pondering their next move. A traditional tavern song was given a new twist, changing romance to danger.

Why are these Lords so debonair?

Why are these Ladies so fair?

From our sweat they are debonair,

It is our hands that made them so fair.

Adults were edgier. The Herr General was always crossing frontiers, on return reporting international tensions. Then, blue August exploded, demolishing political experts, professors, wireless commentators. Faces burst open with the volte-face of the Hitler–Stalin Pact, two signatures achieving the impossible.

Bear and Wolf had lain down together, almost in the next room. But surely not. Throughout my life they had almost deafened Europe with their hatred. Summer was not winter, mountains did not dance, despite the dazzling psalm.Yet the experts were rushing back, with instances of previous Nazi–Communist collaboration against the Weimar Republic. Words, words. The old nation-states must, a voice declared, be merged in a new international order.

For myself, however, wine had changed to water in a fifth season under nameless stars and a square moon. I would never forget the stricken faces of Father and his friends, chapped by a sudden evil miracle, glints on those of servants usually impassive. Even the dogs seemed anxious, silence was everywhere, the silence actually heard when I intruded upon talk about myself. Mother, no longer flirtatious, glanced unhappily from side to side as if seeking help.

That week could have been memorial to the Great Wrath, the beheading of King Louis, King Charles, the charge into the Bastille, the snow crushing Napoleon. In a few days newspapers were reporting German Reds who had fled to Russia for protection, now being surrendered to the Gestapo.

Each day more worried, Father said nothing, but at last the Herr General returned with a smile like a pat on the shoulder and, unusually, a kiss for Mother.

‘The Pact? Both gentlemen think they know what they’re about. Each believes that the other does not. Only one is correct. But rest content. Presidents, dictators, demagogues have only short leaseholds. Then energy evaporates, they rest on their oars, the mandate of heaven is withdrawn. These ill-bred fellows – Hitler, Stalin – will follow them.’

‘Not altogether a promise of immediate happiness,’ Father told me, before bed. But next day was again crowded with visitors, who had heard of the Herr General’s presence. They sat in the sunlit garden, like students, dependent on him. He was soothing, damping fires, larger than usual, rock in the dissolving landscape.

‘We all remember 1918, Balts pleading for our Kaiser to defend them from the Bolsheviks. Today, things are more complex, more exacting. Herr von Ribbentrop – I understand that he borrowed the von from a better-born aunt to gratify his ambitious wife – his personality is that of a half-drowned slug. I do not advise you to place bets on his winning the prize. He is now welcomed in Moscow as guarantor of Soviet survival, a recognition of German supremacy. He was greeted by a Red band playing the Nazi ‘Horst Wessel’ jingle, honouring, I recall, a pimp. A poignant occasion!’

‘General, you know these things. In accepting the Asiatics, Mesolithic in appearance and taste, the Reich must have taken secret precautions. Still, when all’s said and done … our own position here …’

‘I remember Hindenburg, whose von was impeccable, once saying that he needed Baltic territory to secure his left wing in the next war. Today, Baltic security remains essential for German military stability. Stalin, of course, wants the Baltic States, not only for defence of Leningrad but as the recovery of stolen goods, valuable for his empire. The Pact itself is important only because it will convince Britain and France of the futility of resistance to the Reich. After that …’

He paused, the grown-up tantalizing us with promise of a treat.

‘General, you mention Ribbentrop. He skated in competitions. Canadian! To those lacking, shall we say, the higher taste, he still sells champagne too easily mistaken for syrup.’

Father and Mother were sitting in the best chairs, hospitable but very quiet, idols of the peaceful afternoon, while voices quickened.

‘Surely the Kremlin was careless in disregarding Britain’s need for Estonian independence. London sinks money here, like mine-shafts. A form of colonialism, for which, as they themselves say, we pay through the nose.Yet, their support for Poland …’

‘English exports certainly require the survival of weak, anachronistic nations. Russia and Germany do not.’

The speaker, an elderly squire, Uncle Johann, gave Mother an apologetic smile, as if exports were her personal relations, while I thought of Dick Whittington or of some Lord Warwick sinking gold coins deep into Estonia.

At mention of England, a tiny shadow had crossed Mother’s face under its pale gold fringe. She was very youthful amongst those figures, men and women alike – save for Father and the Herr General – seasoned, slightly rotting.