Anomal E-Book

Silveer Niehaus

• Herausgeber: tredition
• Kategorie: Abenteuer, Thriller, Horror
• Sprache: Englisch
• Veröffentlichungsjahr: 2024

Seitenzahl: 263

Beschreibung

What happens behind closed doors shall not be seen by the public eye. Stefan, a boy who suffers from decidophobia, fell victim to the system of a mental hospital and finds his life at risk. Alongside his friends, Claire and Luuk, he breaks free from the chains of enclosure and goes on an escape across Germany with the aim of getting home. On their way, the trio encounters numerous challenges that put their psyche to the test. They either have to face their fear or receive a one-way ticket back to where they cam from. The reader gets to experience the everyday world through the eyes of a mentally ill person which shed a light on how differently people can perceive the world around them. The characters are written with character traits that are understandable and easy to relate to but allow for a deep insight into their characteristics and thought processes. This novel is written in a way that people who usually don't read book can enjoy but it does not fall short on little details and connections that only experienced readers might catch on their second read.

Leseprobe

Silveer Niehaus

Anomal

The Sanatorium Runaways

© 2021-2024 Silveer Niehaus

ISBN Softcover: 978-3-384-12471-5

ISBN Hardcover: 978-3-384-12472-2

ISBN E-Book: 978-3-384-12473-9

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Contents

Cover

Title Page

Copyright

Chapter 1: Marked by Fear

Chapter 2: The Beginning of a Long Journey

Chapter 3: There are No Borders

Chapter 4: Every Step is Important

Chapter 5: Nowhere to Hide

Chapter 6: Unplanned Stay

Chapter 7: New Enemies

Chapter 8: Luuk

Chapter 9: Different or the Same?

Chapter 10: A Warm, Home-Made Meal

Chapter 11: The Way Ahead

Chapter 12: The Breaking Point

Chapter 13: Carefree

Chapter 14: Claire

Chapter 15: The Guardian Angel

Chapter 16: Stefan

Epilogue

Acknowledgements

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Copyright

Chapter 1: Marked by Fear

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Chapter 1: Marked by fear

Me. Just me alone. I spend hours upon hours, days upon days, months upon months in this very building, just because my parents thought that I am problematic. Trapped in a different country at the age of sixteen, far away from the ones I love. I’m not losing hope to return back home one day, but I can’t say when this is going to happen. I love remembering the time when I was free. Not surrounded by four brick walls. Enjoying life, growing up, being freed of any kind of problems but this isn’t the life I have been living ever since I turned fourteen. My parents didn’t know what to do with me and thus I have become an inmate of this prison about two years ago. But I am not a person with any malicious intent. I am not a criminal.

“Stefan! Time for lunch!” says a female voice upon opening the door of my room.

“Already?” I reply, “What’ve you got for me this time?”

I glance at the door behind me, while sitting on my bed.

“I ordered french fries and a schnitzel with a mushroom cream sauce for you.” the overseer says. A woman with a golden heart. Her name is Leonie and just like me she’s from Germany. Unlike others she takes good care of the problems I have and treats me like her own child. Our health is what keeps her going. It is what keeps her heart beating, so she can help us overcome our problems.

“So, are you coming?” Leonie asks. I put on my slippers and follow her into the dining room. It’s not until late evening that I am able to lay in bed again. Knowing that going into the dining room is a heavy task for me every day and the mere thought that the day is about to start does not sit right with me. It is a chore that drags on and drains all my energy. Lunchtime is the only time when the patients from all three districts meet, comparable to meeting up with friends at school. Inside this madhouse you can’t really have many social interactions with different people, so everyone is taking this one chance during the day to meet up with other patients even though our freedom is very restricted. No matter where you look, there is always at least one security guard watching you. Not to mention the portraits on the walls that give me goosebumps even after two years.

“I told the other overseers to bring your friends to table seven.” Leonie says with a smile on her face. Seeing her smile fills me with joy. I thank her and go the table. The warm feeling of security does not last long though, since the amount of monitoring intimidates me every time I step through the door. The portrait on the northern side of the dining room is the most harrowing thing. Lucifer Madieu, the founder of the mental hospital Madieu in Odense, Denmark. But I know this man as the person who established a high-security-prison for mentally ill people. On TV he represents himself as the White Knight who acts for the good of all people but in reality, he more closely resembles a stone-cold ruler whose true intentions are unknown to us. His “heroism” is nothing more than a facade trying to trick us. It is our pain -our unhappinessthat keeps him going! A disgusting creature! If our therapy does not achieve the expected results within a certain amount of time, the methods used switch to a destructive extreme. It goes as far as involving so called “aggrandized therapy methods”. There were patients who I haven’t seen for multiple days at their regular place and once they had returned, they were traumatized. These people seemed like patients from the third district afterwards. Nobody knows what causes these “aggrandized therapy methods” to be implemented into one’s therapy plan as well as what exactly they are, since nobody wants to share their experiences.

Anyway, once again I’m taking a seat and wait for my lunch. Barely a minute later I can welcome Claire to the table. Long black hair, one eye covered up by it, dressed up in black, skin as white as a sheet. Truly a beauty, especially when viewed in the right light and that’s exactly her problem. Photophobia -the fear of lightthat is what she has to deal with. Always equipped with the black umbrella which she holds towards every light source. Someone like her will never feel comfortable in a room like this. White walls, huge windows towards the south and the sun shining brightly and lighting up the room. Almost unimaginable that her parents sent her all the way from France. Claire is eighteen years old and a patient from the first district. Her fears are taking quite a toll on her mentally but she poses no danger to other people, unlike me. I am from the second district and that alone is anything but good. Patients from the second district can go absolutely crazy when confronted with their fear or, in other words, we pose a danger towards our surroundings. It was not because of a murder that I was sent here but rather because of my violent outbursts which led to my father ending up in the hospital one day. But it was their fault because they always made me face decisions. That is my fear. I suffer from decidophobia, the fear of decisions. From day to day, I feel how my stay in this building is dragging me down. I am not making any progress. Kind of ironic that I have not faced these “aggrandized therapy methods” yet but I do not want to complain. As usual, Claire is sitting in front of me.

“So,” I open the conversation, “what’s on the plan today?”

“The usual,” she responds, “but I can finally call my parents again.

Might make going through the day worth it after all.”

It’s nice to see that her parents have not abandoned her. Not everyone shares that lucky fate.

“Sounds good!” I reply, “I’d like to as well but, you know, only people from the first district can.”

“Sorry. I didn’t want to remind you of your bad situation.” she mumbles with a slight tone of shame in her voice.

I begin to smile, lean over and whisper to her, “Hey, they’ll change up my therapy methods today. Maybe I’ll get a shot at getting into the first district within the next couple of weeks. Seems worth it to me, honestly.”

The horror solidifies in Claires face.

With a squeamish voice she asks, “They’ll change your therapy methods? Stefan, they are talking about the ‘aggrandized therapy methods’, don’t you realize?”

Part of me is aware about this but I am still hopeful that everything will turn out differently. The eastern door of the dining room opens, and all eyes wander to the person stepping in since every patient from this part of the building is something like a celebrity in this hospital of sorts. Every patient stepping through this door is from the third district. It does not get any worse than this. Overseers need to take care of them twenty-four hours a day since they pose a threat to themselves and others, or, to be upfront about it, these people are ticking time bombs. The thought that they are allowed to dine at the same time as us is still odd to me. Unlike us, their overseers and a security guard come into the room alongside the patient. Both of them received a special training to deal with these people to ensure total control over the patient at all times. If either me or Claire would go crazy, one of the general security guards would take the necessary measures to ensure everyone’s safety. This usually includes assisting the patient out of the dining room. Patients from the third district on the other hand will be stopped with the full force of the special security guard within two seconds and their overseer administers strong sedatives that can even lead to a coma. To prevent us from getting on each other’s nerves without even realizing, everyone wears a nametag where not only the name but our mental illness is written on in its technical thermology, Danish, English and German. One third of the patients are connected to Germany in some way and either speak the language or understand it so it makes sense. All of my friends speak German but on the other hand I do not have a lot of friends. Then again one of them is actually stepping through this door at this very moment. His name is Luuk and like the others from his district he’s closely followed by his overseer and a security guard, which are a necessity for him. He’s only eleven years old and suffers from panophobia, the fear of everything. Nobody can imagine the pain he has to endure. It’s a miracle that he even spends his time with us, let alone calls us his friends. Continuously shaking, he advances towards our table and takes a seat next to Claire. She lays her arm around him, and he nestles in her clothes. He’s not even doing that on his overseer. Claires must be very special to him.

“Hey Luuk,” I say in hopes of relaxing him, “everything going smoothly?” He lets loose his firm grip on Claire and nods. He asks quietly, “Could you decide on what to eat today?”

I sit back relaxed and respond, “Do I look like a guy making decisions?”

Claire starts to giggle.

“Leonie does that shit for me.” I assure Luuk. He looks worried anyhow, since, for one, he cannot remember the name of my overseer and he was caught off-guard by my vulgar vocabulary.

Luuk’s overseer looks down angrily and reacts with a slightly enraged tone, “Language, young man!”

I glance at Claire. She smiles while petting Luuk’s back. Luuk does not seem to be able to release his tense. Only Claire is able to relax the little one but before I can leave a word about that, the head chef comes forth and brings out lunch. I have to give the hospital some credit for the food. It is appropriate and the comfort covers all the basic needs considering the chef herself brings the food to the table. A nice traditional schnitzel with a mushroom cream sauce, french fries and still water. One day I’d like to try a semi-dry wine, but they don’t hand alcohol to us and even if they would do that, they would probably restrict it to patients from the first district. These people enjoy the most freedom, no doubt about it. I am looking at Claires lunch and it seems to be some french specialty of sorts. I have given up on trying to decipher her meals to be honest, because she once started to talk about frogs and snails and that’s where I draw the line. It looks kind of green so it could just be vegetarian, but I don’t want to risk anything, so I keep the questions to myself. Luuk on the other hand takes the crown once again. Plain wet noodles. No sauce either and he is still so afraid of his food, he barely manages to swallow it. He sure is an odd little boy. Noodles can strangle him, he can drown on soups and sauces, he can cut himself on the edges of a Pizza or my personal favorite: sparkling drinks make your tongue dissolve. His statements are on another level, but I should not comment on that any further.

Out of the blue, Claire asks a question that is not directed to me but rather Luuk’s overseer, “When the staff tells us that they are going to change our therapy methods, do they mean that they are considering the ‘aggrandized therapy methods’?” My eyes roll upwards to get Claire into my view. The overseer seems surprised. As soon as we notice, the looks of Luuk and me pressure her even further. I know Claire’s intention exactly.

“Well …” the overseer stutters, “it depends on how long the therapy showed no advancements.”

Claire nods and continues, “Let’s say there wasn’t any progress in the last two years …”

“I am not allowed to give further information!” the overseer interrupts nervously.

Claire’s judging stare wanders towards me. I would like to avoid any eye-contact but as soon as I see Luuk’s face, I realize that even he caught wind of it. The mood reaches an all-time low. Everyone is aware of the fact that something is going to happen to me after lunch. My imagination is going wild, and every bite is becoming harder and harder to take. Lunchtime is over and Leonie escorts me into the therapy room. I cannot relax, not even in her presence. I wonder what Claire and Luuk might be thinking right now. Claire might be endlessly worried, but Luuk probably has enough problem to deal with on his own, I believe. After all, he is afraid of everything. We are sitting down but instead of the usual routine, Leonie is taking out a syringe.

She looks towards me, shows me the syringe, and says, “If you had a choice this time, it’d be an easy one for you.”

I am leaning my head to the side like a confused dog and before I can count to three, Leonie grabs my arm and injects the entire dose into my body.

With tears in her eyes, she walks towards the door and says, “I’ll be back, when you want it the least.”

The door closes and I am alone. Minutes later I feel the effect of the medicament if it even was one. I feel an angel, who reclaimed its freedom. It is indescribable, but then it happens. My emotions crash to the lowest point in an instant. I feel awful like a corpse in the middle of the room. At this moment I see the door opening with Leonie standing in the door frame, but she is not alone. She is accompanied by two men in black coats alongside Lucifer Madieu in person. He and Leonie are taking a seat at the wall to my left. I am raising my arm towards Leonie but one of the two men in the black coats grabs and immobilizes me.

Lucifer Madieu is looking down on me with his uppity look as if he was a god.

“Well then,” he speaks with a tone reminiscent of a snooty king, “Stefan Ackerheim, we will hereby change your therapy methods.” The medicament puts a strain on my concentration, I can barely listen to him.

He continues, “These are Ruben and Charles, your new therapists. These two gentlemen are specialists of my ‘aggrandized therapy methods’. If you work with us rather than against us, you’ll be a new person in no time. Afterwards, you will return to your regular schedule with your overseer Leonie Mattberg.”

I can read the fear in Leonie’s face. The fear of me being harmed. Afterwards I suffered through the hardest day of my life. Not only did I undergo a test therapy for two hours that already was painful, but a doctor stitched a chip on my back which can send out electro shocks on command. My clothes have been bugged so I have to be aware of what I say all the time. They are trying to prevent me from speaking out, so this therapy does not make any waves around the hospital. If that happens the word can get out in the open. They do not want the public to know. I’m waking up. Sweat is covering my entire body. My back hurts. This chip is very uncomfortable but scratching it off is no option. The pain is simply too much. Leonie is sitting next to my bed. Her eyes stare down to the ground and in her hands she is holding a bowl of porridge.

She notices that I am awake and says, “Here. Eat. For the time being you won’t eat in the dining room. You have to get used to your therapy.”

I shake my head indignantly and shout, “Getting used to this?! No way I’m getting used to this!! Are you crazy?! I was laying on the ground and they basically stomped on me!!!”

“I know, Stefan.”

“And the two hours yesterday were just for testing! How long is the regular therapy?!”

“Eight hours.”

“EIGHT HOURS?!?!”

“It’s not easy, I know. If you go along, it’ll be over faster.” “Go along?! What’ll be left of me at the end?!”

“There is no alternative, Stefan!”

“YOU CAN DIG MY GRAVE IF THAT GOES ON FOR THAT

LONG!!!” I shout with all the strength of my voice. Even my lungs start to hurt. Leonie freezes in place. I instantly regret my words, since moments after she breaks out in tears. I feel ashamed of myself.

I don’t know how to comfort sad women but then she mumbles a name, “David.”

Surprised, I ask who that David is.

She looks back up to me and recounts, “Before you were sent here, I was taking care of another boy. His name was David. I pulled through the therapy with him just like they told me to, but when they decided that he wasn’t achieving the necessary progress, he had to undergo the ‘aggrandized therapy methods’ as well. To this day I blame myself for being too easy on him because he only withstood three days before taking all his clothes, knotting them together and … and …” She tears up again.

I am too curious to let loose at this point and ask, “And? And?! What happened? Tell me!”

Leonie is taking a deep breath, stares straight into my eyes and elaborates, “Stefan, David killed himself. He knotted all his clothes together took a chair, that once stood here, and hung himself.” I do not understand anything anymore. My room has been a crime scene for all this time, but I need to know more.

“What about the image of the hospital? The public knows, right? You can’t just sweep it under the rug!” I ask in shock.

Leonie shakes her head and answers, “The public knows nothing. Not a single detail. We told the patients that David was released. His mother has been put under pressure. She can’t tell anybody. She was very poor and Lucifer Madieu threatened to take her to court if she speaks up. He even took the time to travel to her and announce David’s death personally. Not once did he mention the ‘aggrandized therapy methods’ but that wasn’t for any formal reasons. He didn’t want to take the risk. This secret can’t leave this hospital. And that is David’s story.”

I cannot believe it. This mental hospital killed somebody and does not shy away from hiding it, so their image does not get hurt. I realize one thing: I have to run away, no matter the cost.

Leonie stands up and explains, “I’ll be back in two minutes with Ruben and Charles. We’ll start your therapy.”

She leaves the room but does not close the door. An opportunity I must take. From my room I can look straight down the hallway into the dining room. There are two big windows on the door to the dining room and luck seems to be on my side, since I see Claire standing right in front of them. She seems to be worried about me. I cannot yell anything across the hallway, since Leonie is on the other end and I do not want to risk any punishment on top of the therapy. Instead, I use the finger alphabet, that Claire once taught me, to transmit a message. I spell “Help” as fast as I can, since I have limited time on hand but Claire can barely respond. One of the security guards is escorting her back to her seat when she just spelled, “Ok, I will”. I do not know what she has planned but there is no time to think about this, since I am starting to hear footsteps and the voices of Ruben and Charles. I rush back into my room, devour all the porridge and hope that nobody saw anything. As soon as I see Leonie, Ruben and Charles standing in the door frame, they command me got get up and come with them. I have no other choice, so I force myself out of bed and follow their orders. The standard therapy is even worse than the procedure from yesterday but before I can even realize it, I am back in my bed. Bathed in sweat and baptized by fear. There is no person on earth I wish upon the suffering I am going through right now. I take a look at the clock. My perception has not returned to me just yet but from what I can gather it is 11 p.m. I close my eyes and everything becomes very quiet until I clearly hear the lock on my door. I get startled and want to hide myself, but I cannot move my body an inch. The door opens and Claire steps into my room. To my surprise she is wearing a jacket and is equipped with a backpack.

She looks straight at me and says, “We will break out. Tonight.”

I feel a sense of relief paired with a breeze of happiness. I am starting to feel hopeful again.

“Alright then, let’s go!” I say but as soon as I get on my feet I start to tumble over. A side effect of the therapy.

“We’re waiting till 1 a.m., Stefan.” Claire says, “You should feel better by then and the security guards might be a bit sleepy at this point.”

I nod. Claire closes the door, packs all the necessities with me and gets ready for our great escape.

Chapter 2: The Beginning of a long journey

At exactly 1 a.m. Claire opens the door and checks if the coast is clear. She waves me to the door, and we sprint down the hall nimbly straight to the staircase. Her hair flutters towards me. It looks so beautiful, I almost want to fall into a trance but now is not the time for that since we have to get out of here. We open the door to the staircase, enter it and close the door immediately.

Claire grabs my arm and says in a serious tone, “We run to the first floor, get into the staff’s changing room and steal some random car keys. After that we run up to the roof and rope down along the wall. Did you get all that?”

I am perplexed for a moment, but I nod and run as fast as I can to the ground floor alongside Claire. That is where we have to face our first hurdle. To get to the changing room we have to get past the reception and it is manned twenty-four hours a day. Luckily the woman at the reception desk looks tired. She seems to be working a double-shift already. Thanks to the architecture of the room, we get closer to the desk. As quietly as possible we sneak past the reception without getting noticed and get into the changing room. Claire takes out a hair clipper, opens the first locker she sees and takes the car keys inside. In the meantime, I notice footsteps and a conversation between two women. They get louder each second and that is when I realize that the shift of the tired woman ended and someone else is taking over. I get nervous. I look around the room for a place to hide until I catch sight of an open locker. As soon as Claire gets hold of the car keys, I grab her and pull her into the locker along with me. With one hand I keep the door closed and with the other I cover up Claire’s mouth. At first, she fights back but as soon as the door to the changing room opens, her willpower to free herself dwindles. The lights turn on. I’m sweating out of pure fear, my heart beats like crazy and my throat gets really sore. One wrong move and we are done for. The small chat between the two co-workers feels like an eternity but keeping our cool at this intense moment is crucial. Not to mention that the room is fully lit up. If Claire would be standing there without her umbrella, she’d be at the edge of her sanity.

The lights turn off and the co-workers leave the room. We get out of the locker and catch a deep breath.

“Don’t you dare do that again!” Claire reproaches but I do not care. I am rather concerned about the well-awake receptionist on the front desk. How are we supposed to get onto the roof, if we can’t even reach the staircase now? Luckily, Claire has the answer. She takes out a marble and a rubber band, which she uses to slingshot the marble into the bistro for guests. The marble hits a glass door thus making a loud noise, which gains the attention of the receptionist. For a brief moment I think about fleeing through the revolving front door but that is out of the question, since it seems to be powered by an electric motor, which would make way too much noise. Not to mention that it seems like during nighttime the door needs to be activated manually by a switch on the reception desk. We cannot take that risk. All it takes is one little sound to gain her attention and once we are spotted the entire plan falls apart. We stick to the plan with no alterations, even though I would like to claim my freedom as fast as possible. We quietly sprint into the stairwell and run up to the top of the building. Claire opens the door to the roof with her trickery and there we are. This is the closest to freedom I’ve ever been for the past two years. The sweet smell of endless possibilities. A view, that only gets cut out by the horizon. It is truly stunning to look at, considering that I have not seen anything but the same grey rooms and hallways on a daily basis. I’m already feeling free but there is still a long way ahead. This is only the beginning!

While I stare into the wide landscape, Claire has already tied the rope to the ventilation shaft. We are about to go down these walls after all. One might survive a fall from up here with some broken bones but that is nothing that would be beneficial for us in the slightest.

“Marbles, a rubber band … and now you’ve got a rope?” I mention in surprise, “Where did you get all that stuff?”

Claire smiles and responds, “Just some junk people dropped over the years and the rope … yeah, let’s just say, you barely know every corner of this hospital.”

She throws down the rope and we climb along the wall towards the ground. I can almost taste the freedom, that is until I hear Claire say something.

“Stefan, wait up!” she whispers, while staring through a window. “Claire!” I respond, “We have to go! C’mon!”

“Stefan, I can see Luuk!” “Luuk?”

“Yes, Luuk. He’s staring at me.”

“Take a picture then! Now hurry up before someone else sees us!” “Should we leave him behind?”

A decision and a heavy one at that. I can barely think straight. We either flee now and leave Luuk to his fate or we return and get him on board, which also comes at the risk of getting caught. I am just seconds away from yelling at Claire but luckily she takes the word at the right moment.

“Sorry, Stefan. We are going to take him with us, do you understand?” Claire decides without further discussion.

I respond, “Don’t you dare force decisions upon me. Especially right now!”

“You understand?” she repeats in a slightly more serious tone.