Orphan Jim E-Book

Lonnie Coleman

• Herausgeber: Classica Libris
• Kategorie: Gesellschafts- und Liebesromane
• Sprache: Englisch

Veröffentlichungsjahr: 2020

Beschreibung

Trudy, the narrator, calls her brother Orphan Jim when she wants him to get a move on, or to rile him. When their mother dies and their father deserts, the two are on their own, scrambling from one adventure to another as they find their way of surviving the Depression in Alabama in 1932.
A sweet and sad tale, with wonderfully comic moments, Orphan Jim catches the very feel and taste of that time and place. And Trudy is a girl in whom every woman reader will find something true and important, no matter what her background.

Leseprobe

Lonnie Coleman

ORPHAN JIM

Dedication

To James Oliver Brown

Happy days are here again…

          Popular song of the Depression

Chapter 1

Nineteen thirty-two is a long time ago, and the farm where we lived is a long way away. As the years accumulate around me, much is lost to memory, or deliberately set aside, but that time and place grow like a hill that only begins to show its size the farther away from it I go.

I was thirteen. There are no pictures of me, but I must have been an ugly girl. I was runty and built straight up and down: front, back, and sides. I had thick brown hair that never had been cut by anybody but me or Mama, and then just sawed off with dull sewing scissors.

My brother Jim was seven, and Mama had spoiled him, letting him stay a baby as much as it lay in her power to do. Out of her sight I pinched and sometimes pushed and even hit him, not so much to hurt him as to let him know there was such a one as me in this world. I did not like him, but at least he didn’t squawl when I touched him. Mama hadn’t let him go to school when he turned six but taught him herself, what letters and numbers were for, and how to read a little. I could remember when Mama was pretty, but Jim couldn’t; he was too young. She was so wasted away it hurt to look at her by the time the Lord took her in May 1932.

When that happened, Jim was lost; he couldn’t take it in. He’d sit on the floor looking at the chair where she’d spent most of her time, like she’d gone out of the room for a minute and would be right back.

Papa slunk around feeling sorry for himself and not doing any work. Not that there was much to do, for he hadn’t bothered to put in a crop back in the spring when Mama looked to go from one day to the next. I fed the mule with what I could find growing wild he’d eat and we couldn’t. There were a few scrawny chickens that mostly scratched their own living out of the ground. Papa had sold the cow to buy Mama’s coffin. We’d killed the last two hogs way-gone in January. The lard was used up except for a smear and a scrape but if I put my face in the tin tub that had held it, my stomach gripped with pork hunger.

It was hard times right enough. I didn’t know enough to call it “the Depression” as everybody did later, although I’d gone to school regular, even with Mama sick and all. The house had never been anything, three rooms, one with a fireplace. There was a well with a rope so old we didn’t risk drawing a full bucket of water at one time. No road led to us, just wagon tracks with weeds growing thick and tall down the middle; a car had to go fast to get over them without stalling.

Mr. Petrie, who owned our farm, came a few times after Mama died to look around, but Papa was never there. For a while he suspected Papa of hiding from him, but then he believed me. The last time Mr. Petrie came I stood in the door and watched him. He shook his head all the way back from the barn and said to me: “I don’t like to dog a man that’s had bad trouble, but your Pa has let the summer run through his fingers without trying to make up his losses. You tell him I was here and sure didn’t like what I saw.”

“Yes, sir.”

“You tell him to come see me, and I don’t mean maybe.” He walked toward his old Ford, then turned like he wasn’t satisfied he’d said enough. “You all have got to get off my place before winter. I won’t have your Pa here doing nothing.”

I didn’t answer. There didn’t seem to be any more to say, and after fussing to himself over the steering wheel, he backed out over the wagon tracks.

I’d long had the idea, but I vowed then to do it. Go. Not with Papa, not with Jim. I didn’t want anybody to worry about but me, myself, and I.

Of course, I didn’t let on to Papa when he came home other than to tell him what Mr. Petrie had said. Papa almost always came home, but real late, when Jim had gone to bed. He’d appear with his shirttail out, face smeared with dirt or blood, mouth open like he was trying to laugh or had gone half crazy. Sometimes he’d cry and wake Jim up and try to love us, hug us; but that just scared Jim and disgusted me, smelling as Papa did of liquor and sweat and puke. Then he’d say nobody loved him, and it was a fact: nobody did.

One day a black dog came trotting up the wagon tracks, stopped in the yard under our one chinaberry tree, and lifted his head to sniff for food. Jim happened to be standing there like a statue doing nothing, and the dog made friends with him. I was so surprised at Jim’s showing interest in anything I didn’t make an objection when he took the dog around the house to the kitchen door and fed him. There was only corn bread I’d cooked for noon dinner but Jim hadn’t touched and I’d thought we’d save for supper.

In no time he’d named the dog Smut and they were thick as seeds in a sunflower. Smut didn’t make up to me any. When I cooked for us that evening he could tell I wasn’t going to offer him anything. Jim gave him half the peas and corn bread on his plate. That dog thought of nothing but a full gut. I was glad when a week later he sniffed off after a skinny old hound bitch with flies clouding around her butt. Let them drift, I thought, and beg somebody else’s scraps.

But Jim was just distracted. He went hither and yonder calling Smut’s name and whistling for him, but Smut didn’t come. He said to me that evening, “You reckon old Smut will come home after he gets tired of doing it?”

That was the first I knew of Jim’s understanding such matters. He must have picked it up from some boys at Sunday School. Mama had made both of us go, although we had to walk a mile to and from town. I didn’t answer him.

“Trudy, you don’t care if my dog never comes home!” he accused.

“No, I don’t,” I said, and gave him a little push. “Go wash your feet before supper.”

Chapter 2

Every town has at least one self-elected Right Hand of the Lord. Pluma’s was a fat woman with a nest of brown warts on one side of her neck, two ugly grown daughters, and a husband who spent all his time making medicines at the back of the drugstore her father had left them when he died.

Mrs. Rice had time over from family concerns to help others. She bossed the Sunday School and had considerable say-so in the Monday-to-Friday school. She visited the sick with Bible pictures she ordered from Birmingham and gave warnings of destruction to the town drunkards that hung around the train depot. She urged the weak to get some starch into their souls; and she mourned with those who suffered the loss of loved ones. Trouble and death were to her ambrosia, and she never sang so loud and true as she did at a funeral.

Mama didn’t care for her. They’d had a falling-out years before when we lived in town. It had to do with Mama’s not being small-town and Mrs. Rice’s deciding she was stuck-up. Mama had lived in Montgomery, and it was there she’d been courted by Sheldon Maynard, the boy from Pluma who’d left his home town to go be in the Great War. I’ve heard Mama tell he was so good-looking in his soldier suit she didn’t even think, just said yes to whatever he asked her.

The Andersons had been a middling family in Montgomery, neither high nor low. All that was left of them then was Mama and her brother Earl. Now there was Uncle Earl and Aunt Olive and their two children, Lucien and Alice. The war over—and, typically, Papa didn’t even get to France, which I lied about when we read In Flanders Fields in school—he and Mama settled down in Pluma, where Papa worked at the dry goods store owned by Mr. Wadsworth. Nothing much happened to them, I gather, except life, but they didn’t manage that very well. Mama didn’t like small-town ways, with everybody knowing to the minute when she put her clothes on the line and to the penny how much Papa made. Maybe out of fret and boredom she gave herself airs. However that was, she made few friends. Papa left Mr. Wadsworth’s store and tried farming on a place he’d bought with Mama’s little bit of family money. (Uncle Earl had taken the family house; he was in the insurance business in Montgomery.) Papa didn’t know farming, expected things to do themselves, which they don’t, least of all on a farm. So the farm was soon lost and we wound up on that piece of sorry land belonging to Mr. Petrie. Negroes had lived in the house before us, and Mama scoured everything before we moved in.

I don’t blame Mama and Papa, but in the long run it’s better to be ugly and strong than pretty and weak, as they were. You expect less. One of the worst things about failure is that it gives people like Mrs. Rice so much satisfaction. When she first heard Mama was sick, she came out with her Bible pictures and both daughters, and they sat around with their hands in their laps and their eyes going everywhere to count the poorness of the way we lived. Mama discouraged their coming again.

Mrs. Rice had tried to stir up a fuss when Jim didn’t start school at six, first coming to see Mama, who told her pretty quick to mind her business, and then calling me out of class one day to ask me a lot of personal questions. But I took on Mama’s manners, short of being impudent, and gave her nothing to satisfy. The next she had to do with us was Mama’s funeral, where she was in her best singing voice. She also clucked over Jim and me and said she would keep her eye on us.

She did.

We had few visitors, but she came now and then; and because she considered me still a child, went through the house inspecting everything and lifting pot lids on the stove as if it was her perfect right. But I’d long ago learned to keep house. Our beds were neatly made, and I kept a clean kitchen.

Mrs. Rice knew how Papa was about things, and I could see she was just waiting her chance to take us in hand. Like many, she thought the young had no feelings that mattered, and she said to people in town but so I could hear:

“Poor Mrs. Maynard dying of cancer through that sorry man’s neglect! Her children would be better off in the Orphans’ Home.” That’s why I hated her; that’s why I was afraid of her.

It was also from that I got to calling Jim “Orphan Jim” when he was sassy or when he kept too much inside himself like I wasn’t there. It was the only thing I could say that would rouse him.

“I’m not an orphan!” he’d holler.

“Are so!” I’d holler back, spiteful as I could be.

“If I’m an orphan, so are you!”

“Nosiree! I’m a grown girl who can take care of herself, but you’re nothing but a little shirttail orphan! Orphan Jim! Orphan Jim!”

It always wound up with his trying to kick or hit or bite me and with me having to hold him till he got quiet. I wouldn’t turn him loose till he promised not to fight me. Even so, he didn’t always keep his promise.

Because of Mrs. Rice, and because of what Mr. Petrie had said about our getting off his place, I decided now was the time for me to hit the grit and head out from what I’d never thought of as home.

Where?

I could go anywhere I pleased, since there would be only me, and thinking that made me feel big as a tree and free as a frog. I’d just begin walking one day and follow where the wind blew. I’d sleep in the woods or somebody’s bam. When I got hungry I could sweep somebody’s house or wash their dishes for a meal. I’d work for my food and keep my self-respect and freedom to go when and wherever.

Papa had no kinfolk. He was an “orphan” too. My only other kin was Uncle Earl Anderson and his family in Montgomery. They’d all come to Mama’s funeral, but Uncle Earl had come by himself when he had the stone put on Mama’s grave. (He did it because he knew Papa would keep putting it off and couldn’t afford it anyway.)

I considered going to Montgomery because I had never been there. Mama had talked about it, and I was curious to see where she’d been a girl. But it scared me because of Uncle Earl. When he’d come with the gravestone, he had a little talk with me alone. Papa threw up his hands and said yes-go-ahead but not to expect him to stand around and watch a stone put on top of poor Mama. So off he went. I made Jim go with us though, and when it was in place, he squatted by the grave a long time and traced the letters of Mama’s name and the dates of her life with his fingers. It was then Uncle Earl said if we were ever in real bad shape to remember he was Mama’s brother and let him know.

Even as he said it, he looked guilty, and I knew why. I wouldn’t call Uncle Earl the most outgoing and generous man on earth but compared to Aunt Olive he was Santa Claus and Jesus rolled into one. Aunt Olive was a sour, grudging, grumbling woman. She had two topics of conversation: what everything cost and her children. Lucien was a year younger than me, and Alice was a year older than Jim. They hated us, and we hated them the few times they stopped by Pluma in their touring car to spend an hour or two with Mama. Lucien was a sneak, and Alice acted like the sole purpose of her existence was to keep her dress clean.

Maybe I’d hitchhike out to California and be a movie star. Movie stars didn’t have to be pretty. Look at Marie Dressier and Polly Moran. I’d never seen a picture show. There wasn’t one in Pluma or any place near. But we all knew about movie stars because some of the older girls brought movie magazines with them to school. Maybe I’d head for New York, where all the rich people lived. It was enough for the moment to know I could go. Papa would have to take hold of himself with me gone and look after Jim. Anyway, that wasn’t my concern; I wasn’t Jim’s mama. I would have to go before school started in September, and that was soon.

Then, lo and behold, Papa just up and left us.

I didn’t worry when he stayed out the first night; he’d done that plenty of times since Mama died. But when he didn’t come home in the morning, nor all that day, I got fidgety, and when the second and third nights came and went without him, I walked into town by myself without telling Jim why. I went straight to the depot and asked the men who loafed around the steps when they’d last seen Papa. He always headed for them, I knew, when he went in, knowing they were no better than he was. They didn’t tell me anything helpful. I went to the dry goods store and asked Mr. Wadsworth, but he hadn’t seen Papa.

So I went back home, worrying. We had a little meal and a little flour and some salt pork and the chickens. A few peas and squash and tomatoes were still bearing in the garden. But that was all.

Of course the news got around. I couldn’t very well ask about Papa without people saying we didn’t know where he was. So I wasn’t surprised next day when Mrs. Rice drove up in her car with the school principal, Miss Ada Hopper. They got out and because of Miss Ada I asked them politely to come in. Jim tried to slip away, but I told him to stay, and for once he minded.

“Where’s your daddy?” Mrs. Rice asked, all innocence.

“He’s not home,” I told her.

“When was he home last?” she then asked, and when I didn’t answer, she gave a quick look to Miss Ada and added, “You mean you can’t remember?”

“Yes, ma’am,” I said. “A day or so ago.”

“Don’t you know where he is, Gertrude?” Miss Ada asked me.

I wouldn’t hedge with Miss Ada. She was a severe old maid, but she’d always been fair to me at school. “No, ma’am.”

Miss Ada frowned, but as if she was concerned, not being hateful. “You children can’t stay out here by yourselves.”

“Oh, we’re all right,” I assured her. “I take care of Jim. Don’t I, Jim?” Jim stared at the two ladies, lips out, pouting. “I cook for us. We got plenty to eat. You must have noticed the chickens when you drove in, Mrs. Rice, for you nearly ran over that old Rhode Island Red rooster. Mr. Petrie comes by to see us. We’re getting along just fine, you can see, and Papa will be back soon.”

“If you don’t know where he is, you sure can’t know when or if he’ll be back,” Mrs. Rice said. “It’s my belief you’ll never see him again.”

Miss Ada was looking at Jim. “When school opens,” she said, “you’ll be starting first grade.”

Jim nodded his head, interested for the first time in what was being said.

“Well, at least and at last we can all agree about that!” Mrs. Rice said with a mean smile. She looked again at Miss Ada before she continued. “Everything has been arranged. This very morning we have been to see Mr. Petrie, and he assures us our worst fears are all too well founded. You live like gypsies, hand to mouth, mother dead and no father to act like a father. So there’s only one thing to do and we’re going to see to that. Miss Hopper and I are driving this very minute over to Wadlow to make arrangements for you both to live in the Home there. You’ll be better off.”

Jim ran out, and I didn’t have the heart to try to stop him. I told them about Uncle Earl in Montgomery and what he’d said about letting him know when we got real hard up, but Mrs. Rice said, “Fiddle. He’s got a family of his own to support. I had a few words with his wife at the funeral. A thoroughly nice woman, but she said with your mama dead, they’d never be coming this way again.”

I argued, I pled. I got so mad I nearly cried. But Miss Ada was firm, and Mrs. Rice was victorious. A lot was said on both sides, but a big argument like we had is mostly people saying the same things over and over. Whatever I said, Mrs. Rice said, “No, it’s settled.” When they left, I went to look for Jim. He was standing under the peach tree in the back-yard, waiting. I took him by the shoulders and shook him good and hard. “Why’d you run out like that?” I asked, and shook him again harder, trying to make him cry for both of us; but he just stood there and took it, looking down at the ground until I let him go and went back into the house.

Nowadays it may be different, but back then the idea of going into any orphans’ home was about the worst thing a child could think of. It was a bad dream of cruel adults and hungry children who were punished whether they were good or not; of cold, crowded rooms and no place or time to be by yourself. I don’t know where we got such notions, but all children had them. The very words “Orphans’ Home” could make the worst child shiver and feel grateful toward his parents.

Well, I for one wasn’t going into any orphans’ home. I decided to leave that very night. Miss Ada and Mrs. Rice would be back, maybe not tomorrow but before the end of the week, and then it would be too late.

I put Jim out of my mind, telling myself again I wasn’t his mama and he’d be better off in a Home than following me where the wind blew. At least he’d have a bed to sleep in at night, and clothes to wear, and food of some kind to put into his stomach regularly; and they’d send him to school. He’d like school; he was a quick-minded boy, much as he aggravated me most of the time. I had liked school well enough myself.

I tried to act natural the rest of the day, only when I cooked supper I fried extra fatback and made biscuits. I’d carry the cold meat and biscuits with me when I went; they’d keep me from starving a day or so, I reckoned. I had decided not to go near people right at first for fear somebody would know me and try to turn me around toward home.

I thought Jim would never go to bed. It was like he knew what I planned. But finally off he went, and as soon as I heard him sleeping I put on my best dress and shoes and wrapped my biscuits and meat in a clean dishcloth, blew out the lamp, and slipped out of the house. It was a dark night, but that suited me. I’d walk a few miles away from Pluma before finding a place to sleep. I might even walk all night, just to get clean away, and sleep when I felt like it next day.

The dogs barked when I went past Mr. Petrie’s house, but I kept right on and they quieted down. Country dogs bark at a lot of things and nobody pays attention unless they keep it up.

I had got well past Mr. Tom Hartley’s farm, which was two miles from us, when I stopped in the middle of that dirt road and started cussing. I didn’t know many words, but I did the best I could with what I knew. I don’t think I’d ever been so mad in my life, not even that morning with Mrs. Rice.

It was Jim I was mad with. Oh, I didn’t care about him. His being my brother cut no ice. He was nothing but a nuisance, a mama’s baby that had lost its mama. But when I pictured him waking up in that house tomorrow morning, I knew I had to go back. I said he was quick-minded, and he was, but not in commonsense ways. Any average boy would have the gumption, left by himself, to go to Mr. Petrie. But I could just see Jim sitting there all day wondering what had become of me and waiting for somebody to come find him and tell him what to do. Thinking about it, I didn’t just find him a nuisance and an aggravation. I hated him the way you can only hate close kin.

I turned around and walked back, half hoping I’d find him awake, needing to pee or something. I’d have felt better if he’d been out in the yard squawling his head off, scared of the dark. But no-sir, he was in his bed sound asleep.

Chapter 3

Jim lay stiff as a board on his bed, eyes shut, but I knew he was awake.

“Open your eyes, Jim. Jim, it’s Christmas morning! There’s a tree and a hundred presents under it. Jim! Look out the window, it’s snowing!”

He flopped over on his stomach and scrunched up into himself, tight as a doodlebug when you touch it with a straw.

“Get up, Orphan Jim! They’ve come to haul you off to the Orphans’ Home!” I shook his feet. He kicked me hard as he could, rolling onto his back, his eyes blazing open.

“Get away from me, Hateful!”

“What’s got into you?”

“You left me last night!”

“What?”

“I woke up and you was gone!”

“I might have stepped out to the privy—”

“You don’t put on your Sunday dress to go the privy!”

“There it is there, Smarty!” I pointed to the nail on the wall where it hung.

“It wasn’t last night.”

“I’m not going to stand here and listen to sass,” I told him. “Dumb little boy! I’ve been making plans for us, but if you don’t want to hear them—! If you’d prefer going to the Orphans’ Home and letting them beat you and make you sleep with ten other dirty little boys, with not one mildewed maggoty biscuit to share among you—well, all right, you can just go ahead!” I stomped out.

When I stepped into the back-yard, the chickens came clucking around me. They remembered when they got fed early every morning and evening. I hadn’t fed them regular for a long time, just when I figured we could spare the corn meal. We had no proper chicken feed so I mixed meal with a little water to make a thick dough for them.

Jim didn’t lose much time getting into his overalls. He came running from the house, but when he got to me, stopped sudden, not having thought ahead what he’d say. Finally he just said, “What?”

“What?” I mocked him, turning my head sideways and rolling my eyes like I was simple.

“What did you say about the Orphans’ Home?”

I let him wait a minute, like I was studying on something. I then said, “You see these chickens? What you think I’m going to do with them?”

“Feed them?”

I snorted. “Kill them! They’re going to feed us.” I crossed the yard and went through the kitchen door. “You hungry?” I said, knowing he was right behind me.

He said he was. Opening the cloth that still held my going-away meat and biscuits, I made two sandwiches and handed him one. We began to eat, standing up. Jim wasn’t a big eater, and cold fatback and biscuits didn’t often tempt him, but I had his attention, and maybe hope gave him appetite.

“You want to go live in that Orphans’ Home?” I asked.

“No!” Biscuit crumbs flew out of his mouth.

“Don’t make a mess,” I said, and he swept up the crumbs with his fingers. “I’m not going to any Home; I can tell you. I’m grown and that’s only for young’uns. Maybe you’d be better off there.”

“No, I wouldn’t. What you going to do?”

“I’m not certain I should tell you.”

“Tell me, Trudy!”

Keeping a solemn face I said, “I’m going to say kiss-my-tail to Mrs. Rice.”

That shocked him so, he went to giggling, but when he got his breath again said, “Spit on her warts!”

I hit him to remind him he was a child. “I’m going to leave this farm and this town.”

“You don’t believe Papa will come home?”

I shook my head. “You want to stay and wait for him?”

“No. Where we going?”

“I haven’t said you’re going anywhere. But if I do, we’ll head for Montgomery, where Uncle Earl lives.”

“I’m scared of Aunt Olive. I hate Alice and Lucien.”

I said, “They’re our kinfolks, and Uncle Earl said he’d take care of us if we needed him to.”

“When did he tell you such a thing?” Jim asked suspiciously.

“That day he brought the tombstone for Mama.”

His lips went out in a pout.

“If you don’t like my planning, you can stay here,” I said.

“I’ll go,” he said quick.

“I haven’t said you can.”

“If you go, you got to take me with you!”

“I don’t have to do anything,” I said. “I’m grown now and free to go and come as I please. You’re an orphan that has to do as he’s told.”

“I won’t!”

“Then you shan’t go with me.”

I let him pout another little while and think it over, waiting until he said with argument in his voice, “Trudy, you can’t—”