Last Days in Eden E-Book

Ann Kelley

• Herausgeber: Luath Press
• Kategorie: Gesellschafts- und Liebesromane
• Sprache: Englisch

Seitenzahl: 359

Veröffentlichungsjahr: 2014

Beschreibung

She had made me envious. Strange as it might seem, I had not known envy before. Surely there must be other ways of living, I thought, not hand-to-mouth, alone, in a draughty old shack looking out at the same scene, day after day. Was this to be my future? It's 2137, and the future's dark. Sixteen-year-old Flora is scraping out a humble living, selling homegrown supplies from her late grandparents' run-down Shell Shack and keeping her illegal copy of Pride and Prejudice hidden from the terrifying Uzi soldiers. But Flora's life changes when she meets Li-li, the daughter of a powerful Rice Lord. Flora is seduced by the lavish lifestyle of her rulers, but also sees the brutality that underpins their lifestyle. What choices will she face on her last days in Eden? An innocent adrift in a world ripped apart by greed and want...The year is 2137, but the people of Eden are reduced to living in medieval fashion. The human race is deeply divided and the world has been brought to its knees by the Oil Wars and rising sea levels. Flora is trying to hold on to her humanity as her world changes forever. Costa Award winning author Ann Kelley's disturbing vision of the future has much to say about our own times. It's a disturbing, compulsive read that makes you realise that not so very much needs to shift for this to happen here. HELEN DUNMORE on Runners The author as artist evokes people and places with delicacy, humour and truth - a novel of outstanding beauty. COSTA AWARD JUDGES on The Bower Bird

Leseprobe

Last Days in Eden

By the same author:

ANN KELLEY is a photographer and prize-winning poet who once nearly played cricket for Cornwall. She has previously published collections of photographs and poems, an audio book of cat stories, and some children’s fiction, including the award-winning Gussie series. Her novel Runners is in the 2014 Book Trust School Library Pack, as a future classic. She lives with her second husband and several cats on the edge of a cliff in Cornwall where they have survived a flood, a landslip, a lightning strike and the roof blowing off. She runs writing courses for medics and medical students, and speaks about her poetry therapy work with patients at medical conferences.

Born and Bred, Cornwall Books, 1988 (photographs)

Nine Lives, Halsgrove, 1998 (audio book, stories)

The Poetry Remedy, Patten Press, 1999 (poetry workshops handbook for patients)

Paper Whites, London Magazine Editions, 200I (poems and photographs)

The Burying Beetle, Luath Press, 2005 (a novel)

Sea Front, Truran, 2005 (photographs)

Because We Have Reached That Place, Oversteps Books, 2006  (poems)

The Bower Bird, Luath Press, 2007 (a novel)

Inchworm, Luath Press, 2008 (a novel)

A Snail’s Broken Shell, Luath Press, 2010 (a novel)

The Light at St Ives, Luath Press, 2010 (photographs)

Koh Tabu, Oxford University Press, 2010 ( a novel)

Lost Girls, Little, Brown US, 2012 (a novel)

Telling the Bees, Oversteps, 2012 (poems)

Runners, Luath Press, 2013 (a novel)

On a Night of Snow, Ebook, 2013 (a novella)

Last Days in Eden

ANN KELLEY

Luath Press Limited

EDINBURGH

www.luath.co.uk

First published 2014

ISBN (HBK): 978-1-910021-27-9

ISBN (EBK): 978-1-910324-25-7

The publisher acknowledges the support of Creative Scotland towards the publication of this book.

The author’s right to be identified as author of this book under the Copyright, Designs and Patents Act 1988 has been asserted.

© Ann Kelley 2014

Contents

CHAPTER ONE

CHAPTER TWO

CHAPTER THREE

CHAPTER FOUR

CHAPTER FIVE

CHAPTER SIX

CHAPTER SEVEN

CHAPTER EIGHT

CHAPTER NINE

CHAPTER TEN

CHAPTER ELEVEN

CHAPTER TWELVE

CHAPTER THIRTEEN

CHAPTER FOURTEEN

CHAPTER FIFTEEN

CHAPTER SIXTEEN

CHAPTER SEVENTEEN

CHAPTER EIGHTEEN

CHAPTER NINETEEN

CHAPTER TWENTY

CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE

CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO

CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE

CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR

CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE

CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX

CHAPTER TWENTY-SEVEN

CHAPTER TWENTY-EIGHT

CHAPTER TWENTY-NINE

CHAPTER THIRTY

CHAPTER THIRTY-ONE

CHAPTER THIRTY-TWO

CHAPTER THIRTY-THREE

CHAPTER THIRTY-FOUR

For Jennie Renton.What would I have done without you?

CHAPTER ONE

ON THE DAY the girl first came to Shell Shack, fog lay unshifting on the meadow, smothering the garden and the broad estuary. The constant screech of invisible parakeets split the heavy sky.

Nano would have been up at daybreak, letting me stay in bed until she had roused the fire, fed the chickens and pigeons, seen to the bees and made the bread. But that day the bees kept to their straw skep and the chickens were silent, as if they too were still mourning her. It was mid-morning when I clambered out of bed, my limbs heavy and unwilling, and tried to catch up with the day.

No travs had come to Eden Spit for weeks, if not months. Certainly not since Nano died. I hadn’t sold a thing – not one measly apple. I was getting desperate. That morning, as every morning since I’d been alone, I chopped some firewood and added it to the small pile outside the door of Shell Shack. I would have to find more fuel soon. The kitchen range had a never-ending hunger, like a cuckoo, and I was its mother now.

I raked out the soiled straw and earth from the chicken house, replenished it, and gave the birds their feed of cooked potato skins and left-over rice and rye. The iodine smell of bladderwrack hung in the air, reminding me that it was time to gather seaweed to manure the vegetable garden.

Indoors, eating the end of a stale rice-cake for lunch, I watched a pretty harvest mouse scamper out from under the kitchen dresser, sit up and wash its face delicately. Cat was nowhere to be seen. The minute I moved, the mouse raced back to the safety of darkness. Nano wouldn’t have rested until the mouse was gone. Preferably dead and gone. But why shouldn’t it live there, part of the old place? It had every right to take advantage of the crumbs that dropped. Not that many crumbs dropped nowadays. I surveyed my fast diminishing stores. They wouldn’t last much longer. How on earth had Nano managed to provide for us, to always put something on the table that was filling and satisfying? My mouth watered as I remembered her vegetable stews and soups, the cakes she conjured from rye flour, oranges, honey and eggs. She had tried to teach me how to cook, but I hadn’t taken much notice. I was always more interested in making clothes for myself out of the beautiful garments I had inherited from my mother. And Nano had been happy to indulge me. Only six months ago there had been three of us – Nano, Grandpa Noah and me. Now there was only me.

It was early afternoon when the gate bell sounded. Manga yelped and pressed his nose against the door, desperate to get out. I pushed my unruly hair behind my ears, smoothed the red net petticoat I wore over my denims and shrugged an apron over the lot. Could it be a trav at last, wanting to buy eggs and apples, or perhaps they’d take a digigraph of Shell Shack with me in front of it?

I peered out of the salt-smeared window, trying not be seen. A child-like figure was checking through the meagre collection of jars on the produce table. A trav, definitely, but not dressed in the usual drab, shapeless overalls. She was smartly turned out in yellow jodhpurs and a black velvet jacket, with a scarlet scarf knotted around her neck. They were the kind of colours I loved. Looped over the gatepost were the reins of a small black mare, which snickered and nodded her head in a pretty manner.

‘Hi,’ she said, as I emerged, Manga tucked under my arm. She was not a child; I could see that now. She looked scrubbed clean, cleaner than I’d ever been in my life. Her fingernails were perfect – I instinctively hid mine. Her black hair was smooth and neat, tied back under a riding hat. Her lips were stained bright red. She looked at me with eyes wide as a kitten’s, barely hiding her amusement at my appearance, so different from her own.

She picked a bruised apple from the box and fed it to her pony.

‘No pickled shallots? It’s the season, surely?’

‘None today.’

I felt awkward in the presence of this diminutive beauty. I towered over her, a clodhopper in ugly, mud-splattered boots.

‘What a shame!’ she wailed as if it was a major disaster. ‘My father loves pickles. Will you have some soon?’

‘Er, perhaps. Come next week.’

Why did I say that? I would have to bottle them especially for her!

The pony lifted its forefeet impatiently. She gave it a smart sting with her crop.

‘What an unusual home you have.’

‘My grandfather built it,’ I said, holding tight to Manga, who whined, excited by the horse.

‘He did?’ She raised her eyebrows disdainfully.

How dare she! Grandpa Noah had built Shell Shack with his own hands from driftwood, the remains of old vehicles, mud and straw. When I was little I had helped him gather pretty pebbles, coloured glass and shells from the beach to decorate the outside walls. That was before he lost his wits and started shaking his fist at pelicans and shouting, ‘We shall overcome!’ I suddenly remembered the day I had seen him sitting on the beach, sobbing over a dolphin skull, and my eyes prickled treacherously. He had died after years of ill health and Nano had followed him seven long weeks ago, from a broken heart I think. She had died on my sixteenth birthday.

‘So…’ the girl said, returning me to the present. She took the reins, mounted elegantly, sat back, pulled the reins tight and struck the pony’s withers again with the crop. ‘And the funny animals?’ She pointed across the garden to the sculptures.

‘He made those too.’

‘Hmm, fascinating. I suppose he built the dovecot as well? I would like to have that.’

Have the dovecot? How could she have the dovecot? It belonged to Shell Shack.

Before I could even respond, the girl kicked the pony with her shiny black boots and rode off a few paces. Then she stopped and looked back at me. ‘I do like your petticoat,’ she said. And I think she laughed  as she cantered away, sending up a spray of sand behind her.

I watched the mist swallow her, almost sad that she had gone despite her high-handed manner, because I was alone again. I let Manga loose and the little terrier staggered off out of the gate on his three short legs to sniff at the steaming dung the pony had deposited. I followed him and started shovelling it up for the compost heap. Nano had instilled in me the importance of wasting nothing, and horse manure was a great source of vital minerals for the veggie garden and the orchard. Whenever the Uzi soldiers rode by on their huge horses I would wait until they had passed and then go out onto the path with the shovel to do the same thing.

I called Manga back inside, trying to work out what the trav girl had really been after. Pickles? Sculptures? Grandpa Noah’s pigeon palace? Certainly not my red petticoat! I washed my hands, despairing of my ragged nails. What was the point? There was nothing pretty or delicate about me. There was just work to be done. There always was, and there always would be. And on top of everything, I’d have to make pickles now, thanks to my foolish offer. I’d have to peel shallots, look out the spices, find the right containers. Why hadn’t she just taken the apples like any normal trav?

I took out my anger on the chimney, knocking down the soot and removing the ash from the grate of the iron range, as I’d seen Nano do day after day after day. I carried the ash-pan outside to the compost heap. On my way back, I picked up a bundle of kindling and firewood, heaped a few small pieces of sea-coal and dried furze on top, and relit it. There was hardly any sea-coal left, I noticed. I hadn’t made time to gather any. Oh, how my back ached!

Nano had made rye bread twice a week, but she did everything from memory. There were so many things she’d not got round to teaching me. And I had never imagined a world without her.

My supplies of basics, like salt and rice, were running very low, but so were the dees in the earthenware pot on the mantelshelf. Nano had saved them carefully, spending them only when bartering was impossible. I hadn’t earned a single dee.

The pullets had laid three small eggs the day before. But it hadn’t even occurred to me to sell them. I had cooked them for my supper, mixing in parsley and wild garlic with the omelette.

That evening, on my way towards the tool shed, I noticed that the strong wind the previous night had torn a huge rent in the nets that protected the soft fruit plants. Where on earth would I find the time to mend them? And how? My spirits plummeted. Nano’s voice was loud in my head – Don’t leave a hole to get any bigger… plan ahead to let things grow… prepare the ground properly. I took a hoe to the weeds in the vegetable patch and started to dig a second trench for new planting, my hands already sore with blisters from an earlier attempt. Nano had made it look easy, but I sweated with the effort. The ground was so hard! I stabbed at it furiously. How could she have left me so suddenly, so unprepared for all this?

By the time I’d created what passed for a new trench, the fog was lifting, so I went to sit on the gate to watch the sunset. On clear nights I had often perched there between my grandparents, all three of us gazing over the water meadows as the last rays bloodied Eden Bay.

This evening there was a green haze to the sky and a wind sprang up which riffled the water into waves. I ambled down to the strand, Manga grumbling along beside me. Usually the sunset and a walk calmed me, but my thoughts remained troubled. The surrounding landscape seemed melancholy, suffused with sadness. This was where I belonged, surrounded by the singing of tall grass, part of the world of shingle and sand, the smell of black mud and cockle-shells in my nostrils, the big sky racing from horizon to horizon. But I felt dislocated, like a spider plucked from a warm corner and put out into the night. I hugged myself and turned slowly in a full circle. It was all so familiar, so loved, but…

In the past there had been days when I’d complained – about the monotony of our diet, the draughts and dust, my chores – but no more than any other child on Eden Spit. Now, for the first time as I looked out across the darkening water that evening, I wanted something different, a life in which I could have pretty clothes and clean, smooth hands. Like the trav girl. She had made me envious. Strange as it might seem, I had not known envy before. Surely there must be other ways of living, I thought, not hand-to-mouth, alone, in a draughty old shack looking out at the same scene, day after day. Was this to be my future?

That night the wind howled down the chimney, moaned in the timbers and rippled the metal roof, slamming it down again and again, even though it was weighed down with large stones. I could hear the Shell sign creaking ominously. Grandpa Noah had been so proud of it that he’d bolted it to the chimney stack. It was from the olden days before the Oil Wars, when people used petrol for fuel. ‘Relic of a bygone age,’ he’d say. ‘Your mother thought it was ugly, but it’s part of history. And we all need history.’ He could never get enough of stories from the past. ‘Remember when…’ he was always saying, and Nano would shush him. Until he began to forget everything. But he never forgot to wear his war medals, even when he was confined to bed in his final illness he had them pinned onto his dressing gown.

Peering out into the darkness, I could see what looked like Portuguese Men o’ War floating wraith-like across the marshes: white polythene bags blown all the way from somewhere. I hoped some would catch on brambles so that I could gather them in the morning. I wasn’t going to risk going out in a wind like this, anything could be flying about and the sand would stop me from seeing properly. Those bags were useful for all sorts of things – as containers for food in the kitchen, to plug holes in the walls and to waterproof the leaking roof.

I shuddered at the thought of the never-ending list of repairs and turned back to the range. Smoke puffed into the small room. The image of the trav kept coming into my mind: the lovely clothes, the shiny boots, the manicured hands. I stoked the fire, more in temper than in hope. It wasn’t fair! It wasn’t fair!

I lit the candle and turned to the consolation of Pride and Prejudice,  which had belonged to my mother, who had worked for the Great Flood Library. It had been her treasure. Thumbed and torn, it had lost some pages, but as usual the magic of the words began to relax me as soon as I opened it, Within minutes I was immersed in the warmth of the Bennett family, no longer cold and lonely and anxious, free from the bitterness and anger that had been with me all day.

This had been our only book. Grandpa Noah had kept it hidden against the occasions when the shack was spot-searched by Uzi soldiers. I was never allowed to read it outside in case I was seen.

‘Why not?’ I asked.

‘Forbidden, books are. Dangerous things, books,’ Nano tutted.

‘Let the girl be,’ said Grandpa.

He had read and reread the story to me. When I was small, I had begged him, ‘Talk to the book, talk to it, Grandpa.’ That was how I’d learned to read. I knew half of it by heart. Although there were things I didn’t understand, things that made no sense to me, I could escape into that world, take part in that family’s strange existence. But following the visit from the beautiful girl that morning, the book’s power to distract had weakened. Now I imagined her mixing easily with the Bennett sisters in the story, making mischief with the younger ones. Her life was stylish and privileged like theirs – and it was real, not made up by someone called Jane Austen hundreds of years ago.

One day I wanted to write a story made up out of my own head. I had started so many times, but never got beyond the beginning. What could I expect? I asked myself, surging with resentment. What story had I to tell, a sixteen-year-old orphan who had travelled nowhere, and who had hardly any schooling, and only homemade ink and rough paper to write on? Nano had not approved, shaking her head at the sight of me writing, but Grandpa would encourage me.

How I wished Nano was here now, shaking her head.

The fire finally gave up the struggle. I had not brought in enough wood or coal to keep the range alight. I wrapped my book carefully and hid it away beside my tattered notebook, then went to bed to keep warm. With no one there to hear me apart from Manga, I cried myself to sleep.

CHAPTER TWO

ALL THAT NIGHT I tossed and turned and the next day I rose late, after only a few hours’ sleep. I was peeling an orange for breakfast when I heard the screech of parakeets. They sounded unusually close. And it hit me – I hadn’t mended the soft-fruit nets yesterday. I rushed out, still in my nightdress, waving my hands at the flock of red and green birds, Manga yapping helpfully. However vigorously I shooed them away, they ignored me, too hungry to be frightened off. In the end, all I could do was watch as they shredded the ripe currants and gooseberries, squabbling for the best perches.

Nano’s voice shimmered in my mind, chiding me into action: ‘Do something, child! Make something of the day!’

I turned on my heel. What I needed was a scarecrow – a scare-keet, that was it. I searched the cottage for something to dress the crossed poles that were to become its arms and legs. I hadn’t had the heart to destroy any of Nano’s clothes, not yet. Not that I could wear any of them, they were all the wrong size and shape for me, except for her apron. But they still smelled of her.

My mother’s clothes were precious to me, but in a different way. I had never really known her – Faith Mandela – she had died a few days after I was born, Nano told me, of an infection that couldn’t be cured. All I had of her was a digigraph, a portrait painted by an artist, and her clothes – which were gorgeous – mostly given to her by the artist, in payment, I suppose, for modelling. I often used little bits of her lace, velvet, nylon, polycotton and lycra to adorn my work things, and sometimes I wore her dresses. ‘Make-do and mend,’as Nano was fond of saying.

Luckily my mother had been the same build as me. As I picked through the pile of garments I was distracted by a couple of flower-patterned remnants; I put them aside to patch my cloak and kept back a length of purple lace to add to Nano’s apron. This was one of my favourite pastimes, altering and adding to my old clothes. Kit and Annie and the other kids at school had thought I looked outlandish. Well, I didn’t care. What did they know anyway?

In the digigraph, my mother is standing next to my father. She’s wearing a white dress that billows over her slightly swollen belly – that was me, floating inside her. But in the portrait on the wall opposite the one of the Rice King, she’s alone, younger, wearing the red net petticoat under a white linen full-skirted dress. She always dressed beautifully, Nano said. I reached into the bottom of the cedarwood trunk where I’d stuffed Nano’s clothes next to my mother’s. There was nothing there to waste on a scarekeet. Grandpa Noah’s clothes would have been ideal – he had looked like one at the best of times! But most of them had been recycled into the rag rugs he and Nano had made to sell.

I felt around under my grandparents’ bed, hoping for something discarded, and my fingers touched something cold and heavy. With difficulty I hauled it out and wiped the dust from its rusty lid. It was a metal chest. Now I remembered! What a rumpus there had been, years before, when Nano found me trying to open it.

‘Why must you decide to play with the one thing I want you to leave well alone? These are your grandfather’s things in there. Private things. Things to do with fighting and horrors. Not for your eyes.’

‘No need to raise the roof,’ Grandpa had said. ‘But Nano’s right, Flora. When the time’s right I’ll show you. For the moment, I’d like the past left where it belongs. In the past.’ The time had never been right and, to be honest, I’d forgotten the chest’s very existence.

I tried to open it but it was locked. Why would that be? We never locked doors or cupboards. We had nothing to steal and no pirates, thanks to the battlements and ramparts of the Tescopec Mountains to the north-west, and the vast reef of drowned towers and skyscrapers that had once been the city of Sainsburyness to the east and south. A large fort and barracks on the hill at the end of the narrow peninsula guarded Eden Spit.

Nano and Grandpa Noah must have had a very particular reason for keeping this chest locked. I searched in every pot and jug, drawer and cupboard, but there was no key to be found.

I was racking my brains, trying to think of a hiding place I might have missed, when the gate bell sounded. My heart stood still. The girl from yesterday? I hurried to the window, trying to decide whether I wanted it to be her or not. But no, it was Kit, shielding his eyes from the sun, surveying the damage the parakeets had done. I hadn’t seen him in days.

‘Hi,’ I went out, braced for the lecture I knew I’d get for not having mended the netting.

‘There are parakeets…’

‘I know…’

‘…eating you out of house and home.’

‘Kit, I told you, I know. I was just going to make a scarecrow.’

He dropped his canvas bag, told his collie, Jess, to stay, and followed me into the house. ‘Bit late,’ he said, but not unkindly. ‘That’s this year’s crop gone.’

‘It wasn’t my fault!’ There was a whine in my voice that I hated.

‘You just have to attend to things as soon as they go wrong.’

I rolled my eyes at him and he gave a half smile. He knew me well enough not to push too much further.

‘So, apart from pointing out my shortcomings as a smallholder, to what do I owe the pleasure of your company?’

Kit smiled at my Pride and Prejudice style language. He was used to it, but it always amused him.

‘Flora, I want you to come with me.’

‘Come where?’

‘Eel-catching. Better than dressing up a couple of old sticks, anyway.’

He knew how much I loathed eel-catching expeditions! But anything was better than being stuck here with nobody to talk to, with the place collapsing round my ears.

‘And I’m not sure you’re quite dressed for it…’ He indicated my fleecy nightgown.

‘OK.’ I went behind the curtain that cut off the ladder to my sleeping platform from the rest of the room and changed into my outdoor clothes. ‘But don’t ask me to bait the basket again. I was nearly sick last time,’ I called.

‘Not a problem. I’ve got a nice rotting rat for them.’

‘Thought you smelled worse than usual.’

He rattled the curtains and I wailed in pretend horror.

‘How’s your dad?’ I asked as Kit and I trudged along towards the estuary. ‘Leave off, Manga!’ The terrier was practically hanging onto Kit’s bag. I threw a stick and both dogs ran pell-mell after it, barking.

‘Same as always, grumpy old sod,’ Kit said, thrashing at reeds. Kit’s father was a Water War veteran like Grandpa Noah. Born and bred on Eden Spit. But he was a very different kind of man. I had known Kit all my life. He’d left school when he was ten, after polio ruined his leg. Then his mum died, and he had to look after his shell-shocked dad. ‘That lad’s had to grow up ahead of his time,’ Nano would say. She had been very fond of Kit.

I watched him drag a hand through his dark mop of hair. His shoulders were broader these days.

Then he sniffed deeply and spat.

‘Charming!’ I moved upwind of him to lessen the smell of dead rat.

Kit grinned, ignoring my grimace. ‘I’ve seen you spit like the best of us,’ he said. ‘Clears the tubes.’

I punched his arm. It was hard to be cross with Kit.

When we reached the small wooden pier where he kept his boat, he untied it and we climbed aboard. ‘I’ve got traps up by the Ede, should be good catchings there.’ The dogs sat on the shore, watching us. The boat was too small for them as well.

‘Stay and be good!’ I called. They knew the routine.

Kit rowed while I scanned the shoreline.

‘Still hanging around, is he?’

‘Who?’ I pretended not to know what he was talking about.

‘Scav kid.’

‘Oh, him. Haven’t seen him lately,’ I fibbed. Actually, I had seen the boy a couple of days before. I reckoned he sometimes slept in the big barn, but after I’d caught him stealing chicken feed, he made sure he stayed out of sight. I knew he helped himself to oranges from the orchard but I didn’t mind. If he was living rough, the odd pilfered orange wasn’t such a terrible crime. I thought briefly about the missing key, then decided against mentioning it. Kit would only draw the wrong conclusion.

‘He’s harmless,’ I assured him. For me, the youngster’s shadowy presence was almost comforting. He could only have been about seven years old, a timid bag of bones with a mass of unwashed dreadlocks, fast as a hare on his bare feet. Manga never barked or growled when he was about and I trusted the dog’s instincts. I didn’t begrudge the boy a little food any more than the mouse who waited for my crumbs.

‘Not encouraging him, are you?’

‘Course not.’

‘Could be a toxic.’

‘Don’t be daft. He’s not covered in boils,’ I pointed out.

‘Doesn’t mean he’s not carrying something bad in him. You have to be careful, Flora.’

I said nothing. Kit might be two years older than me but that didn’t mean he could tell me what to do, how to think.

‘I’ve seen him quite a lot recently in the dunes,’ he continued, frowning, as we came alongside one of the buoys. ‘Not far from Shell Shack. Don’t take risks, Flora. Have nothing to do with him.’

We hauled the eel traps out of the water. They were empty.

‘All that effort for nothing,’ I complained.

Kit quietly baited the traps again with the stinking rat corpse and lowered them into the water without uttering a word, while I held my nose and tried not to retch.

‘You can row,’ he said, handing me the oars and sliding forward to let me take his place. ‘I’ve done all the work this morning.’ The rain started and it was a long haul against the wind. By the time we reached the pier I was damp and exhausted. Our patient dogs appeared from the long grass when we whistled, woofing happily. ‘We’ll do better next time,’ said Kit, waving goodbye and taking Jess off home to his yurt on the far side of the Spit.

‘What next time?’ I retorted under my breath and Manga groaned in agreement.

That evening things went from bad to worse. I peeled shallots and boiled up vinegar with spices until my eyes streamed. I scalded glass jars in the oven, singeing my hair in the process. I had only just sat down with a bowl of soup when from somewhere outside there was a muffled bang and the sound of shattering glass. I rushed out, looking into each shed in turn before I finally discovered that Nano’s bottled elderflower wine had exploded. I surveyed the chaos, my eyes weary from the shallots and lack of sleep. The walls dripped with the sticky mess, the floor glittered with shattered glass from the precious colas that Grandpa, Nano and I had collected from the shore over the years. I was too weary to sort it out tonight. I shut the door behind me and scuttled back to Shell Shack, the panic rising in my chest. This was exactly the kind of disaster Nano had warned me about. What had she done to avoid it happening? She’d probably told me and I hadn’t listened.

Beaten and wretched, I retreated to bed.

Manga’s frantic barks in the early hours woke me, but it was too late. In the aftermath of the exploding wine bottles, I had failed to lock up the chicken house securely. By the time I reached it there was nothing I could have done. Taking only two of the hens, the fox had left the others torn apart, their bloody feathers stuck to the straw. The carnage would look even worse in daylight.

I put my head in my hands and wept. No more eggs! What was I going to do? The pigeons fluttered around, disturbed from their roosts in the dovecot. Why couldn’t the fox have killed them? Perhaps I should sell their palatial home to the trav girl? And she could take the useless pigeons with it. She wasn’t the first to have commented on Grandpa’s folly. It was more like a silvered wooden palace than a shelter for pigeons, completely out of place here at Shell Shack, where everything else was shabby and worn. I wondered how many dees she might pay. But no, I could never do that.  I hadn’t had the heart to wring the pigeons’ necks and cook them, even though their stupid cooing drove me potty. They had been Grandpa’s pride and joy. The two survivors had hung around, dusty and bedraggled, looking sorry for themselves and laying no eggs. But they were his pigeons.

When I was little, Grandpa Noah often used to climb the ladder up to the pigeon palace with Doc and Mr Mackenzie and they’d be in there for hours. No matter how much I begged to join them, Nano always refused.

‘Why can’t I go?’ I’d pull at her apron and look beseechingly into her sky-washed eyes.

‘You don’t want nothing to do with that. Stupid talk!’ was all she’d say. Grandpa always smelt of rice wine when at last he stumbled cheerily into the kitchen after one of these visits. He was always keen to talk, but Nano would shush him off to his bed, determined that he’d sleep it off.

There was nothing for it. I cleaned up the chicken shed the next morning. Stripping the remaining feathers from the slaughtered hens was a horrible task. I had watched Nano gut them over the years, tearing the innards out with bloody fingers, but I loathed the smell and would find an excuse to be anywhere else if I could. If only Kit were here to help – he wasn’t the least bit squeamish and often gave me game birds already drawn and plucked.

Eventually, the job was done. I scrubbed my hands for ages to rid myself of the whiff of guts. At least I had the makings of several days’ food. I put the remains of the birds into a stewpot with onions, carrots and herbs and put it on the range to cook. I watched, pleased with myself as the mixture heated, and began to simmer gently.

But the feeling of wellbeing was short-lived.

When I went back outside I discovered something even more awful. There was an overwhelming silence. The mutan bees had abandoned the hive. And as I stood there, helplessly gazing at the empty boxes, it came into my head that I hadn’t told them when Nano died, so it was my fault – you are always meant to tell the bees when there’s a death in the family. ‘They’ll take off and go if they’re not told,’ Nano had warned as she’d waddled out there the day Grandpa died.

And now they’d done exactly that. Without bees, the fruit would not get pollinated. I had listened and learned enough to know that. There would be no sweetener, no beeswax for long-lasting candles, no fruit next year.

I stared and stared at the empty hive. It seemed as if everywhere I looked there was mayhem. My entire livelihood was being ruined. That winter had been hotter than ever, scorching the salad crops, then winds and rainstorms had battered the soft fruit. What hadn’t been flattened or spoiled was being eaten by slugs and snails, or finished off by the parakeets, thanks to my own laziness. Even the orange trees had been attacked by fungus and root rot. 

I couldn’t carry on like this.

I ran back into the shack. Maybe there were some dees in the mysterious chest under the bed? I had another search for the key, in all the same places I’d looked before, with the same result. Perhaps I could force the lid open with a crowbar? Did I even have a crowbar? I’d have to ask Kit to help. Perhaps he’d know how to entice the bees back too.

After a while with the familiar calls of terns and oyster-catchers in my ears, I took a walk in search of herbs. I watched a flock of lugubrious pelicans heading off towards their feeding grounds. As I breathed in the salty aroma of seaweed, I wondered, what did I actually want? For things to go on as they always had? But what else was possible? There no point thinking about leaving Eden Spit. No one ever did, not even to other parts of Eden, let alone the rest of Nortland. Except the travs and privs, of course.

I hadn’t even met my other set of grandparents. My father’s family had lived in Spitsea, I’d been told. Nano had never explained why I’d never met any of them, except to say Spitsea was out of bounds. And once, when I was about ten, I’d overheard Grandpa Noah telling her that they were among ‘the disappeared’. Later,  I’d asked Nano, ‘What are “the disappeared”?’  She’d put her hand over my mouth and said, ‘Never say that again, Flora!’ The fear in her eyes came back to me now. What was that about?

‘Stay, Flora. Don’t leave Shell Shack,’ she’d implored as she lay dying. ‘You’re safe here.’

I sat down on the damp grass, a tight feeling in my chest. What was it she’d left unspoken?

I tried to pull myself together. I had to be more practical.

I mustn’t let everything go. That would be failing Nano and Grandpa. I had to make the place work now I was on my own.  And I did love Shell Shack, and the barren beauty of Eden Spit.

I recalled how, when I was little, the creaking of the timbers on a stormy winter’s night used to make me feel like I was on a galleon riding the waves in one of Grandpa’s beautiful ships in a cola. The screech of parakeets, the scent of apples and orange blossom wafting through my window, the tall grasses whispering in the meadow, the rabbit warrens in the dunes, the constant boom of the sea – no, I couldn’t imagine living anywhere else. But then I’d never imagined what it would be like without Nano and Grandpa Noah, the weight of responsibility for everything on my shoulders. This was my reality. I was on my own.

I had no father to turn to. He had sailed away before I was born. Nano once told me that he had gone to find us a better place to live. But he never came back. He never knew me, perhaps never even knew my mother had died. Maybe he liked it so much wherever it was that he went that he couldn’t be bothered to come back for us. Or maybe there was no other place to live, no better way. Maybe he drowned somewhere out on the ocean in his little yacht. It must have been very dangerous, all on his own, with all the reefs and rocks and storms. Nano said he had dreams the size of the ocean – and that he was as easy to control.

One night when he was tucking me up in bed, I asked Grandpa Noah if my father would ever return, and he had whispered to me that he would. He had never repeated the promise, but one day when he was totally doolally, he stood on the beach shouting into the sky, ‘Where are you, Redvers Mandela, we need you! We need you to kill these fecking fascist bastards!’

Nano and I had dragged him back to the shack and tried to quieten him. I’d never seen him so agitated.

No father, and no mother, and now no grandparents.

I’d have to face the searches all by myself in future. You could never tell when the Uzis would descend on us. ‘Fascist bullies,’ Grandpa used to say after they’d  gone, and he would turn the digigraph of the Rice King to the wall again.

‘You stupid old man, you’ll get us all shot!’ Nano would scold him and turn it back, then tut at me as I unearthed my book from the straw in the pigeon palace where Grandpa had hidden it.

All the stories that made me who I was were tied up in this place. Who would I be if I left Shell Shack? There was no choice anyway, was there? I had to make the best of things.

On the way back home I found six polythene bags that had been snagged on the thorns after the storm, all remarkably undamaged. I would fill them with grain and hang them high on ceiling hooks. That way the ants couldn’t get at them. Nano would have been proud of me.

Kit arrived as I was adding mushroom stalks to the chicken stew.

‘My bees have left and a fox got the hens,’ I blurted out, trying not to cry.

Kit hugged me. Close to, he stank of his beloved ferret, but I was glad he was there.

Delighted to see each other again, the dogs started running about the small space and knocked over a chair. 

‘For Rice sake!’ I shouted at them.

‘Behave,’ Kit said and let them out into the yard. ‘What’s cooking?’

‘Chicken stew. Lots of it. Courtesy of Mr Fox. Better take some home for your dad.’

He grinned. ‘Don’t go giving it to the scav kid.’

‘I’ll do what I like with my food, thank you very much.’ I lifted the lid and we both breathed in the delicious scent, our heads wreathed in steam.

CHAPTER THREE

THE RASPING SOUND of sawing wood woke me the next morning. Kit had made a list of things that needed doing and, as promised, he had come back to take down a dead orange tree in the orchard. He stopped as I handed him a tin mug of orange leaf tea.

‘Thanks,’ I said, ‘I really needed more firewood.’

‘Time it came down anyway.’ He sipped the hot tea, and the pair of us leaned our backs against one of the other trees, looking out towards the water.

‘Bit much for you, all this?’ Kit asked.

I shrugged. Wasn’t it obvious? He took one of my blistered hands in his. I had run out of ointment for them, just as I had run out of all sorts of things that Nano had made. I didn’t know what the ingredients were. Some sort of mashed herbs and seaweed. I pulled it away, embarrassed.

‘Nano managed.’

‘You’re not Nano.’ He nodded at my bare legs. I had pulled on a pair of shorts when I woke – cut-off denims with lace edges – the lace from one of my mother’s petticoats. ‘I would never have caught her in that get-up,’ Kit grinned.

I play-punched his shoulder and he pretended to punch me back. I wrestled him to the ground, the dogs barking in excitement at us. We ended up in a tangle of limbs, him tickling me until I screamed for mercy. It was good to laugh.

I watched as he sawed the branches into smaller lengths, then chopped them up. I helped him stack the logs into a pile that would last for ages, keeping the range lit.

Kit greased the axe and frowned at the state of my other garden tools. ‘Flora, you really need to… you know… look after these, make them last,’ he said with a rueful smile, obviously afraid that I’d bite his head off.

‘I’ll get a bucket of water, shall I?’