THE HUNGRY STONES
My
kinsman and myself were returning to Calcutta from our Puja trip when
we met the man in a train. From his dress and bearing we took him at
first for an up-country Mahomedan, but we were puzzled as we heard
him talk. He discoursed upon all subjects so confidently that you
might think the Disposer of All Things consulted him at all times in
all that He did. Hitherto we had been perfectly happy, as we did not
know that secret and unheard-of forces were at work, that the
Russians had advanced close to us, that the English had deep and
secret policies, that confusion among the native chiefs had come to a
head. But our newly-acquired friend said with a sly smile: "There
happen more things in heaven and earth, Horatio, than are reported in
your newspapers." As we had never stirred out of our homes
before, the demeanour of the man struck us dumb with wonder. Be the
topic ever so trivial, he would quote science, or comment on the
Vedas, or repeat quatrains from some Persian poet; and as we had no
pretence to a knowledge of science or the Vedas or Persian, our
admiration for him went on increasing, and my kinsman, a theosophist,
was firmly convinced that our fellow-passenger must have been
supernaturally inspired by some strange "magnetism" or
"occult power," by an "astral body" or something
of that kind. He listened to the tritest saying that fell from the
lips of our extraordinary companion with devotional rapture, and
secretly took down notes of his conversation. I fancy that the
extraordinary man saw this, and was a little pleased with it.When
the train reached the junction, we assembled in the waiting room for
the connection. It was then 10 P.M., and as the train, we heard, was
likely to be very late, owing to something wrong in the lines, I
spread my bed on the table and was about to lie down for a
comfortable doze, when the extraordinary person deliberately set
about spinning the following yarn. Of course, I could get no sleep
that night.When,
owing to a disagreement about some questions of administrative
policy, I threw up my post at Junagarh, and entered the service of
the Nizam of Hydria, they appointed me at once, as a strong young
man, collector of cotton duties at Barich.Barich
is a lovely place. The Susta "chatters over stony ways and
babbles on the pebbles," tripping, like a skilful dancing girl,
in through the woods below the lonely hills. A flight of 150 steps
rises from the river, and above that flight, on the river's brim and
at the foot of the hills, there stands a solitary marble palace.
Around it there is no habitation of man—the village and the cotton
mart of Barich being far off.About
250 years ago the Emperor Mahmud Shah II. had built this lonely
palace for his pleasure and luxury. In his days jets of rose-water
spurted from its fountains, and on the cold marble floors of its
spray-cooled rooms young Persian damsels would sit, their hair
dishevelled before bathing, and, splashing their soft naked feet in
the clear water of the reservoirs, would sing, to the tune of the
guitar, the ghazals of their vineyards.The
fountains play no longer; the songs have ceased; no longer do
snow-white feet step gracefully on the snowy marble. It is but the
vast and solitary quarters of cess-collectors like us, men oppressed
with solitude and deprived of the society of women. Now, Karim Khan,
the old clerk of my office, warned me repeatedly not to take up my
abode there. "Pass the day there, if you like," said he,
"but never stay the night." I passed it off with a light
laugh. The servants said that they would work till dark and go away
at night. I gave my ready assent. The house had such a bad name that
even thieves would not venture near it after dark.At
first the solitude of the deserted palace weighed upon me like a
nightmare. I would stay out, and work hard as long as possible, then
return home at night jaded and tired, go to bed and fall asleep.Before
a week had passed, the place began to exert a weird fascination upon
me. It is difficult to describe or to induce people to believe; but I
felt as if the whole house was like a living organism slowly and
imperceptibly digesting me by the action of some stupefying gastric
juice.Perhaps
the process had begun as soon as I set my foot in the house, but I
distinctly remember the day on which I first was conscious of it.It
was the beginning of summer, and the market being dull I had no work
to do. A little before sunset I was sitting in an arm-chair near the
water's edge below the steps. The Susta had shrunk and sunk low; a
broad patch of sand on the other side glowed with the hues of
evening; on this side the pebbles at the bottom of the clear shallow
waters were glistening. There was not a breath of wind anywhere, and
the still air was laden with an oppressive scent from the spicy
shrubs growing on the hills close by.As
the sun sank behind the hill-tops a long dark curtain fell upon the
stage of day, and the intervening hills cut short the time in which
light and shade mingle at sunset. I thought of going out for a ride,
and was about to get up when I heard a footfall on the steps behind.
I looked back, but there was no one.As
I sat down again, thinking it to be an illusion, I heard many
footfalls, as if a large number of persons were rushing down the
steps. A strange thrill of delight, slightly tinged with fear, passed
through my frame, and though there was not a figure before my eyes,
methought I saw a bevy of joyous maidens coming down the steps to
bathe in the Susta in that summer evening. Not a sound was in the
valley, in the river, or in the palace, to break the silence, but I
distinctly heard the maidens' gay and mirthful laugh, like the gurgle
of a spring gushing forth in a hundred cascades, as they ran past me,
in quick playful pursuit of each other, towards the river, without
noticing me at all. As they were invisible to me, so I was, as it
were, invisible to them. The river was perfectly calm, but I felt
that its still, shallow, and clear waters were stirred suddenly by
the splash of many an arm jingling with bracelets, that the girls
laughed and dashed and spattered water at one another, that the feet
of the fair swimmers tossed the tiny waves up in showers of pearl.I
felt a thrill at my heart—I cannot say whether the excitement was
due to fear or delight or curiosity. I had a strong desire to see
them more clearly, but naught was visible before me; I thought I
could catch all that they said if I only strained my ears; but
however hard I strained them, I heard nothing but the chirping of the
cicadas in the woods. It seemed as if a dark curtain of 250 years was
hanging before me, and I would fain lift a corner of it tremblingly
and peer through, though the assembly on the other side was
completely enveloped in darkness.The
oppressive closeness of the evening was broken by a sudden gust of
wind, and the still surface of the Suista rippled and curled like the
hair of a nymph, and from the woods wrapt in the evening gloom there
came forth a simultaneous murmur, as though they were awakening from
a black dream. Call it reality or dream, the momentary glimpse of
that invisible mirage reflected from a far-off world, 250 years old,
vanished in a flash. The mystic forms that brushed past me with their
quick unbodied steps, and loud, voiceless laughter, and threw
themselves into the river, did not go back wringing their dripping
robes as they went. Like fragrance wafted away by the wind they were
dispersed by a single breath of the spring.Then
I was filled with a lively fear that it was the Muse that had taken
advantage of my solitude and possessed me—the witch had evidently
come to ruin a poor devil like myself making a living by collecting
cotton duties. I decided to have a good dinner—it is the empty
stomach that all sorts of incurable diseases find an easy prey. I
sent for my cook and gave orders for a rich, sumptuous moghlai
dinner, redolent of spices and ghi.Next
morning the whole affair appeared a queer fantasy. With a light heart
I put on a sola hat like the sahebs, and drove out to my work. I was
to have written my quarterly report that day, and expected to return
late; but before it was dark I was strangely drawn to my house—by
what I could not say—I felt they were all waiting, and that I
should delay no longer. Leaving my report unfinished I rose, put on
my sola hat, and startling the dark, shady, desolate path with the
rattle of my carriage, I reached the vast silent palace standing on
the gloomy skirts of the hills.On
the first floor the stairs led to a very spacious hall, its roof
stretching wide over ornamental arches resting on three rows of
massive pillars, and groaning day and night under the weight of its
own intense solitude. The day had just closed, and the lamps had not
yet been lighted. As I pushed the door open a great bustle seemed to
follow within, as if a throng of people had broken up in confusion,
and rushed out through the doors and windows and corridors and
verandas and rooms, to make its hurried escape.As
I saw no one I stood bewildered, my hair on end in a kind of ecstatic
delight, and a faint scent of attar and unguents almost effected by
age lingered in my nostrils. Standing in the darkness of that vast
desolate hall between the rows of those ancient pillars, I could hear
the gurgle of fountains plashing on the marble floor, a strange tune
on the guitar, the jingle of ornaments and the tinkle of anklets, the
clang of bells tolling the hours, the distant note of nahabat, the
din of the crystal pendants of chandeliers shaken by the breeze, the
song of bulbuls from the cages in the corridors, the cackle of storks
in the gardens, all creating round me a strange unearthly music.Then
I came under such a spell that this intangible, inaccessible,
unearthly vision appeared to be the only reality in the world—and
all else a mere dream. That I, that is to say, Srijut So-and-so, the
eldest son of So-and-so of blessed memory, should be drawing a
monthly salary of Rs. 450 by the discharge of my duties as collector
of cotton duties, and driving in my dog-cart to my office every day
in a short coat and soia hat, appeared to me to be such an
astonishingly ludicrous illusion that I burst into a horse-laugh, as
I stood in the gloom of that vast silent hall.At
that moment my servant entered with a lighted kerosene lamp in his
hand. I do not know whether he thought me mad, but it came back to me
at once that I was in very deed Srijut So-and-so, son of So-and-so of
blessed memory, and that, while our poets, great and small, alone
could say whether inside of or outside the earth there was a region
where unseen fountains perpetually played and fairy guitars, struck
by invisible fingers, sent forth an eternal harmony, this at any rate
was certain, that I collected duties at the cotton market at Banch,
and earned thereby Rs. 450 per mensem as my salary. I laughed in
great glee at my curious illusion, as I sat over the newspaper at my
camp-table, lighted by the kerosene lamp.After
I had finished my paper and eaten my moghlai dinner, I put out the
lamp, and lay down on my bed in a small side-room. Through the open
window a radiant star, high above the Avalli hills skirted by the
darkness of their woods, was gazing intently from millions and
millions of miles away in the sky at Mr. Collector lying on a humble
camp-bedstead. I wondered and felt amused at the idea, and do not
knew when I fell asleep or how long I slept; but I suddenly awoke
with a start, though I heard no sound and saw no intruder—only the
steady bright star on the hilltop had set, and the dim light of the
new moon was stealthily entering the room through the open window, as
if ashamed of its intrusion.I
saw nobody, but felt as if some one was gently pushing me. As I awoke
she said not a word, but beckoned me with her five fingers bedecked
with rings to follow her cautiously. I got up noiselessly, and,
though not a soul save myself was there in the countless apartments
of that deserted palace with its slumbering sounds and waiting
echoes, I feared at every step lest any one should wake up. Most of
the rooms of the palace were always kept closed, and I had never
entered them.I
followed breathless and with silent steps my invisible guide—I
cannot now say where. What endless dark and narrow passages, what
long corridors, what silent and solemn audience-chambers and close
secret cells I crossed!Though
I could not see my fair guide, her form was not invisible to my
mind's eye,—an Arab girl, her arms, hard and smooth as marble,
visible through her loose sleeves, a thin veil falling on her face
from the fringe of her cap, and a curved dagger at her waist!
Methought that one of the thousand and one Arabian Nights had been
wafted to me from the world of romance, and that at the dead of night
I was wending my way through the dark narrow alleys of slumbering
Bagdad to a trysting-place fraught with peril.At
last my fair guide stopped abruptly before a deep blue screen, and
seemed to point to something below. There was nothing there, but a
sudden dread froze the blood in my heart-methought I saw there on the
floor at the foot of the screen a terrible negro eunuch dressed in
rich brocade, sitting and dozing with outstretched legs, with a naked
sword on his lap. My fair guide lightly tripped over his legs and
held up a fringe of the screen. I could catch a glimpse of a part of
the room spread with a Persian carpet—some one was sitting inside
on a bed—I could not see her, but only caught a glimpse of two
exquisite feet in gold-embroidered slippers, hanging out from loose
saffron-coloured paijamas and placed idly on the orange-coloured
velvet carpet. On one side there was a bluish crystal tray on which a
few apples, pears, oranges, and bunches of grapes in plenty, two
small cups and a gold-tinted decanter were evidently waiting the
guest. A fragrant intoxicating vapour, issuing from a strange sort of
incense that burned within, almost overpowered my senses.As
with trembling heart I made an attempt to step across the
outstretched legs of the eunuch, he woke up suddenly with a start,
and the sword fell from his lap with a sharp clang on the marble
floor. A terrific scream made me jump, and I saw I was sitting on
that camp-bedstead of mine sweating heavily; and the crescent moon
looked pale in the morning light like a weary sleepless patient at
dawn; and our crazy Meher Ali was crying out, as is his daily custom,
"Stand back! Stand back!!" while he went along the lonely
road.Such
was the abrupt close of one of my Arabian Nights; but there were yet
a thousand nights left.Then
followed a great discord between my days and nights. During the day I
would go to my work worn and tired, cursing the bewitching night and
her empty dreams, but as night came my daily life with its bonds and
shackles of work would appear a petty, false, ludicrous vanity.After
nightfall I was caught and overwhelmed in the snare of a strange
intoxication, I would then be transformed into some unknown personage
of a bygone age, playing my part in unwritten history; and my short
English coat and tight breeches did not suit me in the least. With a
red velvet cap on my head, loose paijamas, an embroidered vest, a
long flowing silk gown, and coloured handkerchiefs scented with
attar, I would complete my elaborate toilet, sit on a high-cushioned
chair, and replace my cigarette with a many-coiled narghileh filled
with rose-water, as if in eager expectation of a strange meeting with
the beloved one.I
have no power to describe the marvellous incidents that unfolded
themselves, as the gloom of the night deepened. I felt as if in the
curious apartments of that vast edifice the fragments of a beautiful
story, which I could follow for some distance, but of which I could
never see the end, flew about in a sudden gust of the vernal breeze.
And all the same I would wander from room to room in pursuit of them
the whole night long.Amid
the eddy of these dream-fragments, amid the smell of henna and the
twanging of the guitar, amid the waves of air charged with fragrant
spray, I would catch like a flash of lightning the momentary glimpse
of a fair damsel. She it was who had saffron-coloured paijamas, white
ruddy soft feet in gold-embroidered slippers with curved toes, a
close-fitting bodice wrought with gold, a red cap, from which a
golden frill fell on her snowy brow and cheeks.She
had maddened me. In pursuit of her I wandered from room to room, from
path to path among the bewildering maze of alleys in the enchanted
dreamland of the nether world of sleep.Sometimes
in the evening, while arraying myself carefully as a prince of the
blood-royal before a large mirror, with a candle burning on either
side, I would see a sudden reflection of the Persian beauty by the
side of my own. A swift turn of her neck, a quick eager glance of
intense passion and pain glowing in her large dark eyes, just a
suspicion of speech on her dainty red lips, her figure, fair and slim
crowned with youth like a blossoming creeper, quickly uplifted in her
graceful tilting gait, a dazzling flash of pain and craving and
ecstasy, a smile and a glance and a blaze of jewels and silk, and she
melted away. A wild glist of wind, laden with all the fragrance of
hills and woods, would put out my light, and I would fling aside my
dress and lie down on my bed, my eyes closed and my body thrilling
with delight, and there around me in the breeze, amid all the perfume
of the woods and hills, floated through the silent gloom many a
caress and many a kiss and many a tender touch of hands, and gentle
murmurs in my ears, and fragrant breaths on my brow; or a
sweetly-perfumed kerchief was wafted again and again on my cheeks.
Then slowly a mysterious serpent would twist her stupefying coils
about me; and heaving a heavy sigh, I would lapse into insensibility,
and then into a profound slumber.One
evening I decided to go out on my horse—I do not know who implored
me to stay-but I would listen to no entreaties that day. My English
hat and coat were resting on a rack, and I was about to take them
down when a sudden whirlwind, crested with the sands of the Susta and
the dead leaves of the Avalli hills, caught them up, and whirled them
round and round, while a loud peal of merry laughter rose higher and
higher, striking all the chords of mirth till it died away in the
land of sunset.I
could not go out for my ride, and the next day I gave up my queer
English coat and hat for good.That
day again at dead of night I heard the stifled heart-breaking sobs of
some one—as if below the bed, below the floor, below the stony
foundation of that gigantic palace, from the depths of a dark damp
grave, a voice piteously cried and implored me: "Oh, rescue me!
Break through these doors of hard illusion, deathlike slumber and
fruitless dreams, place by your side on the saddle, press me to your
heart, and, riding through hills and woods and across the river, take
me to the warm radiance of your sunny rooms above!"Who
am I? Oh, how can I rescue thee? What drowning beauty, what incarnate
passion shall I drag to the shore from this wild eddy of dreams? O
lovely ethereal apparition! Where didst thou flourish and when? By
what cool spring, under the shade of what date-groves, wast thou
born—in the lap of what homeless wanderer in the desert? What
Bedouin snatched thee from thy mother's arms, an opening bud plucked
from a wild creeper, placed thee on a horse swift as lightning,
crossed the burning sands, and took thee to the slave-market of what
royal city? And there, what officer of the Badshah, seeing the glory
of thy bashful blossoming youth, paid for thee in gold, placed thee
in a golden palanquin, and offered thee as a present for the seraglio
of his master? And O, the history of that place! The music of the
sareng, the jingle of anklets, the occasional flash of daggers and
the glowing wine of Shiraz poison, and the piercing flashing glance!
What infinite grandeur, what endless servitude!The
slave-girls to thy right and left waved the chamar as diamonds
flashed from their bracelets; the Badshah, the king of kings, fell on
his knees at thy snowy feet in bejewelled shoes, and outside the
terrible Abyssinian eunuch, looking like a messenger of death, but
clothed like an angel, stood with a naked sword in his hand! Then, O,
thou flower of the desert, swept away by the blood-stained dazzling
ocean of grandeur, with its foam of jealousy, its rocks and shoals of
intrigue, on what shore of cruel death wast thou cast, or in what
other land more splendid and more cruel?Suddenly
at this moment that crazy Meher Ali screamed out: "Stand back!
Stand back!! All is false! All is false!!" I opened my eyes and
saw that it was already light. My chaprasi came and handed me my
letters, and the cook waited with a salam for my orders.I
said; "No, I can stay here no longer." That very day I
packed up, and moved to my office. Old Karim Khan smiled a little as
he saw me. I felt nettled, but said nothing, and fell to my work.As
evening approached I grew absent-minded; I felt as if I had an
appointment to keep; and the work of examining the cotton accounts
seemed wholly useless; even the Nizamat of the Nizam did not appear
to be of much worth. Whatever belonged to the present, whatever was
moving and acting and working for bread seemed trivial, meaningless,
and contemptible.I
threw my pen down, closed my ledgers, got into my dog-cart, and drove
away. I noticed that it stopped of itself at the gate of the marble
palace just at the hour of twilight. With quick steps I climbed the
stairs, and entered the room.A
heavy silence was reigning within. The dark rooms were looking sullen
as if they had taken offence. My heart was full of contrition, but
there was no one to whom I could lay it bare, or of whom I could ask
forgiveness. I wandered about the dark rooms with a vacant mind. I
wished I had a guitar to which I could sing to the unknown: "O
fire, the poor moth that made a vain effort to fly away has come back
to thee! Forgive it but this once, burn its wings and consume it in
thy flame!"Suddenly
two tear-drops fell from overhead on my brow. Dark masses of clouds
overcast the top of the Avalli hills that day. The gloomy woods and
the sooty waters of the Susta were waiting in terrible suspense and
in an ominous calm. Suddenly land, water, and sky shivered, and a
wild tempest-blast rushed howling through the distant pathless woods,
showing its lightning-teeth like a raving maniac who had broken his
chains. The desolate halls of the palace banged their doors, and
moaned in the bitterness of anguish.The
servants were all in the office, and there was no one to light the
lamps. The night was cloudy and moonless. In the dense gloom within I
could distinctly feel that a woman was lying on her face on the
carpet below the bed—clasping and tearing her long dishevelled hair
with desperate fingers. Blood was tricking down her fair brow, and
she was now laughing a hard, harsh, mirthless laugh, now bursting
into violent wringing sobs, now rending her bodice and striking at
her bare bosom, as the wind roared in through the open window, and
the rain poured in torrents and soaked her through and through.All
night there was no cessation of the storm or of the passionate cry. I
wandered from room to room in the dark, with unavailing sorrow. Whom
could I console when no one was by? Whose was this intense agony of
sorrow? Whence arose this inconsolable grief?And
the mad man cried out: "Stand back! Stand back!! All is false!
All is false!!"I
saw that the day had dawned, and Meher Ali was going round and round
the palace with his usual cry in that dreadful weather. Suddenly it
came to me that perhaps he also had once lived in that house, and
that, though he had gone mad, he came there every day, and went round
and round, fascinated by the weird spell cast by the marble demon.Despite
the storm and rain I ran to him and asked: "Ho, Meher Ali, what
is false?"The
man answered nothing, but pushing me aside went round and round with
his frantic cry, like a bird flying fascinated about the jaws of a
snake, and made a desperate effort to warn himself by repeating:
"Stand back! Stand back!! All is false! All is false!!"I
ran like a mad man through the pelting rain to my office, and asked
Karim Khan: "Tell me the meaning of all this!"What
I gathered from that old man was this: That at one time countless
unrequited passions and unsatisfied longings and lurid flames of wild
blazing pleasure raged within that palace, and that the curse of all
the heart-aches and blasted hopes had made its every stone thirsty
and hungry, eager to swallow up like a famished ogress any living man
who might chance to approach. Not one of those who lived there for
three consecutive nights could escape these cruel jaws, save Meher
Ali, who had escaped at the cost of his reason.I
asked: "Is there no means whatever of my release?" The old
man said: "There is only one means, and that is very difficult.
I will tell you what it is, but first you must hear the history of a
young Persian girl who once lived in that pleasure-dome. A stranger
or a more bitterly heart-rending tragedy was never enacted on this
earth."Just
at this moment the coolies announced that the train was coming. So
soon? We hurriedly packed up our luggage, as the tram steamed in. An
English gentleman, apparently just aroused from slumber, was looking
out of a first-class carriage endeavouring to read the name of the
station. As soon as he caught sight of our fellow-passenger, he
cried, "Hallo," and took him into his own compartment. As
we got into a second-class carriage, we had no chance of finding out
who the man was nor what was the end of his story.I
said; "The man evidently took us for fools and imposed upon us
out of fun. The story is pure fabrication from start to finish."
The discussion that followed ended in a lifelong rupture between my
theosophist kinsman and myself.