The Rain Heron E-Book

Robbie Arnott

• Herausgeber: Atlantic Books
• Kategorie: Fantasy und Science-Fiction
• Sprache: Englisch

Veröffentlichungsjahr: 2020

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**SHORTLISTED FOR THE MILES FRANKLIN LITERARY AWARD 2021** 'Astonishing... With the intensity of a perfect balance between the mythic and the real, The Rain Heron keeps turning and twisting, taking you to unexpected places. A deeply emotional and satisfying read. Beautifully written.' Jeff VanderMeer, author of Borne Ren lives alone on the remote frontier of a country devastated by a coup. High on the forested slopes, she survives by hunting and trading - and forgetting. But when a young soldier comes to the mountains in search of a legendary creature, Ren is inexorably drawn into an impossible mission. As their lives entwine, unravel and erupt - as myth merges with reality - both Ren and the soldier are forced to confront what they regret, what they love, and what they fear. A vibrant homage to the natural world, bursting with beautiful landscapes and memorable characters, The Rain Heron is a beautifully told eco-fable about our fragile and dysfunctional relationships with the planet and with each other, the havoc we wreak and the price we pay. 'I was transfixed' Catherine Lacey, author of Pew 'Fantastic' Kawai Strong Washburn, author of Sharks in the Time of Saviours

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First published in Australia in 2020 by The Text Publishing Company.

Published in hardback in Great Britain in 2020 by Atlantic Books, an imprint of Atlantic Books Ltd.

Copyright © Robbie Arnott, 2020

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This novel is entirely a work of fiction. The names, characters and incidents portrayed in it are the work of the author’s imagination. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, events or localities, is entirely coincidental.

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Hardback ISBN: 978 1 83895 126 9

E-book ISBN: 978 1 83895 127 6

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For the McKenzies

PART 0

A FARMER LIVED, but not well. If she planted grain, it would not sprout. If she grew rice, it would rot. If she tried to raise livestock, they would gasp and choke and die before they’d seen a second dawn (or they were stillborn, often taking their mothers, which the farmer had usually bought with the last of her coins and hope, with them). Success and happiness were foreign to her, and she had forgotten what it was like to go to bed unhungry. All she had was her hunger and her farm—and her farm, as far as she could tell, wanted her to starve.

Her struggles weren’t due to laziness or a lack of skill. She had been raised on farms, her parents and grandparents had been farmers, and she knew as much about crops and soil and animal husbandry as anyone else in the valley where she lived. She worked hard and long, under a harsh sun and in bone-soaking rain. When she’d exhausted every technique she’d learned from her family, she turned to books, experiments, strange fertilisers, none of which helped. No enemy had salted her fields or cursed her name, for she had no enemies—she was liked and respected by all the people of the valley. There was no reason for her farm’s failure. Yet her crops continued to rot, and her livestock continued to die.

Six years after her parents died and left her on the farm alone—six years of hungry, dismal failure—a black storm blew over the mountains and into the valley. Thunder crashed through walls; lightning licked trees; the wind grew fangs and chewed barns into splinters. Worst of all was the rain. Oceans of freezing, sideways-blown water heaved onto the farms of the valley, turning paddocks into lakes and ponds into seas. These wide waters soon swelled the river that ran through the valley, hastening its current, carrying away topsoil, crops, herds, fences and outbuildings. People took shelter in their stone houses as animals died outside in the chocolate flood. Behind their old, thick walls, they were safe. Everyone was accounted for—everyone but the unlucky farmer.

After the storm stopped raging it took a full day before the floodwaters began to drop. Only then could the people of the valley venture out, in fishing boats and on upturned dining tables, to try to salvage their property. It was at the dusk of this day—a day of sorrowful searching, of fishing with colanders and paddling with hatstands—that they found her. As the weak sun dipped, a group of teenagers, piloting an ancient coracle, saw something strange in the limbs of an old, leafless oak. Paddling nearer, they saw that it was the unlucky farmer, dead or unconscious, her body draped over the branches like a nightgown hung out to dry. But more curious than this was what they saw next: a huge heron, the colour of rain, suddenly emerging from the flood in a fast, steep flight, leaving not even a ripple on the water beneath it. With a languid flap of its wings it came to rest in the crown of the oak, standing over the unlucky farmer, as if on guard.

The teenagers brought their boat to a stop. This water-risen heron was unlike any other they’d seen before—any other heron, any other living creature. Its blue-grey feathers were so pale, they claimed later, that they could see straight through the bird. Its body was pierced by strands of dusky light, and the tree was clearly visible directly behind its sharp, moist beak.

A ghost, one claimed. A mirage, said another. But before they could get closer the heron hunched its neck, flapped its wings and leapt into the sky. A thick spray of water fell from its wings, far more water than could have been resting on its feathers. Then it disappeared into the remnants of the storm.

The teenagers watched it vanish, not sure what they were seeing, not trusting their tired eyes and waterlogged minds. At that moment the unlucky farmer rolled in her cradle of branches, coughed out a spurt of black mud and sucked at the air with great need, great violence.

THE FLOODS RECEDED. Fences were mended, barns rebuilt, crops resown. Within a few months the valley’s farms were back to normal. All except for the fields of the unlucky farmer.

Where once her wheat had refused to sprout, it now blanketed the fields in shining rows of blond. Where her rice had rotted, it now surged forth from the water, pearly, fat and firm. And where her animals had died, they now grew and frolicked—goats, cattle, geese, chickens, every creature under her care. The success of her farm came fast and hard, and soon she was hiring labourers to build fences, harvest grain, herd flocks, which helped the farm flourish yet more. Her prosperity grew; her troubles became memories; a warm pulse began throbbing in her stomach.

On cloudless nights the great heron could be seen flying above her fields, cold rain spraying from its wings, the moon shining clear and bright through its feathers.

Over the seasons her farm continued to thrive, becoming the most successful in the valley. She built herself a large stone house, but that was the only concession she made to her newfound wealth. The rest of her money she shared among the community. The lessons she’d learned while poor—lessons of respect, of kindness, of compassion—she refused to abandon. She helped pay for roads, bridges, a school. Hunters were given free use of her land, fishermen free range of her creeks. Travellers came to know that they were always welcome in her house, that they were sure to find a warm fire and a dry bed waiting for them. She sponsored bright students; she paid for doctors to visit the valley; she hosted grand feasts at the end of every harvest.

Still the heron soared overhead.

Her neighbours were pleased for her, happy that her years of struggle had been rewarded with good fortune. They weren’t surprised that she was sharing her riches. She had been a good person while poor; why wouldn’t she be a good person now? All were happy; all were content. All but the son of her closest neighbour.

PERHAPS IF HE had been older, he wouldn’t have done it. With more winters in his bones he may have been kinder, less jealous, more contemplative. Or maybe not—inside this boy there was a bitter kink, and perhaps no amount of time or experience could have untwisted it.

Where the other valley folk saw well-deserved luck, the neighbour’s son saw unfairness. He was too young to remember how desperate she had been; all he knew was that she prospered while he and his father grew hungry. He watched her fields teem with golden wheat as his father’s, stripped of topsoil, lay fallow. He heard the music and laughter of her feasts at the same time as he heard the growling of his stomach. He saw her bridges gleam in the sun; he saw the clever students lugging books in and out of her school; he watched oxen drag ploughs through her fertile earth. And every evening, above all these sights and sounds, he saw the ghostly heron.

With each stroke of the bird’s wings his vision of unfairness turned closer to envy. Envy grew to anger, and anger gave way to rage. One night he felt that he couldn’t wake up another morning to see the shame on his father’s face, the shame and the hunger and the sorrow and the misery, against the backdrop of their neighbour’s wealth. In the darkest part of that night he thrashed in his sheets as his thoughts twisted in on themselves, losing logic, churning sick. None of it had happened before the heron appeared; if the heron went, so too would the injustice. When he heard his father’s breathing steady into a familiar pattern he got up, found his pocketknife and left the house.

The night was cold and clear. He walked beneath a sky studded with stars. The wind pawed at his clothes as he reached the farm border, vaulted the fence and crossed their neighbour’s fields. No dogs barked; no doors opened. He kept marching, the rattling chain of his thoughts just holding together, loose but strong, dragging him forward. Two fields he crossed, then three. A bridge. A creek. Another field, and he had reached his destination: the leafless oak that had saved his neighbour during the storm.

Other children had told him the heron roosted here—children who had been to his neighbour’s feasts, who’d watched the bird settle into its branches. The tree was empty now, but the boy wasn’t in a hurry. He waited. Hours passed. The wind rushed, raking ice across his cheeks. His legs cramped; his hands shook; his eyes streamed. Still he waited, until finally, in the hour before dawn, the bird shot out of a nearby stream and came to perch on a high branch of the tree. Water trickled from beneath its talons. The boy could see straight through its body, although the bright points of starlight in the sky were rendered watery and distorted. The rage he’d felt earlier came over him again, hot and foul, and he began creeping towards the tree. If the heron noticed him it made no sign, not even when the boy had scaled the lower branches and was closing in on its roost.

When he was within reach of the heron, the boy paused. The wind was as strong as ever, yet the bird’s feathers weren’t moving. He wondered at this for a moment, at wings that could use the air but not feel it; but again he felt the burn of his rage. He drew the knife, snapped open the blade. Rearing up, he balanced on the branch using his feet alone, and readied to grasp the heron’s neck with his free hand while he cut its throat with the knife. Yet when he reached out to grab at the plumage, he felt no feathers—only a sensation of cold liquid, of wetness, of running ice. And with it came sudden feelings of guilt and sorrow, sensations that plunged from his fingers up his arm, through his veins, into his guts and lungs and heart. Only then, in the howling of the wind and the fullness of the night, did the heron turn its face to his.

THE FOLLOWING MORNING brought unseasonal heat. Harsh light blanched the fields of the valley and warm winds stripped moisture from the grass. The once-unlucky farmer found her neighbour’s son wandering in one of her farthest fields. He was moaning, sounds of great pain and horror, and when she approached him she saw that his eyes had been torn out. Dark blood had flowed down his cheeks and neck, spreading in blooms across his shirt, blood that had dried and caked into flaky cherry masses, even as fresh blood continued to pulse from the empty caves in his face. Viscera, veins and cartilage winked out at her, grey-white-blue, from amid the redness in the sockets. He was limping, too; one of his ankles and both his wrists were injured, as if he had fallen from a great height.

She lifted the bleeding boy in her arms and ran him to her neighbour, shouting for help from her farmhands on the way. A doctor soon arrived to treat the boy. He would survive, this doctor later told the people gathered in her neighbour’s house, and he was lucky to have been found. In this heat, with no sight, with so much blood lost, he would have collapsed and died within hours.

The boy never spoke of what had happened to him; if pressed, he would say that he couldn’t remember, that he must have been sleepwalking. Not many people believed him, least of all his father, but as he recovered they relented, largely because they were consumed by a larger problem: the heat that had come the morning he’d been discovered, blind and bleeding, had not left. Instead it had grown hotter and stronger, pelting down endless rays of skin-burning, crop-roasting, pond-parching light. It was supposed to be mid-autumn—cool, rainy, gusty—yet the valley was a furnace. Dams emptied in weeks. Livestock thinned, panted, died. Irrigation ditches were dug, which only served to weaken the flow and depth of the river while the ditch-running water evaporated before it hit the fields. No farm was spared; nobody escaped the heatwave.

Worst hit of all was the once-unlucky farmer. She had the healthiest fields, so she lost the largest crop. She had the biggest herds, so she lost the most water to their endless thirsts and the most livestock to the drought that followed. After her crops and livestock she lost her farmhands, her wealth, her security. She should have seen it coming, some muttered. After all, they said, nobody had spotted the great heron since the first morning of the heatwave. They sympathised with her, but they all had losses and problems of their own, and they could not help her.

AFTER A FULL season of heat the twice-unlucky farmer woke one morning to see barren fields in every direction, scattered all over with dust and sun-bleached bones. The air shimmered as it rose from the dry ground, distorting everything she saw. She looked up to the wide pale sky and saw nothing but an endless dome of blue-yellow burn. She listened for the harsh cry of the heron and heard nothing but the drone of flies. She reached for a shovel, thinking she might dig a well, but its metal handle, heated by the sun, singed her palm. She threw it to the ground, clutching her hand.

The burn became infected. The valley’s doctor had left weeks earlier, and a fever took hold first in her flesh, then in her mind. She wandered through her dead fields, raving incoherently, frothing at the mouth, pus oozing from her hand. Days later she was found by her neighbour, the father of the blind boy. He had seen her roaming and ranting from his window, and had thought to bring her a jug of water. He discovered her body, broken and still, at the base of the leafless oak.

PART 1

SOLDIERS HAVE COME to the village.

Ren looked up, avoiding Barlow’s words, resting her eyes on the pines that crowded the sky, swamp-green, thick, heavy with resin that stuck to skin and cleared throats, nostrils, eyes.

Barlow was sitting on a large rock. When she didn’t answer, he kept talking.

They’re after something—they won’t say what. But it’s up here. On the mountain.

Ravens called from the trees, deep rasps, long and loud. Ren watched them hop, black patterns in the branches. Pine needles carpeted the ground beneath them, giving way in small glades to grass, stones, fallen branches, thick moss. The light was weak, interrupted everywhere by the trees and their shadows. Ren stretched her neck and stared at a pine cone.

It doesn’t matter.

It does if they find you.

She walked to the rock he was sitting on and lay down what she was carrying: deerskins. Five, all small, but clean and neat and cured, free of blood and thick with fur that seemed to glisten in the green-dark light. In her swift movements, in the walking and laying down of the skins, she made it clear that the conversation was over, that she wouldn’t be speaking any more about these soldiers.

Barlow did not like this, and with his long look of worry and the crossing of his arms he made sure she knew it; but, as with everything Ren did, he accepted it. He let his narrow, bearded face relax as he pushed himself off the rock and began inspecting the skins, running his fingers through the fur, murmuring about the quality, small imperfections, price, the coming winter.

Ren waited.

The ravens cawed on. The light weakened further. Finally, Barlow turned and offered two packets of vitamins, a handful of seeds, a woollen blanket and a pair of leather boots in exchange for the pelts. Ren nodded. Barlow undid the pack sitting beside the rock and dug out the goods.

Ren kicked off her old boots—worn, thin-soled, full of holes—and slid on the new ones. She threw the blanket over her shoulders, feeling its itch, its warmth, and put the vitamin packets and seeds in her pockets. She wriggled her torso, shifting the weight of the blanket.

More of the same next time?

He nodded. Any skins are good. Deer. Rabbit. Trout and salmon too, if you smoke them. Mushrooms. You know.

Ren nodded. One week.

All right.

They stood there, each waiting to see if the other had anything else to say. When Ren stayed silent Barlow opened his mouth, ready to speak about something—probably the soldiers again, almost definitely the soldiers—but as Ren saw his lips part she turned and walked away. She left him by the rock and pushed into the trees, treading a trail marked only in her head: stones, moss, logs and cones, connected by the carpet of needles and her memory and nothing more. A trail that couldn’t be followed. Behind her, Barlow hefted the skins and turned to the lower slope.

She raced the dropping sun through the trees, walking slow, firm. Up the slope she climbed, on dark grass, over scree fields, through lit clearings and across cold creeks, surrounded always by the towering pines as their needles slid and crunched beneath her fresh boots. Other trees jostled upwards in places—craggy spruces, spreading beeches and the patchwork trunks of skinny, twiggy birches. She’d learned to recognise them all, even the slender silver firs that at first had seemed almost indistinguishable from the mountain pines until she saw how, at greater heights, they stood tall and lonely and noble. But it was the pines that dominated the slopes, in groves and clusters that to Ren were endless and ever welcome.

After an hour she began following the course of a steep stream, at times using her hands to pull herself over the rocks and roots that bordered the water. For another hour she climbed like this: careful, tiring work, avoiding the icy stream, scraping palm skin, birthing blisters against the leather of her boots. The sun fell further and the trees dropped in height. Finally she tacked away from the water. At a sharp angle she picked her way through the forest, and from there it was only a few minutes before she stopped at a clearing beside a high, sheer cliff.

This clearing wasn’t like the others lower on the mountain. Where they featured long grass, flat mushrooms and scattered stones, this one was neat and free of wildness. Logs sat at its extremities, and in one corner a patch of ploughed soil shot rows of foreign vegetation upwards. It ended beside the cliff, where a black cave was gouged into the rock face. Inside the cave’s mouth, where the diameter narrowed, an uneven wall of logs and sticks, caked with mud and clay, was wedged against the rock. An opening in this wall revealed nothing of the dark interior.

Ren stopped. She drew in the cold high air, its clearing resin scent, and began mentally preparing herself for the night ahead. She needed to drink water, to store the seeds on a dry ledge in her cave, to build a fire by twisting firesticks over cottony tinder. She needed to take her boots off and let her fresh blisters breathe. She needed to eat yams and dried deer meat, and she needed to rest, to lie down, to pull the warm itch of the new blanket up to her chin and sleep.

But she couldn’t focus. Her mind wouldn’t settle on any one task; her thoughts kept dancing back to the same thing: soldiers. Gun-gripping, fast-marching, unsmiling soldiers, and everything she knew soldiers did and meant. Food, she told herself. Water. Rest. Sleep.

The sun fell behind the mountain. Stars winked bright above her. She felt her pulse trip, her lungs pump. Black boots kicked at the backs of her eyes.

IN THE FIVE years since she’d come to the mountain, Ren had almost died on many occasions. Early on, starvation nearly killed her. Then she nearly died of malnutrition, and the fevers and sickness that came with it. She nearly froze. In a cool, happy stream she nearly drowned. She was nearly gored by a boar, nearly kicked to death by a cornered buck. She nearly poisoned herself with hemlock tea. She nearly fell from a cliff three times, and narrowly missed being crushed by tumbling rocks on many others. All her preparations, her research, all the books she’d read: none of it prepared her for the sheer rush of death that comes with being in the wilderness.

But she did not die, thanks to the shelter she found in the cave, to the foraging and survival skills she cobbled together, to her thick vein of stubbornness. And mostly she didn’t die because of Barlow.

She had met him a few weeks after she arrived. She had not yet discovered the cave, and was wandering between shelters, eating her supplies, coming to the realisation that the mountain was going to kill her. On a low slope she saw him with his son foraging for mushrooms, maybe nuts. She saw that he moved slowly, calmly, that he was careful with his footsteps and voice, that he was patient and kind towards the boy, a loud spinning top of a child. Soon they stopped foraging and went back to the village, and Ren felt something hook in her chest as she watched them leave.

Days later she saw him again in the meadow, again with his son. She watched and waited, wondering if they would climb higher. The third time she saw him he was alone, angling for trout with a bamboo pole. He caught a single fish in an hour of casting, and as he packed his bag and turned to leave Ren stepped out from behind a tree, revealing herself without planning to, without thinking about it. He turned; he was coming towards her; she could have stayed hidden but something flicked in her head, a snap of loneliness or need, a snap that travelled all the way to her hip, her knees, and she stepped out before him.

If he was surprised—and he must have been surprised—he didn’t show it. He greeted her and asked no personal questions. They spoke about nothing in particular for a while before Ren, conscious of his meagre haul, offered him a handful of the milk-cap mushrooms she’d been collecting. He put them in a side pocket of his backpack, then opened another section and pulled something out, which he offered to Ren. It looked like a piece of wool. After a pause she took it, feeling beneath her fingers the fibre, warm and soft. She stretched it out and saw that it was a woollen hat.

For the mushrooms, Barlow said. And for winter.

It set a simple precedent. They would meet at a large rock in the pines and trade in ways that kept Ren alive, although Barlow never admitted that these trades were weighted in her favour. For mushrooms and berries he traded a rod of steel to sharpen her knife. For a crown of antlers she found on a buck skeleton he gave her a head torch and a pack of batteries. Once she began catching deer in her traps she began asking for things in advance—boots, vitamins and vegetable seeds.

Ren knew that most of these trades were more beneficial to her—a basket of nuts was never a fair swap for a pair of fleece gloves—but she chose not to let her pride get in the way of these meetings, their connection. And sometimes the trades did go in Barlow’s favour: once she found a large angular rock that gave off a strange glow, with multiple points of light, varying in colour from white to pink to yellow, glittering out of its pocked surface. She gave it to Barlow in exchange for a tube of disinfectant cream. As his hand closed around the rock she saw his eyes, usually calm and guarded, gleam with wild knowledge. He stammered a thanks, asked if she knew what it was, offered to give her more for it, much more, but she refused. She did not mind, and she did not need more.

He never asked why she was living on the mountain, where she had come from. And Ren never asked him anything about what he did, how he lived, if he had a wife and if that wife was the mother of his son, even though she found herself wondering about this, late at night and in the glow of morning.

They didn’t talk about his son, either; she had asked Barlow not to bring him to their meetings. Of all the people she did not want to be around, children were at the top of the list: children and young men, even one that seemed as harmless and lighthearted as the boy she’d seen zooming about on the slopes. She knew what young men could do, no matter how inane they appeared, how joyful and innocent. She knew how they could change and be changed. She knew in her head and blood and hands, and she wanted none of it—none at all, never again.

REN WOKE UP hot. Sweat was sliding down the grooves of her ribs. She wasn’t used to the new blanket’s thickness, the density of its warmth. In the darkness she threw it off, stretched her legs and arms before standing up, wandering to her door of branches and out into the clearing.

The sun was up, the morning warm. At the stream she drank straight from the water, lying flat, dipping her chin in the current. The water sloshed in her stomach, shaking up her hunger, so she went back and grabbed some dried deer meat from one of the ledges at the back of the cave. Later on she would prepare a meal: usually yams and whatever other vegetables she’d grown, a handful of native thyme and more strips of tough meat, boiled in a metal pot she’d received from Barlow. During the day she might snack on nuts or berries, but this was usually enough: scraps of meat in the morning, and a pot of watery stew later on.

She returned to the stream to fill a dented metal bottle with water. A weak breeze touched her cheeks. The stream gurgled. A steadiness came over her. It wasn’t until she began thinking about the rest of the day, about what she needed to do, that she remembered the soldiers.

There was nothing she could do. They might leave; they might already have gone; but once she remembered them she couldn’t chase them from her thoughts.

She decided to spend the day being as active as possible, using tasks and work to keep her mind occupied. Her blisters throbbed, so she pulled on two pairs of socks before sliding on her new boots and setting off to the east. She walked through the forest, sticking to patches of shade and wherever possible stepping on stones—a habit that reduced signs of her passing.

Soon she reached a creek that was wider than the stream by her cave. She wandered down its length, stopping at various points near small gullies she’d dug into the dirt beside the course of the water. She’d placed logs and rocks at critical points in the stream that channelled water into these gullies—water that was occasionally followed by unknowing trout. The gullies curved back into lower parts of the stream, where they were fenced off by sticks Ren had jammed into the riverbed, allowing water to pass through, but not fish.

This time there were no trout in her traps. She reset her waterways, using larger logs, and walked on. As she passed through the forest she stopped to pick up mushrooms, nuts and handfuls of the freshest, most fragrant pine needles, but mostly her stride was straight and fast. At the base of a rocky field she tacked south, coming eventually to a faint path in the trees. It was a deer trail. She stopped at a low bend, where the path wound past the thick trunk of an old pine. Here was another of her traps: a device of strained saplings, string and sharpened sticks. A spring-spear trap, or something like it; she’d memorised the design from a survival book she’d read before she came to the mountain.

It had been triggered. Leaves and dirt had been kicked over the trail, a tuft of fur stuck to one of the spikes, and a smear of rust-red blood ran down the wooden barb. She knelt down to reset it, taking care to position her body behind the spikes. The sapling bent under her grip. She reached for the string, straining the wood, tensing her arms, holding her breath with effort, when she heard rustling foliage. Footsteps. Voices.

The sounds were coming from a gully below her. She released the sapling slowly, leaving the trap unset, and lay flat on the ground, her body obscured by the tree but with a clear view of the gully. A minute passed. The noises grew louder, more frequent, and then their source was revealed: one, two, then five soldiers pushed through the trees about thirty metres away.