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Transcendental Journeys - A Visionary Quest for Freedom is a combination of autobiographical content, exotic travel stories, shamanic journeys, and philosophical views. The author, who came to some unexpected, yet rational conclusions during the three decades of his travels, presents unconventional information in this artistic and entertaining story. 

Torsten E. Klimmer aka Omananda realized, after his dangerous escape from East Germany, that physical freedom was not enough to liberate him from the paralyzing conditionings of his mind. He intuitively knew that there is more to life than he perceived or had been told. He began traveling and was initiated in Asia into an ancient mysticism. This mysterious encounter irreversibly changed the course of his life and set the tone for gaining deeper knowledge in non-ordinary states.
 
QR codes provided in this multimedia book hyperlink film-shots and transcribed interviews that readers can access directly while reading. The educational and entertaining information serves as supportive evidence to defend Mother Earth from a contemporary global meme in which we, as a species, seem to have lost contact with reality. As a result of our prioritized, and commonly agreed-upon, monetary values that likely result from erroneous materialistic world-views, the human heart and our beautiful host planet suffer a great deal. Endless profit, insatiable greed, temporary gain, and senseless exploitation seem to justify all means. This places us, as a species, in a position that looks as if we have lost the sacred knowledge of our cosmic heritage and divine destiny. Surely, most of us have the innate ability to fully bloom into the brilliance of our radiant, true nature. But we don't feel well when we are purposefully misguided and get increasingly addicted to toxic stuff that bombards us from multiple angles, on mental and physical levels. 

Many of us scream for change, but most of us look for it on the outside, where we can get overwhelmed with so many possibilities and too much information. Overload! Life in the technological age is becoming increasingly complex. It’s not so easy to know why, what, or how to transform into a more happier and joyful cosmic being. Confusion, lack of time, misdirected focus and scrambled attention often lead us to give up before thoroughly investigating who we are, or what our actual life goals and deeper purposes might be. Even though we are all born wondering about that! Perhaps it is not too late to change, one person at a time. But are you ready? If not yet, reading this book will nonetheless inspire and entertain you. But if you are ready to dive deeper into the nature of reality and explore your authentic self, this book offers much useful material to work with.

A deeper understanding builds throughout this story. In the final chapter, the author elucidates easy-to-practice, non-religious, yet powerful, spiritual methods and exercises for personal transformation, with helpful hints and suggestions. Torsten also shares his knowledge on the subject of drugs and their abuse. As a medical professional, he clarifies in simple terms for anyone, but especially those who should be all ears, even if they only drink alcohol or smoke cigarettes, why what is considered normal or legal is not necessarily safe. For people with addiction issues and anyone interested in freeing themselves, from internal and external struggles, this book holds great value.

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Table of Contents

Copyright Info

Dedication

Preface

DISSOLUTION - The Mysterious Disappearance of the Wondering Mind

Prologue

THE ESCAPE

Trigger Factor - How It All Began

Resistance - Standing Out of The Crowd

Black Sea - A Bulgarian Experience

Journey To The Other Side - How I Made It Across

A Chilly Welcome - My Arrival in The West

Integration - Freiburg im Breisgau

TRAVELING

USA - First Impressions

West Coast - California Sunshine

Traveling Through Mexico

Mayan Temples in Deep Jungle - Tikal

Cave Explorations in Central America

A Crazy Boat Ride in Honduras

Life in a Caribbean Stilt Village

VIOLENT AWAKENING

Eye Opening Initiation

Mysterious Energy Clouds

Round Trip - Psychic Intuition

India and My Fear of Change

The Labyrinth Experience

Out of Body Experiences in Indonesia

Reality Check in Switzerland

INTEGRATION - Self Empowering Experiences in Altered States

CONFIRMATIONS

A Trip Without Return - California Arrival

San Francisco Dreaming

Unexpected Visuals - Exploding Colors

Wildly, Beautiful, Crazy and Free People in Goa

Hidden Dimensions - Revelations in Unknown Territories

Consortium of Collective Consciousness

SELF EMPOWERMENT

Vibrational Sound Healing

Living Naked in The Jungle

True Love Never Dies - Angelique

Hawaii - Tropical Lovers Paradise

Traveling - The Real Life School

Angelical Higher Education

Letter To The Goddess

OVER THE EDGE

The Embodiment of Nataraja

The Grim Reaper

Living in Japan

Painful Reptilian Invasions in Angkor Wat

Flashback in Bangkok

Cambodia on a Motorcycle

More God-Medicine, Please! The Shiva Linga Temple

Sainj - What a Strange Trip It’s Been

MANIFESTATION - When Dream and Reality Merge into ONE

MYSTIC FOUNDATIONS

Liquid Crystal Vision — On a Mission from God

Flower Power — Hawaiian Baby Wood Rose Seeds

My First Ayahuasca Ceremony — The Vision of Paradise

A Spiked Journey — Albert Hofmann's 100th BD Symposium

CLEANSING & HEALING

Ritual Celebrations — Contact with Indigenous Cultures

Peyote Ceremony — Initiation and Sacrifice

Defense Front of Wirikuta — Successful Media Activism

Huichol Ritual — A Group Prayer for the Heart of the Earth

Shamanicumpari — Growing Eyes in the Back of My Head

Drug Addictions — Toxic Schock

Flower of Death — My Search for an Adaptogen

SOLUTIONS FOR HUMANITY

Reintroduction — Now What?

Dream Conscious — Temple of the Imagination

The Duty — Divine Purpose

Illusion and Reality — Differentiation Changes Our World

Stepping into the Circle — Come UNITY

Children of Gaia — Common Sense

Systematic Plan for Legalization — Tribal Legislation

Closing Words — Final Poetry

Call to Action — Join the Tribe

Footnotes

This multimedia book is linked to free videos and photographs of the related website & blog, where you can download the audiobook with shamanic music and subscribe to the podcast.

www.transcendentaljourneys.com

Revised Edition: March2018 — ISBN: 978-3-947533-00-8

Author: Torsten E. Klimmer (aka Omananda)

Publisher: www.omananda.com

Copyright © 2018 www.omananda.com, San Francisco, California, All Rights Reserved. No part of this publication may be reproduced, stored in a retrieval system, or transmitted, in any form or in any means — by electronic, mechanical, photocopying, recording or otherwise — without prior written permission from the publisher with the exception of short quotes in reviews and publications on social networks and elsewhere, in which case a link to the publisher www.omananda.com and the publication www.transcendentaljourneys.com must be used!

Cover Image: “Maria Divina” by Carey Thompson www.galactivation.com. All photography and art, unless stated otherwise, Copyright © 2018, Torsten E. Klimmer

Life's essence — LOVE — is realized when sharing what we know by heart.

Preface

Crystal Ball

I wrote this book for several reasons. Number one, I had to! It’s been stuck in my mind and it wanted to come out, like a baby already late for birth. Creative energy was pushing hard from the womb of creation. Eventually, I had to sit down and make sense out of everything I had gathered during the last three decades that I’d spent traveling the world in my search for freedom.

I had no idea how much time it would take to write this book, but once I started, there was no turning back. It was similar to when a person experiments with psychedelics! When the sunglasses have been shaken off and the rabbit is sucked into the vortex, the world never quite looks the same again. It appears in brilliant hues with new thoughts forming in a flickering mind’s vision that starts to gaze through the mirage of creation, shape-shifting into infinite space. During such an artificially altered and refreshing perception, a brilliant light with a halo might suddenly turn (you) on, as if lightning has struck out of the blue. Extinguishing this spiritual fire is futile once it’s ignited, which brings me to another reason why I wrote this book. Psychedelic Spirituality! Yes, I have smoked pot, and yes, I am experienced with psychedelic substances of all kinds, but they were not what I initially imagined.

To be clear, I am not advocating drugs in this book, so your kids can also safely read it. On the contrary! I learned about harm-reduction and treating drug addictions that are at epidemical levels in most Western nations, with psychedelics! As a medical professional, I bring quite a bit of knowledge into the area of drugs, since I dispensed pharmaceutical drugs professionally. It’s also worth mentioning that by the time of writing this book, I don’t even drink a drop of liquor, coffee, or smoke anything. I don’t take chemical drugs either, and I keep a clean, meat-free diet. Guess what? My life is not boring at all, as you will soon find out.

I wrote this book primarily for people who have never eaten magic mushrooms or participated in an ayahuasca or peyote ceremony, so that they can also understand the profound spiritual significance of the conscious use of ancient shamanistic technologies, without having to ingest any of those scary-sounding substances. You can look at this book like a flight-simulator for an airplane pilot. Your body will be safe when you read about the non-ordinary experiences described in this book. These can be very far out, so you might think I made it all up. No! I tell everything in this book exactly as I experienced it. Especially the lessons I have learned from faceless, ego-less, angelical beings! Only the character names have been changed to protect the individuals’ privacy. Everything else remains authentic to the facts, as I experienced them. Transcendental Journeys elucidates a natural progression of how I came to some unexpected, yet rational conclusions.

Of course, I could have published this story as fiction as that might attract a larger audience, because the book reads that way! But I would have missed the point by doing so — for you to know what’s possible in this world! Therefore, I guarantee there are no imaginary episodes in this literary work whatsoever, other than the fact that all of our subjective realities are imaginary constructs of, and in, the mind. The world is not exactly the way we perceive it or think it to be, but how we project it! But let me not get too far here, so I don’t freak you out. (That might come later.)

It is common knowledge today that fear has been, and is used to control people. Anything that could wake up the masses has to be detained or annihilated for the civilized world to continue, to keep the order of the new world. In the meantime, ancient knowledge and the wisdom of indigenous shamanistic traditions from tribes all around the world get mowed down, like weeds in a garden, by those who have either not identified the healing properties of certain life-saving herbs, or by the people in control who consciously know that allowing psychedelics could create the love ®-evolution we so very much require.

Furthermore, I wrote this book as an artistic statement and inspiration of spiritual activism. This means to become active spiritually and to begin to change into a better, more conscious, aware, and constructive co-creator of reality. Many of us scream for change and look on the outside for it, where we can get overwhelmed with so many possibilities and so much information! Most people don’t even know where to begin and drop the ball before ever investigating where to start or what their actual goal and life-purpose might be. To me, it’s quite simple (today). We all have to start with ourselves. I list simple methods in this book that can help anyone awaken their full potential and live it too (if practiced). I compiled it in the form of a travel diary, although, I did not only travel on this planet! Apart from voyages through untouched jungles, vast deserts, high mountain regions, and tropical islands on earth, I also journeyed through astral realms where I met some of my teachers who are spiritual beings without physical bodies. Wild, right? But true.

A personal reason I wrote this book is that I processed my past in a meditative and healing way, which brought up a lot of memories for me. I was ready to let them go and make my life public for one major reason. I want to help humanity become better in our approach to finding solutions, instead of getting stuck on problems. It doesn’t mean we aren’t good enough. I think humans are amazing creatures capable of extraordinary things. I know we have it all within us to fully bloom into the brilliance of our true nature. But we do not become well when we are purposefully misguided and get increasingly addicted to the toxic stuff that bombards us from all angles in most metropolitan areas, on mental and physical levels.

A good reason to read this book, or at least give it a try, is because it’s entertaining. This fun and true story begins in East Germany. Yes, I am from Germany, and we are stern people. Believe me, I tried to get rid of my ‘Germanness,’ but it’s not an easy job! I am still working on it, which reminds me that I wrote this book initially in English, which is my second language. So, if some passages sound odd and my editors did not catch or manage to mold into “proper” English, please forgive me. I guarantee you’ll still get the point. I do thank my editors for walking with me through this book and making it what it has become today so you can enjoy the transcendental journeys with me.

There were other reasons too, why I wrote this book. I am passionate about serving a higher purpose, being truthful, acting with love and kindness, respecting and developing tolerance towards one another, not judging falsely, acquiring discernment, and above all else — self-realization and compassion. What I hope you will read are not just philosophies by someone who could be falsely judged as a person who dared to chew through a taboo subject for it to be digested well, pooped out and rot away. Believe me, we cannot turn a blind eye any longer to the fact that I, and many others, have learned so much from sacred herbs and medicinal shamanic use. And not abuse! Heck, many people have woken up for real and the discrimination and illegality of entheogenic substances is a disgrace to our ancestral heritage. It simply needs to change, like the wall in Germany had to come down. It was just a matter of time before it did! But prior to physical changes taking place in our three-dimensional world that we commonly agree upon as “reality,” we have to bring the subject in question to a wider audience. And I aim to do that with this book!

For your information, I am not a religious or dogmatic person, nor am I against any believers or belief. All I know is that I know very little and that we are all entitled and responsible for maturing our vision and understanding of life and what it means for us. There are underlying principles from which the world is shaped and changed. These cosmic laws appear throughout all creation and we can learn how to observe and be guided by those patterns that are the foundation for life. As human beings, we have the ability to fully awaken, anywhere on this planet, especially since we were born to learn and evolve so that we can become the living proof of our true nature! But before that can happen for most of us, we have to sort out the basics for everyone, like: shelter, clean drinking water, non-toxic food, free holistic healthcare, and a great practical education! In reality, however, the question remains: how can we eradicate poverty, hunger, inequality, pestilence, and despair? It’s not like we don’t have enough money. We print that stuff!

It’s obvious to me that waking up collectively and becoming aware and caring human beings is the great antidote and alternative to the mindless wars and destruction that needlessly still rage in many places on our outstanding, blue planet. War financially only benefits a few wealthy and corrupted maggots! Money, in my opinion, is wasted on weapons-trade and defense budgets when we could redirect it intelligently to create a better world for everyone, together! Thou shall kill is not a commandment in any of the major religions, nor is it a part of the future most of us dream about. Surely, change is the only constant in life, but are you ready for it? Because the awakening cannot be stopped! Those who would like it to go away can’t do a darn thing about it.

Oh, by the way, I have a direct connection to a divine and cosmic couple. Lord Shiva is the destroyer of spiritual ignorance. He removes it without compromise! Shiva’s fire burns all that is not real and transforms it back to its original, uncorrupted state of pure vibrating consciousness. Goddess-power Shakti, and life’s creative principle is Shiva’s consort. She represents all creation in the phenomenal world, and together they form divinity in Hindu mythology. The primary object of worship in Tantra is the Shiva Linga, a metaphor of both female and male reproductive organs during the act of lovemaking – the penis in the vagina throbbing forever! But the Shiva Linga is also a representation of the torus-shaped energy particle that is the primary building block for life! Much of this book speaks with the wisdom of Vedic codes, which are hardly noticeable at first as they fade in like faint background noises. Over the course of the story, they come in more and more like rhythmic drum beats.

What’s in the book?

There are three parts to this book and nine chapters. Each part is different from the other, but the story is very much connected. All three parts are also published individually, as eBooks. Basically, this is just like three novellas in one book. Apart from 71 interwoven stories plus preface & prologue, there are 73 photographs and QR-codes to hyperlinked, related videos and websites.

The first part, DISSOLUTION - The Mysterious Disappearance of the Wondering Mind, describes my dangerous road to physical freedom from communist oppression in the socialistic society where I was born. Driven by a burning desire for freedom, I set out to escape East Germany as a young person, before the Berlin Wall fell. In the first chapter of this book, I clarify the reasons for my escape and the resistance movement I experienced during my former life in the GDR. When I arrived in the West, I began to first see glimpses of non-ordinary states of consciousness that eventually culminated in a spiritual awakening in Indonesia, after I had travelled for a couple of years through the USA, Central America, and parts of Asia and India. This leads to part two of this book, called INTEGRATION - Self Empowering Experiences in Altered States. I begin to make sense of a mushroom-induced awakening so as to not go mad in a society that does not understand much about the significance of spiritual emergencies, which can be induced by psychedelics. I start to learn potent life lessons by going deeper into the journey of self-discovery in this colorful and very personal part of the book.

Solutions for humanity are addressed in the important and final third part of this book called, MANIFESTATION - When Dream and Reality Merge into ONE. In it, I describe how we made activist films that helped to kick out the billion-dollar mining companies from Mexico, which were in direct violation of the law. During this critical and dangerous mission, WWF protected natural zones, and native cultures were saved. I was a crucial aspect of another important peaceful activist movement that turned into the biggest synchronized worldwide meditation in the Guinness Book of Records! Unify focused on world peace through inner peace. In this book, I share how it all came to be. The United Nations Human Rights Film Festival screened another Omananda film. The reasons for our filmmaking efforts are detailed from behind the scenes in this part of the book.

Integrative experiences with the medicine are described with visionary brilliance throughout many chapters, but especially in the second half of the book. I have had direct contact with ancient, indigenous medicine tribes that have used psychoactive cacti and other herbal plants since immemorial times. The healing prayer-ceremonies in which they utilize those psychotropic concoctions are an integral aspect and the foundation for their colorful and artistic lives. I also write about drug addiction in this book since I speak from experience. I list successful harm-reduction practices to suggest smart drug policy updates. I introduce unique plans for preventing scheduled substance abuse in this book while simultaneously advocating legalization of mind-altering and sacred herbs under controlled conditions outside the pharmaceutical, medical, or religious framework. I clarify in simple terms for anyone, and especially those who should be all ears, even if they only drink alcohol or smoke cigarettes, why what is considered normal or legal is not necessarily safe.

My unique viewpoint results from having grown up indoctrinated in an oppressive communist environment, where I was kept away from substance abuse other than alcohol and nicotine until the age of twenty. Then I risked my life and escaped successfully to travel the world for twenty-eight years with the primary purpose to understand how to truly free myself. Risking anything to understand what’s real was on my agenda back then, because I realized swiftly after my escape that physical freedom was not enough to be liberated from the paralyzing conditionings of the mind and the limiting constructs of Western society. Somewhere on my transcendental journeys, however, I began to comprehend that there is more to life than we commonly perceive, or what we’re told. Thankfully today, I often look at the world with a somewhat aloof and cosmic, but not arrogant, perspective. What I can offer you with this book is a potential discovery of very specific secrets that might open unknown worlds to you, especially when you read between the lines!

The Visionary Writings of Omananda carry hope for a more loving, empathic, sharing, and truly caring free humanity. I also elucidate easy-to-practice, yet, powerful, non-religious, spiritual methods and exercises for personal transformation with helpful hints and suggestions. The later chapters of this book are more poetic than the earlier portions, as I express a deeper reasoning that builds throughout the book. The language changes from the beginning towards the end, which goes hand in hand with my own character development. The book starts with a somewhat ordinary and ignorant, although curious, perspective and it ends with, well … I leave that open for you to find out.

  There was no freedom of speech in East Germany and a truthful word when spoken can be powerful and scary to those who might have a good reason to hide behind lies. What is this truth that can be so widespread and worrisome that it has the potential to overthrow entire superpowers? Of course, what might be true for me might not be true for you at all, and that is perfectly all right (with me). There are as many angles to a crystal ball as there are viewpoints and we all watch the miracle of existence unfold from our individual perspectives. Still, we remain unified at our core where the true perceiver dwells. 

 Enjoy the ride, Omananda.

PART ONE

DISSOLUTION - The Mysterious Disappearance of the Wondering Mind

Prologue

Rhino Graffiti

Some time ago, I was walking through Christiania, the alternative part of Copenhagen that attracts many tourists, probably because marijuana1 and hashish are openly sold there. Pushers belonging to organized crime control this area of the Danish capital. Many bars, organic and commercial food restaurants, as well as art exhibitions and work shops dominate this not-so-clean peninsula that has managed to maintain its independence despite the Danish government’s continued efforts to tear it down.

The drug dealers are an issue, explained a Danish girl with rainbow colors in her hair and a free spirit. Tanja must have been in her late twenties. I met this roller-skating performance artist and actress at a local art exhibition. The truly alternative and conscious people do not like the crime that comes with illegal drug dealing, she said. People, even police officers, had been shot in Christiania. Tanja suggested to legalize weed altogether so that the situation could be legislated.

Tanja grew up in Christiania and raved about a time when she freely roamed the streets there as a child. How different she grew up compared to me, I thought. I had only been to Copenhagen ten years ago and I knew virtually nothing about it. Tanja offered to show me around. So out of the blue, I found myself getting an inside view into the backstreets of this graffiti laden place, in the good company of a blue eyed pretty Scandinavian girl with well trained legs and a mini skirt.

Christiania, so I found out, contains really cool alternative houses that have been constructed over many decades. Food gardens grow there in the summer and fig trees even thrive. There are many communities and safe places for kids to play with alternative schooling systems. Most people drive bicycles and ganja2 plants can be seen growing on the streets. Everyone has free healthcare.

I frantically photographed plenty enticing artful creations until the sun had set and the unconventional tour concluded. We settled next to a glowing fire-bin near Pusher Street where Tanja told me about her life as an actress. Apparently, she got fired from her last job because of her radical left wing (political) views. Proudly she said that she was a communist. I told her that I grew up in the German Democratic Republic (GDR) or East Germany, from where I successfully escaped. Communism never really worked, I said. Only socialism has ever existed and growing up in it was hard enough!

According to Marxist-Leninist idealism that they tried to indoctrinate us with in school as kids, communism can only work if the entire world became communistic, that is a society which functions entirely without money. I admit the concept of getting rid of money sounds intriguing, especially when considering how much havoc money and the power it can buy creates. But there was a good reason why I ran from East Germany, which was like a big prison complex to me.

After a heated conversation, Tanja was suddenly very curious about my escape story, as many people are. Upon her asking me to tell it to her, I said that it is a fairly long tale that would be better for another time. But she insisted and in a nearby cozy café I began to tell Tanja how I risked my life in the search of freedom.

Chapter 1

THE ESCAPE

Trigger Factor — How It All Began

Sweet 16 — Torsten in East Germany

When I was fifteen and in the middle of class on an ordinary school day, I was unexpectedly called to our school director’s office. Upon entering the large room, I saw a huge army general who was decorated with many colorful medals and seated next to our benevolent director. He asked if I could imagine joining the army for three years and studying medicine there. They both knew of my wish to become a doctor and I was one of the best students in my class, a good kid up until then. What they did not know is that, for me, the army was a red flag. I associated it with war and killing, rather than patriotism or serving my country. In the history of Germany, patriotism was so well advertised through the propaganda machine of the Third Reich that it ultimately led to war against everyone else. Hitler tried to play God in his madness for superiority (and amphetamines). The Nazis killed a lot of people and created much misery around the world. As a result of WWll, the atomic bombs were dropped on Japan. Israel was also created and continues to smolder like an old wound that has never managed to heal. Of course, from the perspective of the patriotic soldiers who fought to ultimately “liberate” the German people, I should have been psyched to join the army! But I replied honestly that I could not imagine that. The dreadful story of my grandparents’ lucky survival of the potential war crimes committed in Dresden⁠1 during a cold night of February 1945, when British and American bombers attacked the Saxon capital, had even traumatized me as a young child.

My grandfather was physically disabled as a war veteran and at home with my grandmother in Dresden during this horrific air raid. He quickly realized a life-threatening emergency was taking place when the door was blocked by rubble as they hid in the cellar of the house that also served as their bunker. They were trapped in this dark space below the earth together with other inhabitants fearing for their lives. Only with the help of a hammer was my grandfather able to dig a hole in the wall sufficient to get them out. He had realized that they would suffocate if they did not escape in time. After he dug a hole into the wall big enough to serve as an emergency exit, he asked if any of the others also wanted to escape with them together into the streets, but none dared to. They were never seen again. When my grandparents crawled out of this hole, my granny described the situation as follows.

Napalm bombs had set the streets ablaze and burning people were running around screaming with their bodies burning from inextinguishable fires. Rivers of knee-deep water from blown water pipes and corpses filled the streets, along with too many drowning babies my grandmother wanted to pick up, but just couldn’t. They had to run for their lives while bombs fell from the sky like raindrops with the squeaking sounds of terror. Pain, fear and death were part of the hellish theme in Dresden that night, as firestorms raged ferociously. According to my grandmother, it was extremely difficult to walk against these scorching winds as they tried to make their way to the River Elbe, where they thought they would be safe from the town that was under siege and on fire. When they reached the riverbanks with its ice-cold water, airplanes with machine guns were shooting people there as well! Thankfully, my grandfather had experienced surviving the front in Russia. He knew and even taught me how to fall towards these flying death-machines, which minimizes the chance of being hit by a bullet. Luckily, they survived, or my mother and I would never have been born.

Upon the defeat of Nazi Germany, the victorious allied powers asserted their joint authority and sovereignty over the formerly German Reich as a whole. According to the Potsdam Conference of August 1945 that was also called the Berlin Conference of the Three Heads of Government of the USSR, USA and UK, Allied-Occupied Germany was collectively administered by these countries and ultimately divided into two main sectors that became East and West Germany. Constructed by the German Democratic Republic in 1961, The Berlin Wall was built as a guarded concrete barrier that physically and ideologically divided first Berlin, and then all of Germany! I was born and grew up in East Germany, which belonged to the Russian sector.

To this day, the United States of America and Great Britain deny the use of phosphorus bombs2 in Dresden and the fact that low flying airplanes were shooting civilians at the riverbanks. Dresden did not have many strategic military targets, although the Americans claimed that the bombing was justified. The official reason for the devastating attack on Dresden and many other German cities was to deplete the morale of the German people. Both of my grandparents had only one wish for me in life; that I would never have to experience war!

I was already a pacifist, and I did not fancy a hierarchical system, like the military, nor having to obey orders enforced by the command to be shot or imprisoned if I did not do what my superior says. Also, being exposed to a radical social environment, like the army, would leave little space for common sense. Tolerating the mandatory 1.5 years military service was hard enough for me to swallow, so I absolutely did not want to study medicine in the army as well.

When I told my mom what happened in school, she got very upset. I should have said yes, she said, so that I can study medicine, but I was young and naive, so I argued with her, not knowing that she had a good point. I learned the hard way later on that the Eastern German regime gave free higher education to only 3-5% of what they labeled as “intelligent” people. This term apparently meant to them, people who do not question authority and blindly accept communist idealism.

Shortly after this incident, I received a letter to appear at a pre-military medical checkup, to determine if I was physically able to attend the army. I traveled to the local city for my medical appointment where many youngsters were ordered to make an appearance that day. My appointment was at 9:30 am, and the medical tests took 30 minutes. Afterwards, people were released to go home, but not me! I had to wait from 10 am until 5:30 pm, and I was the only one left by then.

It was already dark outside when I finally heard my name over the loudspeakers giving me instructions to enter Room Six that was located at the end of a dim hallway. The room was divided into two segments by a bar-like elongated podium. I saw five men dressed in a businesslike manner in dark suits sitting in an elevated position on the left. Behind them were three pictures of the head communists of the country. On the right side of the room, about a meter and a half below them, was a little chair. “Please sit down, Mr. Klimmer,” said one of the men, pointing at that chair.

They opened a folder with “my life” in front of them, from where they could read information about me. They also had my passport. I remember the conversation going something like this, “Mr. Klimmer, we see you have a great life ahead of you. You are one of the best in school, and you want to study medicine. We endorse this great choice of yours very much. It is such a wonderful profession, and we invite you to study in the army and become a medical doctor for our troops.” There was a little moment of silence, and I thought to myself, “Are they offering me what the army general in school already did but this time assuming I wanted to take the deal? Perhaps this is a misunderstanding?” So, I clarified and gave them the same answer, but this time I elaborated on the reasons why I could not accept their invitation, but they did not take “no” for an answer.

The conversation continued as they first spoke kindly and offered me a life one could only dream of in East Germany. They painted a picture of a future with me becoming a successful communist doctor in the army, having a lovely family with wife and kids living in a nice house, driving a car with a real 2-stroke engine that would normally take twenty years for delivery, and using a telephone that took ten years to acquire — basically anything one would need to be happy in order to live in that grey country under Russian oppression. In spite of that, I could not allow my living soul to compromise and accept this tainted offer. I felt drawn from my heart to make love, not war, and I had a burning desire for freedom that was and remains a driving force within me until this day.

During the course of the tough hour and a half conversation in that room, the pressure started to slowly build towards psychological torture, as these obscurely evil-looking characters began to act out a scene that felt just like a horror movie. With nasty faces and aggressive tones, they yelled at that innocent little boy — me — who was forced to sit on a lowered chair. They said they could draw me into the military three months out of every year, as they are legally entitled to, and that my wife would cheat on me during this time, and so forth. It just went on and on, deep into the ugly. Towards the end they tried to threaten me and suggested that if I did not sign the document they presented me with that would commit me to go to the army for a minimum of 3 years, they would make sure that me and my parents’ lives would become a living hell. They shouted at me, saying that my parents would lose their jobs, and I would never get one. Nor would I be able to go to university and study anything, unless, of course, I signed that paper!

Although, their lips were still moving and their grimaces were agitated, their voices had gone silent to me. I was somehow looking at this traumatizing scene from an aloof perspective. Their angry words bypassed me somehow on conscious levels and their staged emotions had no immediate effect on my psyche. My ears were shut and my heart was closed. When they finished with what had become a monologue, the big guy in the middle threw my passport on the table saying that I should be very careful what my answer was going to be, because it would determine the future of my life!

With a calm and firm voice, I replied that I was sorry they had wasted their time with me and that my decision about going to the army was made long before I entered this room. “One and a half years” I said, but not one day longer. With distorted angry faces, these growling communist prostitutes that were paid to pressure innocent kids into signing these binding contracts to be brainwashed concluded, “Just wait, Mr. Klimmer, and see what will happen to you!” At this moment, my decision to escape East Germany was made, since the country did not offer me a future I could lovingly embrace.

Resistance — Standing Out of The Crowd

Graffiti Girl — Street Art

The official way to leave East Germany was to write a legal letter to the government saying that you could no longer tolerate their regime, you are therefore politically incorrect, and you want to leave the country permanently. This letter was called the “Ausreiseantrag” in German, which translates into English as an outside-travel-application, or (ATA). After that was submitted, the long waiting period would usually begin that could take anywhere between six months to ten years before official permission to leave the country was granted. Out of the blue, a 24-hour notice would then be given that would open a brief window for the applicant to leave immediately without any option to return within the next ten to twenty years, even to see close relatives. In the meantime, applicants would have to report weekly to the local police station. The kind of torturous treatment described in the previous story, and probably even harsher treatments, would be repeated.

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