Beautiful & Battered E-Book

Orkidedatter

• Herausgeber: Next Chapter
• Kategorie: Poesie und Drama
• Sprache: Englisch
• Veröffentlichungsjahr: 2022

Beschreibung

From the north a butterfly in winter land under the Polar star in the elongated small country

-Norway-

If you listen carefully you can hear her wing stroke rises from a descending black star from a nightmare visions flash down below the abyss.

Breaks through the chains from a cage of another day healing subconsciously a picture of pain.

Bleeding memories and a battered country girl, but beautiful as the midnight sun.

Strong as the Northern Lights dances on the black canvas of the sky.

She colors her soul`s landscape of a ruin to an architectural masterpiece.

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Beautiful & Battered

Breaking Through The Chains

Orkidedatter

Contents

Orkidedatter

Preface

Dear reader

Wild birds fly, tame birds in caged dreams

Protection

Burned

Love in the wilderness

Valuable

Ghostsouls from the nature

Why you dare

The shadows on the barn

A brush stroke

Her spirit

A seed

Poisonous words

The Norwegian force

The darkness

The secret

Up from the ashes

Different

A desire

Coloring your day

Tired heart

Paradise

Never let me go

My star

My Demon

The black rose

I`m falling like a star

Tormented by the ghosts

A little piece of heaven

A quiet place

Monster love

Back from the edge

End of the line

Heaven from hell

A heart of tears

The fox girl

Can`t let go of beauty of darkness

Shades of colors

The broken inside me

Old tracks

Country girl

A girl`s disastrous melody path

Brushstroke into eternity

Tic-tac, can`t freeze time

The Black Bride

My mirror allures me to the ashes

Forbidden echo

The girl in the glass bubble

Summertime sadness

Running with the wolves

Reflections

When you lose someone

Mysterious rooms

Lullaby

A summernight

My Black Stallion

Shades of black scars

Prince of the Darkness

Unwritten destiny

You borrowed her heart

Cage of defeat

Midsummer night

Angel of death

Emotions

Wrecked soul

Shades of love

Aroused

You and me

The sky is crying

Colorless

Panther

Without me

Trust

Souls of love

The blue beautiful eyes

Battle cry

A beautiful old bassline

Savage love

Sin of a ruin human

The shadow dance

My crystal shadow

Soul to soul

Frozen tears from a winter moon`s sorrow

When the sky is crying blood

A wolf heart changing shadow

Like the ocean

My mischievous eye spark

Can I be her

Put her mind to rest

The girl in the broken mirror

A vision of the night's sun miracle

Again?

Red moonbeams

That girl

The dance floor of heaven in Hell

The lake of fire and brimstone

The heart of your playground

I wan the war

The black angel of the cemetery

Black ice bridge over rainbow water

The girl in the basement

Tears from the wolf`s eyes

Under the North star

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About the Author

Copyright (C) 2020 Orkidedatter

Layout design and Copyright (C) 2020 by Next Chapter

Published 2020 by Next Chapter

Cover art by CoverMint

This book is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents are the product of the author's imagination or are used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual events, locales, or persons, living or dead, is purely coincidental.

All rights reserved. No part of this book may be reproduced or transmitted in any form or by any means, electronic or mechanical, including photocopying, recording, or by any information storage and retrieval system, without the author's permission.

Orkidedatter

From the north a butterfly in winter land under the Polar star in the elongated small country

-Norway-

If you listen carefully you can hear her wing stroke rises from a descending black star from a nightmare visions flash down below the abyss.

Breaks through the chains from a cage of another day healing subconsciously a picture of pain.

Bleeding memories and a battered country girl, but beautiful as the midnight sun.

Strong as the Northern Lights dances on the black canvas of the sky.

She colors her soul`s landscape of a ruin to an architectural masterpiece.

Orkidedatter

Preface

Orkidedatter is an artistic poet, writer, and artist from Norway. From the time she was a child, she has drawn her feelings, stories, poems, or experiences. A childhood with experiences children should not have, she used this to process emotions. Orkidedatter was never recognized or accepted for having this ability. She buried and hid her talent far inside her soul.

For many years she wrote, drew, and painted and nobody knew about it. She dared not talk about this to anybody because she was bullied and worse things happened. Several thought it was fantasy, but in her hand, she stood with her life.

For many years, she kept her writings and herself as a writer hidden like a secret. Now she is on her way to find herself in this literary atmosphere. She has removed her secret chapter by chapter in her life the last four years.

At the age of 40, she realized she had to deal with her childhood and get help to deal with all her traumas. Orkidedatter found a way back to her artist's soul and writer's heart. Writing became a healing process for her and her poetry collection grew.

The book is based on her life and the poems are written as twisted and dark as her experiences from a child`s mind as she remembers it and from old notes and books she has kept. There is always a truth of hers in these poems, but the reader has to wonder what it is. She is also an artist and try to make a connection between what she writes and her art. She does this to emphasize her message, feeling, or action.

The poems are written without editing with a touch of sparkling brightness. She hopes that more people in the same situation will know that they are not alone and that there is a way out of the dark.

Dear reader:

Thank you so much for your choice of this book and support. It will take you on a journey to different places in your mind, heart, and soul.

You may come across a poem you feel is close to your heart. With my writings, I hope you feel a message of a human`s emotional register and a mind’s landscape of hidden places that you maybe had forgotten. May your adventure come to life in your soul, take a minute to feel, welcome thoughts and dreams wherever it is dreadful or beautiful, then let it go.

This poetry collection is born because of me finally found my lost soul. In my writings, I found home.

I suddenly was standing on the edge, staring into the abyss where fighting, surviving, and being strong was only my choice.

This poetry collection is dark and touches several emotions we don`t often talk about. Still, it has a taste of love and brightness.

It was in my darkness I found my light…

It was in my darkness I fight for to a better version of myself…

It was in my darkness I got rid of what was not healthy for me, my soul, and heart.

Step by step, I built myself up again…

Easy, no, but it is worth it because, to get the opportunity to sense, feel and color my day in every color I know of is a gift.

A fragile white butterfly with broken wings finally found its color and learned to fly again.

Thank you so much.

Orkidedatter

Wild birds fly, tame birds in caged dreams

Wild birds fly, tame birds in caged dreams

The scream of fear and a hideous hand

the devil`s demands around a grave

the moon shadow suffocates her last breath

a little girl`s silhouette fades away in the star dust

her skinny little body still has bones to be chained in

the age of nine

cold blooded goodbye she cried

but still chained to life

when the wild swans complained outside

even with their freedom

tame birds in caged dreams

a cage of gold but no golden days

black rose wreaths of sorrow outside

the devil and death fight inside her mind

a prayer from her naked skin

cold of shame

the devil roars at dusk and reflects in her soul

waiting to use her eyeballs as marbles

it is dark and the thin little body trembles

pain - solitude - hopelessness

a foreign howl in the abandoned area

they took everything

death owns her mind

knocking on her guilt

her poor heart who only knows the dark

is nameless the age of nine

dance of death

a disturbed lie of the angels chimes

the silence creeps into her spine

powerless she falls to the ground

no teddy bear to squeeze

death blew her last petal from the black rose off.

Protection

She is not fond of change.

It's like her whole limit is turn down.

She looks bit by bit to the ground, and it hurts.

She lays down and close her eyes.

In her mind she spreads her black cape over her.

From above, she looks like a black rose.

Beautiful, shiny and with a touch of redness

in its outer leaves.

Rose petals for rose leaves encircle her body

and fit perfectly together.

Some call it self-care.

She calls it protection.

Protection against the world.

Protection against pain.

Protection from who she is.

Protection from where she has been.

Protection from where she is going.

A little break from life.

Just find the heartbeat.

Feel ...

Breathe ...

Thoughts ...

Protect ...

and get ready for a new day, a new challenge and a new mastery of life.

Every day is a struggle for life.

Every day she picks up broken pieces.

Every day she glues the broken pieces together.

One day she is a glued scar in the soul on her way to new

adventures.

Burned

You fight me off like a firefighter

so tell me why I still get burned

you pull away and I come in closer

and all we ever stay is torn

it hurt and it hurt so bad

I am burned and I will not be anymore

since my love up and got lost on me

and every breath that I've been taken

is like a torn on a rose

it hurt it is hurt so bad

I miss the tone of your heartbeat

it is such a warming and familiar sound

I hope you're finding the power

it hurt and it hurt so bad

To help you make it through the

darker day

if you want to take my breath away

I been near an angel

when you and me came together

hell to heaven and you were my

escape

it hurts and it hurt so bad

fires don't burn forever

I can't take away your love

we are faded to dust and it is

all these ashes crumble when

we touch

it hurts it hurts so bad

you`re breaking my heart, and I am

falling apart

we danced to death in the fire

and one day we want to arise

it hurt it hurts so bad

when I got burned.

Love in the wilderness

He put his strong arms around her,

and she melted in his arms.

She felt his love and energy burn

around in her body.

She felt safe as he surrounded her

in nature's own wilderness.

Only the two alone against the

dangers of darkness.

Only the two alone against the

longing for love.

Only the two alone against

forbidden love.

His eyes told her about

sorrow and pain.

Her eyes told him about unknown waters.

He makes her do things she thought

she should never do.

She becomes a slave to his lovemaking.

They cannot remove each other's heartbeat.

They throw away each other's time.

Hope they will be happy in others' arms one day.

They spend a lot of time on a battle

that is already lost.

They tear each other's world apart.

Their hearts bleed and their

souls have caught each other.

They have given each other's life to eternity.

-Because, their strength of love nobody

dare to disturb-