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- Herausgeber: Daunt Books
- Kategorie: Ratgeber
- Sprache: Englisch
- Veröffentlichungsjahr: 2023
Dogs are the family we choose. They are dirty and toothy, but we let them into our homes and onto our beds. From Carl Phillips asking how wildness is tamed, to Esmé Weijun Wang finding moments of stillness in the simple act of observing her dog, to Cal Flyn befriending a sled dog called Suka in Finland, here we see dogs at every stage of their life. This anthology promises to bring joy and delight, and surprising depth and poignancy. It goes beyond the damp noses and wagging tails and gets to the heart of what makes dogs our true lifelong companions. These essays are sometimes toothy, sometimes bloody, and sometimes gentle: much like our four-legged furry friends.
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Contents
Introduction
Rowan Hisayo Buchanan and Jessica J. Lee
Dogs are the family we choose. They are dirty and toothy, but we let them into our homes and onto our beds.
It will come as no surprise to readers that this anthology sprang to life during a dog walk. All winter, we walked our two dogs around various London parks, trying to discuss writing but more often wrangling our misbehaving hounds. So while one dog tried to chew things he shouldn’t and the other tried to chase dogs five times her size, we fell into talking about what these wild, familiar creatures meant to us. As writers working in often viiivastly different genres, we both found our relationship with dogs strangely evocative. Dogs leap across genre barriers, dragging along with them questions about what it means to own, to care for, to outlive and to love creatures with whom we only ever share a fractured language.
We’ve named this collection after a line from King Lear. Regan and Goneril, Lear’s ungrateful, fake, fawning daughters, are described as ‘dog-hearted’. It’s an insult. Like two lapdogs, they have simpered for treats from their father, only to effectively bite his hand now that they have his kingdom. It’s not the most flattering comparison for poor canines. It’s also a strange insult given that dogs have long been symbols of loyalty, their small curled forms carved into the bottoms of tombs. Yet we enjoy the ambivalence. Greyfriars Bobby may have spent fourteen years guarding his master’s tomb, and Hachiko may have spent nine years by a train station waiting for his master to get off the train, but they didn’t have to. When we play with our dogs – a game of tug or fetch – they open their mouths to show all of their teeth. They never bite. But the teeth say, I could.
When we talked to other writers about their dogs, we learned that to them, too, dogs were ixmore than cute tails and wet noses. The fourteen essays that follow consider Canis familiaris in all their fealty and ferocity: from the wild other to the best friend, to dogs lost and longed for. These essays explore how the ecologies of our daily lives are transformed by their companionship, and how dogs confront us with our own animality.
A few themes emerged unbidden as the essays came together, some more obvious than others. Readers may not be surprised to find essays here that explore growing families and companionship. For Nell Stevens and Eley Williams, dog ownership brings a new love language to family life, while Jessica Pan makes efforts to convince her husband that dogs are, indeed, as great as she (and we!) think they are. In Ned Beauman’s comic essay, being a grown man with a pint-sized, child-enthralling Havanese leads him to question how others may perceive him – and what they may make of his intentions.
Dogs invite us to consider the canine legacies of the cities we inhabit, as historian Chris Pearson does, or, as Nina Mingya Powles shows, they crystallise the ways we long for places we’ve left behind. We (Rowan and Jessica) found ourselves examining different aspects of the underdog or xrunt, while Sharlene Teo – trawling for memes as much as memories – takes solace in dogs better left online.
There are dogs that sustain and guide us in our darker moments, and dogs we sustain as they reach their last days. alice hiller, processing the trauma of sexual abuse, dwells in the reassuring presence of her rescue dog. Cal Flyn finds herself tamed by an ageing retired sled dog, and Esmé Weijun Wang finds quietude in the simple act of observing her dog Daphne.
In some essays, rule-breakers run circles around their owners. Evie Wyld reminds us that when it comes to dogs, there are fiercer, bloodier notions than companionship afoot. Carl Phillips asks how wildness is tamed. And ought we to – can we even – tame it?
Amidst the good, ‘bad’, strayed and idealised dogs of this collection, you may encounter a dog like your own. Or maybe not. They are, after all, their own creatures, each dog as particular as us.
A Note on the Illustrations
The illustrations in this book are by Rowan, with the exception of those in Esmé Weijun Wang’s essay. The writers sent Rowan photos of their dogs for reference, sometimes these were fresh snaps and others were photos of photos: records of dogs long past. As she inked, she was struck by the variety of size and expression within this motley pack. She hopes you enjoy meeting them. xii
Table Scraps
Cal Flyn
When I met Suka for the first time, she was working as a sled dog in the north of Finland. I was working there too.
It was a hard, physical lifestyle, but it had its consolations. The dogs began to howl for their breakfast at four or five in the morning, as we lugged heavy sledges laden with meat through the dark. I didn’t see daylight for more than a month, but the sky was a shifting wall of technicolour: a pink and purple dawn teasing the sky for hours, never quite spilling into sunrise. Blood-red noons. The moon hung heavy in the sky, burnt orange, and at night, the stars blazed with a fierce intensity. The aurora in veils of green and gold. 4
This was the winter of 2012. I’d taken the kennels job as an escape route from a life in the city that had been making me sick. What had begun as urban ennui had metastasised into a more malignant form of depression, one I had never experienced before. By the time I left London for the Arctic, I’d had the uncanny sensation of watching my life unfold as if through glass for a period of six months or more.
I’d known instinctively that the harshness of an Arctic climate and a challenging manual job would serve as a sort of shock therapy for my brain: that through corporeal trial I might reunite body and mind, force them to work in concert once more. So there I was, in Finland, shovelling shit in the snow, in exchange for food and board. As a career move, I wouldn’t recommend it. But the thing is: it worked.
My soft hands coarsened – I grew callouses on my palms and my numb fingertips were peeling. My sinews tightened, my clavicles sharpened. I felt more fully alive than I had in years.
To begin with, the dogs were an anonymous canine horde with deep barks and flashing eyes. But soon I saw them for who they really were: good-natured familiars, with names and personalities. Monty, the old boy with only half a tongue – an 5injury from licking ice-cold metal as a pup. Pikkis, with his big black eyes and phocine face. Little Rosie, who would jump from the roof of her kennel into your outstretched arms. And Suka.
Suka was my favourite dog: a docile, heart-faced creature who closed her eyes in ecstasy when you rubbed her rump. Small in stature and not too strong, she might not have been a valuable sled dog had she not been the only female dog submissive enough to run with Hulda – an athletic, pointy-eared bitch – without getting into fights. Designing dog teams is a feat of matchmaking: the dogs run in pairs, sorted for strength and intelligence. Everyone has to get along with their partners. As long as Hulda was running, Suka had an important role: official wing-woman to the top female lead dog. I liked to watch them together on the start line: Hulda snapping and yowling, cavorting like a demon in her harness, ready to run. Suka beside her, ears perked, waiting, sweet-natured. When she was allowed in at night, I would bribe her to sleep on my bed, curled up tight like a cat.
Where the other dogs were bouncy or rambunctious, she was watchful and reserved. She was, in other words, a perfect companion. Whether she felt the same about me was more difficult to tell. 6
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Seven years later, I am deep in concentration on a writing residency in Switzerland when I get an unexpected call from Finland. Suka is nearly eleven, ready to retire. She’s slowing down, getting stiff, holding up the team. Might I give her a home? I don’t hesitate.
A former colleague brings Suka overland to the UK for me. I meet them in a cafe, buy her breakfast, then it’s just me and my dog. She is smaller than I remembered, and – mid-moult – has a dishevelled, bewildered air. Having barely left home for her entire life, she has travelled through five countries in as many days. My presence seems barely to register; she lets me pat her but refuses to meet my eye.
I drive us home, to where my partner Rich is waiting. We show Suka her new bed, her new bowls, her new collar. We take her for a sniff around the town. People want to know: Did she recognise you? I say it’s difficult to tell.
It’s difficult to tell a lot of things. Suka is quiet and respectful. She gets up when I ask her to. Sits when I tell her to. She’ll take a treat gently from my hand, but she won’t always eat it. The closest 7comparison I can find is that it’s like hosting a foreign exchange student; she is scrupulously, unfailingly polite. But I have the very faintest impression she might be saving up slights to tell her friends about later.
On our first walks, she finds a cold welcome from the local dogs. Something in her gait, her manner – her smell, perhaps – seems to get their backs up. She assumes a dignified bearing, declines to engage. When, finally, a friendly pup approaches, almost frantic to meet her, Suka doesn’t seem to know how to react. Out of a hundred huskies she might have been the softest of them all, but here amid the Labradors and spaniels, she seems proud and stand-offish.
In the house, I don’t quite know how to place her. She does not follow me around, as other dogs will. She has her own agenda. She does not beg at the table. She does not bark. She does not come when she is called.
Her body language is peculiar too. She will wag her tail, but the exact meaning is difficult to parse: rather than the uncomplicated happiness of a pet dog getting its cuddles, it signals a more ambiguous kind of anticipation. Praise or attention might merit a slow pendulum swing, but the approach of 8an aggressive dog or a visit to the vet occasionally elicits a fulsome swish of the kind I might once have hoped for on arriving home after a long day.
She is entirely benevolent, except when she’s not. She has no interest in fighting. She is entirely neutral on the subject of cats. But early one morning, in the dancing light of a sun cast low through bare branches, a sparrow darts from a tumbledown wall and her jaws snap shut. It leaves this world as fast as it appeared. She swallows it whole. This makes me look at her afresh: this dog knows what she’s doing.
9It’s not that I’m unnerved, or not exactly. She’s still the calm and passive creature I fell in love with. But I begin to see her in new light. There’s the faintest thread of menace running through her, an undercurrent of cool self-interest. As it must, of course, in every dog – no matter how small, how cute, how apparently frivolous. It’s just that, in Suka, the wolf runs closer to the surface than I’d known.
Less than a month after her arrival, Suka falls deathly ill. It’s an acute uterine infection, of an urgency and seriousness equivalent to appendicitis in humans. One evening she seems a bit peaky; the next morning she can barely stand. We rush her into emergency surgery, and by the time she returns to us, days later, she is glassy-eyed and missing her womb. She has stitches in her belly.
