Finding Yourself In Between Falling In Love E-Book

Dorothy Anne Field

• Herausgeber: BookRix
• Kategorie: Poesie und Drama
• Sprache: Englisch

Veröffentlichungsjahr: 2020

Beschreibung

This book is dedicated to everyone who has had their hearts taken advantage of by the cruelty of this world when all they ever did was fall in love;

To everyone who lost themselves in love, only to find themselves right back;

To every genuine soul out there who has done nothing but love people to their maximum capacity, even as it came with a price;

To everyone who has had to go through the darkness, the brokenness, and the madness of love to find out what love truly is.

This book is for you.

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Dorothy Anne Field

Finding Yourself In Between Falling In Love

BookRix GmbH & Co. KG81371 Munich

Introduction

This book is dedicated to everyone who has had their hearts taken advantage of by the cruelty of this world when all they ever did was fall in love;

To everyone who lost themselves in love, only to find themselves right back;

To every genuine soul out there who has done nothing but love people to their maximum capacity, even as it came with a price;

To everyone who has had to go through the darkness, the brokenness, and the madness of love to find out what love truly is.

This book is for you.

PART 1: DARKNESS AND BROKENNESS

What Love Was

Love isn’t always pretty. But love isn’t destructive either. There’s a darkness to love, but it isn’t supposed to consume you with that darkness.

We used to think that love was tolerating the bad in someone just because you can’t imagine a life without them.

Love was screaming at them until it drains the energy out of you, wondering when was the moment that love suddenly turned to despair and anger.

Love was losing yourself and giving up everything you’ve ever known, for someone that ruined your purity and innocence in love. Love was defending them from the snares and terrible truths of everyone you love, even if you know they’re right. Love was trying to save your relationship alone, even if you aren’t happy anymore. Love was doing things against your morals, just to make them happy. Love was full of empty promises and “I’m going to stay, no matter how destructive this feels.” Love was full of needs that are never met and settling for less, because you’ve already invested so much to the wrong person. Love was crying and falling apart, wondering when you’ll ever be enough for them.

Love was giving and giving and giving until you wait for them to change, until they treat you better. But they never do.

Love becomes walking away. Love becomes wondering how they could have left you with every promise of the future. Love becomes questions of whatifs and howcouldtheys. Love becomes strength. Love becomes finding who you really are, before they left you to ruins. Love becomes self-love and being patient with yourself to heal from your past. Love becomes turning to God with every shattered piece of your heart and letting Him heal you, completely. Love becomes guarded without realizing it and putting up all those walls, never letting yourself need anybody. Love becomes hardening your heart from the pain of this world and never letting anyone in, ever again. Love becomes fearful.

--Dorothy Anne Field

Everything I Learned When You Left Me

I never got to say it, but thank you for breaking my heart.

You showed me the darkest parts of falling in love and being in a relationship. You showed me what it was like being in a toxic, draining, low-vibrational relationship. You showed me what it was like to stay not out of love, but out of convenience.

You showed me that no matter how much you give to someone, it will never be enough to the wrong person. You could cross to the other side of the world for them and they still won’t ever reciprocate the amount of love you have for them.

You showed me the darkness of using your insecurities and flaws against you when they’re angry or upset. You were the living proof that just because I gave you my body doesn’t mean that you had my soul—because you never had my soul.

You showed me so much about falling in love and relationships, but you showed me more about myself, and for that, I will be eternally grateful for the lessons you imprinted on my heart. You showed me that I was always more than enough, but it just took the right person to see that.

You showed me how much of myself I could just give away in hopes of making someone a better person or trying to save them from their own darkness. However, you also proved that it was never my job to save you. I could never have saved or made you into someone better if you didn’t deal with your own issues yourself.

But most importantly, you proved to me that the love we had was never based on something real; it was based merely on having a need for this relationship in our heads to escape reality.

Thank you for having the courage to do the one thing I have always wanted to do: You walked away.

Thank you, because if not for you, I wouldn’t have found the person who not only deserves me, but gave me something real.