I will write a beautiful novel about you E-Book

Alexandr Snow

• Herausgeber: WS
• Kategorie: Gesellschafts- und Liebesromane
• Sprache: Englisch

Seitenzahl: 377

Veröffentlichungsjahr: 2024

Beschreibung

The fate is unpredictable thing. For unknown reason she favors some of them and mercilessto others. Such unexpectable strike experienced Holden. A young guy, working in editorial office, an endless lover of literature, dreaming of writing his own book, gets a gift of fate. He meets a girl, a singer of the theater, who lights up in him until unknown for him feelings and emotions. She gets him up to the Heavens of love and happiness, but the fate brings own correct. And the falling from the high of his feelings, dreams and love becoming too hard.

Leseprobe

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Chapter1

Chapter 2

Chapter 3

Chapter 4

Chapter 5

Chapter 6

Chapter 7

Chapter 8

Chapter 9

Chapter 10

Chapter 11

Chapter 12

Chapter 13

Chapter 14

Chapter 15

Chapter 16

Chapter 17

Chapter 18

Chapter 19

Chapter 20

Chapter 21

Chapter 22

Chapter 23

Chapter 24

Chapter 25

Chapter 26

Chapter 27

Chapter 28

Chapter 29

EPILOGUE

Chapter1

I was on my home way when I heard sounds of car’s stopping behind me. I turned,it was Jimmy on his Audi 80, Jimmi just crazy about German’s cars, this car looks very cool, there are no doubts. If you could see her orange color, especiallyin the evening sun’s light.Just wonderful.Even little dent on the front fender don’t spoil the look of car. Jimmy just adores his car he always had keeping that in good condition. We often have driving aroundtown. He hasgetting me up and we could have driving for many hours, in that moment we have a nice time, we have talking about something, remembering our childhood or any funny moments we had together. I adore it, really. We used that car to meet with girls, and then Jimmy started use his stuff to the fullest. You just should have a ride with him a little and you would get how much he is crazy. In a good sense of course.In short, that driving’s stuff got me many of pleasure, I swear.

“Holden, hi,”he shouted getting out of car“I wanted to pick you up from work, but Igot free too late”. He looked exhausted, I guess he was working as hell as usually.

“Don’t worry about that. It is not big deal, I just walking around like a fool waiting for you and counting the damn birds.” Actually, I was delayed myself. My boss loaded me up with a job in the evening. But I decided some show up, let him not relax.

“OK, shut up and get in.” He said getting in a car. Jimmy always has a short answer on that.

I got in a car. “What about you? As usual, handing around somewhere?”

“No. Just too much of work. Chief is fucked up, we need any one else for working in the time, but miser like him don’t want to hire someone else. In short, all as usually.” he waved his hand and drove on.

“Let’s take a little drive.” He instantly changed his ton.“Weather so nice today, I guess you have not any plans for evening?” he turned on in a directionof town center.

“Well, if we already turned away of way to my home, let’s drive somewhere. Are you have idea where to? In the fact, I didn’t see you all week. How is it possible?Are you hiding from me?” I asked him with rising smile, his appearance always getting my tune very nice, even I could say very, very special.

“I would like to meet you to someone.” He said glanced at me, ignoring my questions.

“Actually, I asked a question to you. Answer me, quickly. Where the hell have you been all week? I should know.” I keep on to get some funny at him.

“Holden, I serious. This is a girl I had meet a two weeks ago.” Here I was already stunned.

“Two weeks ago? Are you kidding? You have enough for a week at most. Are you getting old or something?” He really wondered me by this.

“Hah, such a bastard. In short, now we kind of together. She is pretty and smart. I like her and she likesme, you know.” A wide smile appeared on his face.

I glanced at him frowning a little kind of I don’t understand this. “I guess, she’s not all at home.”

Jimmy was laughing. “Probably, I wonder myself.”

“So, is it a reason why you were hell knows where for a whole week?” I demanded with persistent gaze to him.

“What are you talking about? I’d told to you that I had a lot of work and… something else…” He didn’t finish his words and just smiled to me with pleasure. “In short, don’t ask stupid questions and tell me how youare?How is job?” He changed subject our conversation. “Is everything right?”

“Why do you change the subject?” He was silence. I glanced before me without enthusiasts. “Yea, I’m all right. And actually, my question wasn’t stupid, I want to know all of my friend where he is and how he is. What’re you breathing and… I kind of worrying about you.” I don’t know why, but sometimes I have a wild desire to piss him off a little.“And why didn’t you fix the dent yet? I thought you did that.” After this he glanced at me giving to understand that he had tired of this cause. “Okay. I am silent.” I say and stretching in smile. I just adore to piss him off, but the most important thing is not getting too far, or you can regret about that.

“I’ll do it, I just haven’t time, as I had talk before, we had much works. If to be honestly this week was so excited, really, I tired as hell.But I think we’ll get good money for that time. I hope on that, at least.” He had put down on the gas and overtook a trunk. His drive’s manner is very sharply, but no any accident.

The sun was almost sat and lanterns were lit everywhere. I like this time, when day has going to the end and you don’t need to rush anywhere. The streets look somehow special, another way.It is what I will have alwaysloved. Have walking somewhere or drive somewhere, it is made me excited and kind of brings me enjoying. Actually, I more like walking than driving, I have a sedentary job and for my healthy better to walking, but you can’t force Jimmy to walk, he just doesn’t get out of his car.

After a school my parents paid me a college education, all of Jimmy had asked from his parents, it is to buy the car for him and this was enough. He has asked no more. By the fact, he is working in an auto-workshop. I told you he is crazy about cars. Yea, we are completely different, but we have a friendship from childhood, if to be honestly I wonder myself how it is possible.

“So, this girl, what is her name?” I had asked after a little silent.

“Phoebe, her name Phoebe I like her name. What are you think?” He had just glowed of happiness when he talked of her and seemed kind of some foolish, if to be honestly.

“I see you’re like her very much and even more then much” I replied. “Where are you met her? Something special?”

“Not, it was as usually as it is happening. I almost hit her when I driving out.” He looked at the road with a wide smile.

I looked at him, I thought he is foolish me first. “Hay, seriously??” He nodded his head vigorously with the same smile. “Why am I not surprised?”

“She was so scared that she just stood there and looked at the car silently” he began to little laugh “And, you know, she has big eyes, and she stared at me, seemed they become more and more big, and you know I scared too, actually I was scared as hell, and I got out the car, took her hands and began to calming her, but she is like didn’t hear me just stared at me and all”. I was laughing too. Sometimes I just can’t believe why those kinds of stuff happens to him, in fact all the time.

“Do you know it is a very usually for you. And what did you then?” I asked still laughing.

“I did her get in the car and got her to place she told”he said with his wide smile. “At first, I thought, maybe just move her to side and go on, but you know, I’m gentleman after all and all that. So, I brought this idea away.” He gave me kind of guilty glance. “Really, I couldn’t leave her like that, she stood rooted to the spot, without movements. Seems she didn’t even blink.”

“She was silent for the whole way. I tried to get some talk with her, but not success. I guess she really scared.” Jimmy shrugged his shoulders. “So, I just liked her and I decided to driving in the same way on the next day. In shortly, I gave her a ride again, then the next day again, and I thought she likes me too. Otherwise, she’d have sent me somewhere to the hell.”

He turned to parking at the bar, we have often been in this bar, it is pretty nice place where there all time are a lot of young folks.

He turned off the car, turned his head to me and said “I really like her, we had a good time together for these two weeks, I think it is good. What do you think?” He stared at me, he was really excited, I even wondered that he was like that.

“I think it’s good, better than good. By the way you are looked so stupid happy, it is always happened to you when you have meet with her?” I demanded and in the same time added, “I already looking forward to see her… What’s a girl drives you crazy that way, ha?”

“Ha-h, yes, she really made me excited.” He yawned widely opening his mouth, after added.“Just she so sweety” his mouth stretched in a smile and I was shocked to hear such words from him, sweety and all that stuff. “She is there, come” he pointed at the girl who going in the distance to the bar.

We were getting out from car and go to the toward her. Jimmy had going faster than me almost run. She saw him and began to wave to him. He came to her and hugged her lifting off the ground. They both laughed like, you know, those couple of sweetylowers. I laugheda little looking at them, they looked so funny. Jimmy was really unrecognizable. It is wondering how little sometimes need for happiness.

When I was closer, Jimmy pointed at me while he still hugged her “it’s Holden, I told you about him.”

She isslim, not tall, she has height until chest of Jimmy, she has brown short hair which fallen on her shoulders and yes,she has very pretty face, little like a child, with big eyes gave impression of modest and quiet girl, though she wasn’t dressed like kind of shy girl, she dressed in blue jeans and something like women’s jacket very good in my opinion. If say honestly, they looked little strange she is so small beside him she is like delicate and small he is tall and broad-shoulders. If they didn’t stick each other like glued they more looked like brother and sister than like a couple, though isn’t mean a lot how you are looked.

They got to me and Jimmy said “Holden, it’s Phoebe my…. My Phoebe.” We all had beginning to laugh looked each other, people always using that laugh when they meeting. By the way, Jimmy can make to laugh you just because he has laughing, he is very positive person. I glanced at her andnoticed that she little confused. It is usually for modest girl.

“Hi Phoebe, nice to meet you” I said trying to be kind of polite.

“It is nice to me too” she got closer to Jimmy and smiled confusing.

“Good, very nice meeting and especially for me” after seconds of silent shouted Jimmy while hugged me his right arm and in the same time hugging closer his left arm on Phoebe, then he said to her “Don’t worry my girl he is nice bastard.” Jimmy has never been confusing and any situation feels easy. “Let’s go to the bar I hope they have an available table for us, though now is not too late. Iflook at the cars on the parking there isn’t many people, what do you think Holden?”he pushed me easily. This behavior is usual for us.

“You’ll see now,” I answered and Jimmy pushed me again.

“Jimmy, stop it” shouted Phoebe and slapped his chest with her palm then gave me confused look. It seems funny to me that she so shy, though it suits her.

“He’s already used for it” Jimmy giggled. “Really you can try too. Come on, punch him… I allow.” He giggled in that stupid way. So, I punched him to his shoulder.

We get in the bar and saw that it was almost full and it was only Thursday, as I said before it is very popular place.

“Let’s there” Jimmy pointed and lead us to free table. Seems it is least free table. I and Phoebe got to sit, then Jimmy said “wait for I’m going to the beer. I’m quickly.” Jimmy went to the bar pushing the mob of folks with his broad shoulders. Sometimes he seems to me just like a large bull.

Phoebe looked around “It is quite nice place, isn’t? Though here are so many people, every time like that?” She stared at me her big eyes.

“Yes, almost every day. But don’t worry, this is a good place and folks here are quite nice.” After secondly silent I continued “So Jimmy has told me about youracquaintance…” I glanced to her with a smile.

“Oo yes, my life has run before my eyes in that day.” She said with fascination smile “It is very well that he saw me and braked.I’m was really scared I need better to look at sides.”

“You know, I had knowing Jimmy very long and he is always rushing somewhere. So, I think it isn’t only your fault,” we have giggling.

“Yea, his manner of driving leaves much to be desired.” Phoebe said nodding.

Then Jimmy came with three bottles of beer and snacks “What are you giggling? Me?” he looked at Phoebe.

“Ye, we were talking of our first meeting” she answered.

“O yes, it was a reallywonderfulmoment, if it wasn’t my reaction someone had a few troubles, I mean my car” We got laughing. Then he is said “I joking, I was worried not only of my car.” He put his hand on the Phoebe’s shoulder again.

“I had just been rushing as usually. I don’t know. It is first time, it last, I am a good driver, though.”

“It is true” I have confirmed having glanced at Phoebe.

“I haven’t any doubt” she looked at Jimmy and he stretched out in smile, even little shy.

It was very sweety that she made him like that way. Usually Jimmy have shying nobody, it’s because he hasnever been worrying what other people thinking about him. Just the best feature of any man. But if you could see that way, he lets people to know about that.

“Anyway it is good that nobody had hurts and now everything fine” said Jimmy, he still holds her close to himself. They like stuck to each other.

“So, Phoebe, what are you doing? Working, studying?” I asked her while having drunk of beer.

She glanced at me and said “I have studying at the university….

We had the nice evening, Phoebe had talking about herself, Jimmy had a lot of kidding, more about me as usually. Phoebe isstudyingto be a math teacher, although she doesn’t look like a teacher at all. I don’t know why I think so. Together they look pretty lovely,such a sweety couple, really, I was very surprised to see Jimmy that way. They had sitting to hug each other for the all evening.

Jimmy had taking me home about eleven or something. I should to go to job tomorrow, so I took a bath, then went to bed and fallen asleep only around two hours later. I always have problems with my sleeping. Itis all my mind, in the dark and when you alone, millions of thoughts just attack me. It didn’t let me sleep, but after couple of hours thoughts get out of me and I become a free.

Chapter 2

The next morning, I woke up a little tired, with a heavy head.It is allthe damn insomnia, it’s killing me, especially when I little drunk. But cold shower got my mind fresh and I am ready for this day. Having some a breakfast I rushed out of the house and run to the bus stop. Nice morning… Fresh air had filling my lungs and I felt better. I adore it, the fresh morning’s air, it always gets you fine mood, if I wasn’t late for work yet, it would be cooly wonderful.

I was got in bus in time, thanks Heaven, if I late at jobI would have to listen a lot of crap or something from my boss. If to be honestly, he’s quite kind to me, but he’s just big grumbler. And it would be a nice opportunity for him, I guess he even would be very glad if I late, but I don’t need that in the morning. I don’t have any desire to listen his for the rest of the day.

I’m working in editorial office of one magazine. The reason why I had chosen this way, it’s because I love books, literature and all stuff like that. I have liked books when I was a kid yet. I don’t know why, just love it and all. My parents had accustomed me to reading andit is alwaysbringing to me a lot of please. And I don’t know when exactly I burned by desire to write my own book, it’s my dream actually. When I was studding in the college, I had read a very lot. Really, it seemed even like I have two lives. First my real, second the one I had in the books.

My most liked authors are E.M. Remarque, J. London, L. Tolstoy. They had been writing the excellent books. So, don’t laugh at me, but I hope whenever write something like that. I had reading very much and these books changed me, after books like those you begun thinking about your life or something. You are thinking about your purpose, life’s purpose. And soon I begun to think that I’ll can to write my own book. I think, every big reader thinking about it.

In this way I decided to get job in the magazine edition. I have been working there more thanfour years, and it isn’t like I have there a lot of serios work or write something special. They hired me as a journalist’s assistant. And I am working with my big grumbler, the one Italked to you earlier. Quite of amusing guy, in my opinion, just too exсited and all. I have helping him to do different stuff, mostly I have writing text for him, something correct, something searching, we discased any ideas for type and all of like that. I like this job, I like to be around all those things, newspapers, magazines, books and by the way, I getpretty good money and all being just fine. You can see I have nothing to complain about.

But let’s come back to my dream. I often thought of writing a book and I had been trying many times, I’m not lying. I had just sat for many hours with thousands of thoughts in my mind and all. I don’t know, but when I had beginning to write it seems to me pretty good and smart, and kind of funny, but then I lose my mind, I reread it and, if to say the truth, it is so stupid thing wherever I read. In such moment I just wondering how I am working in edition office, really. Though, I kind of not bad in my work. It’s not my words, it is words of Kevin. A big grumbler, I work with. And I think he said the true, otherwise if I would work badly, he just kicked me out, you can believe me.

Certainly, almost all work in writing doing Kevin. But we kind of cool team, he used to call us when he in the fine mood sometimes. Though, he is grumbling almost all time, but he is smart and good writer, he really is and it isn’t only my opinion. If you look at him, you think he is a mad man and all like that, I thought like that too. But when we have working together everything stands on own place.

By the way, he gets me good experience he has talk to me a lot about writing and books, but I can’t have something real. I have many different ideas about writing, I think I just can’t concentrate my mind enough for work like that. Maybe I should grumble to myself like Kevin? When he yelling at me, I become more workable. Sometimes it seems to me he can punch me, and he has a big fist actually. So, I have no choose, but working harder.

Now I also read a lot, though I haven’t much time for it. I just can’t without reading. When I didn’t read for a long, I begin sort of miss to it. I am serios, I can stay all weekend at home and just reading all time. And I don’t feel like lonely, boring or something like that, opposite I feel good, just wonderful. Books give you opportunity to experience such things you maybe won’t find in your own life.

But that way is not often, I mean reading for the whole weekend, because Jimmy usually gets me out of home for a drink some beer or just driving somewhere,in such moment my mind is getting very big rest. We have talking about everything and all, sometimes I need it so much. I mean have talk about any nonsense, laughing, joking and all that stuff. Really, it helps better than whatever. And Jimmy here is a good helper, I told you, just a unique person.I so lucky to have a such friend as Jimmy, and although we are very different, we are very close friends. Really, like brothers.

I got to my work in time, Kevin was already in his place.

“Why are you late?” He snorted at me his grumbled voice. And almost every day I hear something like that instead of ‘good morning’.

“I am in time, look at the watch,” I answered showing to him my watch on my hand. He even didn’t look at me while I was getting seat on my place.

“I am already here for half of hour and wait for you for work.” He lied he always said in such way. Very big grumbler, I told you. “Okey, let’s go. We have a lot of work.” Huh, we always have a lot of work.

Despite the fact he is such a grumbler and all of that, though he is pretty kind and good man, just he is one of those men who doesn’t want show that. For me, it is a big please have a work with him. He gave me different kind of tasks. Mostly it was looking for material for articles and type, I have a lot of type. I like it, I completely immersed in work. I told you, stuff like that bring me a lot of satisfaction, articles, book, words, typing. And my worktime passed too fast, though I often have staying little longer, Kevin is a straight-up workaholic. So, Ialso have to be too.

Theweekdays passed quickly and on weekends I have some time for myself.If I wasn’t hanging out with Jimmy, he has now more important things than me. I thought to have visited the library for get some books or have staying home trying to write something. Sometime it gets me depressed and all. In such cause, I just go out to have walk around, I like it. Or reading, this calms me too and make me want to write again, but nothing worked. Maybe I am too young yet or I need kind of big experience for it. I think about ask Kevin for advice or something, but I’m didn’t. I am kind of shy in such cause. Actually, about it knows only Jimmy, we trusting each other completely, I told you. He never laughing about it or kidding, only if just in good sense. He is a good and kind man, though he isn’t lookedlike in first glance. At first glance, you can think like ‘it’s better to stay away from this big cooly guy’, but it is only first impression and it is always mistake.

After worktime I left office and going to gets coffee. It was so nice in out. I was drinking my coffee and thought about my weekend. I thought the way phoned Jimmy and suggest something for this evening or tomorrow’s evening, but I figured he’ll have dating with Phoebe or something. Now I guess I will not have been seen him so often.

I began to think that maybe try to write something, I have some idea about it. But something told me that not very good for me, because I was kind of tired, I had a lot of typing today. Kevin is damn hard worker. So, I have a free evening and I wasn’t in mood for doing something, it’s cause, I didn’t sleep well last night. I just went to home and hoping get a good sleep.

While I had getting to home I was depressed more, because it was Friday’s evening and streets were fall of folks. They supposed to have a good time or meeting with their friends or dating and all in that way. I figured that I should too, kind of going to somewhere, because it was a Friday evening and young folks like me should hanging up and something like that. That is killing me! When you should do something like other ones. But when you don’t you felt yourself kind of have an inferiority complex or something. It’s all damn herd mentality, in my opinion. For me is better not see anyone in this night, tiredness covered me more and more.

Any way I had haven’t mood for something. It was quite often that my mood has changed. I just so damn tired and all. It seemed to me if I only have lying on bed, I’ll fall asleep right away, but I knew I won’t. When I am getting in bed and relaxing my mind begin to drive me crazy. It is rare, when I fall asleep fast.

I got off the bus and went to home. At home I took a shower and thought about prepare something for dinner, but I was too lazy for it, besides, I had no appetite. So, I just had eaten couple of cheese sandwich, before going to bed with a book. It was Remarque “Overnight in Lisbon”, a very terrific story. Although, it isa heavy. I’m always amazing when I read his books, he was really amazing person. Soon it was hard to read, because my eyes had weight like a ton and I put away book and close my eyes.

Chapter 3

I woke up quite early, looked at clock, it was six in the morning. I lay around for half an hour and fell asleep again. When I opened my eyes, it was nine. There was need to get up for doing some house stuff. Clean apartment, buy some products, but I need to get a breakfast first. I was hungry as hell.

By two o’clock I finished my big cleaning and went out to get products. When I returned, I think maybe phoned Jimmy and ask him for a meeting or something, I felt a little bored, but I changed my mind.

I sat and began to looking through my notes. I have already a lot of notes written by me and all of it seems to me so stupid and hasn’t sense. Now,I don’t even have any desire to try to write something. If to be honestly, I don’t even know why I want to write. I don’t know. I just love literature and book and I would like to do something like that way. Anything else doesn’t interesting me. Maybe I am too young for it, I’m twenty-five. Or I should to get kind of big experience, ha? At last, I took a book and begun to read.A win-win option.

Weekend had passed, nothing’s special. Kevin and I have been preparing a lot of material for big article and I haven’t time to be bored. But in Wednesday I was released earlier, Kevin had some business and he let me go too. So, I decided to calling Jimmy. I supposed he is at garage yet. He was.

Answering his fellow, then he called Jimmy.

“Hello my friend,” I saluted him.

“Oh, hi Holden, how’re you? Are you still at work?”

“No. I’m already free. How about to see? Or have you any plans?”

“No. Listen, as you are free come to garage, I’ll be here for about an hour. Okay?”

I hung up and went to the bus stop. I have enough time and I decided that would take the bus instead a cab and then have walka little.

When I got it, I saw many cars by the garage and I thought that Jimmy will stay for a long yet. By the way I got in to garage. All worker and even owner have knowing me.

“Hi George, how’re you? Where’s Jimmy?” I asked one of the Jimmy’s fellows. George was busy to repairing the generator.

“Oh, it’s you. Hi, Jimmy’s there.” He pointed at the car staying right over the repair pit. Apparently, Jimmy was in the pit. I went to the car and knocked on the hood. “Jimmy brother, how’re you there?” I squatted down.

“Holden, you’re already here.” He stretched out his hand off the pit and wave me. “Good evening brother!”

“Will you be there much longer?”

“No, not much. About twenty minutes or little longer.” His voice echoed from the pit. “If do you want, you can take my car and wait for me in it or have some drive if you want. Take key in my jacket.”

“OK.” I went to cloakroom and found the key. “I’ll be in the car.” I shouted Jimmy while going out the garage.

I opened the car’s door and then sat on the front passenger seat.I thought about buy any, not expensive car for me, I kind of saved some good money for it in these four work years and have planned to buy any, but didn’t. I’m used to getting to work by bus and haven’t sharp necessity for the car. Maybe because Jimmy always helps me if I need to get somewhere? Or as I told you before I have interesting only books and my damn writings. It’s just don’t let me piece. You know, just want to done something worthwhile. Something that make me proud by myself.

I closed my eyes and began to think about my idea of writing and the stuff that I already had. Damn me, I always come to this unwillingly, this idea seats deep inside me and doesn’t let me a piece. While I thought about it, I began to falling asleep by little. That killing me, I can sleep everywhere only not in my bed.

I woke up from a knock on the glass, it was Jimmy. “Come out sleeping beauty. Go to the driver seat I’m tired like a damn dog for today!”

I get of having yawned and stretching. “You long.”I had going around and sat on the driver seat, Jimmy sat on the passenger seat leaning back a little.

“Let us to get anywhere for beer or something. I’m tired like a damn horse in the field.” He said and closed his eyes, he has tired almost every work day, he alwayssaid so.

So, I started the car and drive on to straight, I decided to drive to our bar. Where else will we go? We had getting in silence Jimmy had sort of sleep or just had sitting with closed eyes. When we got to the bar, he told me again how much he was damn tired and all.

“Holden, I am really tired now.” He said while we got out from the car. “I am the most tired man in the damn world, you know that? Just tired as hell.”

“Don’t howl” I told to him. “Couple glass of beer and you’ll be fine, won’t you?” I put my arm on his shoulder.

“Aha, I see you’re peppy. Has your grumbler sick or just losing his grip?”

“Hah, something in that way.” I didn’t tell him what Kevin had any business with his family and all. It is too long. We came in the bar and sat at the table. Pretty cute waitress has cometo us and I asked her for a couple of beer.

“How was it passed your weekend? Working?” Jimmy did mean my writing stuff. Only he knew that, but he didn’t let interesting it very much or something.

“No. I just had rest and all.” I didn’t want to talk about it with Jimmy. I don’t know why, maybe it’s because I even can’t write something that would can to show the best friend. Any way I never discussed it with Jimmy, I mean mine thoughts that I have trying writing about. He asked me from time to time whether I was writing or not, and that was all.

“What about you? How is your girlfriend? Didn’t run over her?” I asked him.

A pretty waitress brought us our beer.

“Phoebe? She is all right” He took four big sips, then exhaled and continued. “That girl is driving me crazy she really does.” Old song started.“I was passed with her all weekend. We had walking in the park, had eating ice cream and all stupid stuff in that way. She is kind of romantic person. I toldto you she really is.”

“I am very glad for you.” I really was. Although, Jimmy is too far from romantic staff. It’s looked funny when Jimmy talks about her. I don’t know why, but it’s funny any way. “So, why aren’t we together yet today?”

“She with her friend going to library or still university or something like that. I don’t know, I don’t understand ahalf of that she has talking. She is very smart, she really is.” He said it and finished his glass. Mine was half full.

“We’ve been in the museum recently.Did you know that there is a museum in our town?” He asked it with serious face. Sometimes I can’t make difference serious he or make fun.

“Yea, seems I even was there.” He glanced at me with frowning eyes after this.

“Why didn’t I know?” He asked himself. “In short, she forced me visit such places and everything like that.”

“It is really interesting, what did she see in you?” I said like way I am thought about it seriously. In the same time that pretty waitress came to us for take the empty glass.

“Are you kidding? I am a dream for any girl, ha?” He gave a big smile and turned to the waitress. “Am I right?” I’m sounded like try to stop my damn laugh. She frowned in the way like she didn’t understand what we have talking about and gave to us a little smile and go away.Jimmy turned to me and say “She is shying probably, but she liked me.”

“You are a jerk” I continued to laughing. I told you he has doing stuff in that way all time. He really could make me laughing like a madman just have talking in his way.

“Hay, in the fact, don’t planning anything on the Saturday, okay? We going to go to the theater. You going to go too,” he said.

“What, what?” I began to sort of laughing again. “What kind of theater, are you can imagine that? It’s okay for me, but for you?”

That pretty waitress brough glass of beer and gave Jimmy kind of pretty glance and smile. “Please, it for you,” she said.

“Thanks a lot” Jimmy said. I can say that she is really liked Jimmy. Jimmy always could make people they liked him.

When the pretty waitress left, he continued. “Listen, it’s all Phoebe. It’s her idea. I told you she is crazy about stuff like that.I’ve already bought tickets. You don’t have a choice.” He said and started to get a couple of sips.

“Okay, okay.” I said and got a sip too. If to be honestly, I was very glad this way, because I wouldn’t like to be home in this weekend, alone again and make myself crazy in reason I can’t write or anything. Jimmy. Old friend, he has saving me as usually. Of course, thanks a lot to Phoebe and all. Theatre. In such place I wasn’t a long. I even couldn’t remember when I was there in the last time. I figured that it will be interesting and all, I mean it will be kind of music performance or something like that. I liked this idea more and more.

“What are you thinking about?” Jimmy has asked me frowning. “Don’t think to refuse, okay? You did already agree, didn’t you?” He almost finished his second glass.

“Aa? Yes, I will. Of course, I will. I won’t leave you in such awful situation.” I giggled at him and finished my beer too. “Listen, what kind of performance?”

“I have no idea and don’t even want to know, honestly,” he said.

“What? You said you had bought tickets, didn’t you?”

“Yes, I did. But Phoebe had chosen.” He had giggling.

“That’s right. I should to guess.”

“Okay. We should go to home I want sleep like a bastard now.” He gave a big yawn.

“Come on. It isn’t too late now. Letsit us some more.” I didn’t want to get home. I felt like to talking or just have sitting.

“I’m going to fall asleep right here, I’m really falling asleep.” He started howl and yawned again.

“Okay. Let’s go then.” We paid for beer and left.

Chapter 4

On Friday Jimmy phoned me at work and said to me that we’ll have meeting tomorrow at 5 p.m., after we all together will go to the theater. I got to home pretty late and though I felt little tired, I take my notes and began looking through it. I had been trying to write about difference things, pictured any kind of stories and I have pretty lot of notes, but all of this isn’t finished. I just have any thoughts and beginning to write and then I kind of lose my thought. When I’m back to this note and trying to continue I have nothing for it. I don’t know why, but all that I had write seems me drivel and nonsense. That way made me depressed and I’m throwing it and all. Sometimes I have wondering that I have any successes at work. Of course, the biggest part of work doing Kevin, I just helping. But there I have writing too and it easy for me. And it’s not like trash or something, Kevin took it and include it in the articles. Couple of times Kevin had praised me, I have told you. Jimmy doesn’t believe me when I told it him. I want to say I can write and all in this way.Maybe I need more experience or sort of the big inspiration, I don’t know. At job I’m focused and haven’t any trouble. When I’m here it is different. I often thought I should just leave this idea, but when I don’t write about anything I began to think that I should try again and it is every time in the same. Any way I think I have to leftit. It made me very depressed and I think I need just forget about my writing for a time. It’s better to get focus on my work.

I was in the bed and thought about all these things and at last I began think that I sort of haven’t any else to do or any other purpose in my life, I told you I want done something worthwhile.

At least, all these thoughts made me more depressed. I tried to think of nothing, then I thought about going to the theater tomorrow, Jimmy and Phoebe. Thanks Heavens, they take me there. I guess, I should force myself get outside somewhere more often. At last, I just fell asleep.

When I woke up it was almost ten, it’s lucky for me to have sleep so long. I got up and lookedat the window, looked at the street and went back to the bed. I was so lazy and haven’t any desire to do anything. I started to think about all things I had thinking yesterday before I had fallen asleep. And I say to you, it’s no good thing when you think about yesterday’s things. I began to be depressed again, but I immediately sent away all these thoughts and got up to get some breakfast. I was hungry so much, because yesterday before I got to bed, I didn’t have eat anything. When mine damn crazy thoughts attackingme in that way I don’t feel to eat or something.

After I had breakfast, I cleaned up the apartment a bit and went out for walking around. I have a lot of time before I go to the theater and I wouldn’t feel to be at home and think about any stuff or trying to write something. I told I need to leave it. After little break, I get back to it. Probably. So, I got in the bus and got to the center. I had walking around the park and had breathing fresh air. I love it so much. I immediately felt so good self and I would like to eat something tasty. I came in the café and got the coffee and three large pieces of pie. I wanted to get anything sweet like a madman. I took the seat by the window and started eat. I looked at window, eaten and felt so good, even I can say I was happy. Like a little kid, who was given a something tasty. It turns out that you need just eat something tasty and you feel good and all. Sometimes like that happens, you sit, have eating and you are so happy, because you don’t need any more. In fact, that pie is so damn tasty.

While I was busy my pie, my attention was attached by a girl whowas sitting in far corner. She looks so nice, pretty cute. She was sitting and support her head by her hand and reading a book. She was so beauty, when I see the girl with a book it’s kind of fascinated me. More sweetest thing you can’t see.She glanced at me and gave a little smile quickly. It seems, because my mouth was filled and I was looked like a hamster or piggy. Thatpie was very good and I enjoyed it to the fullest. She looked at me again and our eyes meted each other, then she quickly turned her head away and started smiling. I took a napkin and wiped my lip and cheeks. I looked at her after I did that, she straightened a lock of her blond hair and tucked it behind her ear.

She is pretty nice, blond hair, rosy face, she looked very attractive. She glanced at me again and paused for a moment, then got down her eyes at the book. Her pretty smile was on her face yet. I started think that maybe she liked me and something like that and maybe I should try to invite her to the theater. Jimmy and Phoebe won’t mind, I sure. I had been sitting and thinking about her and I pictured how she has visiting theatres and artgallery or anything in that way. I figured she has name like Elizabeth or something, it’s possible she likes walking in the park and eat ice crem. She looked like girl with kind heart and sort of beautiful soul. I always have pictured in that way, it’s reason why I decided that I can to write the book. I all time have pictured any different story or personality of people whose I see. I don’t know it’s happeningby itself. But I liked that, I mean I like imagine what’s wait forthem and who is meeting in their life’s way and all in that way. Sometimes I can to pictured pretty interesting story, I really can. But when I going to write it, I have any difficulties. I told you I can’t focused my mind.

While I