Love in War E-Book

Michael Farthing

• Herausgeber: Universe
• Kategorie: Gesellschafts- und Liebesromane
• Sprache: Englisch

Seitenzahl: 682

Veröffentlichungsjahr: 2023

Beschreibung

A five-year story of love between ordinary people who survived World War II on just 49 days spent together. How did they do it? This true story based on real lives explores the conundrum.

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LOVE IN WAR

MICHAEL FARTHING

DEDICATION

Love in War is dedicated to the memory of the millions of ordinary people who gave their lives, physically and some metaphysically, in the pursuit of freedom, democracy and peace in the continent of Europe and its immediate neighbours – a struggle that continues today.

Special thanks to all at Affable Media and the Unicorn Publishing Group more widely, for their advice and support in making Love in War a reality.

‘This is a novel, but the events and historical individuals are real. The characters are fictional, inspired in most instances by people I have known.’

A Long Petal in the Sea by Isobel Allende, 2020

CONTENTS

TITLE PAGEDEDICATIONEPIGRAPHPROLOGUE1THE BEGINNING2WORLD AT WAR3TRANSIENTLY TOGETHER, 19424LIFE APART, 1942-19455THE JOURNEY HOMEEPILOGUECOPYRIGHT

PROLOGUE

LONDON, 4 MARCH 1946

‘Could this be the new beginning? The spring that brings new life? A re-awakening?’

Joanna was lost in thought as she sauntered along a sandy path which led to the entrance of an imperious, early Victorian building. It had a foreboding arched entrance, heavy dark oak doors, above which was a red tiled roof with spiky gables pointing skywards. Despite being erected in the mid-19th century, she had detected that its style was mock Tudor, typical stone-dressed red brick, with towering, spiral brick chimneys. Everything about the place was odd, you might say daunting; but then it was an asylum. The Surrey County Lunatic Asylum. If you drop the word ‘lunatic’, then asylum is a good word. It can spell safety, shelter and protection, care, even peace. Her progress was interrupted. In the distance, she could just hear the screams and shouts of a woman in despair. She guessed, from one of the ward blocks. A patient, struggling to unchain and liberate her demons which had been with her lifelong and unlikely to let her go now. The Asylum was renowned for a heavy presence of long-stay patients, some remaining there for decades, often for ‘minor offences’ such as being a ‘slow learner’ or for a single uncontrolled outburst of aggressive behaviour. When she reached for the handle of one of the heavy oak double-doors and found them firmly locked, she turned and looked back down the path, straight as straight, aligned almost perfectly on an East–West trajectory. She took a few steps back, as if expecting the door to open imminently, but paused. As was her habit, she had arrived at least fifteen minutes ahead of schedule.

‘I suppose all the doors are locked in places like this,’ she thought, wondering how to fill the interlude. She became distracted by two men in hospital uniforms, starched white cotton jacket and trousers, which she had spotted in the middle distance propelling a trolley, one at each end, as elegantly as they could along a bumpy gravel path. There was no one lying on top of the trolley, but a crisp white sheet covered the body box below. She imagined it contained a recently departed on its final journey to the mortuary. The incongruous party disappeared into the mist which hung low over the path on which they travelled, unfurling across the orderly gardens and into the fields beyond. There was a farm behind hospital buildings which accounted for the sporadic bovine and porcine moans and grunts and their distinctive aromas. She had discovered that this farm had been a valuable source of decent quality food during the war and as important, it provided a therapeutic environment for the 2,000 or more inmates.

The early morning chill had begun to lift, and she became aware of what would turn into a daffodil-studded lawn, beautifully manicured but densely spiked with confident, slender, upright dark green leaves held firmly by their pale bases, which were beginning to feed the bulbs below. The remains of the glistening overnight frost lingered. The ground was still cold and hard after the sharp winter, but she pictured the host of golden daffodils that was soon to be. She remembered the letter that Johnnie had written from Italy a year or more previously. He had gained such strength from Wordsworth’s, Despondency Corrected.

The war in Europe had been over for nearly a year but only a few days ago the Greek Civil War had reignited, and Churchill was warning about the descent of a sinister Iron Curtain separating the West from Eastern Europe. Perhaps the only good thing she had read in the newspapers the previous week, she thought, was that Prime Minister Clement Attlee had agreed India’s right to independence and was pushing to make it a reality within the forthcoming year. She looked back at the austere doorway, but still no sign of movement. As she sat on one of the stone steps leading up to the door, her mind drained free of the matters of the moment and her thoughts wandered.

War changes people, she thought. Some grew up fast and simply survived, while others seemed to flourish, unashamedly. When a war is over, people sometimes say proudly, even boast about their war; I had a good war. Or is this just the language of John Buchan’s action heroes? Who knows anyone who had a good war?

Other folk deviated from the paths to which they had been initially assigned before the outbreak of war and abandoned the mores of peace time. The ‘vulnerable’ collapsed into a void of despair. Few who saw the theatre of war, remained untouched by the devastation and destruction that it wrought. Theatre, yes, because at times it bore no relationship to an accepted understanding of reality. The images, sounds, the light; yes, the ‘Son et Lumiere’, the performance, took hold and haunted minds and memories to the grave.

Many women were liberated by the opportunity to leave the home for work and found new and different sorts of love while husbands were away. Uncertainty about the future, produced these permissive and perhaps forgiving times, and allowed these secret acts to pass almost unnoticed and then perhaps wilfully forgotten. Some, a few, incited acts of violence and even death when aggrieved, damaged husbands returned. Some were uprooted and accompanied young children out of the cities, the social and industrial targets of the air war, to resettle temporally in safer places. That was evacuation.

She took out the notebook which always travelled with her and, using the silver propelling pencil, a gift from her father on her 16th Birthday, she put these rising thoughts on to paper.

We were two people born in the shadows of the Great War who were promised a better future in a world of peace and prosperity. But it was not to be. We were beguiled unwittingly by the aspirational and as it turns out, foolish politics of the day, which led an entire generation through a massive dark valley of conflict, leaving deep scars across all the peoples of Europe. These have persisted, despite measured and meticulous restoration of the natural and built environment. Nature has a way of healing the earthly ravages of man, but it cannot rewrite history. The vegetation of northern France – the corn marigolds, cow parsley, ox-eyed daisies, and cornflowers, soon reappeared from the scorched earth. New restless saplings arose through the soil to find the light, and the enigmatic red field poppies flooded back in abundance to bend and flutter once more in the cycling winds, waiting patiently for the sun to dry out their fertilised ovaries whose God-given intrinsic tensions cause them to burst and forcibly discharge a shower of black seeds, blown wide by the prevailing wind, to ensure propagation of the next generation. But the memories and dreams remain not far beneath the surface in the remnants of those who were slain the last time around.

After a faltering journey and by the mystery of magical thinking, we found love as a way of hanging onto life. When we came to it finally, we did not think twice. We believed it would be the solution, a shield, a warm swaddling blanket that would bind us tightly together, whatever the future held. God had thrown us a metaphysical golden lifebelt. We will find ways to tell our story, maybe helped by others and sometimes filtered through their eyes.

This is a tale of love in war. They found each other in the ungainly turbulence of youth. They moved apart and then, at an extraordinarily serendipitous, decisive moment, perhaps in one of Cartier-Bresson’s, moments critique, their lives merged briefly. But then disconnected – pulled apart – this time by the relentless forces of war.

There would be other ‘loves in war’ which would complicate and cut across their lives, but together, bizarrely enrich these troubled times. The complex human kaleidoscope can create a colourful, mobile, visionary time ahead, but every so often it is a fractured future, perhaps one that is impossible to repair, but like the coloured glass fragments of the kaleidoscope, it can be re-sorted and re-arranged.

And this is also a story of secrets, some eventually revealed, others going to the grave with their holders. Love is almost always, perhaps inevitably, veiled in secrets.

She looked up and was pleased to see the dominant minute hand of the great wall clock, sited above the entrance to the building, was just passing the half-hour. A light breeze was moving the mist upwards and away in steamy spirals and there was even a suggestion of a watery morning sun breaking through the low cloud. The white suited nursing orderlies, were retracing their steps but now free of the trolley, having completed their solemn assignment.

The silence was interrupted by sounds of moving metal parts and the squeaking of the iron hinges of the grand front door. It opened just a few degrees, to reveal the dull lighting in the hallway. Joanna heard the soft muted tones of male voices. She stood up, straightening her grey-green Harris tweed jacket and box skirt, and re-positioning her turn-up brim, round crown fedora, and retreated a couple of yards down the path, anticipating an imminent dispersal through the opening. But instead, the door closed softly, and the voices were silenced.

I knew them both. Her better than him. Snowy, that’s what he called her, was my friend at school. We grew up together, but in doing so, grew apart. He came between us, as other friends can do. He tried to have me once in the trees at the back of the Queensmere, our favourite pond on Wimbledon Common, when we had just left school; but I was having none of it. I recall it was after they had just broken up for the first time. He was looking for solace. I knew his intervention was imminent when he clumsily introduced the well-used line, ‘She doesn’t understand me. I just need someone to sort me out.’

They met in the local Baptist Church in 1936. She was sixteen and still at school and he was racing towards twenty-one, but struggling to get his life on track, doing City and Guilds at ‘night classes’ after leaving school at the earliest moment at fourteen. He was studying paper manufacture – the science, practice, and commerce of the subject! They seemed so different.

1

THE BEGINNING

‘The beginning is the most important part of the work.’

The Republic, Plato, 380 bce

LONDON, 1936

Most of their friends recognised that they were not a good match. It was already easy to see their manifestly different life directions. Speculative observers related this to dissimilar family and financial backgrounds, and the ambitions and expectations that seep in through family influences. But Johnnie was not to be deterred. He had seen something special in this young woman. He acknowledged that she was still a child when he first became aware of her but had watched her keenly for months from afar, quietly celebrating her beauty, independence and overt love of life. He dreamed that someday, even if it was not her, he would find someone like her, for himself. But at that moment, he could not imagine that anyone else could compare.

Their friendship moved tentatively forward as the reluctant Spring finally brought the world back to life. The early days of March had been cold, with frosts and flurries of snow, but by its third week there were intermittent floods of bright sunshine warming air and earth, finally activating the sleeping spring bulbs.

The church at the top of the hill brought them together. Both families were regular attenders. Johnnie and Joanna had framed much of their early social life through The Boys’ Brigade, Girl Guides, church choir and as teachers in the Sunday school. Johnnie idolised her. He could think of nothing else. He loved the way she looked, her spirit, her coquettish sometimes childlike behaviour but most of all he had seen her intellect at play. She was better educated than he, still at school, two years after she could have left, and planning to stay for another two in the sixth form. She was unequivocally middle class. Although he was not sure what that meant or where he was on the social spectrum, he knew that she was a cut above. This troubled him and raised serious doubts that they would ever make a life partnership.

He was five years older, and it showed. As the years went by, he loved to tease her that she had been wooed and won while still a schoolgirl. In these early days, private moments together were scarce. He would look for opportunities to walk her home after Guides or a play rehearsal at church, but even walking slowly it took no more than fifteen minutes and lingering on the doorstep of their family home in Gartmoor Gardens, was strongly disapproved of by her parents, especially her father.

She always sat with her parents during the morning service. Joanna adored this tranquil, spiritual time close to her father. Johnnie knew that she loved her father more than anything else. Respectfully, he kept his distance but could not resist peering between the rows of heads, his view impeded by the intensity of ‘hatted’ women in the congregation. He would get glimpses of her across the ranks of pitch pine pews, as she sang the hymns with heart and soul, gazing periodically up at her father and he, reciprocating with a smile. Towards the end of the Service their timid, apprehensive eyes might meet, but only briefly, as she had sworn to herself not to reveal anything of their friendship.

Her task that year was to pass her school exams with a flourish, ensuring that her future educational trajectory would be sufficiently steep to secure admission to a good university. Her elder brother George was studying geography at University College London and a leading light in the University athletics team. She saw no reason why she should not do the same. She knew her father had high aspirations for her and would support her all the way.

Johnnie had abandoned school as soon as he was fourteen, leaving without any credentials. Two years later in 1930, his father, Frederick, died and left the family poorly provided for. His elder siblings had been out at work for several years, providing essential financial support which made it possible for their mother, and some of the family to remain in the small, rented house after Frederick’s death.

For the last year or so Johnnie had been working as a printer’s assistant in a local ink manufacturing factory. The distinctive smell that emanated from the ink production process, seeped through the factory’s open, metal-framed windows, crept under doors, and billowed from the tall tapering, cylindrical brick chimney, permeating every nose in the local community. It was a tarry, oily, inky smell. Everyone in Southfields knew when Ault and Wiborg was brewing ink. He began to realise that although the factory was a leisurely ten-minute walk to and from his home each morning and evening, it was too easy. There was no long-term future in that job; he was going nowhere. He was good with numbers, was literate, and wrote neatly with his treasured Parker fountain pen, yet he had no qualifications. There was nothing on paper. But he knew there needed to be if he was going to progress. Although the youngest and probably his mother’s favourite, life at home was chaotic, overcrowded, and impoverished, and overseen by a depressed and disaffected father and a totally exhausted mother.

‘Johnnie, before you come into the scullery for your tea, will you draw the curtains in the front room.’

His mother was always mindful to protect the photographs and furnishings from the harmful effects of the late summer sun, which would inevitably find its way into the room at the end of the day.

‘Yes mother. I’ll do it right away.’

He was standing on the front step with the door just open, watching the slow pageant of suburban street life, a drama set in a neighbourhood of limited resources. At the end of a pleasant summer afternoon, a ‘PSA’ as his father would sometimes refer to it, he would often remain on the front doorstep, almost in a trance, daydreaming himself out of this world into another. Street life played out gently before him, like a mediaeval painting. Although he was there, he was at the same time, disengaged. He watched the neighbours go about their daily toil, husbands returning from work, women pushing prams up and down the street to pacify fractious infants and older children playing street soccer, bat and ball, hopscotch, and kiss-chase. The chalk markings on the pavement for hopscotch remained from one day to the next until washed away by a brisk summer shower. In those days, the street was a safe place.

Their street had no cars; the residents were too poor. Although there were still horse-drawn carts delivering milk and coal and collecting ‘rag-and-bone’ from people’s homes – summoned by raucous cries and a sonorous handbell – the street was still a secure space. Parents never gave a second thought about their children playing in the street. It was their special place.

The sun finally slipped behind the roofs of the houses on the opposite side of the street, which signalled to Johnnie to close the front door and draw back the curtains, as requested.

The only calm room in the house was the so-called ‘front room’. It was deathly calm. You entered by the first door on the right just two yards inside the street entrance, along a dark narrow hallway. The only light that penetrated the gloomy corridor was filtered through the two vertical panels of coloured stained leaded glass in the front door, which were common to every house in the street. A late Victorian design highlight – the only frivolous feature in otherwise dull utility housing stock. The door of the front room was always closed to keep it clean and dust free. The furniture was deep brown, the fabric covering the chairs was stained and worn, especially over the arms, except where the headrests of the armchairs were protected by an antimacassar. These were washed and starched every week even if the room had not been used.

A tall glass-fronted mahogany cabinet, packed with porcelain and pottery trinkets, stood in the recess on the left side the chimney breast. The open fire was always set ready to be lit, but rarely used. No one spent long enough in the room to need the fire except on special occasions, such as Christmas. A small, dark-oak varnished bookcase stood in the alcove on the other side of the fireplace, sprinkled with knick-knacks but devoid of books. In the shallow bay window there was an oval gate-legged table encircled by four high-backed Victorian dining chairs with padded leather seats.

A few ancient, bleached out sepia photographs displayed in dark wooden frames, adorned the walls, and covered most of the available surfaces. A selection of infants in their mothers’ arms or sleeping in lace covered cots and elderly relatives in classic studio poses. Two aspiring aspidistras grew imperceptibly in the dim twilight, cosseted in dark green glazed jardinieres perched at shoulder height on black marble columns, struggling to find sufficient light. In short, it was a miniature Victorian museum. Most of the contents of the room had been handed down from generation to generation and were devoid of monetary value. A room of inheritance. It had the mood of a mausoleum; a chapel of remembrance for the unremembered. Cool, calm, soundless and mostly protected from natural light by heavy, ancient mallard green velvet curtains, which were stretched across the bay window and rarely moved. And there was a distinctive smell in that room which never changed but was a curious blend of old carpet, soot, and a musty dampness which emanated from the bay window.

On a Sunday afternoon at around 4 o’clock, Martha, Johnnie’s mother, would occasionally entertain a friend or relative in the front room. Johnnie, being the youngest, and one or two of his elder sisters, might be invited to join the tea party. It was the moment in the week that he dreaded most. Johnnie knew that his presence was required and that he never had a reasonable excuse at this time on a Sunday afternoon to absent himself from this family duty.

‘If you want to get on in this life, Laddie, then you need to get more education under your belt than you’ve got right now. Right? So, buck up!’

Lenny, more respectably known as Mr Leonard, had quietly spotted that Johnnie had potential and encouraged him to get back into learning.

‘You’re a bright lad. You could make something of yourself, but you need to get some exams. Why don’t you enrol for some evening courses down at the Battersea Poly? Get some qualifications.’

‘You’re right, Mr Leonard, I should. I never got on well at school. My elder brother Ralph did so much better. He has got a good office job now at the Admiralty.’

‘Well, there you go!’

‘And my elder sister, May, works for the Civil Service. Passed all the exams, and she’s well-paid too. She’s on a salary, not wages.’

Johnnie knew what he had to do but struggled to find sufficient ambitious energy to take it to the next stage.

‘Well, there you are Laddie. There must be some good genes knocking around your brothers and sisters and I am certain you’ve got a sprinkling of them too. But you need to bloody well, get on with it!’

Johnnie worked hard in the print room, always willing and prompt in his work but in truth, he was nothing more than a porter. Pushing trolleys of paper to the printing presses and collecting them again at the other end once the ink had dried. When the ink ran out in the print room, he would be sent with his trolley down to the stores to get a replacement tank. He was popular with the printers, and they slowly began to teach him their trade. But the printing industry was heavily unionised in those days and jobs often passed from father to son leaving little room for the entry of newcomers like Johnnie.

‘Thank you, Mr Leonard, I am grateful for your advice. And it’s given me some confidence to see what might be available at the Polytechnic.’

Mr Leonard put his arm around his shoulder then gave him a friendly push towards the door, as if to windup the spring inside him to generate the energy required to make the next move. He had suffered by being the last of a large family. His father’s productive life had ground to a halt years ago and his loving mother had lost her spark. It was now just about survival.

Over the course of several months, Johnnie began to feel that he had made enough progress with the preliminaries and developed sufficient confidence to push his friendship with Joanna forward. He thought to himself, it’s now or never! He decided to make his move after the morning Service one Sunday in early Spring. He chose a day when his mother had indicated that she felt too frail to make the journey up the hill, leaving him a free agent after the Service. He was one of the first to leave after the Service and placed himself strategically at the bottom of the church steps, on the left side. In this position he could survey the scene, make a rapid assessment of the situation as it evolved, and then activate his opening gambit. He would wait there with as much nonchalance as he could muster until Joanna emerged, hopefully ahead of her father who he guessed might be delayed in conversation with other church dignitaries. He made a final check that his red rose buttonhole, freshly cut from the garden that morning, was decorously positioned. The plan worked superbly. She appeared through the church doors alone and immediately saw an outstandingly calm, relaxed, mature, rather good-looking young man below. She ran down the steps to greet him.

‘Johnnie, how lovely to see you!’

She blew him an overly melodramatic kiss as she came towards him. He was not quite prepared for such a welcome, but he remained calm and delivered his well-prepared monologue of solicitation.

Johnnie tentatively proposed that he and Joanna should take a day out together and walk across Wimbledon Common towards Richmond Park, taking a picnic with them. All was agreed there and then. But within a few days a letter arrived.

March 1936

My Dear Jack,

Well, I threatened you that I would write, but I really did not expect that I should have to do so, at least not so soon. Well, the fact of the matter is that after feeling frightfully thrilled about going out with you on Saturday I suddenly came down to the horrible realisation of a French play which I have to go to on Saturday evening at the Wandsworth School and also, as fate will have it, the annual Inter-School Music Festival held in Islington has fallen on the same day from 9 am till 5 pm. So – the little girl will have a busy day.

But really – isn’t it the very limit. I’m furious. Yes – I mean it. But there you will have a nice peaceful day won’t you dear – it will do you the world of good and make you fit and energetic for a Sunday walk.

Be a good boy and take May or your mother out, won’t you? There is a George Arliss film on at Wandsworth on Saturday which I’m sure you will enjoy, or, if it pleases his Majesty better, Claudette Colbert, whom I’m sure you will not like, will be on at the Lyceum in a film with a most enlightening title, ‘She married her Boss’ (most unusual film I should say!!).

Well, I really do not know why I am writing such utter tripe to you, but I know you will understand when I suggest to you that I am just recuperating from a perfectly foul English Language paper.

Hoping sincerely that you are neither too bored nor too cross with me.

Cheerio

Joanna

X (a nice big one for luck)

This may be the moment for some clarification of Johnnie’s given name. He was christened Denis Jack Faraday. From the day he was born, no one called him Denis, sometimes spelt Dennis. Martha his mother always called him Johnnie but as he grew older and entered the workplace the diminutive was truncated to the mature form, John. During their early encounters, Joanna usually addressed him as Jack (although on occasions when being flamboyantly formal, she would use the binomial ‘Dennis Jack’). For simplicity’s sake, he will remain as Johnnie, at least during these early years.

Johnnie was deeply disappointed and quietly irritated by the silly, juvenile tone of the letter. He so wanted some time to persuade Joanna that he was a person worth knowing. He knew they were from divergent backgrounds, but he needed time to show her who he really was and that he was going to make a success of his life.

And then his anger burst. Who is this ‘little girl’ and ‘his Majesty’? Quite ridiculous. Why is she telling me to take out Mother or May? He paused, took a breath and regained control, and wisely wrote it off as ‘youthful exuberance’. His sister May was busy, and his mother was exhausted, so the time was his own.

In the end, he decided to try the George Arliss film, Transatlantic Tunnel on the Saturday evening. A futuristic story of a fanciful plot to connect Britain and America by a sub-Atlantic tunnel. Arliss plays the British prime minister. Johnnie spotted that this was a rather obvious metaphor to build national confidence in the transatlantic relationship during these stormy times in Europe. He opted to walk home, hoping that everyone would have gone to bed by the time he got back. Instead, he found his mother sitting in her chair in the scullery on her own, nursing a cup of tea and evidently waiting for his return.

‘Is that you Johnnie?’

She had heard him turning the key in the lock, and once inside with the door closed, he called back down the hallway.

‘Yes, mother, it’s me. You shouldn’t have stayed up. I am twenty-one years old you know mother, quite old enough to look after myself.’

‘I know, I know,’ she exclaimed in a mildly despondent, theatrical whisper.

‘I just find it difficult to go to bed without knowing everyone is at home. Would you like a cup of tea? There is one left in the pot, and it’s not too stewed.’

‘Thank you. Yes, I’ll join you, but I mustn’t be too long as I need to be up early for Boys’ Brigade. We have a full parade at church tomorrow morning.’

‘Would you like something to eat? I’ve got some fresh bread, and I could spread it with some delicious beef dripping.’

‘No thanks, mother, I’m fine.’

They drank their tea and felt the temperature of the room fall, as the old black cast iron, coke-fired kitchen range burnt itself out for the night.

‘And how is that young lady of yours? Is it on or is it off? I can’t keep up with you young people.’

‘We are friends and usually see each other on Sundays, but she is always very busy with schoolwork and Guides. Her family keep her fully engaged with regular social events. We were going to go to Richmond Park for a picnic, but she had forgotten that she had a school music festival in Islington during the day and then on to a play at Wandsworth School in the evening.’

‘My goodness, she is a busy young lady.’

‘I am afraid I seem to always come second in her list of priorities! Not sure that her parents approve either. Me being an older man, and all that!’

‘Probably too young for you, Johnnie. You should find someone closer to your own age. Someone who has grown up a bit.’

‘Yes mother. But I… well, I do…’

‘Yes, of course. But we should go to bed and find our strength for tomorrow. Good night, my dear boy. God bless you.’

‘Good night mother.’

He kissed her lightly on a cheek but lingered just long enough to collect the distinctive mix of fragrances from her face powder, which she applied economically to her nose and cheekbones and her signature Eau de Cologne that drifted forward from behind her ears.

He waited for his mother to leave the scullery for bed, before he turned off the gas supplying the tulip-shaped wall light and prepared himself for bed.

Johnnie was dismayed by the way the day had turned out. He lay in bed, flat on his back, gazing at the white distemper peeling off the ceiling and the yellowing stains from a leak in the roof many years ago. The curtains were part drawn, sufficient to allow the glow from the gas streetlamp to bring some warmth to his sad state. He felt rejected. How could she have accepted his invitation for a day out when she was already committed? Was she just chaotic and disorganised? Did she find it impossible to say no to his face – easier in writing? He tried hard not to even consider the possibility that it might be a manipulative gesture. Whatever the explanation, yet again, he felt a failure.

Johnnie’s father, Frederick had died five or six years before, leaving his wife, Martha, in a parlous financial position. Frederick had been raised in West Sussex by parents who ran the village store and bakery, centrally situated on the north side of the village green. He was minimally educated but had been apprenticed to a local corn chandler where he seemed to be progressing well. At some point after his father, William, had died prematurely in his forties in 1884, but before the close of the 19th century, Frederick left the family home in the West Sussex Saxon village of Lurgashall with a modest inheritance and came to London to seek his fortune as a corn chandler. He married Martha a country girl who had been in service in Huntingdon, and they soon started a family in a tiny four-roomed, terraced house without either a bathroom or running hot water. Despite the early grounding and apparent enthusiasm for the trade, his business skills failed him, and the enterprise collapsed taking Frederick’s inheritance with it. The family finances were salvaged by May, and her elder brothers who were soon out to work providing enough money to pay the rent and put food on the table.

Despite these tribulations, Martha held the family together and Frederick passed his days, when the weather permitted, sitting on his favourite Windsor chair in their tiny south-east facing garden, usually with his back to the door of the outside lavatory – the only one in the property. The house had been built within the last thirty years so was supplied with cold mains water, town gas and was connected to the main drains, but the plain outside lavatory was otherwise only furnished with torn up squares of newspaper.

Until his death, he dressed every morning in collar and tie, usually a three-piece suit with laced boots which covered his ankles, and it was his custom to top off the ensemble with a black bowler hat. His only important companion for the day was his tabby cat, Silky. But Martha was always close by, preparing his meals and generally watching out for him.

‘So, tell me my boy, what are you going to do with yourself?’

He took off his bowler hat and handed it to Johnnie who obediently held it in both hands in front of his stomach, looking at first glance as if he might be pregnant. Johnnie’s father was sitting in his usual chair, back to the outside lavatory and he was standing bolt upright a yard or so in front of him.

Johnnie’s father had shown little interest in his academic progress at school and rarely found a moment to demonstrate much concern about his life thereafter. It was almost two years since Johnnie had left school, and he must have had a momentary flurry of guilt about his total disengagement with the life of his youngest.

‘I don’t know, Father. I have tried for jobs, but they all say the same thing. They are looking for somebody with experience.’ He paused for a moment’s thought.

‘I’m still helping Ernie with his milk round, but that is not going to get me anywhere.’

‘Ernie is a good man and a model son-in-law. I’ll not have a word said against him. He’s been very good to our Madge. And he stopped a few bullets in the Great War!’

‘I know, Father. I didn’t mean to sound critical but it’s not going to do for me. I shan’t be waiting around to take on Ernie’s milk round when he passes on.’

‘You should try the factory up the road, Ault and Wiborg. They are doing well now and one of the neighbours told me last week they are taking on apprentices. That would give you a start. There is always going to be a need for printing and printing inks. Just think of the newspapers for a start.’

‘I think I should have stayed on at school and sat some exams like May and Ralph.’

‘What, and end up in a stuffy office like the two of them? I never took any exams. It never seemed to hold me back.’

‘Yes, Father, but it’s different today. Employers are looking for people with qualifications. You need to be able to read and write and be good with numbers.’

‘You can read, you’ve got very tidy handwriting and you’re quick with mental arithmetic. Get a job and then get educated, like I did…’ – he leaned back on his chair and after a theatrically dramatic pause, he continued – ‘…in the school of life!’

At that point Silky leapt off his lap and pursued a pigeon up the garden path.

But it was after this conversation with his father that Johnnie walked into Ault and Wiborg’s offices and enquired about employment opportunities.

Johnnie’s father had never faced up to his own shortcomings. He was a clever man and had potential but never worked hard enough to exploit his talents. He had failed to adjust to the competitive edge of post-war city life. Although he never spoke openly about any regrets, he believed privately that he should never have left the Sussex village where he was born.

Soon after giving this piece of fatherly advice to his youngest son, his health began to deteriorate. Like many men of his generation, he denied there was anything wrong but had no money with which to seek medical attention. Martha constantly pleaded with him to get help. One night without any warning, he took to his bed at the usual time after an uneventful day and did not wake up. He should have been buried in the graveyard of St Laurence, the 11th- century church on the Green at Lurgashall with the rest of the family, but balancing convenience and cost, Martha decided to let him rest in the relatively new cemetery nearby at Putney Vale. Eventually, she thought he would be in good company.

Several weeks later Johnnie received another letter from Joanna, but this time from Gloucester.

14 April 1936

My dear Jack,

How are you feeling? Very lonely? No, I expect you have got over that. Well, so far Gloucester is very fine, it has a wonderful cathedral of which I hope to take some snaps – from every possible angle. Oh – what do you think ducky. Breakfast was served at 8:30 am IN BED this morning. Oh yes, I’m quite a lady now. After reading five daily papers and listening to the Service on the wireless, I went out to look at the town. It’s quite a large one with crowds of fine shops including the inevitable Woolworths.

Mrs Bullock – she is the mother of Phyllis who is about to marry my brother George – then took me around her church. It’s a fine old place, with some jolly good stained-glass windows in, they do make the church calm, peaceful and grand, don’t they? By the way, Robert Raikes, the founder of Sunday Schools, lived just opposite this church and when he died was buried in the church. Round his grave or family vault they have erected a little chapel in his memory in which the little beginners of the Sunday School hold their services. It really is delightful with a wonderful window at one end of it and a glorious thick pile carpet of a lovely blue on the floor. I should love to teach there; the atmosphere is so lovely. The Vicar of the church is a funny little fellow, a Frenchman, but rather unpopular with his congregation which is a pity of course. I had the privilege of being asked to sign the visitors’ book which I did rather nervously! This afternoon Phyllis’s brother Vivian, who works in Burton, came to tea – he is awfully nice, so friendly and interesting! Oh dear, I forgot who I was writing to! Don’t get jealous because there is absolutely no need, seeing that this fellow is already bagged!! Meaning dear – that he is married to an awfully sweet girl.

After tea we went for a spin in the car to see Phyllis’s grandparents who live in one of the many picturesque Cotswold villages. They were a very quaint couple, typical West Country folk, living very simply and happily. On our way back we picked some lovely white wild violets which grow in masses on the banks. (I enclose one for luck.)

Tomorrow we are going to the pictures, I am not sure what we are going to see, I believe it’s to see Harold Lloyd in ‘Milky Way’.

On Friday we are going to the theatre and on Saturday we are visiting Phyllis’s other brother, Charles, who lodges in Gosport. He is getting married in June and so we’re going to see his new house and wife!

Well, I do hope you aren’t too bored. I will write again, perhaps if I’m very very good I might have a letter from you!

Cheerio, Joanna x

Please excuse ghastly green ink and pen.

Johnnie was deeply irritated by Joanna’s assumption that he would be ‘lonely’ if she was not around. And who was this person she called ‘ducky’? The truth of the matter is that he missed her terribly, his heart ached, and he thought about nothing else most of the time. But he resented being told that he should feel lonely if she was not around. He disliked her assumed pomposity.

A few days later Joanna sent a ‘Real Photogravure Letter Card’ illustrated with a sepia image of Westgate Street, Gloucester, taken around the time of the Great War. Ladies in long dresses, large, broad-brimmed hats and fashionable umbrellas. She opened with,

Are you still alive? I expect you are very busy enjoying yourself in peace for a while!

She recounted a brief travelogue of a 300-mile drive through Hampshire, Wiltshire, and Gloucestershire in which she admires both the countryside and some of the major large towns and cities.

On returning to London after her Easter holiday, the pattern of meeting on Sundays was re-established, but curtailed in May because of revision for school exams and again in June during the two to three-week period when the exams were taking place.

On 1 June, Johnnie received a postcard from Joanna who was spending a week in Cobham in Surrey at a Girl Guide camp. It was written in pencil and barely legible.

Camp is wonderful. The weather is quite good only a little rain, but the sun at the moment is absolutely boiling. We have been swimming in an open-air pool quite near – its jolly good fun and I am learning to do the crawl quite successfully. This afternoon we are off for a treasure hunt of five miles hiking around the country. It should be rather good, for the scenery here is super. Well cheerio until Sunday.

Joanna

Johnnie dealt with the enforced separation by taking off to Cornwall for a week with two friends, Frank and William, fellow officers from the Boys’ Brigade. The three lads had a jolly time staying in an overcrowded youth hostel, bathing twice a day in the icy Cornish waters and enjoying spirit-lifting walks along the coast’s rugged cliffs. But Johnnie was constantly distracted. He was longing to get back so he could try and re-establish his friendship with Joanna. They exchanged sporadic letters during those early summer months, but direct contact was diminished. In early July he received a letter, the first for about three weeks.

Mein Lieber Jack, 3.7.36

I thought that this was a very fitting beginning eh! Well, mon cheri (by the way I am an internationalist, as you see) it seems a long time since I saw anyone to whom I could have a jolly good gabble to. However, I am having a very jolly time. Ursula Eichmann is the name of my German friend – she is awfully sweet and jolly. Her friend Elli is also staying with a Mayfield girl in Southfields and every evening so far, she has found her way round to our house and as you may imagine we have had a very lively time. By the way I am learning German and so we do a little gabbling in German also. It is quite easy to pick up really for some of the words are very similar, as you probably know, to the English words.

They have, as I expected, expeditions arranged for them by the German authorities, but the English girls are expected to go with them to help – I suppose – so it seems as though I shall be kept pretty well occupied the whole time.

Tomorrow we are hiking to Richmond Park all day and Sunday we are going to the Service at Westminster Abbey which I’m looking forward to very much as I have never been to a service there before. So, think of me midst the wonder and splendour of the Abbey whilst you sit in the simple and roughly built chapel at Southfields (rather should I say attend to the service and don’t think of me).

Well do write to me won’t you. Please excuse this dreadful writing but my pen is bad! And this is the first letter I have written since my exam. Well, Ich lieber dich – by the way don’t take that seriously.

Au revoir,

Joanna

In mid-July, Johnnie went off the annual Boys’ Brigade summer camp in West Sussex, near Bognor Regis. He was with his friends, Frank and William, both nice lads who lived close to Johnnie in adjoining streets and both had followed a similar track since leaving school at fourteen, with Frank working in the local OK Sauce factory in Merton Road and William on the production line for Frame Foods, a manufacturer of baby foods and infant formula, situated in a striking Art Deco building in Standen Road, whose external façade was dressed in dark green ceramic tiles. Embedded within the tiling was a ‘call for action’ to mothers – Nourish and Flourish. The difference between Johnnie, and Frank and William, was that Johnnie knew he could do better, but the others had not yet experienced that revelation. They loved the camaraderie of summer camp, especially when the weather was good, for it was an opportunity for them to get to know their cadets better and to introduce them to outdoor life and to reflect on their humanity and spirituality. It was an organisation firmly embedded in the Christian church and its traditions.

Johnnie had written to Joanna as soon as he arrived, focusing mainly on a disastrous outing he’d had with a ‘perishing Primus stove’. The malicious combination of highly combustible fluid, high pressure and a naked flame had created flames that reached the sky accompanied by billows of acrid black smoke. The ‘pyrotechnics’ were vigorously applauded and accompanied by yelps of appreciation and much laughter from the group of excitable young cadets who were in the audience. Joanna commented on the event, including clear advice for the future in a letter which she sent to Johnnie at camp by return post.

Sorry about the mess with the Primus stove. You certainly should try a wood fire – it’s so much easier, less dangerous and makes the food taste much nicer!

The week under canvas passed quickly and the weather was kind with some warm days and just a little rain. But Johnnie could think only of returning to London to see Joanna. Her exams would be over, her German visitors would have returned home to Berlin and maybe there would be an opportunity to start again on building their friendship, to something which amounted at present to no more than just an exchange of letters.

One afternoon, Johnnie and William decided to ask for a half day’s leave. They wanted to find Craigweil House, near Aldwick, which is where the King had convalesced after a chest operation some years previously and apparently coined the apocryphal expletive, ‘Bugger Bognor’. Their request was granted by the Commanding Officer on ‘patriotic grounds’. They also intended to burn off some energy on their bicycles which they had brought down on the train but so far had rarely used. Before they set off, they pumped up the tyres, put a little oil on the front and rear spindles and a few drops on the chain. With permission, they had scavenged a packed lunch and filled their water bottles, all neatly packed inside khaki army- style haversacks. They had examined the local Ordnance Survey map, located their camp close to Ferry Farm just north of Selsey Bill, a short walk from Pagham Harbour, and planned the route.

They set off along a series of intersecting farm tracks before beginning the circumnavigation of Pagham Harbour. They eventually picked up a generous-sized B-road which took them north, but were soon struggling again on rutted lanes and tracks to get them over the northern perimeter of the harbour before picking up a decent road which would take them down towards Pagham Beach. This beach was well known for being unspoiled and relatively isolated. These features had convinced them that it would be a good place to escape to for a swim followed by lunch, which would give them a rest from the crowd of youngsters they had left behind. They passed endless fields and arable farmland, partitioned by high hawthorn and blackthorn hedges, but suddenly the view changed dramatically.

‘My goodness, what the hell is that?’

William applied front and rear brakes with some force raising a faint smell of heated rubber as he brought his bicycle to a rapid halt with some bravura; he had forced the rear wheel into a 180° slide. Johnnie stopped alongside him but without raising a dust cloud.

There were at least a hundred full-size, white military-style canvas bell tents pitched in neat rows across a vast expanse of farmland, mainly grassy, fallow fields. They were to discover later that the tents were pitched at Pryor’s Farm on the western edge of Aldwick. Johnnie was quick to comment.

‘This is not everyday camping. These tents have got wooden floorboards and there are proper beds inside.’

‘And look at the dining facilities. Smart folding tables and benches,’ William chipped in.

Finally, they realised what they had tumbled into, when a squad of marching men in military attire, those infamous black uniforms they had seen previously at rallies in East London, not dissimilar to those worn by Hitler’s SS, came marching to the beat of drums, down the lane moving in the direction of Pagham Beach. Following closely behind was a larger, less disciplined group, mainly young boys in shorts and swimsuits, struggling to keep up with a haughty, older man who was striding out before them. He had a distinctive moustache and was also wearing a swimsuit which revealed a muscular, trained upper torso; he was demonstrably behaving like their leader.

‘That’s Mosely! Sir Oswald Mosley, the leader of the BFU. The British Fascist Union.’

For Johnnie, everything had suddenly fallen into place. But William was still puzzled. Johnnie gave a couple of explanatory notes.

‘We must have stumbled into one of their summer camps. Apparently, it is an important occasion when the Blackshirts take the opportunity to brainwash their up-and-coming cadets, the ‘Grey shirts’, and to recruit new adult members. It’s a free holiday with everything provided. They even bring their own swimming raft and moor it in the sea off Pagham Beach!’

William was feeling distinctly uneasy. He had heard about these people and their dangerous political proximity to the Nazis. Although they also wore military-style uniforms in the Boys’ Brigade, the Blackshirts’ alignment with Hitler and his ideas, unnerved him.

‘I don’t want to eat my lunch with that lot around. They give me the heebie-jeebies,’ William said nervously.

‘I agree. These are terrible people. Let’s start back towards camp and find a quiet spot to eat on the side of the harbour.’

By now it was almost three o’clock, and once their lunch of hard-boiled eggs, buttered ham rolls, a crisp russet apple all washed down with a few mouthfuls of cool water was done, they journeyed back through farm tracks and pastoral country roads, much relieved to be away from that sinister, unnerving spectacle.

‘Good trip lads?’

The Boys’ Brigade Captain waved and shouted at them as they rode past at remarkable speed, longing to get back to their tent.

‘Did you find Craigweil House?’ he shouted after them.

‘Well sort of. Just the front gates. But we couldn’t get access to the beach-front side of the estate.’

They called out over their shoulders without stopping; their comments fired out staccato, almost in unison. They had decided that on this occasion, they would not share the full details of that afternoon’s adventures with others at the camp.

By the end of July, the pace of life for Joanna and Johnnie became more tempered, albeit transiently. By some miraculous, perhaps heavenly intervention, they were able to spend a Saturday afternoon together. They walked up to Wimbledon Village, past the All-England Lawn Tennis Club and across Wimbledon Common to the iconic Windmill, with its splendid isolation and inactivity. Joanna was bubbling over with excitement having just seen the German girls off on the train back to Germany.

‘Let’s go and sit in that shady area by the Well, near Caesar’s Camp.’

Joanna ran ahead prancing and gamboling like a late spring lamb. They settled themselves down beneath an ancient oak, Johnnie leaning back against its majestic trunk and Joanna, initially unable to sit still for a second, eventually perched crossed legged on a mossy mound nearby.

‘Johnnie, you just won’t believe what a grand time we’ve had during the past three weeks. Ushi, or should I say Ursula, is just the sweetest person. We’ve had such fun together – never a cross word.’

‘I was sorry not to meet her. But I can see you did not have much free time.’

‘We were so busy! And now they’ve all gone rushing back to Berlin for the Olympic Games. Ursula’s father is a Commodore in the Kriegsmarine, the German Navy, and he seems to be able to whisper in someone’s ear and get invitations to any event of his choosing. She is going with him to the opening ceremony on the 1 August at the new Olympic Stadium in Westend.’

Joanna leapt up and decided it was about time to go for a walk.

‘I was very impressed that you are learning German. Especially when you addressed me as Mein Lieber Jack, and signed off the letter, Ich liebe dich!’

Johnnie stopped walking and looked across at her with a serious twinkle in his eye, waiting for her reaction.

‘Oh, stop teasing me, you beast. I told you in the letter not to take me seriously – it was a joke!’

Johnnie wished she had meant it but knew she did not. Nevertheless, he was glad to have made the jibe.

‘We didn’t stop for a minute. Ushi and Elli loved the time they spent with us at school. They were so surprised that we had such relaxed relationships with our teachers.’

‘Really!’ Johnnie feigned disinterest.

‘I got the impression that the German education system is much more authoritarian than ours.’

‘It doesn’t surprise me. The whole regime is authoritarian. I would say, dictatorial.’

‘I think that’s unfair. Germany was impoverished and disheartened after the Great War; they had lost everything. Ushi said that they had been stripped of every ounce of self-respect.’

‘So, what! They deserved it!’

‘There were no jobs, no money, limited clothing and often no food. Whatever they say about Mr Hitler, he’s restored a sense of national self-belief. He re-established self-respect in ordinary people and created jobs.’

‘But most of them are in the army or work camps.’

‘So, what does that matter?’

Johnnie decided not to react.

‘Ushi told me that Germany is full of foreign tourists who are fascinated to see the changes for themselves. There are even some quite famous people visiting. Writers, artists, politicians, and lots of other important foreigners.’

‘Well, he puts the fear of God in me. I just don’t trust him. He talks about only wanting peace. Mosley and our own British fascists say they’re pacifists and want peace. But I think they’re all liars. It’s not peace they want but power and purity. A pure German-Aryan race, and they won’t stop until they’ve got it. By any means available.’

‘Oh Johnnie, don’t go on. We haven’t seen each other for ages, and I really want this to be a lovely day.’

‘You’re right. I know. I do go on about this, but it’s because I’m scared. I’m worried about the future. Frightened. Yes, I’m petrified.’

Joanna didn’t know quite what to say. The growing relationship with Ursula inevitably influenced her evaluation. She wanted to see the best in a tricky situation. She was reluctant to appear disloyal to her dear friend.

‘So, tell me more about your adventures with these Rhine maidens from the ‘Third Reich!’

She looked at him intensely with petulant eyes but resisted the temptation to escalate.

‘As I said in my letter, for the first week or so the whole party of girls came to school with us and joined our lessons. Many of them already spoke good English. There was a huge photograph of us all taken in the school grounds which was published in the Wandsworth Borough News. We had linked arms and were striding through the gardens on our way to lunch, all looking very glamorous. Quite the talk of the town!’

Johnnie had seen the photograph in the local paper but chose not to comment.

‘Then there were the endless day trips. I told you about our hike in Richmond Park. Ushi and Elli were amazed to see so many deer in a London Park.’

‘I expect they would have been wiped out by a hunting party years ago in a similar park in Germany.’

‘Oh, don’t be so stupid, Johnnie. That is a ridiculous thing to say. You really are in a mood today!’

‘Sorry. I’ll stop interrupting. Please finish your story.’

He was beginning to push her to the limit and knew if he didn’t stop, he would ultimately regret it.

‘Well! Then we had a wonderful trip to Westminster Abbey. Ursula knew that our dear King George had died a few months ago and was eager to see his grave and I foolishly told her that he was buried in Westminster Abbey, with some of our other kings and queens. Of course, when we got there, we could not find him.’

‘I could have told you that!’ Johnnie was desperately fighting back.

‘One of the vergers disparagingly told us that he was buried in St George’s Chapel in Windsor Castle. I felt so stupid.’

Joanna thought for a moment and then went into her bag and pulled out a diary as an aide memoire. She flicked through the pages until she found the right place.

‘On Sunday morning, Vera, my elder sister, Ursula, and I went up to Horse Guards Parade and Buckingham Palace to watch the changing of the guards. I had not been there since I was about six – centuries ago! The band was very fine, and Ursula was thrilled when it played one of Wagner’s famous pieces. Goodness knows what prompted them to do that? I told Ursula it was because she and Elli were there!’

‘Do you know what it was?’

Johnnie’s mind flashed back to Hitler, whose obsession with the composer was well known. ‘I’m not sure. Maybe it was the overture to Tannhäuser?’

‘Ursula told me that Hitler’s favourite Wagner opera was Rienzi, particularly the overture. It was after hearing it, about thirty years ago, that he decided on a political career’.

‘Interesting that he loves Wagner’s operas; I have heard that they chime well with his views on National Socialism. Did you discuss his opinions on race and the so-called Jewish problem with any of the German girls?’

‘Yes and no. Germans know what he said about Jews in Mein Kampf, but they choose to ignore it or write it off as juvenile thoughts of an angry young man incarcerated in prison. He was an uneducated house painter at the time who only managed to reach the rank of corporal in the Great War. I think you can find some evidence of anti-Semitism in all countries in Europe.’

‘I agree. Our very own Oswald Mosley and his tribe of fascists certainly don’t hide their feelings. William and I ran into a crowd of Blackshirts near Bognor when we were at Boys’ Brigade camp, marching to the sound of a drum, looking quite menacing.’