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Shortlisted for the T.S. Eliot Prize 2023 A The Irish Times Book of the Year More Sky is a remarkable and remarkably various debut collection from Eric Gregory Award winner, Joe Carrick-Varty, tracking the ways in which experience of addiction and domestic violence shape a life. Carrick-Varty approaches difficult material with great skill and poise: here we find stunning individual lyrics, with an eye for the vivid and surreal; surprising sequences which use Buddhism and Greek myth and the life of coral to refract the poems' interests; and the astonishing sixty-three page long poem 'sky doc' which meditates on suicide, and its retrospective haunting of every corner of its speaker's life.
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for the stayers
Every time a horse lies down in a sunlit field
an island goes up off the coast of Alaska or Peru
or in the middle of a lake south of Stockholm.
Every time a whale is born albino
a man doesn’t die of liver failure and every time
it rains at sea a child speaks first words.
Every time you watch the football
in your alcoholic father’s flat
on his little settee that unfolds into a bed
in case you ever wanted to stay
a forest disappears and a doorbell rings.
Every time the ref blows the whistle
and your father boils the kettle and somewhere
islands are going up and oil rigs just watching.
In a corner of some far-flung town
on some moon of some planet
at the edge of some pocketed galaxy
the soles of my father’s new trainers
are landing on tarmac, squeaking
as they take off again, box-fresh
at the end of his faded black jeans.
They will squeak for a week or so
and then he will die on his back
in his sleep like Jimi Hendrix
after a night at a pub that’s not quite my local
whistling as he stumbles home
running his fingers through a rosemary bush
awash in the chippy’s neon blue.
Believe, for a minute, that I am not a son
who buys trainers for his father
but a molecule of gas inside a star
whose light still touches a city
that’s not quite Oxford where a father
who’s not quite mine tries on pairs
of Adidas, Nike, struggling with the laces,
the incomprehensible bow.
If no answer please leave parcel behind rhododendron—
if storm hits and rhododendron blows away
please leave parcel inside wheelie bin with brick on top—
if crying baby can be heard on approach
tap three times on bottom-left panel of shed window—
DO NOT ring doorbell—if rainbow windmill
spins slower than usual open phone and call alcoholic father—
if rainbow windmill stops spinning at any moment
come back in month with picture of alcoholic father
eating fish and chips in park—if phone rings out
wait for nesting swallows to return from Africa
then call again—DO NOT mention alcoholic father
to friends colleagues woman you love—DO NOT
kiss woman you love—DO NOT eat sleep
shit watch TV until alcoholic father is spotted
leaving Tesco with Guinness and Hula Hoops—
DO NOT I repeat DO NOT drive to 24-hour Shell garage
spend following afternoon outside alcoholic father’s flat
old ladies watching—bay windows blue with Countdown
like the swimming pool
I watch six cranes
lower onto the roof
of a skyscraper as
my father gets drunk
with a man called Gary
the kind of drunk
you can peer into
their earrings glinting
their hearts a pair of
tiny red whales
I watch the builders
fit three whole floors
with windows
one guy comes out
carrying a fox
dangles it Michael Jackson-
style over the lip
of a balcony my father
cannot remember
the name of the film
the score of the game
sometimes I drink
and lie and tell strangers
in pub gardens
that my father
is being built that
he’s coming back
from the ground
that I’ll pull a fox
out of his body one day
carry it in my arms
blinking and pissing
to a sunlit table
just like this one
Unpack tins of soup—open windows—
scrape grease from the hob—
sync your breathing with his—walk
with purpose between the bathroom
and the light-filled kitchen—
find a moth and let it live—postcards
in a drawer—pictures of a holiday—on the carpet
build a house out of tins—a family—
trees dotted around a pond—
a swallow’s nest like the backdoor of a star—
a note on the table you’ll soon cycle away from
your fingers like prunes and smelling of bleach
the dad sips a lime soda in the same chair at the same table by the same window at the same distance from the same screen in the same view of the same bar in the same pub on the same street with the same school by the same river on the same bus route in the same city with the same Christmas in the same country on the same island in the same hemisphere in the same trainers with the same son
on the muted screen a ball lands
one side of a line
and this means that a person has won
the camera jiggles
zooms out refocuses on a crowd
who are cheering
which means that a person has won
yes clapping
back smacking drink dropping
all signifiers
that yep a ball has landed
one side of a line
one side not one side but ONE
SIDE of course right
because a person has won
a ball has landed
people are happy and although this is not
a metaphor for grief
I cannot deny that a ball not a ball but
THE BALL
has landed is landing will land
until it stops being
THE BALL and starts being a ball
at the edge of
a roofless room lots of people are
jumping around in-
side of lots of sound lots of screens
lots of open sky and
did I mention my dad has taken a
shotgun to a field
and I haven’t realised because I am