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- Herausgeber: DISCUS Publishing
- Kategorie: Ratgeber
- Sprache: Englisch
- Veröffentlichungsjahr: 2023
A Story about Initiations, the Transformation of the Earth, and LoveIf you count yourself among the millions seeking a greater spiritual enlightenment and understanding, then Anjas Venus and I is definitely written specifically for you. Inasmuch as the Moon is the most splendid reflector of the Light of the Sun to the Earth, so also is Anjas Venus and I a reflector of the cosmic consciousness one attains from the illumined masters of our sister planet who have come before us.In the Light of Venus! Dr. Raymond Keller Cosmic RayContents: Venus Ambassadors, Omnec Onec, Dr. Raymond Keller Cosmic Ray, Phaistos Disc, Atlantis, Cyclic Time Linear Time, Venus-Germany-Connection, Transformation and Future of the Earth, Ascension, Awakening, Artificial Timeline (2D) and Natural Timeline (5D), Spiritual Practices, Levels of Consciousness, Journey of Soul, Twin Flames, Unconditional Love, Jo Conrad Interview with Omnec Onec. I am certain today that I have incarnated as one of the Souls to break down encrusted structures and to help both myself and people to allow true, divine love to rise within and be embodied. We are here to help Mother Earth, by returning home to divine love, to raise herself to a higher vibrational frequency and end the age of darkness and ignorance. Anja Schäfer * venus-spirit.com
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Venus and I
Anja Schäfer
Copyright © 2023 DISCUS Publishing
1st edition
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ISBN: 978-3-910804-02-9 (Print)
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Anja Schäfer
Venus AndI
My Journey of Coming to Remembrance of my Soul Mission
– 25 years with Omnec Onec –
Preface
The book you hold here in your hands came about through a stream of consciousness and writing during a two-week trip. After my return, I wrote the last two chapters in Germany. I knew during the trip which chapters were missing and that no more would be added.
You can consider this book as a kind of narrative in diary form, with spiritual and actual information woven into it. It has no claim to completeness and I do not promise to answer all questions that may arise. The style is relatively pure told like story-telling.
This book comes from my heart and not from my head.
May it give you inspiring and also pleasurable reading hours.
Let’s connect more and more and create a wonderful new world together!
With love
Anja
Foreword by Dr. Raymond Keller
Anja Schäfer has written a book on a subject most dear to my heart, that of our sister planet Venus. After the Sun and Moon, Venus is the next brightest object in the early morning or night sky, depending on its position east or west on the horizon along with the rising or setting of the Sun, respectively, as seen from Earth. As such, brilliant Venus has often served as a muse for artists, astronomers, poets, scientists, writers and others from all walks of life. The Co-Founder of the Theosophical Society in 1875, Helena Petrovna Blavatsky (1831-1891), wrote as much about Venus in her famous essay, “History of a Planet,” in the September 1887 issue of Lucifer (Latin for “Light Bearer”) magazine, London, England, Theosophical Society Press:
“No star, among the countless myriads that twinkle over the sidereal fields of the night sky, shines so dazzlingly as the planet Venus – not even Sirius-Sothis, the dog-star, beloved by Isis. Venus is the queen among our planets, the crown jewel of our solar system. She is the inspirer of the poet, the guardian and companion of the lonely shepherd, the lovely morning and the evening star. For, stars teach as well as shine.”
The great seeress Blavatsky later went on to explain in her landmark work, The Secret Doctrine (London, England: Theosophical Society Press, 1888), that:
“Venus is the most occult, powerful, and mysterious of all the planets; the one whose influence upon, and relation to the Earth is most prominent (Vol 2., p. 30).
“According to the Occult Doctrine, this planet is our Earth’s primary, and its spiritual prototype (Vol. 2, p. 31)
“Venus, or Lucifer (also Sukra and Usanas) the planet, is the light-bearer of our Earth, in both its physical and mystic sense (Vol. 2, p. 32).
As the author of seven books, so far, on the glory and mysteries of the planet Venus, I find a wonderful kinship with Anja and her work of love in producing Venus and I. She describes her ascent to higher consciousness beginning with meeting Omnec Onec, the Ambassador from Venus, and shortly thereafter coming in contact with the Phaistos Disk, which is permanently on display at the Archaeological Museum in Heraklion, Crete. With Sister Omnec as her mentor and a link to the Cosmos gained through her pondering of the Phaistos Disk, Anja ultimately engaged with a process whereby she discovered her Oversoul and the true path to enlightenment.
For myself, the process was similar. My ascent to higher consciousness began after meeting the Rev. Clayton Parker in 1987, the 87-year-old friend since his boyhood of Annalee Skarin, the author of nine deeply spiritual books who bodily “translated” to Venus from Mt. Shasta, California, in Brother Clayton’s presence. Sister Annalee is now known as Lady Encara and resides on a so-called “Super Earth” planet in the Sirius Star Sector known as Belaton, where she presides over a Venusian settlement. Her full story can be found in my first book, Venus Rising (Terra Alta, West Virginia: Headline Books, 2015).
Just as for Anja, it wasn’t long after I met Clayton that I came in contact with a slew of ancient Egyptian artifacts at a meeting of the Outer Space International Research and Investigations Society (OSIRIS) at a member’s home in Murray, Utah, just outside of Salt Lake City. Clayton brought them to the meeting and was demonstrating psychometry, or the process of reading and interpreting ancient artifacts through extrasensory perception. One artifact particularly caught my attention, a facsimile disk drawn on a papyrus that appears in the Book of Abraham, one of the scriptures used in the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints, a.k.a. the “Mormon Church.” No sooner had I put my hands on the papyrus, a stream of consciousness came pouring through me to the point where I understood, in contemporary terms, what the disk symbolized. I recognized it immediately as the Kolob Stargate, and provided a detailed analysis of that disk in my Venus Rising book.
It is interesting that in both Anja’s and my case, the artifact that sparked this awakening was a seer stone. And so it goes, from mentor to artifact, to a deeper understanding of one’s place in the Infinite but Living Cosmos. Even as I write this today, 16 May 2023, I received an e-mail concerning Omnec Onec’s revelations from a gentleman in Turkey, titled, “Question about souls and bodies they inhabit,” which appears below:
“Hello Dr. Keller,
“I’m an avid follower of your, Omnec Onec’s and Rob Potter’s contents. I’ve read all seven books in your Venus Rising series and recently started reading The Gospels of Thomas and Mary Magdalene. Thank you for being a candle in an ocean of darkness and sharing your light with us.
“I would like to ask this question to Omnec Onec, but since she is unavailable through e-mail, I figured you could also know the answer:
“Omnec Onec has said that the soul moves through mineral, plant, animal and human stages of development and that everything we see around us has a soul. However, some metaphysicians claim that some animals and beings lack a soul. For example, a few refer to Zeta Reticuli Grays as lacking soul.
“Do you or Venusians subscribe to Omnec’s view that all material existence carries a soul? Or do you agree with those metaphysicians that say some beings do not have a soul?
“Personally, I think that Omnec’s view is more consistent with the divine. Everything having a soul, no matter how primitive or evil, seems a more holistic explanation for creation. However, I simply don’t know. Hence my email.
“Thank you for everything and wishing you a pleasant future in light.”
Best,
– Berk Ozdalyan, Turkey
Here was my reply, after a careful reading of both Omnec and Anja’s books, and insights gained thereby:
Dear Berk,
Many thanks for reading my books. You are much appreciated.
While the focus of Sister Omnec’s message is largely on the spiritual aspects of life, my Venus writings are more materialist and Gnostically focused. I agree with Omnec’s contention about the evolution of the soul through matter to ever lightening densities. I believe that both matter and spirit are eternal and that life is the inevitable consequence of matter’s evolution from the material plane of existence as prompted and imbued by spiritual forces.
With this being the case, the abundant existence of more highly intelligent and sentient life forms throughout the Omniverse is assured.
Your friend always,
– Cosmic Ray
If you count yourself among the millions seeking a greater spiritual enlightenment and understanding, then Anja’s Venus and I is definitely written specifically for you. Inasmuch as the Moon is the most splendid reflector of the Light of the Sun to the Earth, so also is Anja’s Venus and I a reflector of the cosmic consciousness one attains from the illumined masters of our sister planet who have come before us.
In the Light of Venus!
– Cosmic Ray
Morgantown, West Virginia, 16 May 2023
Anja’s Disclaimer and Acknowledgement for the English edition
I wrote this book originally in my native language German. As mentioned in the preface, it flowed out of me; it practically wrote itself in a period of two weeks. It’s written in my typical German style, sometimes with long sentences, occasionally with new word creations and altogether quite with complex information in a very condensed form.
In regards of my planned presence at the Mount Shasta Summer Conference in June 2023, which would take place only a few months later after the sudden flow of writing, and for which I would be preparing myself in my function as a Venus Ambassador, it made sense for me to hopefully be able to present my book in English at this event, if an English translation would be feasible in such a timely manner. Thus, there were only a few weeks to produce an English translation of this relatively complex book.
Thanks to the really good software DeepL as well as thanks to my field of contacts with numerous wonderful people who have been connected with Omnec Onec, me and the Venus information for many years, it was actually possible to create an English translation in a relatively short time and even have it proofread twice.
The version you now hold in your hands is a “readable English edition”, in which you may nevertheless occasionally stumble over a German style and German grammar. A translation that is as perfect as if it were written by a native English speaker was impossible to create in such a short time on a volunteer basis.
Please read this book first and foremost with your heart. If possible, please see past and through the language differences in style and expression. If you can do that, this book can be a loving, enriching, joyful inspiration both in content and energy.
At this point, I would like give love, appreciation, and gratitude to the proofreaders who helped me create and publish an English translation of my book at such a rapid pace: Brad Markus, Jonathan Nolan, Rick Keefe, Bill Corkhill, Zandar Schultz, Karoline Weltken, Kun Kelly Zhang, and Dr. Raymond Keller. They all have volunteered a great deal of time to this work. In all humility, I would like to say that they are helping to increase the light on earth both through their own presence and through their participation in this work.
With love and blessings
Anja
May 2023
Acknowledgement for the German edition
I thank my dear parents Renie and Gerhard immeasurably for all they have done for me throughout their lives. They are blessed.
I would like to thank Marianne, Ninja, Kim, Ralph, and Axel for being the first to read my book in its entirety and for helping me with their feedback to correct mistakes and to receive enough encouragement and tailwind to actually take the step into publication.
I would like to thank Reiner Feistle for his trust in me and for giving me the opportunity on August 20, 2022, to give my first public presentation in my function as “Ambassador of the Venusians” at one of his congresses. He and all present know that this was a significant milestone for me. I still don’t like labels and – if at all – I use the term “Ambassador of Venus” or “Facilitator of Venusians” with all humility and gratitude and with Omnec Onec’s blessing; I only use it to give people an idea of what it’s all about.
I especially thank Frank Jacob for his outstanding commitment to translate Robert Potter’s presentation into German during our “From Venus with Love Tour 2022” with Dr. Raymond Keller and also for supporting me technically during my presentation at Reiner’s Congress. I find Frank’s films and his public work as a “Consciousness Archaeologist” very important for seeing through the background powers agenda and for recognizing higher-level connections in world events.
Special thanks also go to Robert Potter. Rob has been a friend or even “fan” of the Venusian Omnec Onec for decades and is very aware of the value of her presence on Earth. His knowledge of Venus is immense. Rob supports the gathering of like-minded Souls and the spread of knowledge of galactic contacts through, among other things, the organization of the Mount Shasta Summer Conferences and his own worldwide activities.
To Werner Forster of the German UFO-Nachrichten magazine, I say thank you for his friendly support in publishing our articles (mine as well as Omnec Onec’s and Dr. Raymond Keller’s, which I write and translate, respectively). I find his unassuming manner and his many years of consistency in disseminating non-mainstream content to be very valuable to the world.
To my dear Venus teachers and Soul friends Omnec Onec and Dr. Raymond Keller, I thank you infinitely for your wisdom, your love and your patience. From my personal point of view, they are two special angels on this planet.
I dedicate this book to my beloved and to love.
Anja
April 2023
Readers’ Comments
This is the initial feedback from my dear first readers, to whom I am so grateful for taking the time to thoroughly read what is, after all, a book quite rich in content.
In the multimedia age this is anything but a matter of course. Intensive reading and immersion in a book is something quite different from watching videos and quickly skimming short impulses in social media channels - not to mention being sprinkled with mainstream media.
These people, whose voices I acknowledged in my book, have given me helpful, honest and loving support. They provided the tailwind which reached me from the right direction and encouraged me to really publish this very personal work.
May this feedback be an appetizer and get you started.
You can read this book, which contains so much knowledge, experience and wisdom, on very different levels: With the mind, with the feeling and with the heart. Each chapter is a small book in itself, with its own theme – guided by a common thread: the personal life story of the author.
Authentic, relentlessly honest with herself and yet full of humor and love, Anja takes you with her on her path of experiences and insights. There is so much knowledge, research and wisdom in the background; excellently implemented in clear, understandable language and never with a raised, instructive finger. This work encourages us to love ourselves and value our own experiences. It also shows creative ways in which we can help shape our future.
I am very grateful for this great wealth of information that will surely inspire and accompany me for a long time.
Kim
Dear Anja,
You take the reader with you on your personal journey through life, you courageously let us participate in your heartfelt journey, you make a great arc from the stages of your insights and your own spiritual awakening process to the great connections of the cosmic plan of creation. Through the ups and downs of your life’s path, much wisdom, love and insight has been brought forth in you. You recognize in it the divine providence and make peace with everything. It is pure inspiration for me how you describe your healing path and the continuous opening for the pure true divine love. The intensive work on your life themes and cycles, conclude in love and conscious integration of the knowledge gained in your life.
No matter how tangled, sorrowful, or complicated our Soul journeys may seem, you strengthen the reader in deep trust in the divine guidance that everything serves a perfect plan of creation and thus ultimately the homecoming into divine love.
This book is full of valuable impulses to reconnect with what this planet is really about, the awakening of human beings into their God-given highest consciousness, reconnection with the Divine and Love – our only way back home.
Ninja
In her book, Anja describes an attitude to life that is summed up as follows in Chapter 9: “Being born, running through life, dying. Slowly, it’s boring, don’t you think? In truth, life is so much bigger. There is so much more to discover, to live, to be.”
This attitude towards life is completely in line with today’s zeitgeist.
I am sure that many readers will recognize something of their own in Anja’s experiences and thought processes. She finds words for what most of us feel today, but in the hectic of everyday life often remain submerged under the surface or not at all comes up.
Ralph
Dear Anja,
Your book is very well done, loving, cheerful and really nice to read. It is my pleasure and honor if my input makes you feel even more confident and comfortable to publish it!
From the bottom of my heart, good luck with it and may the energy you share with this book encourage equally open hearts on their journey and give inspiration to find their own keys, just as you found yours!
Marianne
This book describes the spiritual awakening process of the author. Her refreshing and witty way of writing made me feel like I was on her journey.
A beautiful book that I can only recommend.
Axel
Chapter 1 – The Beginning
Remember, I will still be here
As long as you hold me, in your memory
“Remember Me,” song by Josh Groban (2004)
How do you tell a story that has no beginning and no end? No “once upon a time” ...and no ending with the words ... “and they lived happily ever after.”
Now my story is not really a fairy tale story either, even though parts of it may seem that way to some. It is also not only MY story, but it is the story of many people on Earth, only that in this case it is told through my personality.
I am writing this book for one simple reason: the day before I left on my trip to Turkey, where I arrived a few hours ago, I took a long walk across the fields in the area where I live. It was cold, around freezing, so I was able to walk well over the almost frozen Earth. As I walked, I suddenly thought about what else I would like to do if I only had a few months to live. Although it is quite unlikely that I will cross over to the spirit world in the summer, this question suddenly occupied my mind.
So I thought about what I still have for open cycles. With which people am I not yet at peace with from my point of view, with whom do I feel that I still have something to clarify? To whom would I still like to share something specific? Are there open wishes that I would still like to fulfill – be it experiences or the acquisition of something? What do I feel I would be missing just before my transition and what would I still need to accomplish?
So the question is: If I were about to leave this Earthly life and this body, would I be free, ready and willing? Could I leave relaxed, grateful and with a blissful smile on my face or would there be unresolved issues that would keep me bound and because of which I would like to return?
With these questions in mind, I walked the Earth in my walking shoes and it clearly crystallized relatively quickly what else I would like to do when I crossed over to the spiritual world in a few months.
Since I had already asked myself this question from time to time earlier in my life and had already fulfilled a great many wishes and completed open cycles, there was indeed not much left that I felt would still bind me. Strictly speaking, and even after repeated, careful consideration, there are only two things at the moment: I would update my will because a change has occurred due to the departure of a long-time friend of mine, and secondly, I would still like to write down my history.
Now I’m not like Achilles, who, if the movie Troy is to be believed, also wanted to go down in world history and be remembered for his downfall. The beautiful title song of the film “Remember Me” describes in the lyrics that one makes oneself immortal by remaining in the memory of people. And since later stories were told about Achilles and his victory over Troy, he did indeed become immortal.
Ambitions of this kind I have not, and yet I feel that my story wants to be told, and even if I write it down only for my beloved, for you, or for God. Or for myself.
So how do I tell a story with no beginning and no end? A cyclical story, a multidimensional story.
I can only jump in and start somewhere and then drift as if in a spiral or a labyrinth.
That’s why I’m starting this narrative here in Turkey, because this is where I have been for two weeks now, and one of the reasons I’ve traveled to this place is to complete a cycle that began 33 years ago.
That’s why I find it exciting to listen to myself while I write this book in the course of my stay, because it’s not going to be a travelogue, what I’m experiencing here is far too boring on the face of it. My return here after 33 years is only the trigger, the connecting point, where I enter to write my story out of myself.
Already doubts come and I think: Such nonsense, Anja, what are you actually doing? You’re not going to finish it, and besides, you’ll never get what you want to say across the way you mean it anyway. No one grasps that and they will finish you off, if only by bad reviews on Amazon and not by real stoning or at least egg and tomato throwing.
All right, it doesn’t matter. I’m just going to imagine now that I’m telling everything just to myself, my beloved, and God.
My beloved ..., with that we are in the subject concerning my return to Turkey after 33 years. Of course, I do not know what will happen within the next two weeks – but it is not about an external beloved – that is for sure. It is much deeper than that, it is about within, it is about the all-encompassing LOVE.
I have set an intention before this journey. The intention for this journey is that I will arrive at my turning point and from that point on my journey will be inward.
For thousands of years, I have been breathing myself out. For thousands of years, since my first incarnation on Earth, since I chose to journey through oblivion and reincarnations, I have been exhaling. I spend myself. Through oblivion, through separation from God. I was born in diverse bodies, didn’t know anymore who I was, made my experiences, suffered from all kinds of things that being human in the darkened consciousness brings with it and that I have in common with probably several billion people on Earth and died sooner or later – in the earlier centuries rather sooner than later. We rarely reached old age. Mostly we died of malnutrition, torture, war, suicide, murder, broken heart or illness and went back to the spiritual world, usually without having remembered who we really are.
We accumulated karma through our unconsciousness. Karma is the law of cause and effect and has nothing to do with guilt, certainly not with guilt and atonement and God-punishment or similar non-sense. Karma as a cosmic law that says what I send out returns to me. Moreover, as a Soul, I have the inner desire to have all experiences from all perspectives so that one day I will become completely round and perfect. I cannot be perfect on the outer levels as long as I still lack experience or at least the acceptance of all experiences and of everything that is. As long as I judge and feel detached, I am not round. From this point of view, this journey could also be called an inward spiralization, because deep inside I am perfect, I am round, I am one with all that is. But since I have chosen to exhale, to travel through the levels of consciousness into the lower worlds, I also experience myself in polarity, in forgetting, in separation and in apparent imperfection.
I feel I am approaching the roundness. That is why I am here, that is why I have set this intention. If you read these lines and think: Such nonsense, Anja is as far away from being round as the sun is from the Andromeda galaxy or even further – well, these are YOUR thoughts. And if you want to keep yourself separated from me in this way, by thinking to be able to judge about where I am in my consciousness and on my journey as Soul, then it is probably better, you put the book aside again or throw it away.
If, on the other hand, you are also on your life journey and would like to increase your self-knowledge by possibly finding yourself in one or the other of what I am telling here as well as in the vibrations between the lines, then stay with me and come along. Accompany me, I have so many beautiful things to tell. It will be exciting, interesting, maybe sometimes a bit seemingly tragic or sad, and hopefully it will be humorous and inspiring. Possibly also instructive, because you may not know one or the other yet.
So what happened 33 years ago here in Turkey, in Side to be exact, that I think I came back here to complete a cycle? I was 20 years old and had just graduated from high school. My mother invited me to go on a trip with her as a reward, so we flew here for a week. It was the only trip in my life that I took with my mother alone. It was very hot, even the sea was warmer than I have experienced any sea since. But it was also in August. I don’t remember much, only the most important thing, and that was Mustafa, who worked at the reception. I remember that he really wanted to meet me. My mother found him sympathetic and didn’t stand in the way, so after a few days he and I went out together. Somehow we got together and fell in love. The week was over quickly and I remember I was crestfallen to have to go back to Germany, and he was sad too. So we kept in close contact and talked on the phone a lot when I got back to Berlin. We really liked each other, so after a short time, I think after two weeks, I went back to Side and moved in with him in his mini-room in a shared apartment behind the hotel. I didn’t have much money, it was just enough for this flight and some stay. Mustafa and I were quite happy together, we got along well and had a good time together. In his sparse free time, we went on excursions. We visited the lime terraces of Pamukkale and a concert of the Turkish singer Sezen Aksu in an amphitheater. After about four weeks, my parents cut me off. They did not want to support my budding lottery life with a Turk and indirectly forced me to come back to Germany. Since Mustafa didn’t have much money and only this job in the hotel, we had no idea how to manage our relationship. I was obviously not in love, not creative and not brave enough to defy my parents and so Mustafa and I said goodbye to each other after five weeks. I can still see him looking somber at the airport, he really liked me, he was really sad that I was leaving. I was sad too and I didn’t want it to be over. When I got back to Berlin, we kept in touch and I invited him to come to Germany. But it wasn’t meant to be and we lost touch after about a year.
These eyes, mine anyway, almost fell out of my head when Mustafa sent me a friendship request via Facebook after 22 years, which must have been in spring 2012.
At that time, I was already living at Lake Constance and had already moved from Berlin to Landshut, from Landshut to Mönchengladbach, and from Mönchengladbach to Lake Constance, when suddenly this message arrived by email. At that time, I still got Facebook notifications by email, which was in the very early days.
In any case, I was completely blown away and really believed that the circles of destiny now wanted to put us together after 22 years, so that we could pick up where we left off back in Turkey, and that we would finally become a happy couple.
For good reasons, which however I only became aware of much later, I had remained single. Only between 1997 and 1999 there was one more man with whom I had some kind of relationship, but that was a karmic story and from my point of view had little to do with love. In other words, after the short episode with Mustafa in Turkey, there was no other man with whom it felt good on both sides. This does not mean that it was my conscious decision to live partnerless – not at all, rather the opposite – I was always looking for the right man for me and only today do I grasp why this urge to find my man was so immense from my innermost being. The depth of this will be revealed in the course of this book. LOVE in all its facets was and is one of my great life themes and the realm of experience, thanks to which I was allowed to suffer the most deeply and thanks to which I grew and matured the most intensively.
Against this background of unredeemed singlehood, I was extremely sensitive and had a single heap of hope. Hope for LOVE. The idea that Mustafa would just love to see me again – just like that, with no expectations, no promises, no marriage – that didn’t even cross my mind. For me, his appearance after so many years was the beginning of coming home to the ultimate relationship. The miracle of fate and the closing of an open cycle seemed perfect for me, especially since Mustafa also happened to live in Zurich, only 100 kilometers away from me!
That he was married to a Swiss woman and had a teenage son, he did not tell me in the chat and I did not ask about it. I had to decorate my inner illusion building optimally, in order to be able to run correctly into the knife. Only by denying all realities I could really feel my glass castle of built illusions breaking inside me. Quite apart from that: Of course it happens that people get divorced and enter into a partnership with another love – that happens all the time. But our Souls were not meant for each other as a couple in this life, our re-encounter was only meant for a certain, very important experience, but not to become a couple. If the couple theme had been in the field at all, then I would have met the whole re-encounter quite differently in terms of energy and frequency, namely much more relaxed, more serene, just easy going and not with such a giant glass castle inside me.
The physical encounter between us came after two weeks of Facebook contact on my initiative. In retrospect, I find it important that I was the one who requested the meeting, not him. My Soul obviously wanted to get it over with as quickly as possible – the painful lesson of disappointment. So we met in Schaffhausen, which is pretty much near each of us, in a parking lot.
When we arrived at the meeting point at the same time and saw each other again after such a long time, it was a great joy on both sides. Both of us were very changed in appearance, I quite overweight, he with a small belly and by now gray-haired, only his gap in his teeth was still the same, we fell into each other’s arms and held each other for minutes. His knees were vibrating. The energetic exchange was mega intense.
That’s exactly WHAT this reunion was about – this energy exchange. What it ultimately did to Mustafa, I don’t know, but for me it was a milestone on my journey back home to LOVE. How I mean that, you will not fully understand at this point, that will bubble up in the further course of this book.
After our long embrace and intense exchange of feelings, we started talking to each other. That’s when I learned that after we broke up, Mustafa met a Swiss woman in Turkey, moved in with her in Switzerland, married her and has a son with her. Just to know THAT broke everything in me. I felt the glass lock inside me crack and break and I could no longer stand there and talk with Mustafa, I was so disappointed. Sure, I had a huge expectation and so it came to a huge disappointment. Apart from that, nobody knows whether he and I would have been a good match at all, we could never find out. But since everything in God’s plan is right as it is, we would certainly not have fit together – we were simply not meant to come together as life companions in this life, otherwise it would have worked out! And nevertheless the meetings were super important for me, because Mustafa is, in my life the only man, whom I can classify in the category “Soul partner1”, even if we lived no partnership together. But from the feeling he was and is among all the numerous men that I have met in the course of my life, the only man with whom I felt a mutual feeling of closeness and sympathy at eye level. I can well imagine that in former lives we were together as Soul mates and that therefore we shared such a basic love, a basic attraction. Of the giant divine LOVE, which I was also allowed to experience and I will come back to it later in detail, nevertheless there can be no question here. And all other man-woman-stories in my life were, if I want to pigeonhole them, most likely karmic connections in different variations and served to dissolve energetic bonds and to break encrusted belief- and thought-structures.
Now, here in the hotel, the power has just gone out and come back on five times in the last half hour. Click – clack – click – clack. I’m about to go to the reception desk and ask if this is usual here ... I’m about to go nuts! This is worse than in India, there I have also experienced in 2019 the constant power outages – but not every minute!
After meeting Mustafa again after 22 years, I was sick for four weeks – I was really depressed. I still remember that I had two girlfriends visiting me, who had to hold my hand – the first two weeks my friend Claudi was with me, who had to hold the hand of Verena, who then sat by my side for another two weeks. Slowly things started to get better for me, thanks to the support and compassion of these friends. It was really painful to experience heartache because of shattered illusions, and yet after the deep valley of the Soul there was an upwind that let me run into new experiences. In hindsight, it strikes me that after this experience, due to a disappointed illusion, I have never again suffered so deeply – differently by all means, but no longer with the depth of a real depression.
The suffering that was triggered by the re-encounter with Mustafa broke open structures in me so that more light could enter. After that I could open up to the next level of experience with the masculine. Far away from LOVE in partner matters and far away from experiencing something HAPPY in this respect. Today I know why this was so and that everything is just right as it is out of pure LOVE. The reasons for this have to do with my Soul plan, which is about returning home to love, to true, divine love. Perhaps you too carry this longing, this subtle memory of divine love within you – I can assure you, it exists, it is absolutely real. In the further course of this book I will circle around love again and again and also dedicate a separate chapter to it.
Today I have returned to Turkey to close once and for all the open cycle that is perhaps the most important for me, by which I mean the open cycle of the search for love in a partnership with a man. This is about the withdrawal of all projections and the end of the program of looking for love in the wrong places, or as Abraham Hicks put it in English: “Looking for Love in all the wrong places.”
The realization that I would not find love in a partnership, I had already in 2019, but at that time this realization had not yet flowed through all my lower bodies. So I cannot exactly explain at the moment, but I think a realization begins in the spiritual, in the Soul and that does not mean directly and exclusively that all lower bodies equally already feel and think the same. There may still be old patterns, traumas or other issues that need to be felt again in the course of time, packed in love and let go.
My realization that I am done with the search for a partner came relatively late, after all, I was already 49 years old in 2019. But for that, it was absolutely and irrevocably real. By then, in my own way and at my own pace, I had gone through everything that it IS NOT, that is, what did NOT lead me to the partnership I apparently wanted. I knew it would take a radical change and that change for me was first of all arriving at the point of liberation from this search. This was not a liberation out of defiance or being offended with God or something, no, it was an honest conclusion of a level of experience, because I was able to say with my head held high, clearly before myself and God, “Should there still be a man for me in this life, who is meant for me and who fits me right and I fit him, then I am ready to meet him – and if not, then I remain partnerless and live my life fulfilled, as it is intended in accordance with the divine will and me as a Soul. From this point on, I no longer settle for crumbs, no longer run after a man, and no longer search. From now on, there will be no more compromises, no more affairs either – “only true love.” In reality, I had never wished for anything else, the only problem was that I was not yet ready to receive this high love and first had to experience and resolve all kinds of karmic stuff in order to recognize myself and be able to open up and surrender to true love. My Soul simply prevented half things. False, disharmonious partnerships or the founding of a family would have led me into new ties and obligations instead of releasing ties and false programs. Strictly speaking, wrong partnerships and family patterns would have cost me time and energy, which I should spend for this life with other contents – namely for experiencing and recognizing myself and for finding and fulfilling my life task, which has to do with Venus and the transmission of her messages of love and spiritual teachings.
During my Mustafa depression in 2012, I disconnected the Facebook friendship with him again, it was too painful to keep in touch with him. It was just hopeless for me at the time because of the separation illusion, but I wasn’t fully aware of that, I wasn’t above it. I had to suffer through it and integrate it, and at that time I could only do that by separating on the outside and breaking off contact again. I remember that I had the feeling that this was also painful or upsetting for Mustafa in another way, as I reacted. I felt sorry for him too, but I just had to take care of myself and my reaction and withdrawal was just authentic. A partnership was out of the question and it wasn’t meant to be, so I had to suck the pearls out of this sour oyster and the only way to do that was to separate again and by opening myself up to the next level of experiences with men, which actually followed after a few months of processing, after being persuaded by my friend Claudi to sign up on a dating site and slowly start accepting lighter contacts and having looser experiences. Not painless, not without hopes, not without dramas, but little by little it became easier. At some point I realized that I created these experiences for myself to release energetic ties that I had brought into this life – it’s about freedom and finding true love – and true love is FREE.
This tells the essence around Mustafa and my time in Side, which is now going into the final phase 33 years after my return to this place, and which was the reason why I started writing this book in the first place.
No more power outages for the last ten minutes – maybe the house’s power grid has now gotten used to my energy and remains stable ... let’s hope so.
Maybe at this point you don’t yet understand what I mean by cyclical existence and what my Turkey story and this book have to do with it and with coming home to LOVE, what it all boils down to and what you might have to do with it. It doesn’t matter. There is no beginning and no end and I’m not getting at anything in particular. Perhaps one reason for telling my story is that in this way I am emptying my inner vessel and offering you a chalice filled with my Soul nectar.
Chapter 2 – The Ring of Destiny
Words are symbols.
Nothing that is true needs to be explained.
This is exciting now. I feel the first chapter is finished and I write the words “Chapter 2.” Promptly, the expression “The ring of destiny is closing” comes to my mind. There is a story that wants to be unpacked that I did not think of before I wrote the words “Chapter 2”.
So now I know what I want to tell next, namely the story about the ring of destiny closing.
It was in the city of Mönchengladbach in 2001, when I was working at the Birgert company as an assistant to the sales manager. At that time one day suddenly the text “The ring of destiny is closing ... the ri-ing of des-ti-ny- is closing ...“ sang in me in a mantra form. Repeating themselves over and over. These words simply fell into my head, and that was triggered by the fact that my grandfather on my mother’s side had lived in Mönchengladbach, that I had often been to that city as a child, and that fate had brought me back to that city a few decades later without any connection to my Earthly family.
And yet it was my life path, a part of my journey, for whatever reason, there was some energy from the side of my family, and then I landed exactly there to have experiences, to close the fate ring, to complete a cycle and in 2004 to probably leave this city finally behind me.
The story around Mönchengladbach, the company Birgert and the magic sales manager is a story that started somewhere in Atlantis. Yes, why should I not hit the nail on the head, because for me that is actually so, from my own memories.
