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An author encounters a male 17-year-old teenager on the little private beach of his property, lakeside - not entirely coincidental. The lad visits coming from across the lake, seeking contact in curiosity. It becomes apparent that the boy, in his ostensibly singular behaviour, is socially neglected, looking for a new male caregiver. The writer, liaised to a distinctly younger woman, inapparent in the beginning, and the boy slowly make friends with each other - finding out that they're able to talk and deal with each other quite outspoken. The boy does flourish, the unexpected contact does good to the childless wordsmith as well - professionally and personally. His liaison becomes more and more intensive, and the boy, by his new father figure, meets same-aged of both sexes and finally, after painful invectives in his past, his first great love. Being puzzled by a male friend, equally burdened, who is bi-curious, he at last won't let himself be led astray from the erotical way he'd chosen, after they mutually had been sipping the cup. In the end, some big surprise awaits the writer. - This tale may encourage all those who can wait for the real, real thing - disregarding age, or what they may have chosen for to be good for them in platonic or sexual relationship. And don't give a damn for prejudices or malicious gossip.
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Armas-of-the-Lake
Lonesome - Twosome - Lovesome
Georg von Rotthausen
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Copyright: ©2017 by Georg von Rotthausen
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24 July 2016
25 July 2016
Armas-of-the-Lake
Lonesome - Twosome - Lovesome
It was the 24th of July, an exceedingly beautiful summer-day of the year 2016. Sunday.
Christian von Achternberg sat at the stone-old desk of his grandfather in his study flooded with sunlight − contemplating.
The keyboard of his working PC and the modern flat screen weren’t exactly matching with the beautiful old furniture but the writer wanted it thusly. Almost seventy years his grandfather had been sitting at this desk with its matching hanging wall-clock, most likely a few also his father with whom he’d cut contact, before he, twenty years after the death of the old man and one year past the passing away of his father, at last got it from the estate.
Without having planned it on purpose, he took seat at the desk exactly on the anniversary of the passing away of his grandfather to take possession of it − and when he was aware of it, he felt enormously goosey.
But now he sat there, after a good night-sleep right up to early forenoon, having had his usual scarce breakfast − and nothing came to him. Even his favourite green tea was of any help. He gazed at the screen which stared back − with a scaring empty white page.
Achternberg decided upon draining his tea pot, without, as usual, replacing it with another steaming hot new one. He almost never consumed any alcohol, didn’t smoke anymore since his 10th year of life, but he’d become a chain tea drinker since he had to leave off his once most favoured coffee after having developed indigestion −must leave it off. He closed all open files, shut down the computer and went to his bedroom to get dressed.
At forenoon it had been warm to such a degree, that he, as usual during that season, had been sitting at the desk in the buff. Olaf Gulbransson used to walk around in his garden in Upper Bavaria, naked, when painting, just being dressed in a pinafore − in that case he could allow himself, also to be conserving his clothes, to be walking around in his house just as he had been born − naked.
Achternberg, by immense luck, wasn’t burdened with grousing womanhood but then again not surrounded by family since, to his heartbreak, he didn’t have any issue − not yet, as he, despite of his age, loved to emphasize. That would but come as crazy as the sentiment might be. Would one stop once not being exactly normal anymore, if not, to crown all, a little crazy, then one would be dead despite of walking among the so-called living was his credo− and putting children to this world would be as crazy as some banally normal process which life was practising on earth for millions of years without worrying about the consequences. But couldn’t − with any child − a new chance grow up again to be making this stupid world a little bit better? Even though if any now and then some nincompoop of a politician or even a future murderer were among the new-born? With genetic wild shots the world had to live up to the present and it would have to stand it thusly till the bitter end. That’s the way it is, like it or not.
But he had two goddaughters which he dearly loved. And one of them he loved a little bit more.
Achternberg decided on dressing in light linen clothes, to be putting on his casual sandals, to don a broad-rimmed strawhat against the sun − and to go to his lake, piking, without having the opportunity to bid goodbye to beautiful womanhood with a kiss and some tender „till then, deary”. The house was simply that what constitutes soleness − quiet. The queen of his heart wasn’t around.
Barely half an hour later he sat on his folding chair covered with multi-coloured fabric on his some 16 ft long wooden jetty next to the little sandy beach having cast his fishing rod − to wait and see. In addition he hoped the first line of his new book would come to him. Calm contemplation was said to be very helpful at it.
He roughly knew where in the crystal clear water the pike had its position which he for so long was going after, but the smart predator as yet never let himself be tempted to bite.
About an hour might have passed by − considering solar altitude the estimation might be about right since he had, as usual, no watch on him − when suddenly, on his right, something was moving in the water. It wasn’t the pike, much too big for it − and flesh-coloured.
Achternberg focussed on it, indignant about the disturbance, could the pike be scared off by it, but scowl out loud he couldn‘t and wouldn’t either since then the slim predator for sure would be history for the rest of the day.
He who arrived was tall and slim and naked, emerging shy of the mini beach, deeply inhaled, got on his feet, tucked his dark hair and went ashore − initially without taking notice of the disturbed angler.
Achternberg estimated the fully tanned − without „white pants” − teenage boy standing 6 ft 2, aged perhaps 17, 18 at most. According to his age, he was of some slim well-trained appearing physique and, when turning around and settling down on the sand, he conveyed the impression to be some certain subject of adoring observation by bikini belles or of girls in the nude like on the beach and target of envious glances of same-aged male adolescents.
The boy stretched himself out, folded arms under his head and closed eyes. He paid no attention to Achternberg, he who had no reason to further eye the disturbing visitor since the one obviously merely was bound to tan himself and kept quiet. So he affronted the lake again and soon was deep in thought. The pike was nowhere to be seen. The sun burned down and the lake was lying dormant.
„Hi! May I sit by you?”
For an instant, Achternberg closed his eyes, bugged, before he sighingly answered.
„You’re welcome!”
He turned around. In front of him stood the naked young lad who apparently thought nothing of it addressing some completely strange man without a stitch on. He briefly looked him over like one does eye somebody whom one does not know from a bar of soap who in addition behaved completely shameless. Or should one say dégagé, juvenilely bold? Achternberg faced the lake again − and smiled without letting the boy see it.
„We should have had the nerve to do so at this age! Unfortunately we didn’t have the courage!”
„Does it startle you that I’m in the buff?”
„Nope.”
„Good. Ain’t got anything on myself anyway. I could but cover myself with a little pudency but I unfortunately left it at home.”
The young lad sat down and let his long legs dangle in the water, propped up backwards on his hands and, by closed eyes, held his face into the sun, putting his head back.
Achternberg smiled to himself. The boy had the ability of pun.
„Where do you come from?” he asked lowly.
„Von drüben. [From the other side.]”
The boy wasn’t old enough to allude by „von drüben” [The German synonym for „behind the Iron curtain, referring to former comunist Germany] to the former GDR, i.e. Central Germany.
„From the opposite shore, from across?”
„Yep.”
„Your parents bought the old Hansen estate?”
The old reduced farm with its large garden, old stock of trees and the beautiful thatched house from the 18th century was up for sale for quite a while. The surrounding land − some 20 hectares − was leased to circumjacent farms.
„Yep.”
„And you swam the lake non-stop?”
„Yep. Discovered no island on the way.”
Achternberg noticed how foolishly he’d asked. Naturally there was no possibility „on the way” to rest, short of clinging outboard to an angler’s should one be out on the lake once in a while.
„You’re well-trained, aren’t you, huh?”
„Yep, one might say so.”
„Holidays?”
„Yep. Six glorious weeks.”
Achternberg turned around to him since he’d heard a lapping.
„Would you mind taking your legs out of the water or at least not moving them? It might scare the pike off.”
„Nope.”
The young lad tucked his legs up, shuffled his bum a little backwards, laid himself on his back and folded arms under his head as before on the sand − whereat his biceps bulged distinctly. He closed his eyes. He didn’t mind the hot sun at all. Even his manhood, perfectly matching his body size, was chocolate−coloured except for its rosy well-shaped slightly oversized tip − of course.
It was quiet by the lake. Not a breeze was stirring. Achternberg turned around. The young lad was still there. Beads of sweat were shining on his immaculate skin. He was asleep.
Achternberg noticed that his uninvited company not only was of some well-shaped physique but was also furnished with even almost beauteous features including minorly distinct cheekbones.
Spontaneously he contemplated whether an equally beautiful older sister was going along with him − only to smilingly be shaking his head with himself a moment later. Such an age difference only in fanciful novels meant no obstacle. Reality unfortunately happened to be too philistine and envious.
Although, he knew a girl who certainly wouldn’t be pleased would he be flirting with a new kid in the neighbourhood. Many a private trouble is avoidable by inaction for a change − and Achternberg did not only love this girl but also the general harmony in his life. Disharmony he handled in his stories.
It again came to him that in April 2015 news was spread on the US-musician Billy Joel who yet was aged 65 that his 32 years younger girl-friend Alexis Roderick − a former bank clerk − was expecting his baby, the first mutual issue. Joel, however, successfully begot a daughter 29 years ago what Achternberg was eluded because of the unromantic conduct of his great love in Dillsburg, Pennsylvania.
The quick-witted punny reply of the boy referring to his happy-go-lucky nudity appealed to him. He only didn’t understand why he wouldn’t amuse himself amongst age mates but sojourned with him, sun-bathing, sleeping, and as yet hadn‘t been talking very much. On the other hand, he didn’t bother him − why would he chase him away. It only aggravated him that the pike simply wouldn’t bite.
Carin! What she might be looking like nowadays crossed Achternberg’s mind. Presumably she’d grown even more beautiful than she was at 24 when he, being in company of her German grandmother Emma, unexpectedly met her. Being asked five seconds before whether he’d believe in love at first sight, he’d have declared each and everyone for being nuts, for not being quite right in his head − but then the bells of Cologne Cathedral [Kölner Dom], Freiburg Minster [Freiburger Münster], Munich Church of Our Lady [Münchner Frauenkirche], Berlin Cathedral [Berliner Dom], Vienna St. Stephen’s Cathedral [Wiener Stephansdom], Notre Dame de Paris, St. Paul’s Cathedral and Big Ben were tolling all at the same time! He stopped dead in his tracks, was left in disbelief what he’d spotted in that glassy drive-in counter of a little branch bank in this hicksville nearby Harrisburg: the most beautiful female human being he’d ever seen! Her gorgeous smile he still saw before his mental eye − just as if it’d had hypnotized him an instant before. But nothing came of it. Carin yet stuck to a dissolving engagement but still hadn’t discarded his ring. She was friendly though, beamed at him but yet refused to accept a rendezvous. Achternberg was a guest of her grandparents for just one week.
Leopold, her grandfather, whom he’d seen as historian, had been serving as an Imperial German Ensign in World War I and as a Commander during the second world catastrophe, which the victors of the first one had been evocative of by their foolish and deeply humiliating peace dictate. At the time they met he was a darling old gentleman of 85 whose Navy daggers just served as decoration on the wall of the large living room of a typical American wooden single-family home bordering on Main Street in Dillsburg, some as well typical American small community in the East of the USA which harbored this unexpected treasure of a female human being. Carin, who accent-free and fluently spoke German, he was never to see again but once. But doesn’t that suffice not to forget a human being over three decades?
Sole optical memory would be a photograph which he’d unhung in her grandparents’s and got photocopied in a little shop. Achternberg was an impecunious student, didn’t manage to travel again to the USA − his persistant courting she wouldn’t understand. Her grandparents sided with Achternberg, her father behaved decently neutral, her mother was opposed to him − she wouldn’t want to see her firstborn daughter live thousands of miles away despite next of kin in Germany. Her father wrote to him she couldn’t conceive that a man was so enthusiastic of her. Eight years later she was to marry an optical odd and considerably elder American without being in love with him − but he could serve her great passion: he owned a herd of horses. When Achternberg came to know of it he for months was out of his mind, was simply shocked, especially since she was to give birth to her first child in less than a year after her wedding. He never learned whether it was a girl or a boy.
Old Emma couldn’t comfort him when she wrote in a letter: „Wer mir so die Liebe erklärt hätte, dem wäre ich bis in die Hölle gefolgt!” [„Him who‘d have declared love upon me thusly, I‘d followed even to hell!”].
For Achternberg the hell of solitude was to follow − for many a long year. He couldn‘t get over it.
The current year Carin would turn 56. Perhaps she’d obtained divorce, perhaps she was a widow − he didn’t know. Her firstborn would be 23. Achternberg wouldn’t know why, but he hoped for a girl which could’ve inherited the incredible beauty of her mother.
And right behind him a handsome boy was lying who could be his son, as beautiful as if begotten with Carin. But he didn’t have issue with Carin, never would − that was the heartbreak of his life. And in quiet sentimental hours he mourned his children he never was to hold in his arms −ach wäret ihr doch geboren![oh, if only you were born!]
He turned in his hip, keeping the fishing rod calm, and let his gaze travel the calmly breathing body of this beautiful young human being which was utterly strange to him − but all of a sudden kind of familiar although he wouldn’t even know his name.
Peculiar. The boy was seeking his nearness but didn’t care for introducing himself. Was he seeking his nearness? Perhaps he just accepted the fact that he’d encountered a male human being − at this quiet falsely supposed lonely place − who by age easily could be his father.
He’d displayed the dewy easy manner of an advanced teenager who frolically covered that he − without asking − had been going ashore on posted property, in addition with no stitch on. Somewhere in littoral zone one of the prohibition signs must have been rammed into the ground which distinctly designated Privatgrundstück. Betreten verboten! [Private property. No trespassing!]. Achternberg‘d lost where. The boy had been approaching diving, so easily could‘ve missed it. Achternberg was not in the scowling mood, besides that unnecessarily would’ve caused wrinkles, and the boy didn’t make the impression of an obtrusively curious enthusiast − on the wet trail of his „journey” he could’ve hardly brought along one of Achternberg’s books for signature − or of a tourist who just for curiosity wanted to see how such a well-known ink-slinger was living. Like on Rothensande manor where completely strange people formerly constantly penetrated the private rooms of the squire just to have a look where the famous three „Immenhof”-movies had been shot in the mid-fifties.
He in addition was the neighbour’s son „von drüben”. So it could happen that he’d visit more frequently during the summer − perhaps even daily. He couldn‘t get upset all over again on a daily basis particularly in view of the fact that it’d be a compliment would the boy return. For him as a person that he wouldn’t appear scaring somebody away and for his piece of land on the lake because it pleased the juvenile visitor inviting as it simply was. Who wouldn’t feel flattered if one’s home was considered beautiful by third parties!
And Achternberg felt flattered by his own contemplation he − with a beautiful woman − could’ve brought such a beautiful human being to this beautiful world which again and again conducted itself so cruelly for malicious human beings wouldn‘t appreciate it and keep on and on making it bad. But the evil in this world, the only one humans have, can only be battled by the good and beauty − and finally be defeated. That’d be a comforting idea, he found. Why should he have made a scene in front of this peaceful teenager − why?
Whilst he thought all that, eyeing his visitor, just intending to devote himself again to the placid observation of his fishing rod, the young lad commenced to move without opening his eyes. With his right he massaged his chest, played with his nipples, he yawned as if to swallow the world, stretched himself, squinted against the sun and propped up to his elbows.
„Did I sleep,“ he lowly inquired.
„Reckon so,“ Achternberg murmured and briefly turned around to him. Withal their eyes met, wherein they remained for a moment.
„Did anything bite yet?“
The boy sat up.
„Nope. − The only having come from the lake happened to be you.” Achternberg arched his right eyebrow. A faint smile played the corner of his mouth.
„Do I disturb you?“
„Nope. − What makes you think that?”
„Well, you want to be fishing here in quietude …“
„Oh well, the pike keeps me waiting for weeks, one day more or less won’t matter. You’re not bothersome at all. What’s your name?”
„Armas.”
„Achternberg.”
„I know. You’re the writer with the detective novels and erotic stories and stuff.”
„Really?“
„Yeah, I read about you on the net. One has to know whom one’s got for a neighbour. My mother is fond of reading your stuff, daddy lesser. I find your erotica cool. Causes some mighty hard-on.”
„Really?“
That explicitly, Achternberg hadn’t heard it yet from any reader. But it pleased him that his erotic stories acted so stimulating. He couldn‘t help smiling. The frank way of this Armas boy was to his liking.
„Sure. You write so beautifully vivid so that my turned on brain cinema does delightfully assist me to masturbate.”
Achternberg had to clear his throat. This boy was truely blunt. It instantly flashed through his mind, how proud he’d be having a son like him. One with whom he could straightforwardly talk about anything.
„You don’t have a girl-friend?”
„No, that is to say yes, no girl-friend.”
„Why not? You’re a bonny lad.” Achternberg scrutinized Armas.
„I don’t wanna commit myself yet. The girls do have demands I‘m not willing to fulfill.”
„Really? Do boys please you more?”
It was an indiscrete inquiry but now it had come to the world. That was rigorously and forthright beating on the bush.
Achternberg was wondering that Armas wasn’t particularly keen to experience his first with a girl and more than that. Armas locked eyes with him. His cheeks had turned rosy.
„I’m not gay, in case you think that. I just can wait.”
Instantaneously, Achternberg was convinced to be facing some extraordinary young human being.
„It wouldn’t disturb me, would it?”
„What would disturb you not? If I were gay?“
„Exactly. No one’s to blame for his preferences, would he?”
„Are you gay?” Armas piercingly glanced at him.
Achternberg answered him by a counter-question.
„How come you think that?”
„Because you pretend to being tolerant.” Armas looked at him, inquiring. „And because it doesn’t disturb you that I’m naked.”
Achternberg laughed.
„Would you have preferred me chasing you away by railing at you like hell and calling you names?”
„That at least would have been the normal reaction as I encountered it as yet.”
„Then you as yet always have been coming to the wrong address by stumbling over philistines?”
„One may say so. I always was nothing but affronted, and my parents received mean letters.”
„So, to make that clear once and for all,” Achternberg firmly glanced at Armas, „I love women although they’re sometimes a damned nuisance,” both laughed, „I don’t have any by my side for quite a while but you please me anyhow − otherwise you wouldn’t be here anymore. Does that answer your question?”
„Yep.” Armas smiled and appeared satisfied.
„And why did your parents receive mean letters?”
Achternberg became curious although he could think of one or the other certain reason.
„It always happened to be curious as well as philistine neighbours, perhaps they were simply nothing but envious. I can‘t do anything about being quite tall, I’m lucky to have a well-formed body which I, by the way, chisle by regular training, and my cock is of above-the-average size.”
„One can say so,” Achternberg nodded affirmative. He took fancy of the boy’s healthy self-consciousness which didn’t come across arrogantly. „Do you love walking around naked? I mean, how would the neighbours elsewise know that your penis suits your stature, huh? Or don’t you have any curtains in your window, and your neighbours can spy upon you how you walk around in your room? Peeping-toms are around everywhere, unfortunately.”
„I find it simply cool being free and unrestrained and that includes my being fond of walking around with no stitch on during the warm season. I already loved to go swimming naked when I was still waiting for my first pubic hair, and I love to being in the sauna. We always had a large estate around us but there are binoculars, aren’t they? I most likely was always being gaped at when strolling around in the garden or sunning myself. My parents always tolerated it but the mean letters set our teeth on edge. On the side-walk, I happened to be scolded at as shameless scamp ,If you were my son …’ and so on. Do you find that I’m shameless?” Armas briefly cast eyes before he looked at Achternberg, inquiring, whereby he slightly cocked his head.
„Of course you are, but in a very pleasing healthy way. Don’t let that trouble you. In a wonderful way, you are completely unusually normal. I indeed get acquainted with you just as of today but let me advice you to remain the way you are. Does that answer your question?”
„Yep.”
For a brief moment Armas’ face had been freezing when his shamelessness had been confirmed but then it totally brightened up. A whiff of blissfulness furtively passed over his beautiful face. With his right index he gently rubbed over the bridge of his nose which slightly rippled right afterwards.
„One can nothing but congratulate you that you are shameless the pleasing way you perform. You live some non-scrupulous body-consciousness. Most of the people do have to learn that with difficulty first. You obviously are of some natural talent. You behave casually. That certainly is due to some sound credit of your parents, too. I do hope I may meet them one day.“
„That certainly will be arrangeable soon daddy one day will be around again.”
Achternberg quizzically looked at him.
„Oh, he’s a mercantile marine captain foreign-going and seldom at home. I haven’t seen him since we moved here. Right now he’s sailing somewhere in the South China Sea.”
„Does he?”
„It already has been found that he wasn‘t at home for half a year. Afterwards Mama was short of time for me for approximately a week but that was okay. That‘s repeatedly happening. I then cook for my parents and put it before the bedroom door. When we meet again, they both always appear being more slender than before.”
Armas roguishly grinned. Achternberg too couldn‘t help smiling broad. The boy had a good sense of humor and witticism. Some fine and rare gift. He started being interested in him.
Achternberg again kept an eye to the cast fishing rod. Behind him it was falling silent. He believed Armas being stretched out in the sun again. He wasn’t disturbed, and he didn’t want to disturb. They would yet come to talk furthermore. After a while …
„Would you like to come to dinner tomorrow? We‘ll have matie and baked potatoes.“
Achternberg turned around − and found himself alone again. Armas had disappeared. He must have had completely submerged, noiseless. Achternberg found that quite OK. Despite their just brief acquaintance, he took to the boy. He was sure, he’d come back. And that’d be the case already the next day. For Achternberg had no doubt about it. He’d prepare something for Armas.
Blooming pike! It wouldn‘t bite again. The smart predator fooled him another day long. But the lake had made him another very special present instead. An interesting young human being. All of a sudden the basic idea for a new book occured to him.
*
Second day
Next forenoon, Achternberg was in an extremely good mood. He’d slept very well. First notes had found their way into the PC the previous evening. The first gruesome white page was history and so had lost its horror.
Past his late breakfast, as was his custom, he’d been on the lake short-time. It was lying still at most beautiful sunshine under an almost cloudless blue sky. There was not a breeze stirring. The water surface was unrippled.
Achternberg returned, did some still to be done mail and effected some transfers by phone. Then he took his fishing rod, his little picnic basket which he’d prepared since he knew he wouldn‘t come back for hours, put on his broad-brimmed straw hat and left the house.
When he arrived at the little wooden jetty, he noticed to having company already.
Armas was lying on his back upon the large bathing towel which Achternberg had been putting down for him. The broad-brimmed strawhat he’d put onto his forehead. Beads of water didn’t shine on Armas’ skin anymore, so he was around for not less than half an hour but it glistened − he’d used the sun lotion Achternberg had put onto the large towel. And right next lay − accurately folded square − the kitchen foil to which a big piece of cold turkey had been wrapped in. The boy obviously had been hungry and braced himself with it after the lake’s crossing.
Armas’ left hand lay on his chest which easefully raised and lowered. His right arm he’d put under his head. That made his right biceps bulge distinctly while beneath his right pec his rib’s xylophone slightly protruded. He offered some touching peaceful image. Achternberg couldn‘t help but come to a halt taking this aesthetic impression in for a moment. But it wasn’t as entirely peaceful as it seemed.
It attracted Achternberg’s attention that Armas’ penis had changed its relaxed position. And it was kind of „larger”. Could that possibly be an optical illusion?
It didn’t rest hanging down flaccid between Armas’ thighs in its even then remarkable length but on his belly − reaching almost up to his navel. Achternberg grinned and shook his head in amusement: Armas had an erection!
„How nice, he‘s already feeling that comfortable here he doesn‘t fight shy switching on his erotic brain cinema. Or he’s fallen asleep like yesterday and is dreaming something beautiful. … O my! If only we had been as unabashed while in his age. No one’d ever dared to develop a boner coram publico!”
Achternberg didn’t address him not to make him jump or even embarrass him. He approached the little jetty, put down his basket, arranged his folding chair, settled himself and cast the fishing rod. Achternberg viewed onto the lake and relaxed.
He wouldn‘t know how much time had been passing by when he perceived a lapping. Achternberg turned around and saw that Armas knelt in littoral shallow water washing himself. He thought something by himself but wasn’t really eager to know why and pretended as if he hadn’t noticed anything since Armas didn’t look across. The boy obviously was completely at ease.
Shortly afterwards he heard the noise of approximating bare feet on the wood. Before Armas could say something Achternberg addressed him without turning around.
„Did you sleep well?”
The footfall halted for an instant before it came nearer again only to next stop all at once. Armas stood right behind Achternberg.
„Yep, kinda.” After a short interval. „What’s the pike doing?”
„Cutting a fine figure fooling me.“
„Some predator with a good sense of humour.”
„You might say that.”
„May I sit by you?”
„Help yourself with a free snug little place.”
Armas this time didn’t settle behind Achternberg onto the jetty but on his right. And he wouldn‘t let his long legs dangle in the water but took position in tailor-fashion.
Achternberg noticed this thoughtfulness with pleasure and a chuckle. Armas propped himself up backwards on his hands. He put his head back and closed his eyes.
Achternberg for a moment let the dipping spot of his fish-hook out of his sight and glanced at Armas. He found him to be some quite well-shaped specimen of a male. Silently he hoped, the boy wouldn’t feel conceited about it. Achternberg himself had been a good-looking lad in times past what he now covered by a grey beard and moustache. He again looked out to the lake. The sun shone ardently. The lake lay calm. Silence.
Armas rubbed over his nose with his right index. After it, he shored up backwards. He appeared completely relaxed, breathed calmly.
„Do you always take French leave and behave like a submarine?” asked Achternberg in low voice as if he was afraid the pike could overhear it.
„Nope, not always. But why like a submarine?” Armas opened eyes and glanced at Achterberg in a mixture of astonishment and being amused.
„Because you so quietly dived away and put to sea like one of our newest submarines.”
„You were so lost in thought gazing across the lake, I didn’t feel to disturbing you.”
The two glanced at each other. Achternberg nodded in approval, speechless.
„Thanks, by the way, for the bath-towel, the strawhat, the sun lotion, and the cold turkey breast. It was delicious.”
„Don’t mention it.”
After a short intermission.
„Do you find, that I do have a beautiful body?” Armas intensively faced him with his shining brown eyes. Achternberg shot back the glance. Some curious as well as understandable question.
„Were I a sculptor or painter, I’d be totally inspired.”
„And as painter with words you’re not?”
Achternberg arched his right eyebrow. What was the boy up to?
„I think, I’d have to contemplate for a while before I could properly describe you. Does that answer your question?”
„Yep. − And what do you think of my cock?”
Achternberg turned his head to the singular questioner in slow-motion and gazed at him over the edge of his glasses for some endless seeming moments. He thought, he’d misunderstood. Achternberg indeed had to compose himself for a moment and caught himself by eyeing the boy’s manhood thoroughly.
„Do you mean relaxed or as a boner?” Now perplexity was with Armas. He blushed. He gulped.
„You have …?”
„I have …”
„Oh.”
„Nothing what should be troubling you.”
„It should not?”
„No. I haven’t seen anything that wouldn’t have been completely natural.”
Armas’ facial expression showed relief.
„But tell me, though the location seemingly is appropriate to do so − why do you pursue fishing for compliments? Do you have occasion to do so?” Achternberg glanced at him with repeatedly raised right eyebrow.
Armas for the first time cleared his throat being a little embarrassed.
„Well, actually it’s very long even hanging flaccid and for two years I was nothing but being chaffed at High School. Whether I was born in the land-stud, whether my father had been a horse, some just donkey after me ,Hee-haw, hee-haw!’ And one whispered to my ear what the name of the stallion was with whom my mother had mated …”
„Well?”
Armas had blushed an inch deep but he glanced up triumphantly.
„The very one afterwards walked around with a black eye that size!” Armas with both hands indicated the size of the shiner.
Achternberg laughed.
„Just one? I’d given him two!”
„Wouldn’t do since he already had been on the run.”
„Bravo, my boy!” applauded Achternberg. „Why do you let yourself get impressed by such dogs of the manger anyhow?”
„I don’t know. I was always lacking the sweeping counter-arguments. It’s too stupid that good replies always come to oneself hours later. But then nobody is around anymore to whom I could throw it for some thinking. That’s too bad!”
Armas pressed his lips together tossing „something” in the air − without having had „something” in his hand.
„It’s just the same with me. Being confronted with impertinences, I’m mostly perplexed in a way that it makes me inarticulate − and the best answers come to me in the evening. Blooming box!”
Achternberg and Armas both laughed all over their faces − simultaneously.
„Something like that does happen to somebody who can play with words like you,” the young lad was wondering and slightly frowned.
„Oh yeah, why not?” Achternberg smiled. „Du büst doch ok ‘n plietschen Burs un hest nich alltiet dat richtige Woort op dien Tung, nich?” [„You a smart lad yourself, too, and don‘t always have the right word to slip from your tongue, do you?“]
„Yep.” Armas grinned.
„See? I once knew a general who met with the same fate. On duty a smart one, having a ready tongue, but effronteries yet flabbergasted him. That’s another form of distraction − and that is a sign of sagacity and kindness. Just dumb and vicious humans are constantly quick-witted as already François Gaston de Lévis phrased in 18th century,” Achternberg lectured. Armas looked at him quizzically.
„Oh! Who Lévis was? Um, oddly enough he’s not listed neither in Brockhaus’ nor Meyers’ Encyclopedia though he happened to have been a marshal of France and a very successful field commander during the French and Indian War in Canada. But he’s recorded in the Dictionary of Canadian Biography. You may look it up at my place if you like.”
„Oh yeah, I‘d love to. May I visit you occassionally?”
„Don‘t you do that already?” Achternberg looked at him, smiling.
„Um, I guess so, kinda.” Some roguish smile flashed over Armas’ face, and with his right index he rubbed the bridge of his nose which slightly rippled right afterwards.
„By the way, these nulls who baited you − never make the mistake to overlook them since as long as they are placed after the decimal point they’re powerful and dangerous because they puff up anything in front of them − stupid talk as well. Put them afore the comma by wit and pun and next instant everything behind them will become almost meaningless but still does provide them with considerable influence. But if you view them carefully, those nulls, you’ll find them to consist merely of a thin mantle being empty inside. That applies for those fatuous dudes who are envious of your looks and corporal qualities as well as for pompous people in education, economy and politics who look at themselves as the greatest and simply talk drivel. Stupidity always had been kicked upstairs. That always was and still is fact − and that’ll remain so for evermore until the big red sun will swallow this planet, but I’m confident of that mankind in its unlimited crowd-stupidity by then will have extinguished by itself to the advantage of the earth.”
Achternberg was about talking himself into a fury, his furrow had gained an alarming depth, but he’d decelerated himself in time.
„But we all must pay attention, in all amiable abstractedness, to fight back in time since null rules the world − and the microbe of human stupidity has not yet been found.”
Armas had been listening mesmerized. He’d gotten into a summer school of Achternberg’s but not alone it didn’t trouble him but it aroused his enormous curiousity. But first he himself was facing Achternberg’s curiosity.
„May I ask you an intimate question?“
Armas speechlessly nodded Yes − he was wondering what was to come.
„We now know already that you call some manhood your own many others are envious of, a fact they in their stupidity can only reply to by malice − but why are you circumcised? You‘re no Arab and you don’t have Jewish features either.”
„You disapprove of Jews?“ Armas asked frowning.
„No, although I object circumcision for so-called religious reasons which cannot be justified whatsoever. But that’s my private point of view. I happened to have had − according to Nuremberg Laws− a half-Jewish aunt which my family had been seeing through those brown years safe and sound. − Why with you?“
They both looked squarely into their eyes. Armas tarried for a moment before he …
„My glans is too big, beautifully chiselled, I think, but too big. When I was three years old, my foreskin had to be removed because of phimosis. Those pains belong to my first permanent memories. It was some purely medial procedure. But also on account of that I terribly was being teased in school, ,You lacking some, you lacking some!’, until some insightful teacher informed my mates about the reason why. There was still some giggling and whispering but after that calm was restored. Only in shower some wanted to have a closer look. That I allowed and with that the subject never came up again. It but started all over again when they noticed that I was passing them all by length. Truely annoying.” Armas distorted his face.
Achternberg was pleased with the intimate confession. The boy already came to trust him. Or was he just glad to finally be able to talk about it? Achternberg assumed that Armas hadn’t obtained true friends. He yet hadn’t mentioned any siblings, too. Perhaps he was all by himself.
„Don‘t you have a friend?“ Achternberg decided on sounding out the social situation of the boy.
„What do you mean by that?“ Armas inquired, and all of a sudden he appeared timid.
„Well, some good pal or even bestie with whom one can talk everything over, with whom one may go swimming and see the sauna, bitch about girls, do homework, go to the cinema, hang around in discotheques, does compare the growing of one’s pubes, how long one’s dick is, putting on competition wankings and watching first porn in the internet − things juveniles commonly do at your age.“
Armas looked at Achternberg, big-eyed. He who tolerated it, forgot about his fishing rod for a moment. In that way obviously nobody ever had been speaking to the boy before. It visibly „operated” in Armas’ inner system.
„No. But must I speak about it today?“
„Whenever you’re ready to and if you’re ready to,” Achternberg replied appreciative. Armas momentarily was overwhelmed. He had no intention to overstrain him else he most likely would „shut down”.
„What have you been doing last night?” Achternberg tryed to ease the atmosphere by change of subject.
„I’ve read something from you.“
„Well? Did you like it?” Totally modest as an author Achternberg wasn’t either.
„It was funny and stimulating as well. Be that as it may, afterwards, before putting out the light, I enjoyed a wonderful erotic soliloquy with my longer self.”
Achternberg noticed that Armas blushed under his tanned skin. He more and more was pleased by the straightforward conduct of the boy and that he was no hard case. And he was further perplexed by him.
„I love to do it with myself. It’s so hot to the touch feeling one’s own body. I can hardly imagine how it was without.” Armas smiled. He seemed to be thinking of it again.
Achternberg perceived that something was bothering him.
„Spit it out!”
„What shall I spit out?“
„What you’d love to ask me.“
„You won‘t be angry with me if I want to know something intimate?“ Armas looked concerned.
„Why should I? We’re entre nous. Let it out.”
Armas locked eyes with him.
„Did you formerly masturbate lots, I mean, prior to your first girl-friend?”
„Formerly?” Achternberg roguishly grinned. „And what do you understand by ,lots’?”
Armas was flabbergasted.
„Err, three times a day?” He arched both of his eyebrows.
„Uh-huh, good average. With love from Mister Testosterone.”
That wasn’t exactly what Armas’d expected.
„Really?”
„I once happened to have been a seventeen-year-old myself, as well as you are now.”
„How come you know how old I am?“
„Now I know.” Achternberg smiled. „And at that time my hair was dark-brown.“
„And at 50 you still fancy, I mean …” He made an unambiguous hand movement.
Achternberg uncontrollably laughed in such a way that immediately afterwards he hauled the fishing rod in. Now the pike certainly had been scared off for the rest of the day.
Armas visibly wouldn‘t know what to think of this laughing fit. Such an „old man” could hardly still have any sex.
„That‘s quite nice of you looking at me as a fifty-year-old. Well, full mane, no bald spots. Add a bit more to it. It obviously was worth while never having revealed my age in any interview − therefore also the internet does not know about it.”
„Really? And you still lust for sex?”
„As true as I‘m sitting here.” Achternberg broadly smiled.
Armas looked in disbelief. His father was 45, his mother 40 − and that up to now had been appearing kind of dubious to him. He was sort of stunned that the crotch of this grey-head wasn’t dull yet and that he could boldly speak about intimate matters with a man older than his father − with the additional difference that he never could be discussing any of that with his father, and he didn‘t want to either. For it his „old man” was far too little on the spot. And his mother was a woman! A wonderful beautiful woman − but a woman! What business would men’s secrets be to a woman − what? And the girls at his High School? They were just giggling, whispering on the quiet or were busy with their obnoxious „Look! Ain‘t he cute?” Did they mean him? He wasn’t but cute! He was a man! Well, almost, sort of. Yes, in thunder, he hadn’t yet ploughed a sweet furrow, but what them all wanted: He didn’t have a hell of a motorbike, his iPhone wasn’t the bleeding edge, he didn’t give a damn about expensive branded articles, he nilled celebrating boisterous parties where „talking” meant shouting at each other and afterwards one’s head was ringing for hours, he disapproved of booze, he didn’t smoke. He wanted to play volleyball or go swimming, do some strength training to chisel his muscles, he loved to read which he did a lot. One girl he once asked whether they could mutually read to each other. Then she equally could buy herself an audiobook was her foolish reply and ditched him. What he was wishing for, girls weren’t able to keep up with. And how they were talking about sex! He’d overheard conversation he’d blushed bright red merely by listening. What they all expected from a boy and his penis! Top performance non-stop − the entire Kama Sutra up and down.
He once looked it up. Those were studies of its own. How could one add that to one’s repertoire in such a short space of time? No, that was too much for him, too strainful. He was yearning for tenderness, not for exaggerated exercices besides school sports.
Armas in addition was facing the problem that he lost his semen unvoluntarily again and again. Because of his circumcision his glans rubbed itself at any fabric so intensively that at least once a week he creamed his jeans. At the age of fifteen it’d happened to him more than once by the public pool or at school swimming being in his tight scrimpy swim briefs. Stupid remarks and the sneering haunted him for quite a while.
He secretely feared it might happen to him while having sex with a girl. He was terrified to get laughed at.
And the boys? That was quite another subject. He’d truely had it up to here with them for certain reasons.
Armas sensed that he could trust this novelist but he wasn’t ready to reveal everything to him after two days. Nevertheless he was looking forward to tell many a things to somebody he had the feeling to being understood by and not being laughed at. Achternberg was interested in him and he was interested in Achternberg. That was a good basis.
He had no near friend with whom he during summer could be lying naked underneath a tree exchanging innermost thoughts, to be continued during winter back to back on the large widow bench in his room, enveloped in warm pullovers, talking about anything and everything. When he sat in the big bathtub he wished for a pal with whom he could sprawl out in it, listen to stirring music, wash each others hair, gossip until the water were cold and their fingers shrivelled. In the sauna he always sat alone on the bench although at all times many people were around him. Nobody was interested in him, let alone gaping at his dick. He more than once had done a runner soon dudes of different age were crowding him. Last time he’d threatened an approximate twenty-year-old with blows should he once again wipe along his penis „by accident”. Meanwhile his body height was of considerable support. „Keep your head, baby!“ the obtrusive bloke came to say before he‘d withdrawn with a last brazen final glance by his hands raised.
Armas cleared his throat.
„You still take delight in having sex, really?“
„Yes, of course, what have you been thinking?“ Achternberg laughed. „That does not stop only because a man begins losing his hair or does turn grey. I could give you quite a list of prominent persons which had begotten children having been aged over sixty and seventy, admittedly with distinctly younger women. Are you familiar with Anthony Quinn?“
Armas shrugged − along with distorted chin.
„Well, he‘s no longer with us for a couple of years. He happened to have been a world-famous Mexican-American actor. Last year he’d have turned a centenarian. That old chap begot his 13th child at 81 and passed away at 86. Quite an achievement, eh?”
One could tell by looking at Armas that inwardly his jaw dropped. His face was sheer disbelief. Wouldn’t somebody of that age live in a nursing home? Could one of that age possibly still be that vital? Wow, in that case he’d have a lot of fun ahead.
„Go and watch ,The World in His Arms‘. In this movie he plays the counterpart of Gregory Peck, in ,Lawrence of Arabia‘ he plays the part of a tribal prince conquering Akaba, and his most famous movie is ,Alexis Sorbas‘. Therein he dances a sirtaki like a born Greek couldn‘t have performed better.“
Armas contemplated.