Becoming Julie E-Book

Julie Clarke

• Herausgeber: Fledgling Press
• Kategorie: Geisteswissenschaft
• Sprache: Englisch
• Veröffentlichungsjahr: 2014

Beschreibung

Julie Clarke was born a boy in the 50s in central Scotland. From a very early age she knew she was different from other boys, but growing up in the 50s and 60s was not conducive to discussing feelings of gender difference and for many years Julie didn't even know there was a medical term for her dilemma: she was transsexual. Becoming Julie details how Julie Clarke spent many years battling her demons. As a man she married and became a firefighter and later, a charter boat skipper on the Isle of Coll, hoping that these acts would suppress her longing to become female, but to no avail. She encountered much prejudice in her journey to become the woman she is today, but also many acts of kindness, and the book tells Julie's story in her own words. Finally, in 2006, Julie achieved her dream and after undergoing transgender surgery, she physically became a woman. She is still living happily on the Isle of Coll and working for Cal-Mac in the role she previously held as a man. Sometimes poignant, sometimes funny, but always honest, Becoming Julie charts the author's struggle to build a new life as a woman. "This is a remarkable account of a personal struggle which is written with great dignity." Alexander McCall Smith

Leseprobe

my incredible journey

julie clarke

acknowledgements

Writing this book has been an amazing experience. Although, I had to revisit some very dark and painful memories along the way. However it has been an emotional but cathartic undertaking.

First and foremost I’d like to thank the handful of folk, who in the early years were brave enough to stand up and support and encourage me. At a time when society wasn’t ready to accept those of us who didn’t seem to conform to what was perceived to be normal, and took an alternative path in life. All of those people are the true heroes and heroines in this book, but I’d like to single out Sue, Sheila, Irene and Peter. Without them I probably wouldn’t be here today.

I must commend Elaine Barrie for her courage, tolerance and support over many years. Also I’d like to thank Veronica for her support and for cheering me up when I was feeling vulnerable. A special thought goes out my dear departed friend Marcia who stuck by me through thick and thin.

To my special friends Ian and Terri, a heartfelt thanks for being there when I really needed support at a crucial time of my journey.

A special thanks to my GP, Dr. O’Neil, who was the first health professional to take me seriously, and was the one who started the ball rolling, which would make the necessary physical changes to my body, and she became enthusiastic about helping me through the final part of my transition. Without all of the people mentioned above, I doubt if I’d be the woman I am today.

However this book would not have been possible without the help and advice from those in the literary world. Thanks to Maggie McKernan for her advice and appraisal of my original manuscript. A big thanks to my editor Mandy Woods, who worked with me to bring the manuscript up to a standard, where I could confidently submit it to publishers. Last and most definitely not least, of course, a huge thanks to my publishers, Fledgling Press, who made this book happen. A special thanks to Clare, Graeme, Paul and everyone else involved in my book.

Everyone deserves a chance in life, but more often than not you will need others to help you realize your dreams. Thank you from the bottom of my heart to everyone who helped me realise mine.

Julie Clarke

Isle of Coll, September 2014

This Book Is Dedicated To:

Sue Clarke

Sheila Bidwell

Marcia Gratwick

Sue was the first person who believed in me, and was prepared to accept me for who I was, and what I aspired to be, she took me under her wing at a time when I believed there was nowhere for me to go. She quite literally sowed the seeds of my self-belief, which would eventually set me on my path to true womanhood.

Sheila came into my life at arguably the darkest days of my journey, at a time when I felt that only my demise would free me from my inner turmoil. She was the one who recognized the female within me. She gave me the courage to walk tall and hold my head up high, and to persevere with what I believed in, even through the groundswell of prejudice that had built up towards me.

Marcia was a solid rock, a selfless true friend by my side, just when I needed loyal support, she stuck with me come what may. She was prepared to take the flak alongside me, and stood shoulder to shoulder with me at a time, when I received fierce opposition and prejudice to the path I had taken.

My three dear friends are sadly no longer with us. However they were instrumental in shaping the confident woman I have become today, their memory will remain in my heart always.

Thank you dearest friends.

chapter one

an innocent beginning

Life in the late fifties in a small Scottish town was hard, as it was in the whole of Britain. Peace was only eleven years old when I was born on the 16th of February 1956 in the upstairs bedroom of my grandparents’ farmhouse, Ancaster Cottage, on the edge of the small town of Callander in Perthshire, in the heart of Scotland.

My mother and the midwife were no doubt delighted to bring a baby boy into the world as Dad paced around at the bottom of the stairs – fathers weren’t present at the birth in those days. I was born in the bedroom that I would share with my brother and two sisters.

We moved soon after I was born to a street called Willoughby Place, although we returned to Ancaster Cottage later. The houses there were prefabs, small temporary metal houses built after the war to meet the country’s housing needs. They lasted many more years than intended. I remember ours being very much like a metal box inside, with slightly rounded corners, if I can put it that way. From the outside our house looked like a nice little cottage with a front door in the middle and two windows equally spaced either side and a straight path leading from it to the road.

Within about a year we had moved again, this time to number three Glen Gardens. Glen Gardens was all council houses then, the right to buy not yet existing, though no one could have afforded to anyway. It was a very smart street – the grass was cut and the gardens kept very tidy. On our side the gardens bordered the main Stirling to Oban railway line – literally only ten metres from our back door. We got used to the noise and smell of the huge steam trains thundering past. In fact they were a source of excitement to us children and, looking back, we were true railway children. A great part of our young lives revolved around the line. I’m surprised none of us were killed by a train – we used to clamber up the embankment at the end of the garden, through the fence and onto the line. There we would rest our heads on the line – you could hear a train coming for miles, or so we thought, although it sometimes appeared without warning, racing down the straight at high speed. As a train approached we would place a penny on the line and wait as two hundred tonnes of locomotive and carriages passed over the penny. There were dozens of pennies imprinted into the line on that stretch of railway, and in the early sixties a penny was a heck of a lot of money to a child – you could buy a McCowan’s Dainty bar with one.

After only about a year we were on the move again, back to my grandparents’ farmhouse, the place of my birth. My grandad moonlighted for British Rail and was the guardsman on the Stirling to Oban overnight mail train. He knew all the engine drivers so well that when the night train went past the farm the driver would toss great lumps of coal into the field from the tender. In the morning we would go down with wheelbarrows to collect it.

Going back to the farm was the start of another great adventure. Ancaster Cottage was primarily a pig farm, and one of the biggest in Perthshire at the time. We also had a few cows and ponies and huge Clydesdale horses. There were hens too, and ducks and geese.

At five years old, it was time for me to start school. I remember my first day there, knowing that I was going to hate every minute of my school life. I believed that my carefree childhood was ending, but I had no idea why. However, as the days, weeks and months went on, I felt increasingly that I had been right. It seemed to me that, for no reason I could fathom, I was treated differently to the other children in the class by the teacher and sometimes by some of my male classmates. For the next two years this was the way it was. I was often bullied on the way home from school – we all had to walk home, some of us for a mile or more; nobody used cars to ferry children about in those days.

But the railway was always there and on the way home from school we would cross the railway bridge just as the 3.15 Callander to Stirling express came powering round the curve. We would all be hanging over the bridge parapet, looking down the engine’s funnel as it passed below: there are some things in childhood you don’t forget.

I loved living on the farm. Friends came over from the housing schemes and we just roamed around, feeding the hens or looking at the piglets. There was one Clydesdale horse in particular called Bridget – her job was to haul felled trees out of the forest for the wood cutters. Bridget was so well trained that I could make her sit, just like a dog, and climb on to her and ride her bareback, hanging on to her mane as she trotted round the field.

At the age of seven I was beginning to feel that something was going on. I realized then that I was different, although I didn’t know in what way. I just knew I wasn’t like other boys. I remember one day, when we were painting pictures in class, I was sharing a desk with a girl called Alison, and she said to me, ‘You have very small hands – they’re girls’ hands.’ I didn’t know what to say, but I knew right there and then that I was happy about what she had just said, because I knew that a girl should have small hands. I didn’t know where that thought came from, but from that moment I knew that my life would never be the same again. It was the moment that everything changed for me.

I couldn’t stop thinking about what Alison had said. I realized that I didn’t like playing football with the boys, didn’t like playing conkers or playing kick the can in the playground. I preferred to watch what the girls were doing, though I never had the nerve to go over and join them. I suppose this made me a little bit of a loner at times, which didn’t go unnoticed by the other kids or by the teachers.

At home, I was beginning to take an interest in my big sister’s clothes. I would sneak into her bedroom and look at them and at her makeup on the dressing table, and think, ‘Why can’t I be like this?’ Soon, I graduated to trying on some of my sister’s clothes and it felt so right to me, but I still couldn’t understand why. Mum caught me one day and told Dad, and later on that day they told me there must be something wrong with me and that I would have to go to the doctor. I started crying because I didn’t want to go to the doctor when I didn’t feel ill, but they never made me go and nothing more was said about it. This was the start of a lifelong trend where no one would face up to my differences or attempt to understand me because no one knew how to deal with me.

At school the teachers just didn’t know how to respond to an eight-year-old boy who was so different. One teacher in particular, Miss Moffat, an old dragon and very old fashioned, made my life hell for a whole year. She put me down at every opportunity, and when it came to class work, if I asked for help she would come over to my desk and slap the back of my hand with a ruler and tell me to get on with it or else. I was left handed and she tried to force me into using my right hand, though at eight years old, thankfully, I won that battle. I knew there was no point complaining, so I bore the brunt of her victimization, but I firmly believe to this day that she was responsible for my less than impressive performance at school from then on, and the end result was that she stripped me of the little confidence that I had. I was also too scared to tell my parents for fear that they wouldn’t have believed me. Sadly, situations where I would be discriminated against and victimized are something that have followed me throughout my life.

But it wasn’t all bad. During the 1960s, Callander was the backdrop to a world-famous TV programme, Dr Finlay’s Casebook – one of the early TV soaps. The town was known in the series as Tannochbrae, and tourists still come to take photos of the doctor’s house to this day. The programme makers needed a number of school children for the filming and I was lucky enough to be chosen, so I became a part-time child actor for a while. It was a release from my classroom troubles, and we were paid – one ten-shilling note, a box of toffees and a fish and chip dinner at a local hotel for each episode that you were in: an absolute fortune. I still have the ten-bob note from the final episode that I appeared in.

I still had three years to do at primary school. I was finally out of Miss Moffat’s class, but my next teacher, Mrs Hinchcliff, was no better. She seemed to have some special kind of contempt for me and would stare and snarl at me for no reason at all and just wouldn’t allow me to progress in any way. She terrified me for a whole year.

I would come to realize over the years that the very people who could have helped or advised me, such as teachers, doctors, workmates and friends, were usually the very people who would be downright nasty and horrible to me. The bullying on the way home from school continued. They didn’t punch or kick me, but they would throw me about between them, pushing me to the ground until I cried. I never ever tried to run away though, as I thought it would be worse the next time, and I definitely couldn’t tell the teacher.

I knew this for sure when I was in primary six, so I was only ten or eleven at the time. I was walking along the cloakroom corridor when I saw a member of staff coming towards me who had kids at our school. When our paths crossed he suddenly launched himself at me, pinning me to the wall amongst the coat hangers, placing his hand over my face and forcing my head against the wall, saying angrily, ‘Keep away from my kids, you little queer. I don’t want you talking to them, got it? And if you do I will make sure you’re expelled. Do you understand?’

I tried to answer, but was so terrified I couldn’t get the words out. He then just cast me aside and stormed off, turning round, pointing and saying, ‘Remember what I said, or else.’ The whole episode left me totally terrified and traumatised and I still struggle with my memory of it to this day. The really upsetting thing for me at the time was that I couldn’t understand why my teachers were treating me like this because I’d done nothing wrong. I was just a very confused wee kid.

School holidays always came round again, and it was back to the great adventure of the farm and the railway. As I said earlier, my grandad was the guard on the overnight mail train to Oban and it was on one of those journeys in 1964 that he befriended two of the regular passengers on the train: Mr and Mrs McKinnon from the Isle of Coll. We had never heard of the island and didn’t know where it was. But as time went on, Grandad got friendlier and friendlier with the McKinnons until eventually they invited us all over to the island for our next summer holiday. It was 1965. We squeezed into Dad’s Hillman Minx at two in the morning and drove to Oban to catch the boat which left at 5.30 a.m. We didn’t know what to expect as we lived in central Scotland, about as far away from the sea as you could get, so we were nervous as we boarded what seemed like a pretty large ship to us.

As time went on we came to love the ship, the Claymore, very much. She took a full four hours to reach the Isle of Coll. The island was a stark contrast to the inland town we had come from, but we grew to love it too, even if it didn’t have any trees or any electricity at the time.

Our new friend, Duncan McKinnon, was the farm manager at Gallanach Farm, very different to our farm back home in Callander. Gallanach had beaches, sand dunes and strange-sounding birds in the fields – corncrakes that kept us awake at night. Duncan and Margaret had two children about our age called John and Mary. We all became close friends and we treated their parents like our aunty and uncle. For the next five years all our family holidays were on the Isle of Coll. In the mid-1960s the island didn’t get many tourists, just a few bird watchers and the Coll exiles who returned to their family homes for the summer – early summer swallows as they are known nowadays.

Our arrival would spread round the island like wildfire, and people would come up to us and say, ‘We heard you were coming’, which made us feel special, almost like celebrities. In return, the McKinnons would come to our farm for their holidays and Duncan would plough some of our fields – a busman’s holiday. But times and lives change, and 1970 was our last family holiday on the Isle of Coll. I wouldn’t return until fifteen years later, in 1985.

Although I had realized from the age of seven that I was different, by the age of twelve I still had no real idea what was happening to me. For all I knew I could have been the only kid in the entire world who felt like me, or maybe half the kids in the world did and I just hadn’t met them yet. The fact was, I just didn’t know. I thought this was just the way life was. Little did I know that things were about to get a whole lot more complicated.

chapter two

a very mixed-up teenager

Although my childhood years were troubled, they were fundamentally happy. My brother, two sisters and I had a good home life. Mum and Dad worked hard and although there wasn’t a lot of money, we were well looked after and had everything we needed. If we wanted something we had to earn it – a principle that would stand me in good stead in the coming years for the challenges that lay ahead.

At Easter, for example, when most kids would get chocolate eggs, we would be sent down to where the geese had laid their eggs and would gather one for every member of the family. They were about three times the size of hens’ eggs and we would hard boil them and paint faces on them. On Easter Sunday we would roll them down the hill at the back of the house. We would then have them for lunch – you didn’t waste anything in those days.

Although we were quite close and got on well with each other, we were not the type of family that discussed things, so some issues were just not talked about – either by us kids, amongst ourselves, or between Mum and Dad, and that was certainly true when it came to my issues, which were starting to affect the whole family.

By the age of nine I was crying myself to sleep most nights, but the odd thing was that I would still be crying when I woke in the morning, and the really scary part was that apparently I would cry through the night and could not be wakened by Mum and Dad. When my mum took me to the doctor he just said that I would grow out of it. This did happen after about a year or so – the doctor really hadn’t known what the cause was and, unfortunately, it would be something that would affect me again, many years later.

I would soon be leaving primary school – a day that I was eagerly awaiting. The bad news, though, was that I would be going to high school at the end of the summer holidays. All I could think about right then was the dreadful experiences I’d had at primary school. McLaren High School was a daunting prospect – it had over seven hundred pupils, which, to me, represented a very large number of potential bullies. However, it turned out that the fact there were so many children worked, in some ways, to my advantage.

I was also about to become a teenager and, like most other kids of that age, I was having thoughts of an increasingly sexual nature. All the boys seemed to be talking about girls and of course the girls were talking about boys, which left me somewhere in the middle. Sometimes I leaned one way, sometimes the other, and it was beginning to tear me apart. But there was one thing I did know for sure and that was that I wasn’t gay. Of course, ‘gay’ wasn’t the word that was used in those days, but I definitely knew I wasn’t ‘one of them’. If I liked a boy I did so because, at that particular moment, I really felt that I was a girl.

The first boy I really fancied was Davy Jones of the Monkees. I was infatuated with him. The Monkees’ TV show was on at 4p.m. on a Saturday afternoon, and we used to watch it as a family. Although I was watching it primarily to drool over Davy, I was also interested in the drummer in the band, not because I fancied him too, but to watch him play the drums. Drums would very soon become a big part of my life. Around this time my uncle Roy, who lived with us then, came home one day with a single snare drum. He said that his friend Tony had given him it saying, ‘Would the wee fellow like this?’ and he plonked it down in front of me. I started playing around with it and found that I took to it quite quickly, and soon I was playing along to my big sister’s Beatles records. Even with just the one drum I was making some kind of half-decent rhythm with it, and I remember the first tune I mastered being Love Me Do.

Drumming also gave me a great excuse to go into my sister’s bedroom on the pretext of looking for another record to practise to, I would do this, but I would also nick some items of clothing from the bottom of her drawer that I thought she wouldn’t realize were missing, as the urge to build up my stock of female clothing was becoming stronger. The problem then was where to hide the stuff and I went to some elaborate lengths to conceal it. The hay barn was my favourite hiding place, and I even used to get dressed up in there because I knew I could hide among the hay bales if I heard someone coming.

However, Mum was becoming suspicious and always seemed to know when I was in the hay barn although it took me a while to work out how she knew. We had a family of farm cats that kept the rats down – which was important because we had hens and pigs – and although they were semi-wild, one kitten had befriended me. So it became my cat and it didn’t like anyone else. I was allowed to have it in the house like a normal pet and it would follow me everywhere. And that’s how Mum knew I was in the barn a lot – the cat was regularly sitting outside the door waiting for me, unwittingly advertising the fact that I was in there.

In 1968, as in previous years, most of the summer holiday was spent on the Isle of Coll. Strangely, I found that when I was there my mixed-up thoughts about my gender issues largely disappeared. Life on Coll was such a profound contrast to life in Central Scotland that it engulfed me completely and all my little worries and issues disappeared while I was there. To this day I can’t explain why this happened although I still meet people who tell me similar tales of coming to Coll and escaping their problems. This would also be the case on our next two holidays to the island, and was something that would recur many years later.

But the dreaded first day at high school was fast approaching. It was much further away from home than primary school had been – getting on for two miles away – and I was particularly worried about the walk home, as the route went through a narrow leafy lane called the Creek. This was a place to be avoided at night; it was there that those who had bullied me at primary school could easily ambush me. I also had to cross the river by going over one of two bridges, and I was worried someone would throw me into the river just for fun.

I did have a female friend at school who knew that I sometimes wore female clothes. She had a boyfriend who was from a neighbouring town and therefore hadn’t been at our primary school, but the children from all the surrounding villages came to our secondary school. He was really tough and had a fearsome reputation. No one would cross him, even the prefects were scared of him and I’m sure some of the teachers were too. My friend told me that if I wanted, she would ask him to deal with the boys who had been bullying me at primary school. Although I told her that I didn’t want any one to get hurt over me, even though they had terrorized me for six years, she said not to worry she would sort things out, and while I don’t know what her boyfriend said to them, the bullies didn’t bother me ever again and would actually avoid me at all costs. This protection was slightly confusing for me, though, as he would also laugh at me because he knew that I wore girls’ clothes sometimes. I guess my friend must have told him.

As had been a pretty frequent feature of our family life, we were on the move again. It was 1969 and Grandad was getting too old to work the farm while Dad and my uncle Roy were too busy doing other things. They were both quite entrepreneurial – as well as working the farm with Grandad and working as a fireman, Dad was also a timber contractor, and Uncle Roy had bought a JCB digger and gone into that line of work too. I can’t ever remember Mum having a job anywhere, but she was a bit of a high flyer in local politics and held many posts on the town council over the years.

I suppose it was a sign of the times when Mum and Dad decided to sell the farmhouse and all the land to property developers, the result being that in just a few years’ time hundreds of houses were built on the land that had played such a big part in our childhood. This increased the size of the town considerably, but thankfully the farmhouse is still there. Whenever I go back to Callander I walk past the house and usually become very emotional – but also very happy when I think about my carefree childhood on that farm.

When we sold the farm Mum and Dad bought the recently closed down Royal & Commercial Bank building in Main Street, Callander. They completely refurbished it and turned it into a hotel which they named after Mum’s favourite place on the Isle of Coll – a tiny hamlet called Sorisdale, at the east end of the island.

As I grew up I found it ever more difficult to deal with my gender conflict, now fast becoming a crisis which dominated my thoughts every minute of every day. I would go to sleep at night thinking about it and I would wake up every morning still thinking about it. Moving to the hotel was quite helpful, though, since for the first time in my life I had my own bedroom, and every single moment I was in my room I would dress up in female clothes. I had now become quite skilled at applying makeup, too, and as far as I was concerned, I looked and felt pretty hot. I would nervously venture out onto the hotel landing as guests were coming and going, fervently hoping that they would just see a young girl.

I think I got away with it most of the time, except for one awful occasion when Grandad appeared at the top of the stairs and saw me. I shot back into my room, and when I saw him later that day he asked, ‘What was that all about?’ I told him that I had had a girlfriend with me and it was her he had seen. I don’t think I got away with that one, though, and our relationship became quite strained after that. But I also don’t think he said anything to Mum and Dad and eventually we resumed a normal relationship, of sorts. From then on we had this kind of awkward understanding where I knew that he knew, and he knew that I knew that he knew. It was something we never ever discussed.

I had learned from a young age that the only way to get what you wanted was to make it happen yourself, through hard work and perseverance – no one was going to just come along and hand you anything on a plate. So, by the age of fourteen I had already done a variety of jobs, and with only about a year to go before I left school I was already on the lookout for the right full-time position. I had saved up about £250 in a savings account at the Bank of Scotland and I wanted to spend some of it, but I also wanted to earn money from whatever it was that I bought, so that’s when I got my first set of drums. I reckoned, like most kids of my age at the time, that I was going to be a rock star someday. The drums cost me £65 and all I had to do now was learn how to play really well.

Living in the hotel had its benefits. Loads of interesting people came into the very busy bar downstairs, including musicians. There was one in particular – his name was Arthur Eason and his nickname was Peen (I never found out what that meant). It was widely accepted in the music business that he was the best Scottish dance band drummer on the planet. He had played with all the top Scottish bands of the day, including Jimmy Shand, Jimmy Blue and the Ian Powrie Band, to name but a few, and he was a regular guest on light entertainment television programmes at that time. He also did session work and had toured the world extensively with many famous bands. And here he was, drinking in my dad’s pub! The problem was that he drank far too much and he was falling from grace in the music business because of it. He was becoming so unreliable that he just wasn’t getting the work any more, and that’s why he spent all his time in Dad’s pub. This was definitely a stroke of luck as far as I was concerned, however: now all I had to do was persuade him to teach me to play the drums.

Although I was only fourteen, I used to float in and out of the bar – not drinking of course, just cruising through – and one particular day I plucked up the courage to ask Arthur if he would give me some drum lessons. To my surprise he said yes, but the next big question I had was how much would it cost me, bearing in mind he really was the world’s finest Scottish dance band drummer. Well, he said he’d come upstairs and give me a half-hour lesson every time he came into the pub, which was of course every day. He said all I had to do was make sure he had enough to drink. He drank Carlsberg Special Brew and it usually cost me two bottles per session – not bad for drum lessons from one of the world’s greatest drummers, even if he was half-pissed most of the time! After about six months I had become quite proficient at Scottish dance music drumming, thanks to Arthur (Peen) Eason and around two hundred bottles of Special Brew.

However, it was an encounter with another musician who was booked to play in the bar on the first Friday of the month that would give me my first break on the road to what I dreamed would be superstardom. He was a top accordion player called Mel McLaren. I was keen to hear any live music and Dad had said I could sit in the bar and listen whenever there was live music on. On this particular night, when it came to Mel’s halftime break, he came over to me and said, ‘I hear you’ve been getting drum lessons from Peen – he tells me you’ve become very proficient and says you’re ready to do gigs.’

I replied, ‘Well, if Peen says so, I must be!’

As soon as I said that, he said, ‘I’m looking for a young fresh drummer for my band – would you be interested?’

I immediately said yes, and then, ‘But don’t you want to hear me play first?’

He just said, ‘If Peen says you’re good, that’s good enough for me. All we need is a rehearsal before your first gig.’ So, at age fourteen I played my first gig in the Port of Menteith village hall, and I was paid £4. I had hit the big time.

At last I had turned fifteen, and with the start of the summer holidays I would be leaving school. I just couldn’t wait, as my ten years of education had been nothing short of a nightmare. The persecution I had suffered from teachers and pupils alike had almost driven me to breaking point many times, and somewhat surprisingly, the primary school teachers were the worst. I still don’t understand how they could have been so nasty to an innocent child. I still feel sick at the thought of Miss Moffat treating me as if I was some sort of freak.

Although my experience at high school was marginally better because no one dared to openly bully me for fear of what my friend’s boyfriend might do to them, I was still persecuted by other pupils and some teachers – it was just done a little more subtly. Once I got 95% for a technical drawing exam, which, I admit, was much better than I would normally have done and our techie teacher made me stand up in front of the whole class and said to me, ‘Well, we all thought you were the village idiot, but you’ve pulled it out of the bag this time – but wouldn’t you be better doing knitting or sewing, or home economics even? Wouldn’t that suit you better?’ At which point, with a huge condescending smile on his face, he beckoned the whole class to react to his joke and they duly obliged with instantaneous laughter and derogatory taunting remarks.