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- Kategorie: Poesie und Drama
- Sprache: Englisch
- Veröffentlichungsjahr: 2021
People who are "maladaptive" are making up scenarios in their minds: they are mostly daydreaming about their life in a pathological way. So "maladaptive" is a story, where I am losing myself in a made up dream world after I refused accepting reality until it escalates in the end. This book is composed of poems about the highs and lows in my life. The introduction encourages the reader to believe in their dreams until it turns into a bipolar nightmare full of self-doubts and pride while truths about social media and toxic friendships are uncovered. In the end I show you how it feels like to fall in love with an unavailable person and I will find myself distancing romantically from reality again. It may contain sensitive topics like bullying, suicide, mental illness, violence, toxic friendships, eating disorders and unrequited love.
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introduction
bipolar disorder
toxic friendship
social media
erotomania
introduction
I like what I do
even though I am not good at it
you should be jealous instead
because I found a way out of my sadness
I rather live in my dreams
and create their colors on my own
than drowning in that salty reality
Shout out to the people
who get excited about the little things
who appreciate the little sunrays in the morning
and admire the same sunrise every evening
like a true passionate lover
who fell in love with the sun
shoutout to the people
who try their best not to care
about other people’s thoughts
shoutout to the people
who are the biggest dreamers
who believe in themselves too
who lose themselves
in the deeper meaning of life
shoutout to the people
who are listening to their favorite songs
over and over again
without getting tired of them
shoutout to the people
who are not afraid of facing reality
who dare to fight on their own
shoutout to the people
who can enjoy their life sober
who are glad of their advantages
than taking advantage of you
I know you are stronger than you think
and I am proud of how far you have come
some people cannot see your starlight
when they are living their life on daylight
your time will come
when the sun is going down
listen,
you don’t need a formula for everything
some things are incomparable
some things are unpredictable
you need to accept it
as how you accept the incomparable beauty
of two different flowers
and when you realize that
you will be satisfied one day
if you are reading this right now
I promise you
the sun will rise again
the wildest storms will find an end
and the prettiest flowers will bloom
after the strongest rain
sometimes you are running too fast
until you stumble and fall on the ground
you will always stand up in the end
no matter how much time you need
to stand up again
no matter how much time you need
to heal your scars on your knees
believe me
you will run faster than ever
faster than everyone else
you noticed
I could change everything if I wanted
but you treated me like a psycho
just because I could not see my limits
I dreamt so much bigger and brighter
than everyone else
just to distract myself from my pain
alone I was going forward
I never gave up to live my dream one day
I worked hard to make it
I prayed for the things I needed
my head is in the universe
your framed expectations
won’t bring me down to earth
I am higher than the sun
I can read these jealous people
their green faces are full of envy
they were just too proud to grow
I have never settled for less
I knew they will look up at me one day
like they look up at the moon
because I believed in myself like in a religion
let me tell you a little story
writing makes me feel
like taking out the trash of my messy mind
after my heart cried out
and left her tears on the paper
that cleaned my mind
writing makes me putting balm on my wounds
bad memories do not hurt me anymore
and it does not disturb my tranquility
bipolar disorder
my mum told me
life can be so unfair sometimes
but you need to learn
how to push these haters away
stand up for yourself
learn how to fight
like this world is a battlefield
or you will end up hurt, alone and lost
many people are too harsh to give you compassion
the majority of them are liars
they feel stronger
whenever they see you falling
instead of offering help
when they notice that you are one of the weaker ones
they will defeated you easily
being a kind human with a big heart
is a forgotten strength today
so don’t lose yourself in the fight
and don’t let them take advantage of you
one day they will be surprised
when they see you growing
start loving yourself
life is too short to be dependent on someone
who treats you like a slave
don’t forget that work will be a big part of your life
so find an activity that really belongs to you
fall in love with it
and life will be so much easier for you
but don’t forget that money rules the world
my mum told me
no matter how bad everything seems
one day the rain disappears
and you will find a place under the sun
all you need is patience
and one day you will shine as bright as the sun
my mum told me
this world is making us suffer
from bipolar disorder
you need to hold your emotions and anger in
until you feel too much
you need to work hard
until you forget yourself
one day you fall like the great depression
everyone knows the truth
but it’s easier to believe their lies
poker
so we are going through this game
called “life”
the winner is the one
who is capable to keep his feelings inside
but one day he gets addicted and insane
of playing games all day
we are all craving to rise
higher and higher
to earn and possess more and more
money and material
because we need to fill our empty space
we stopped caring about our limits
so we pretend being unstoppable and immortal
we forget that there will be days
when we will fall
after not caring about our future at all
the pain of hitting the ground made me so numb
silence fills my head
I am so tired of these highs and lows
how can I finally escape that cursed circle
how can I pause the time for a moment
before I lose my mind completely
my emotions are to rebellious
to stay behind their borders
I would like to forget all my memories
no matter how much it cost
today I am watching myself
building higher skyscrapers
I am building little homes for my dreams
with my own hands
to demolish them tomorrow
until all my dreams will seem pointless
I will go through these streets full of ruins
where is the delete button
