Escaping A Past E-Book

Tony Snow

• Herausgeber: Pencil
• Kategorie: Sachliteratur, Reportagen, Biografien
• Sprache: Englisch
• Veröffentlichungsjahr: 2021

Seitenzahl: 127

Beschreibung

About the book:
My first book is a true story about me growing up in an unstable home environment filled with violence between mother step father and the mothers son "Me" Now 16 in trouble with the law, home life has gone down the toilet with a murder and me on the streets ending up in a place full of drugs, hippies, bikers, alcohol, getting caught up in a whirlwind of scams, lies, midnight flits, trying to escape the murder and the crazy house mate escaping and getting married left on the other side of the world with no way home getting divorced and finding love again.

Leseprobe

Escapingapast

BY

TonySnow

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Authorbiography

Ihadwrittenthisbookabout15yearsagobutnothavingalotofknowledgeonhowcomputersworkedIlosttheonlycopywhenmycomputerdied,

Strugglingfrommentalillnessfromapastthatincludesmurder,drugs,abuse,bribes,cops,stolencars,dodgylandlordsandhousesthatshouldhavebeencondemned,Isomehowmakeitthroughtobecominganauthor,IwanttostatethatthiswasmybiggestchallengeandIslowlygotbetter,

ThisbookwaswrittenforalotofreasonsoneitwastohelpmeputitalldownonpapersoIcouldrunthroughtheprocessesofwhatIhadbeenthrough

andtryandputitallintoprospectiveanotherreasonsforwritingthisbookwastoalsohelpotherpeoplewhoareouttherelookingforawayouttoknowthatthereislightoutthereevenifyoucan’tseeitandI’mnottalkingaboutaheavenlylightorGodlightoranythinglikethatitsmorethatsometimesweallcangetintoadarkspotinourlivesandit’sinthosedarkmomentsthatweneedtoknowthatthereishopeevenwhenyoucan’tseeitthisbookwasalsowrittenformyfamilyandfriendssotheycanbetterunderstandmeandwhereIhavecomefrom,

itwasalsowrittenformystepchildrenoverseassotheymightunderstandjusthowharditwasforme,beforewefirstevertalkedandsincemeandtheirmothersplitthisbookwaswrittenforme,alsoassomeonelikemecouldnoteverwriteletaloneabookanddiscloseallofhiswardrobefortheworldtoseebutalongthewayIhavelostfriendsandlovedonesIdohaveregretsbuttheyaremineandtheyaresomethingthatcanonlybemyburdeneventhoughIhavesharedsomeofthemhere,IalsoneedtosaythatthereisplentymoreofthisstorybutIcouldonlytellsomuchofitotherwisenoonewouldwanttoreaditasitwouldjustbetolong’IwouldalsoliketothankaveryfewclosefriendsandfamilyforstickingbymewhenmosthavefallenbythewaysideIwouldliketothankandinnoparticularorderthesepeoplewhoarenotjustmyfamilyandfriendsbutIconsiderthemtobefamilysomebloodandsomenotneverthelessheretheyareLeanne,Brent,Mikayla,Tom,Jerica,Sandra,Adam,Amanda,Alex,Patricia,Sally,Kylie,Raymond,

YouhaveallbeenaninspirationtomeIthankyoufromthedeepestpartofmyheartforyourloveandsupportthatIhavehadovertheyearsIwouldnotbeheretodaywithoutyourkindwordsandsupportIhaveknownsomeofyoulongerthanothersbutyouallholdaspecialplaceinmyheartasmyfamilyasyouhaveallhelpedmefindmywayandhelpedmedefinewhoItrulyam,IdidhavesomeprettydarkdaysbutthatisbehindmenowallIseeisabrightfutureaheadofme.

Contents

Chapter1TheBegining

Chapter2BadStart

Chapter3BadMemories

Chapter4MoreOfTheSame

Chapter5LongNights

Chapter6CloseCall

Chapter7WrongPerson

Chapter8TurnForTheWorse

Chapter9OnlyTheBegining

Chapter10StillAfterMe

Chapter11Twisted

Chapter12Games

Chapter13Sister

Chapter14Axe

Chapter15WrongName

Epigraph

AwiseSnowoncesaidtomethisonelineandI'vealwaysrememberedit.

Eventstakeplaceduetothefortuitousintersectionsofdecoupledcausalchains.

This"ShitHappens"

Acknowledgements

MyDedication

Iwouldliketothankthefollowingpeople,innoparticularorder,fortheirpartinmyjourneysofar.Ithasbeenalongandwindingroad.Icaredeeplyforeachofyouandthankyousomuchmorethanyoumayrealise.Youhaveallcontributedtomebecomingme-themanIamtoday.

Tomypartner:Thankyoufortheongoingsupportallthetimewehavebeentogether.Youfoundmewithmyheartprettybeatenupbypastevents.Myheadwassuchamesstoo.Ididmybesttohideit,Ithink.Itwasyouwhoputmebacktogether,slowlybutsurely.Everydayyoubroughtmeoutofadark,tightspot.Ihavehadsomanyinnerstruggleswhilewritingthisbook,EscapingaPast,andyouhaveencouragedmethewholeway.Youaremyrockandmysafeplace.Withoutyou,thisbookwouldnothavebeenwrittenonce,anddefinitelynottwice!Ithasbeenlongridewithafewbumpsalongthewaybutitisfinishedatlast.Iappreciateandloveyousomuch.

Iwouldliketogivespecialthankstomyfriendwhohasdonetheeditingofmybook.Withoutyourinput,itwouldhaveneverhavegottenofftheground.Youhavedoneanamazingjobwithit.Youknowmydifficultieswithspellingandsuch,thoughIlovetowrite.IfIhadtriedtohandwriteitno-onewouldbeabletoreadit,notevenme!ThefirsttimeIwroteEscapingaPastIlostthewholebookwhenmycomputerdied,thenIleftitforyearsbeforeattemptingtowriteitagainasecondtime.Again,thankyouforyoursupportandadviceovertheyears.Itmeansalottomethatwearegoodfriends.

IwouldlovetogiveabigshoutouttotwoverydearfriendsofminefromAmerica.Youhavealwaysbeenthereformeforaverylongtimenow.Youknowwhoyouare;Iwroteaboutyouonthefirstpageofthisbook.Youarebothveryspecialtome.YouhaveknowntherealstrugglesIhavehadovertheyearsandIthankyousincerely.Iloveyouguysmorethanyouknow.Wedon’tgettotalksomuchnowbutIthinkofyoueveryday.LifejustgetsbusysometimesbutIdon’tloveyouanyless,that’sforsure.Thankyouforbeingmymates.Itmeanstheworldtomethatyouarestillintouch.Loveyouguys!

Iknowalotofthepeoplewhotrulyknowmewillsay“Thisiscrazy!Whyevenbother?”butIwouldliketothankmyex-wifeforgivingmeareasontotaketheriskandgetoutofmycaptivity.Itwasmorethanjustrisky,butIfaceditforthesakeoflove.IfIhadnotfalleninlovewithyouImightstillbethere,asstupidasthatmakesmesound.Nomatterwhatthecostwastomeandmyheartwhenitended,Itrulythankyou,moredeeplythanyouknow.Idon’tregretanything.Iforgiveyoufromthebottomofmyheartandholdnoremorseorangertowardsyou.Youhaveaspecialplaceinmyheart,filledwithmemoriesofhappytimes.Theyarelockedaway,butIwon’tforget.Maytherestofyourlifebringyouhappinessandjoy.

Ithankmyfivestep-children,hereandoverseas.Ihatetheword“step”;Ialwaysfeltlikeyourfatherandthat’showIhavealwaystreatedyouguys.IthinkofyouasmyownandIamoneluckyfathertohaveyouallinmylife!IhavenotbeenabletohavebiologicalchildrenandIdon’tfeellikeIhavemissedout;Iamblessedandsogratefulthatyouletmebepartofyourlifetoo.Tothefiveofyou:Iloveyouallsodearly.Overtheyearsyouhavemademecryandlaughandmademesoproudofyou!AlargepartofwhoIamtodayhasbeenshapedbyyou.IloveyouallfromthebottomofmyheartandIalwayswill.

Thankyou,K&R,forbeingmymatesovertheyears.ThankyoufortakingmeinwhenIcamebackfromoverseas;Ihadnothing.Itwillalwaysmeansomuchtome.Thankyouagain!

IwouldalsoliketothankpeoplethatIholddeartome,deepinmyheart.Peoplethatarenolongerwithusbutmadesuchadifference.ThankstomyUncleforhelpingtomakemethemanIamtoday.HewastheonlyrealmanIhadinmylifewhenIwasgrowingup,amanIstilllookuptotoday.Youhavebeengoneforalongtime. Istillmodelmyselfonyou,tryingtobekindandgentleandliveuptowhatyoushowedme.Youalwaysknewhowtomakemesmile.Thankyouforthememories.

Iwouldliketothankmybestmateforgettingmeoutofthatcrazyassenvironment. Youhavetohelpyourselfbeforeothersstepintohelpyou,andyousteppedinjustattherightmoment.Isentyouatextandyougottheballrollinginlessthanaweek.TheescapehappenedbutwithoutyouImightstillbethere,takingeachdayasitcameandprayingforamiracle.YouboughttheairlineticketandgavemeaplacetostaywhenIfinallygotaway.WehavebeenmatesformorethanthirtyyearsandIthankyousomuchforallyoursupportandtreatingmelikeabrother.

Youmaywonderatthis,butIamthankingadog!She’snotanordinarydogatall.Thankyou,Jesse.WhenIgotyou,yournamewasSophiebutneversuitedyousoIchangedit.Ithankyouforbeingthebestdogfriendamancouldeverhave.Youknewmesowell;youknewwhatIwantedwithoutmehavingtosayit.Wehadaveryspecialbond.Nootherdogwillevertakeyourplace.Iloveyou.

Abigthankyoutooneofmyfirstcousins.AtthetimeIwasfinishingmybook,shewasbattlinghardwithcancer.Thankyouforlettingmeraisemoneyinyournameforcancerresearchsootherpeopleandtheirfamiliesdon’thavetogothroughwhatyouhavebeenthrough.Youhavenowpassedaway.Whatabeautifulsoulyouare!Mayyourestinpeace.

ThankyoutomyItalianfriendforpaintingJesseforme.ItwasdonewhileIwaswritingthelastpartofthisbook.Shetoldme“I’llpainther,thenshewillalwayswatchoveryouwhileyousleep.”Whatabeautiful,kindthingyouhavedoneforme.IonlyhadonephotoofJesse;youtrulydidherjustice.

Deepgratitudetooneofmyheroes,JohnCena.Hissayingis“Nevergiveup.”IbelieveinhisstrengthandI’vealwayslovedhishustle,loyaltyandrespect.Rememberinghimandhowheishashelpedmetostaystrongwhenlifewasatitshardest.Sothankyou,John.Iknowyouhearitallthetime,andnowonder.Youareagreatrolemodelforchildrenaswellasadultsallovertheworld.

ElonMuskisanotheronewhogivesmethestrengthtoknowbetterdaysareahead.Withthewayhetookhugeriskswithhisrockets,Henevergaveupevenafterthefirstsecondandthirdrocketexplodedheputsitallonthelinefortheforthrocketwhichwasahugewin,Irespecthistenacity,Thewayhethinksandthewayhegoesaboutrunninghiscarcompanyandlastonthislistiswantingustobecomeatwoplanetsociety,ElonisaverysmartmanandonemaninthefutureIhopetomeettoshakehishandandtositfortenminutesatleastandjustlistentohimtalk,EverytimeIhearhimIstopwhatIamdoingandIlistenhardwhatagreatman.

IsaacButterfield,YouTubesensation,Comedianandallroundniceguy,OneofthefewthatIlovetowatch,Heisalsosomeonethathadithardandcomethrougharuffchildhoodandhowheusedlaughtertonotjustbecomeacomedianbutafunnyoneatthat,Ilovethatheisnotscaredtotakeonanytopicandtellyouhowitisthroughlaughterandthechoiceofwordsthatheusestocapturehisaudience. 

Thisisahardone.Idon’tevenknowyourname.Iwaswalkingonedayandyoupulledoverandgavemealift,saying“Icantellyouarecarryingahugeweightonyourshouldersbythewayyouarewalking.”Youwereright.ItoldyouIwasgettingadivorce.Yougavemethegiftofyourwisdomandgoodwordstostrengthenme.Ithankyouforyourdecency,fornoticingandpickingmeup.Iwasinabadway.

CoreyTaylor,anauthor,songwriterandleadsingeroftwobandsisanotheroneofmyheroes.Oneofhisbands,StoneSour,isoneofmyfavouritebandsofalltimes.Hewritesamazinglyrics.Ilovehowhetellsitstraight,nobullshit.Thatdrewmetohisbooks;Ihavereadthemallandlovedeveryoneofthem.Icanhearthetruthfulnessinhissinginganditwaspartofwhatinspiredmetowritemybookasecondtime. Thereisnoonelikehim.Thankyou,Corey,andkeeprocking.

AnotherofmymusicalheroesisLemmyfromMotörhead.Youpassedawayafewyearsago,butyouhelpedmethroughalotofhardtimes.Yourstyleofmusicinspiredmeandyoursaying,“Livetowin,dietolose”,heldmesteadyintimeofgreatneed.MayyourockGod’ssocksoffandshowHimhowit’sdone.Yourmusicpulledmeoutofmanydepressedstates.Thankyouforwhoyouwere.Youneverconformedtoanybody’sstandardsbutyourown.I,too,amnosheep.Thankyou.

Iwouldlovetothankthemusicartistsforgivingmethepleasureoflistening,escapingrealityandescapingthepast.Notinanyorderofpreference,thankstoMadchild,AC/DC,Motörhead,TomMacDonald,Nova,RoseTattoo,StoneSour,IronMaiden,TheCult,MonsterMagnet,DoroPeach,Divinyls,ShannonNoll,JudasPriestandGumsNRoses–justtonameafew.

NedKellyisoneofmyAustralianheroes.Ilovehisstrength,hisdedicationtohisfamilyandhisconstantstrugglewiththelaw.IknewthatfeelingwhenIwasyounger.IrespectNed