Old Man Rants E-Book

Tony Snow

• Herausgeber: Pencil
• Kategorie: Sachliteratur, Reportagen, Biografien
• Sprache: Englisch
• Veröffentlichungsjahr: 2021

Seitenzahl: 164

Beschreibung

About the book:
Why did I start off writing this series of books “old man’s rants” They all came about because I am sick of not having my voice heard, I think the subjects I talk about have substance and into days climate with fakes everywhere I thought why not and who knows someone somewhere may change their outlook, "Old Man's Rants" Is the name I came up with and for what it is I think it is a perfect name for the subjects I chose to write about. Author Tony Snow

Leseprobe

OldMansRants

BY

TonySnow

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Authorbiography

I'llbeginwithwhyIamwritingthisbookitstartedalongtimeagowhenIhadbeenjudgedforthingsthatwerenotmyfaultandfromthatmomentmylifesnowballedtwistedandturnedtowhereIamtoday,thatwasalongwindingroadtogettothispointsomeofthisbookwillflowandyouwillgetitotherpartsnodoubtwillgooffthechartstoanewdemotionmakingalotofsenseinthiscrazyassworldthatwelivein,itwillmoveheremovingthereandmaybeback.

Istartmyrantwithsomethingthatshouldbeclosetoeveryone'sheartsogoreadchapter1now.

Contents

Chapter1ChildAbuse

Chapter2Depression

Chapter3Religion

Chapter4Rude

Chapter5TheMeaningOfLifePlusIntermission

Chapter6UFOAndConspiracy

Chapter7LGBTQIA+

Chapter8Cars

Chapter9Tattoo's

Chapter10TruthAndLies

Chapter11MoodsAndFamily

Chapter12BeingYourselfAndAnimals

Chapter13Racist

Chapter14LastRant

Chapter1ChildAbuse

Mental,physicalorsexualabuse,itisnotrightonanylevelforanyreason,nomatterifyou’reinabadmoodoryougetoffonhurtingachild.

PhysicallyabusedandmentallyIhavebeennotsexual,thankfuck.BeatingsatthehandsofmyMotherandstepfatherwerebrutal.

Motherwouldalwayssay,“I’mgoingtohityousofuckinghardyouwon’tbeabletositdownforaweek”orIamgoingtohityousofuckinghardillmakeyourassbleed”

Whatshesaidiswhatyougotblackandblueandyes,youcouldnotsitforaweekeitheranditwashardtosleep.Step-Fatheroccasionallypickedmeupbymyears,hitmyheadintowallsinmybedroom,whichwerealwaysfun,right?No,Ithinknot.

Othertimeswithhisfistsorwhateverwasclosetohim,myMotherlovedtoplaygamesmentalgamesonesthatwouldbreakyourspiritandtheoutsideworldwouldsayIwonderwhyheneverwenttohisownMother’sfuneralIfuckingwonder.

Peoplearejudgementalofthingstheydonotknowthetruthof,butthat’sok.Idon’tmindpeoplefrowninglookingatmeforjustbeingmejudgedforbeingdifferent.

AllbecausemyMotherkilledmystepfartherbyknifinghiminthechest.Noonewantedanythingtodowiththekidthathadjustgonethroughhellandback.Noonewantedtolendahand,noonewantedtoevensayhelloorevensmile.

It’snotlikenooneknewmepersonally.Istillremembertheirfacesandhowtheyturnedtheirheadsinshame.Forme,stunnedatfirst,Iscrambledtounderstandthegravityofviolence.

Mostlikely,writingthisbook,peoplewilltalkandsay,howcouldTonysaysuchthingsaschildabuse?Ormytimeinhell?Butthat’sok!Fuckyou,

Like,thehousematethatIlivedwithallthoseyearsago,shelovedtofight,lovedtoargue,lovedtothrowthingsatmeandthemindgameswereonthesamelevelasmymotheralwaystocatchyououtonalie.

Iputitdowntosoformofcontrolthatshehadanissuewith,shealwayshadtoberightevenwhenyoucaughtheroutinalieshealwayshadananswerandifyouwantedtoproveyouwereright,itwasneverworththehugefightthatwascoming,

Ifoundthatpeoplejustdon’twanttogetinvolvedtheydidnotwanttohavethestigmaofjumpinginonsomethingtheydon’tknowabout,butinsaying,allofthisIsomehowmadeitthrougheventhoughIfellthroughthecracksandthesystemfailedmemorethanonceandthat’sokI’moneoftheluckyonestocomethroughit,Ialmostdidn’tmakeitthoughIcamesoclosetodeathmanytimes,

Peoplewhohurtchildrenparentorparentseithermotherorfatherorbothnomatterifitisastepparentoneorbothnomatterifitisanuncleoranauntyorevenyourgrandparentsornotevenafamilymembernomatterifitisbyhittingthemwithanobjectoryourhandsormentallyabuseorevenworsesexuallyassaultagainstachildisunforgivable!

WiththechurchesnotnaminganyofthembynamesbutjusttosayyouuseyourpowerofauthorityallinthenameofGodwellitlookslikeyou’renotgettingintoheavenormaybeyouknowthatthereisnoGodthatmakessensetome,Nomatterthereasonthereisnoreasontohurtachildnoreasonatall,Ibelievethepopeshouldshowhishandsandsayenoughisenoughandfinallynameandshamethemallsothefamiliescangetjustice,

Ifyouhurtachild,Ihopeyougeteverythingthatcomesyourwaylikealongjailtermorevenbetterlettheparentspickthepunishmentnomatterhowunhumanitisasthosepeoplehavetakenachild’sinnocenceawayfromthemandmostlikelygivingthechildacomplexordisorderagainstmenorthechurchorevengod,

Noonemayhurtthesechildren,notmenotyounotyourparent’snotaPriestnotevenapolicemannotanyonesohandsoffthechildren’strulyIdon’tgethowseeingachildnakedcanmakeyouaroused?

Youarejustavilehumanbeing?Orisityouareweak-mindedfoolwhoneedstohurtchildrentomakeyourselffeelbetter,soithastrulycaredforyou.Yousickfuck.

Soyoufeelpowerful?Watchthemscreamforhelp?Screamtobesetfree?Screaminpain?Doesitmakeyoufeelallman?AllIcanreallysaytosomeonethatiscausingabusegotakeyourselfoutofthepictureentirelydon’thurtthem.,

Don’tgetmestartedwithyouwheresexuallyabusedbysomeoneandnowyoudoittothatisnoexcuseforwhatsoeverasthereisnoexcuseforthatsortofbehaviorwithachild,Youhurtchildrenbecausetheyareweakerthanyouandcan’tfightbackwhydoyouthinkyoudon’ttakeonsomeoneelselikeaman?

I’lltellyouwhyMr.it’sbecauseshewillkickyourassandleaveyoubleedingandyouregocouldnothandlethatbutyoulikechildrenbecauseeveniftheyfightbackyouwillnotgethurtandyoucanmakeyourselfalotofmanjustbytakingachild’sinnocence,

Whydon’tyoujustmanupandtakeabullettotheheadanddotheentireworldafavor?Forpeoplethatthinkthatdisciplinecomesonlyinoneformandthat’shurtingthechildasmuchasyoucaninonegolikeIhaveagoodidealet’sseeifthistypeofdisciplineworksoutfortheparentsnowyouhavetomakesurethatachildcanremembersaidpunishmentotherwisenopointright?

Foureasystepsnowstep1cutoffapieceofsayyourhouseholdgardenhosethenylontypeyouknowtheoldgreenonesthatmosthouseshadinthe80,slet’ssayafootlongandlet’salsosaynomatterwhatthechildhasdone,

Thisisstep2.Makethemdroptheirpants,notjusttheirjeansplusundiesdropthemtothegroundandifyouseethemshakinginfear,that’sokthereforewedoitmoreso,

Nowstep3thisstepisveryimportanttogetthisstepabsolutelyperfect,makesureyouliftyourhandhashighasyoucanandmakesurethatyouuseallyourmightandhitthatchildacrossthearsemaybelegsandlowerbackifyoufeellikeitasitdoesnotmatterdon’tbeshyandwithyourotherhandholdtheirheadnowtrustmethechildwillthankyouwhentheygrowupaspunishmentitistheonlyway,

step4sendthemtotheirroomcryingandinclearpainbutthat’sokbecausepeoplethatchildhasnowlearntavaluablelessontodayandnodoubtwillcarryalloftheirdays,nowdon’tyoufeelalotbelterIknowafterthattypeofpunishmentIknowIdo,

IamlikewaitupaminuteI’mnotdownwiththisshitandnotjustbecauseithappenedtomeI’mnotdownwithitbecauseitischildabuseit’snotrightonanylevelandifreadingthisandyoudidnotcringeatallthensomethingiswrongwithyou,achildisnotbornintothisworldtobeabusedbyyouevenifyouaretheparentoramanofGodoranyoneinatrustedpositionorjustanyone,trulywhothefuckdoyouthinkyouare?

Thiswholesystemneedsagoodshakeup,Iseegoodhomesweregoodpeoplecan’tgetevenonthelisttoadoptchildrenwhileyouhaveothersIknowhavetheirchildrenaroundharddrugsandthesystemreallydoesnothingIknowthisfirsthandasitmakescompletesensedoesn’tit?

TellmeifI’mwrongtoleaveachildinthattypeofplace?Arounddrugsandrealhardcorejunkiesallthistypeofchild-raisingisabuseandmostlikelythesechildrenwillgrowuptobeaburdenonsociety,Tome,thissystemisfuckingbrokenandtheonlypeoplethatarehurtherearethechildrenbutwhocaresright?Notwelfare,notGovernmentandsurelynottheparentsthemselves,

Iamoneoftheluckyonestocomeouttheothersideofapoorupbringingfrompoorfood,abusedmentallyfloggingstomumgoingtojailthenbeingaroundpeoplewhotookharddrugsandIsaidnotothembutdon’tthinkaboutmethinkaboutthechildrenthatarestillstuckinthetypeoffamilyupbringing,

Ifyouseesomething,pleasedon’tthinkthatsomeoneelsewillcomealong.Justmanupandspeakup.Letushelpputastoptoallformsofchild.Abuse,hereisonefineexample.

I’veseenyoungchildrensaytheageoftwoinnappiesstandingontheedgeofthecutteronabusyroadnowIpulloverandpickupthischildandIgoknockonthedooroftheclosesthousenowthisbityouwillgetalaughoutofIknowIdid?Notreally,astheladyopensthedoor,sheseesmestandingtherewithayoungchildinmyarmsshehadahorriblelookonherfacelikeIwasapedophileorsomethingshesnatchesthechildoutofmyarmsandscreamsoutatherotherchildrenwhoarelike5and6andshesaysyousupposedtobelookingafterhimyoustupiddumbcuntboomsheslamsthedoorinmyfaceIamlikewhattheactualfuckIcouldhaverunoveryourchildladyandyoudidnotevensaythankyou,

Let’ssayforargument’ssakeitwasmeandIhitthatchildinmycarbecauseIdidnotseehimatfirstthechildwouldhavedied,andshewouldblameme,andIcouldnotlivewithmyselfbutsomehowIwastheweirdoforsavingherchild?

So,youcanonlyimaginewhatsortoflifethatchildisliving,sowhatareyougoingtodothenexttimeyouseesomeonedoingthewrongthingtoachild?Standupstandtallandmakethecalldon’tbeapussybecauseyoudon’twanttogetinvolvedpleasepeopledoitforthechildren,Howisthisnormaltoabuseachildmentallyorsexuallydoesitmakeyoufeelall-powerfulandallthatshitdoyoureallylikegettinginsidethechild’smindplayingwithinitlikeafootballsayingthingstomakethemfeelgoodthenstripthemdownliketheyarenotevenhuman?

AllIknowaboutthisisifyoucan’teithercontrolyourmouthorcontrolyourtemperthandon’thavechildrenanddon’tgetwithsomeonewhohaschildrenIknowwhatitisliketobeatthehandsofviolence,Youknowitisnotnormalright?sexualabuse,emotionalabuse,physicalabuse,

Imean,comeon,weareallhuman,right?So,it’sokisitwhenyouleavebrushing?Howdoyoufeelwhenyouknowtheygrowuponeday?Itmightturnthemintoladiesofthenightorjustjunkiesorevenabusersthemselves?Butstillyourneedtodefileachildallforyourownselfishneeds,

Iknowafewpeoplethathaveseenabused,andithappensmorethanwereleasetheysaythatit’salwayssomeoneclosetoyoulikeyourfather,mother'sbrotheroruncle,forme,Ineversufferedbeingsexuallyabusedbutmentallyabusedandphysicallyabusedbutnotsexually,

Thishasbeengoingonsincehumanslivedincaves,butthisisnotanexcuseanymorejustbecauseyouwanttoactlikeaNeanderthal?OramIlivinginsometypeofpipedream?Thereisanoldsayingdountoothersthatyouwouldwanttobedonetoyourself,sofairisfairitnot.Evenaneyeforaneyeortoothforatooth?

WhatmanthoughtflockingintohisstepsonwasagreatideawhenhewastheadultandIwasthechildhealsoseemedtolovehittingmymotheraswellasmeandafterwitnessingwhatendedupbeingmyfateorjustdestinycamelookingformeandit’snotlikemymotherwasasaintandI’mnotgivingmystepfartherthegreenlightbutshewasalsoabusive,

Nowyoucan’tbelikethatwithaguyheisjustabruteoldschoolarmydudeandIknowifyouhadtosleepwithhimitwasnotoutofloveorbeinginloveIknowheforcedyoumorethanoncewhatheorbothofyouguysfailedtounderstandIcouldhearandit’snotjustwhatIheardIseenonover,

OneoccasionhimwithhishandsaroundyourthroatandthenextminuteyouwerebothnakedandfromthequickglimpseofmeseeingwhatwasgoingonandnowmebeingagrownmanitdidnotlooklikeyouwereenjoyingyourselfalotandapartfromwhatIwitnesswhathedidtoyouwassowrong,

Whatyoubothdidtoeachotherwasjustasbad.Youhadthecarfrequentlywhereyoucouldhavetakenoffwithus,soIguessI’mnodifferentinthataspect,butbackontopic!YoubothwerehorribleparentsandIthinkbothofyoushouldhaveneverbeenparents,letalonenowyouaddchildrenintothemix!

Iamsorrymumforhoweverythingturnedoutbutinmydefense;Iwastheonlychild,andhewashurtingmesoyoucanseemyconfusionwhenyouactedlikehimandIneverunderstoodthewayyoutreatedme,especiallysinceyouaremymum.Itnevermadesense,sowhy?

WhywasIlikeyou?Andyoucouldnothandleit?DoyouknoworunderstandthatIwasthatchildtormentedbybothbullyingparents,beingthelaughingstockinschoolbecauseIwasnotlikealltheotherkidsaswewerepoorandIcouldnothaveallthenicethingsthatotherchildrenworeorplayedwith,

IdohoweverunderstandnowI’mallgrownupbutseriouslypeoplewhatisfuckingwrongwithyoumanypeoplecouldtakethis,forexample,oneofmygoodfriendsyearsagocameforavisitIdon’tthinkhewaseventhereforover30secondswhenallIcouldhearwasmumshoutingouttellyourfriendtogohomeyouhavechorestodoandtomyself,I’mthinkingthisisnotrightIhavedoneallmychoressomyfriendleavesIgouptoaskmumwhatwasgoingonthereshestandsintheloungeroomwithanicepieceofgardenhoseinherhandyouknowtheonesheusedtoflogmewithofcoursetherewasnovalidreasonitwasmumdidnotlikehimandofcourse,

Isworewellyouknowyoushouldnotdothatbecauseit’ssobadtodothat?Whatabouthittingachild?Isthatnotbad?I’malittleconfusedaboutyourparentingskills!Yes,thereisnobookonhowtoraiseachildbutI’mprettysureiftherewasoneitdefinitelywouldnotbehowyoudowngradedmebywhippingsbythewayyouspoketomeorthewayyouhitmelikeyouwereinsane?

PeoplewhohurtchildrennomatterifitisbyhittingthemormentallyabusethembyyourvilemouthorevenworsesexuallyassaultagainstachildisunforgivableandforthechurchesnotnaminganyofbynamesbutjusttosayyouuseyourpowerofauthorityallinthenameofGodwellitlookslikeyou’renotgettingintoheavenormaybeyouknowthatthereisnoGod,

Nomatterthereasonthereisnoreasontohurtachildnoreasonatall,IfyouhurtachildIhopeyougeteverythingthatcomesyourwaylikealongjailtermorevenbetterlettheparentspickthepunishmentnomatterhowunhumanitisasthosepeoplehavetakenachild’sinnocenceawayfromthemnoonemayhurtthesechildrennotmenotyounotyourparent’snotaPriestnotanyonesohandsoffthechildren.

Chapter2Depression

TheFeelingofmydepression

IstruggletounderstandwhyI’vehadtolivethislifethewayIhaveinthiskindofmentalprison;IstrugglingsofardeepdownI’mnotsureitcanfindme.Ihavebeenstrugglingmorenowthatmylifeis