Mindfulness Meditation E-Book

Ervin Kery

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• Kategorie: Ratgeber
• Sprache: Englisch

Seitenzahl: 166

Veröffentlichungsjahr: 2018

Beschreibung

Our sufferings can be derived from getting completely lost in the whirlpool of our racing thoughts and in the emotional storms of our hearts. The torrents of our thoughts and emotions overwhelm us. So we feel stressed and unhappy.

In the state of pure consciousness we are calm, peaceful observers of all the things that happen inside us and in the world, but we do not get lost in them. We do not suffer: mostly we are happy, we are creative and we live in the flow of life..

Leseprobe

Ervin Kery

Mindfulness Meditation

Journey Into Consciousness

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Copyright (c) Ervin Kery, 2017

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ISBN-13: 978-1973935070

ISBN-10: 1973935074

Cover image: Pixabay, bit.ly/2uRvHiz

Our sufferings can be derived from getting completely lost in the whirlpool of our racing thoughts and in the emotional storms of our hearts. The torrents of our thoughts and emotions overwhelm us. So we feel stressed and unhappy.

In the state of pure consciousness we are calm, peaceful observers of all the things that happen inside us and in the world, but we do not get lost in them. We do not suffer: mostly we are happy, we are creative and we live in the flow of life..

CONTENTS

THE FORGOTTEN SECRET

Preface

There is a mysterious “something” inside of you:

The Consciousness.

You can call it soul, human spirit, real Self or simply yourself. This consciousness looks through your eyes, reads these lines and understands their meaning.

I ask you, please turn your attention inwards now and look for:

Who or what reads these lines through your eyes?

Who is aware of your thoughts and feels your emotions?

Who you really are?

Don’t think about it, just experience it!

The consciousness is the greatest scientific and spiritual mystery of the 21st century. Quantum physics and avant-garde psychology deal with it, it is an excellent medical therapy method known as mindfulness, and it plays the main role in most of the Eastern religions.

This book is also about Consciousness.

It’s an instruction manual, a guide to your true Self, to the awakened consciousness.

If you are looking for your real Self beyond your social roles, look no further. It was in you all along; it is still in you and will be – explore your true Self!

Your soul, your human spirit has been with you in your whole life. As the time passed, the cells of your body have been constantly replacing themselves, your thoughts have changed a lot, and the depth of your feelings has also became different. Only your consciousness has remained: it was the same all the time.

The same “I am”-feeling and knowing lives in you as a child, teenager, adult and elderly. And the same “I am”-feeling and knowing lives in every living body.

We function in a peculiar way as humans: even though there is always only “now”, only the present moment exists, our minds tend to wander in the past or daydream of the future. The lights are seemingly on in our bodies, but we are not at home. The many-many thoughts and emotions carry us away and we get thoroughly stunned and taken away by the vortex of thoughts and emotions.

First these stunned moments only take a short while, but they gradually get longer and longer, until we spend more time in this stupefied state than in the present moment.

We do not perceive the reality as it really is.

We observe ourselves and the world through the colorful lenses of our thoughts and emotions – we create a perfectly unique world, where I am “better”, “more beautiful”, “smarter”, “wealthier”, “more religious”, or simply “less lucky” than you. A rose is only an average, boring rose, a notion, and therefore we fail to discover its unrivaled beauty. The “believer” draws sword to destroy the “non-believer” or the one who has different beliefs; the politician declares war in order to protect his system of belief. Conflicts, wars, blood and suffering – we ended up deep in the marshes of our thoughts and emotions. The human mind’s abnormal functioning has become a real problem to these days: millions of deaths in a century and the Earth in decay both draw attention to this fact.

The common goal of humanity is to pass beyond the abnormal mind functioning as soon as possible, to transcend the thought.

The solution is awakened consciousness: when we are observers, rather than slaves of our thoughts and emotions.

Our world, driven by the mind, is noisy, bleak, boring, burned out, exhausted, stressed and nervous – we are constantly exposed to the expectations, judgments, orders of the programmed “little me” inside us. And since we live mostly “in our heads”, we are exposed to the tyrannical rule of the always worrying and sheltering thought-system (ego) from dawn to dusk.

The medicine to all our problems is awakened consciousness.

The art of observing ourselves and our spinning and whirling thoughts without letting them carry us away. This way we recognize our real selves, we learn how to observe the world through the lenses of the human spirit and to throw ourselves into the helter-skelter of life with full attention.

So a fundamental peace, calmness and openness develop inside us and we gladly participate in the flow of life.

Who are you really?

The Mysteries of our Body

Our sensory organs tell us that our body is solid and permanent. In reality, however, our body changes permanently, like the currents of a river.

Upon taking a breath, 1.000.000.000.000.000.000.000 atoms arrive into our body, they are incorporated into our cells, and the same amount leaves our body when we breathe out. 98% of the atoms of our body is replaced in a period shorter than a year: the liver is completely renewed in 6 weeks, the skin in days, the bones are fully replaced in 3 months, and the genetic endowment DNA is renewed in 6 weeks. The atoms of your body as it existed a year ago are now all outside of your present body: in the atmosphere, in the soil or incorporated into other living organisms, grass and trees... that is how the entire planet recycles itself in a perpetual cycle. We live in close interconnection and interaction with all other things, everything is in the state of a constant change and transformation.

The only permanent thing is change. We still tend to experience the permanence of our Self. Is it possible that we are not identical with our body?

In the Captivity of Thoughts

What are thoughts? The philosopher Descartes announced that, ”I think, therefore I am!” This erroneous assumption influences our identity even in the present day. Our thoughts, just like the cells of our body, are constantly replaced with new ones; a thought emerges and then vanishes, and new thoughts and ideas, associated with the previous one, appear in a constant stream. Among the thought there is a small gap, a little space. This space is the space of Consciousness, in which a thought can appear.

We are proud of being able to think. But are we really the ones who think? Are we really in control of our thoughts, are we the ones who intend to think? It is not we who think, but the thoughts keep us under control with its compelling force. It is the constant stream of thoughts that cover up the existence of the Consciousness. That is why Mediaeval mysticists used to say: ”Between you and God there is only a thought.”

The Pitfall of our Emotions

Emotions work in a similar manner: they emerge and vanish in the space of the Consciousness.

Emotions, at the same time, influence our lives to a large extent: they are able to generate lasting addiction. Every emotion has its own neuropeptide, a type of hormone, which is created by the brain and sent to our cells through the circulation of blood. These peptides are very powerful chemicals, and if they keep bombarding our cells for an extended period of time, they induce addiction. Once you have become addicted, you will unconsciously strive to create situations in your life in which you are able to satisfy your addiction. If you are -for instance- an anger-addict, you will seek situations in which the ”anger-peptide” addiction of your cells will be satisfied.

Our body is not constant, it is continually renewed–we therefore cannot be identical with our body. Our emotions and thoughts are not constant either. What we refer to as ”Self,” on the other hand, exists permanently.

The time has come to ask the question: if we are identical neither with the constantly changing body nor with the similarly changing thoughts and emotions, WHO WE REALLY ARE?

The Realm of the Ultimate Mystery

Science has studied the world down to the tiniest detail: the human body was dissected to organs and to cells, way down to the cell nucleus. But when the parts of the body are put together again, only a lifeless puppet is there–life somehow escapes during dissection.

We know everything about the structure of the eyes of a common mouse, all that knowledge is there, wrapped up in Latin terms, figures, statistics and equations. But the thing we still know only very little of, and what is likely one of the last great challenges for the science of the 21st century is Consciousness itself.

Two young fish are swimming and they meet an elder fish. ”The water is very pleasant today, isn’t it?” the elder fish greets them politely. The two young fish swim on, and after a while one of them asks. ”Water? What is water?”

Consciousness is through and by which we live and experience ourselves and the surrounding world. Since we ”swim” in it, we are unable to recognize it. Consciousness is the space itself in which sensations, emotions and thoughts appear, and the mental image we create of the world is projected into the immense space of the Consciousness.

Sensations, emotions and thoughts keep streaming into our Consciousness, and as we focus on these contents, we ignore the space itself, which is the container of the contents. This conscious space is our ultimate Self..

THE END OF „MY STORY”

How did my life collapse?

I was sitting in a dark room in the heart of the always busy capital and I was tormented by emotional agony.

Everything I had ever believed in collapsed.

My life, my job, my career, my relationship - all shattered with an ear-splitting crash.

Bitterness choked my throat and troubling questions emerged at the same time: Why did this have to happen this way? Why does the fate punish me so? I failed during the hard trials and fell into deep water. I could find no point of my life anymore and sunk deep in my self-pity, when a thought conceived: I cannot live like this any more.

While I was suffering in the deepest hell of self-pity, sorrow and hopelessness, and intensified the raging madness inside me by picturing the script of my own funeral, something unexpected and life-changing happened:

I fell into nothingness.

The fall into nothingness

I am nobody and nothing.

I have no past, everything is scorched behind me.

Only memories flash before me, some are faint, others are more vivid. The past is dead and only its phantoms haunt me – its memories. I have no future because I cannot start over again. I can no longer tolerate this consuming stress. I am a hunted in the game of the life.

I have no past. I have no future. But still:

I am.

I exist.

I suddenly realized: I DO exist!

Pause.

Deep silence.

Peace and calmness takes over me..

I took a look around and experienced everything in a different way. I saw the reality as it is, the horrifying pictures created by my mind, the grim thoughts and hopeless fears vanished, just as clouds are washed away by the wind.

I exist. I am.

I was just simply present “here and now”. I was in my body and observed myself and the world peacefully. Deep peace and calmness filled me. I was happy, as happy as I had never been before. I was liberated. I got rid of the suffering.

I had no idea who and what I was. But one thing I knew for sure, I do not identified me with my previous life-story. I lived in my body as an unfathomable and not accurately describable, alert, calm, graceful conscience, a spirit-like intelligence and I witnessed existence with curiosity.

Sometimes thoughts came from nothing and glided into the space of my consciousness.

I took notice of them and then –just as they had appeared– they dissolved into nothing. Peace and happiness filled me, gently, effortlessly, but still in an ecstatically thrilling way.

I gazed around. Everything was different. The room changed. What previously may have seemed time-worn and shabby now appeared as an ever-changing and vivid play of forms and shades. All this time, so many interesting forms and shades had been hiding in the room and I failed to notice them all along. A small flower on top of my desk: what a spectacular living wonder! The exquisite stem, the varied shapes of the leaves and the magnificence of the petals – while this little “thing” was just as alive as I was. I could not find any object boring. I discovered something beautiful, unique, unparalleled in everything – and during these observations an extraordinary joy filled me:

I exist! I love this existence! Everything is so beautiful, unmatched and unique.

I could feel all the pulsating energy in me, the flow of blood, the gentle tingling of my skin, while I could observe, looking through my eyes, the colorful, loud, and fragrant, wonderful world surrounding me.

The night arrived. The room became dimmed, while snowflakes performed their elegant dance outside through the window.

I was awake, happy and full of adventurousness: I wanted to explore the outside world again.

I passed a phone box on the street, next to which layed an old, bearded homeless man covered in rags. He stepped out and begged for some spare change. I looked at him and -behind his eyes, shining with life- I saw the same, what I was: a feeling-thinking sensible human spirit.

The same consciousness as mine looked through his eyes.

He was another human form of life. I reached into my pocket and gave him the small amount that was in there. “Happy Holidays!” I said with a shaking voice. I could not resist the surfacing urge, I embraced him explicitly:

“Happy, peaceful existence, my dear human fellow!”

*

I was exploring the world again excitedly for days. My senses worked crystal clear and I wondered at the unique beauty of forms. It was as if I was born again and just as a small child, I took my world into my possession again. So many sounds and colors and shapes and tastes awaited me! So many realizations, coming from the examination of the emerging thoughts. I was surprised by the diversity, many shades and intensity of the emotions.

After a while the excitement of the discoveries lessened a bit and the thoughts returned more often, until sometimes I found myself stunned by thoughts again, brought down and taken away by a few unpleasant feelings.

*

Later I had the opportunity of moving to the countryside for a while with my wife and child, to a place I would have earlier said is “beyond civilization”. I spent a lot of time finding methods with which it was possible to return to the state of clear consciousness.

In my free time I practiced living together with nature: I planted trees, experimented with bio-cultivating, patched the house with loam – I enjoyed the delights of a simple, natural life. Since earlier I was quite an “urbanized, clumsy office worker” it was most satisfying to experience how many problems I could solve, for which I would have called for professional help before – when I do it with full attention, concentrating on the process of the work itself, rather than the result, as I had done earlier.

Not long later, driven by an inner inspiration, I created my website, on which I published my articles, then I wrote the books, made the DTP and prepared them for press. This is how I became “a writer”.

As it turned out: everything was given for this.

If you have a strong inner inspiration to make something real, you will notice that everything is given for it.

Not only will you find every condition optimal, but also everything will support you to make your inspiration come true!

After this I spent more time with studying awakened consciousness, then I felt an urge to give my readers a practical handbook. In this, I present guidelines on how to reach, maintain and deepen awakened consciousness.

You are now holding this practical handbook, dear Reader! Read it slowly and after a few sentences or parts, let the contents reach your understanding. Let them to reach the place where I intended to end up: your consciousness.

Jump into your real Self and enjoy your journey!

DIVE INTO THE ABYSS!

We are obsessed by the film of our lives

You know, you feel that there is “something” in you that you may call soul, yourself, spirit, intelligence, or higher self:

This is the consciousness.

The understanding which feels and knows that “I am, I exist, I am living”. The one which looks out of your head, through your eyes and can see these lines and understands the meaning of the sentences.

I am here and now. I am living. I exist. And I know this.

I have no idea who I am, what I should do, how to go on and what is the purpose of all this. I am completely stunned by all the imaginations of me: who I am, who I should be, how I should live, what am I allowed to think and say.

I wear the mask of my personality, just as an actor plays a role. I do not know anymore who I really am behind all the expectations of the society.

We run around and spin in this world created by ourselves, only to gather more and more money and become more. Thousands of thoughts are circling in our heads continuously, we suffer a variety of emotions, and deep inside we are unhappy.

We suffer.

We fell into the abyss of a billion thoughts and emotions and we are all gasping for air.

If we knew who we were, we would also know what our purpose is in this world. But we do not know and we suffer tremendously.

We are afraid and isolate ourselves from each other and from nature. We involuntarily destroy all what is around us, and we believe we do this to reach our “purposes”.

Humans are very comical life forms. They are trapped eternally in the tyrannical captivity of thoughts and notions.

Being the main character in our film of life, we live through several roles. The role of the kind sibling, the worrying and loving mother or father, the good co-worker – oh, and what about the masks we wear by free will? Right wing, left wing, catholic or Buddhist – and as the time passes, we can only play these roles with increasing overacting. The actor playing his roles without a rest burns out, and then on he will be unnatural and overacting.

We grew tired of the variety of the roles and the fear, whether we are good enough:

"Perhaps I am not good enough. Perhaps I am not a watchful enough mother or father. Perhaps my co-workers do not value me enough. Perhaps I should go to church more often." – In our silent moments, the thoughts start to speak to bring us down and make us unhappy.

...and we forgot how to live

It (seems) impossible to be without thoughts: to live simply and enjoy the existence.

Thoughts flow and flow without stopping. They crave our attention:

“Oh, I am quite a very important thought! Ignoring me might lead to making the wrong choice and that would cause a few problems for you. I am such an important thought, so think about me, do anything, just deal with me!"