Prickles and the bubbles E-Book

Ekta Bera

• Herausgeber: Pencil
• Kategorie: Sachliteratur, Reportagen, Biografien
• Sprache: Englisch
• Veröffentlichungsjahr: 2022

Seitenzahl: 146

Beschreibung

About the book:
A twenty-three years old woman who went through several ups and downs was taking breaths but not living. She was smiling but was not happy. She was educated but was not worthy. Then one fine day, it was all about that question that she asked herself and everything changed. Just over the past two years, she learned to live, she has understood the joy of genuine happiness, and she worked for her worth because she worked for herself.

It’s a mother sharing her story to her unborn daughter about all of the truth as to, how her life has been and how she turned it around. It’s a book to show gratitude, it’s a book to show courage, it’s a book of the people.
About the author:
Ekta Bera is a multidisciplinary person. Aside from being fully vested in zoology, she is also a UI/UX designer, full-stack web developer and writer.
She started writing and expressing her thoughts on medium and has shown consistent growth. Fueled by that, she pens down her first-ever book.
She spends most of her time, working on many side projects and her second book. In addition to all this, she is a society changer. She has been involved in many ventures and many of her personal missions. She works to create a positive change around the society!

Leseprobe

Pricklesandthebubbles

BY

EktaBera

ISBN9789356107687©EktaBera2022PublishedinIndia2022byPencilAbrandofOnePointSixTechnologiesPvt.Ltd.123,BuildingJ2,ShramSevaPremises,WadalaTruckTerminal,Wadala(E)Mumbai400037,Maharashtra,[e-mail]dwideNopartofthispublicationmaybereproduced,storedinorintroducedintoaretrievalsystem,ortransmitted,inanyform,orbyanymeans(electronic,mechanical,photocopying,recordingorotherwise),withoutthepriorwrittenpermissionofthePublisher.Anypersonwhocommitsanunauthorizedactinrelationtothispublicationcanbeliabletocriminalprosecutionandcivilclaimsfordamages.

DISCLAIMER:TheopinionsexpressedinthisbookarethoseoftheauthorsanddonotpurporttoreflecttheviewsofthePublisher.

Authorbiography

Hi,IamEktaBerabasedinIndia.Iamaresearcher,writer,adesigner,webdeveloperandtheauthorof"Pricklesandthebubbles." Mostly,Iloveputtingmyownexperiencesintowordstoconnectwithhumansandmomentsthatmatter.

Contents

I.pricklesonmyway.

prickles.

virginitywithfriendships.

lockedhorns.

meetingwithmasterstrokes.

aimlessaim

II.acuityinvision.

changes.

anothersideofthecoin.

chasinggoals,notdreams.

workingforworth.

startingoveragain.

holdingconsistency.

practicalwithbackup.

learningtheart.

discardingparasites.

understandingthewealth.

makingitforthem.

livingmoments.

gettingthehangofit.

attainment.

starsofmygalaxy.

thestars,astheyappear.

birthgivers.

thepersonigrewupwith.

thepeoplewhoprovedmewrong.

peoplewhohelpedmeshinebrighter.

Closure

closing

Introduction

Adwika,thenamehasalwaysbeenfascinatingtome.I’dbeenthinkingthatifIevergetachancetochangemyname,IwouldchangeittoAdwikainsteadofEkta.No!Itdoesn’tmeanIabsolutelyhatemycurrentname,it’sjustthatIlikeAdwika’snamesomewhereabitmore,andmorethanmycurrentname!Butunfortunately,Iprobablywon’tgetanyscopetochangemyname.Besides,Irealized,Istillcandosomethingaboutit.Tomyfuturedaughter.Yes!IamgoingtocallherAdwikafortherestofherlife.ItiskindoffunnythatIamstillunmarriedwhenIamplanningmydaughter’sname.Anyways,Iknow,Iwillgetmarriedtoabeautifulman,andhaveadaughter.IknowIwillhaveoneday!

IamstillfiguringoutwhyIlikethosetonguetwisterscomplexnameswhenIalreadyhaveamuchsimplernamethatdoesn’tevencostmyenergytocallupon.Well,somethingsaren’tjustreasonable,theyhavetobeacceptedthewaytheyare.

Justlikelife,certainthingshappentousthatwecontrol,butmorethanthat,therearecertain,uncertainthingsthatcan’tbecontrolled.Trustme,thatisthebeautyofit,theuniquenessofit.

Becauselifeisajourneyandajourneycan’tbeassmoothasyoucanslipoff.Ithastobeperfectwiththoseimperfectionssothatyougetabettergripofit,abetterunderstanding,andawaybetterperceptionofit.That’slife,andthat’saboutlivinglife.It’stough,butit’sbeautiful.

Myjourneytillnowhasnotbeenatalleasy.Iwasnottheperfectpersonthateveryonedreamsabout,andIstillamnottheperfectone.Ihaveflaws…Sodamnmanyflaws.Imademistakes.Ifailedalmostateverything,asadaughter,asister,afriend,astudent,andeverywhereelse.Ihatedhavingsuchalife.Ihatedmyself,everything,andeverybodywhowasthereinmylife.ItwasgettingsoheavyinsidethatIfeltsodefeatedandwantedtoendeverything,whateverIhad.Butjustlike“Calmcomesafterastorm”,Isurvived.IsurvivedthatstormandthemomentIdecidedtolive,Istartedunderstandingthatthebeautyoflivingliesinalltheexperiences,nomatterwhatitis,goodorbad.Lifeshouldn’thavetobeperfect,it’sallthoseimperfectionsthatmakeitperfectandbeautiful.

Itdoesn’tmatterwhatlifethrowsatyou;it’salwaysaboutyou,andhowyoumanageitistheonlythingthatmatters.Furthermore,ifyoustartembracingeverythingandanalyzingit,trustme,thereisnomorelovelyfeelingthanthis.Havingaperfectlifewithimperfectionsisthemostpreciousthingsomeonecanhave.

Eventhoughitwaslateinmylife,whenIrealizedtheimperfectionsandtheirbeauty,Icouldn’thelpbutfallforthem.ThenextthingIknew,IwasinlovewithwhateverIhad.Ibegantoappreciatemyself,mylife,thepeopleinit,andeverythingelsearoundme.

Iknoweveryonehasadifferentjourney,differentexperiences,anddifferentvisionsoftheirlives.Still,itwouldmakesenseifItellmyfuturekidaboutmyexperiencessothatitwouldbeeasierforhertoembraceeverythingopen-handedandalsotoworkonourbondoffriendshipratherthanaparent-childrelationship.Andafterall,agreatbondbeginswithagreatconversation.

Isn’titwonderfultotellyourkidaboutyourwholelife,yourmistakes,yourcommitments,yourimperfections,andyourhonesty?

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Adwika,thenamehasalwaysbeenfascinatingtome.I’dbeenthinkingthatifIevergetachancetochangemyname,IwouldchangeittoAdwikainsteadofEkta.No!Itdoesn’tmeanIabsolutelyhatemycurrentname,it’sjustthatIlikeAdwika’snamesomewhereabitmore,andmorethanmycurrentname!Butunfortunately,Iprobablywon’tgetanyscopetochangemyname.Besides,Irealized,Istillcandosomethingaboutit.Tomyfuturedaughter.Yes!IamgoingtocallherAdwikafortherestofherlife.ItiskindoffunnythatIamstillunmarriedwhenIamplanningmydaughter’sname.Anyways,Iknow,Iwillgetmarriedtoabeautifulman,andhaveadaughter.IknowIwillhaveoneday!

IamstillfiguringoutwhyIlikethosetonguetwisterscomplexnameswhenIalreadyhaveamuchsimplernamethatdoesn’tevencostmyenergytocallupon.Well,somethingsaren’tjustreasonable,theyhavetobeacceptedthewaytheyare.

Justlikelife,certainthingshappentousthatwecontrol,butmorethanthat,therearecertain,uncertainthingsthatcan’tbecontrolled.Trustme,thatisthebeautyofit,theuniquenessofit.

Becauselifeisajourneyandajourneycan’tbeassmoothasyoucanslipoff.Ithastobeperfectwiththoseimperfectionssothatyougetabettergripofit,abetterunderstanding,andawaybetterperceptionofit.That’slife,andthat’saboutlivinglife.It’stough,butit’sbeautiful.

Myjourneytillnowhasnotbeenatalleasy.Iwasnottheperfectpersonthateveryonedreamsabout,andIstillamnottheperfectone.Ihaveflaws…Sodamnmanyflaws.Imademistakes.Ifailedalmostateverything,asadaughter,asister,afriend,astudent,andeverywhereelse.Ihatedhavingsuchalife.Ihatedmyself,everything,andeverybodywhowasthereinmylife.ItwasgettingsoheavyinsidethatIfeltsodefeatedandwantedtoendeverything,whateverIhad.Butjustlike“Calmcomesafterastorm”,Isurvived.IsurvivedthatstormandthemomentIdecidedtolive,Istartedunderstandingthatthebeautyoflivingliesinalltheexperiences,nomatterwhatitis,goodorbad.Lifeshouldn’thavetobeperfect,it’sallthoseimperfectionsthatmakeitperfectandbeautiful.

Itdoesn’tmatterwhatlifethrowsatyou;it’salwaysaboutyou,andhowyoumanageitistheonlythingthatmatters.Furthermore,ifyoustartembracingeverythingandanalyzingit,trustme,thereisnomorelovelyfeelingthanthis.Havingaperfectlifewithimperfectionsisthemostpreciousthingsomeonecanhave.

Eventhoughitwaslateinmylife,whenIrealizedtheimperfectionsandtheirbeauty,Icouldn’thelpbutfallforthem.ThenextthingIknew,IwasinlovewithwhateverIhad.Ibegantoappreciatemyself,mylife,thepeopleinit,andeverythingelsearoundme.

Iknoweveryonehasadifferentjourney,differentexperiences,anddifferentvisionsoftheirlives.Still,itwouldmakesenseifItellmyfuturekidaboutmyexperiencessothatitwouldbeeasierforhertoembraceeverythingopen-handedandalsotoworkonourbondoffriendshipratherthanaparent-childrelationship.Andafterall,agreatbondbeginswithagreatconversation.

Isn’titwonderfultotellyourkidaboutyourwholelife,yourmistakes,yourcommitments,yourimperfections,andyourhonesty?

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I.pricklesonmyway.

prickles.

Everybodyhassomeortheotherproblemintheirlives.Nomatterhowbigorsmallitmaybe…Aproblemisaproblem.Butstill,thebiggerproblemwithsomepeopleisnotfacingthem.

Imagineamarathonrunnerwhojustfinishedhisracewithintwoandahalfhours.Appreciable,right?Andheissmilingrightnowbecausehejustachievedhisgoal.Heissmilingthroughhissweat,throughpain,andthroughallthehurdleshehadtogothrough.Heischeeringfortheeffortsheputnotjustonthisday,buteverysingleday.Heknewthiswasonlypossiblewhenheputinthoseextraeffortseverysingleday.Butwasthateasy?Notatall!Afterall,heisahuman,hemightnothavethesamephysicalormentalstateeveryday,butheknewinthisprocess,thatonlyhiseffortsmatterthathehadtoputeveryday.Heknewthatifheputssomeextraeffortintobuildinghisstrength,hecanachievehisgoalwithlesseffort.Heknewthatthesehurdlestodaywillmakehimstrongerfortomorrow.

Eachstepforwardcountsasabetterstepfortomorrow.

Notjustforamarathonrunner,itisthesameforeveryindividualandforeverygoal.Everyonemightnothavethesamestrugglebuteveryonedoeshaveastrugglebehindtheirsuccess.

Andthat’swhyIbelieve,strugglesarethemostimportantpartofsuccess.Afterall,asatisfyingsuccessiswhenyouearnit.It’swhenyouworkforit.

Ihaveaverylong-termrelationshipwithmyproblems.Beitwithmyfamily,friendship,academics,health,oranythingelse,Ihadproblemswitheverythingandeveryoneinmylife.Well,Ihadtofaceproblems.Andthat’showmyjourneywasnotatalleasy.

ButeachtimeIfaceaproblem,IknowIamdiggingoutwhatIammadefor,IamfiguringoutwhatIamresponsibletogivebacktomylife.

That’showmyproblems,yesterday’sproblems,andmypricklesdefinewhatIamtoday,andwhatIammeantfortomorrow.

virginitywithfriendships.

Whilegrowingup,aphasecomesineveryone’slifecalledschoollife.Itisconsideredtobethegoldenphasebecauseitreallyis!Schoollifeisthemostcrucial,themostinnocent,andthemostimportantpartofeveryone’slife.

Beiteducation,friendships,ormatch-making,everythinghappensinoneplace,theschool.Itisaplaceformakingmemories.Memoriestoberememberedforever.AndImadeseveralofthem.However,Iwasnotthatluckytohavetheexperienceofthelastone…Match-making.

Well,theexperiencesIhadinmyschoolweren’tsomethingthatcanbecalledhappymemoriesbecausetheyweren’t.WhateverexperiencesIhad,especiallywithfriendships,aremorethanmemories,theyarelessons.

WhenIwasyoung,mymomusedtosay“Youaretooinnocenttosurviveinthisworld”.Ididn’tunderstanditatfirst,butwhenIdid,Iknewshewasright.Iwasreallyinnocent,especiallywhentrustingpeople,Imeantfriendship.

WhenIwasinmyfirstschool,IhadafriendnamedSoumya,shewaskindofsweet,andwithwhomIusedtospendmostofmytime,atleasttillthetimeIwascaughtinthecrossfiresbecauseofherstupidity.Shemademeturnintoamediator,exchanginghernotes,loveletters,andotheritemsforaboywhousedtobemyneighbor,andtheboyreciprocated.Everythingwasgoingswimminglyuntilmymotherdiscoveredthosenotesinmyschoolbag.

Ingeneral,mymotherisverysweetandgenerous.Shedoesn’teveninterferewithmystuff,butwhenshefoundthoselettersinmybag,herinstantreactionwasnothingbutfiringquestionsafterquestions.Iknow,shemisunderstoodme.Shethoughtthosewereforme.But“howshouldItellyou,mom?I’veneverbeensolucky.”

Wait!Theworstpartisyettocome.Soumya’smothercalledmymotheryelling“Whyisyourdaughterdoingallthese?Askhernottodaretodoanythinglikethatinthefuture.”

Justatruefriendthing…ShewascaughtonthesamedayIwascaughtwithherstuff.Seriously?Butshestillcoulddosomethingaboutit.Shewouldrathertellhermothertheentiretruthfrombeginningtoend,butwhy?Whywouldshedothat?Afterall,itwasmeontheotherend,so…

Mymotherdidn’tallowmetogotoschoolthatday,insteadgavemeherbestlectureonthecruelworldtodate.She’dtellmenottobesoinnocentthatotherpeopletakeadvantageofme.Nonetheless,herwordspersuadedmeandIwasconvincedthatIwon’tbetrustingpeoplefromnowon.But…

WhenImovedtoVisakhapatnamformyintermediatestudies,itwasthefirsttimeIwentawayfromhomealonetoahostel.BecauseIwasalreadyseparatedfrommyfamily,Ihadnochoicebuttorelyonthosearoundme.Itwasafantasticopportunitytotrynewthings,particularlymakingfriends,whichIwasalreadyverygoodat.Ididthesame,makingmanynewfriendsandbeingfortunatetohavearoommatefromthesamehometownasmine.Nikitaisthedaughterofmyfather’scolleague.

IwasoverjoyedandrelievedbecauseIhadfoundsomeonefrommyhometown.It’sbecausewhenyou’renotathome,peoplefromthesameareacanbetterconnectwithoneanother.Sothenextstepwastostrengthenourbond.Webegansharingeverythingfromourmostridiculousgossiptoourmostpersonalinformation.Afterafewdayshadpassed,shetoldmeaboutherboyfriend.But,sinceIdidn’thaveany,howcouldItellhermystory?

I’dnevermethimorseenaphotographofhimexceptforthefactIknewthatherboyfriendisfromourhometown,howtheyaremadlyinlovewitheachother,andhowfartheycouldgointheirrelationship.Wedidn’thaveourcellphoneswithus.Becauseofcourse,wewerenotallowedtohavethatinsidecampus.AndafterwecamebackfromthereandIwenttocollege,Ihadn’thadanycontactwithanyonetillthattime.SoIdidn’thaveanyideaaboutanyoneandneitherdidabouther.DidInottellyou?Ihadnocellphone,soobviously,Icouldn’tcontactanyone.

Iknow,youmustbethinkingwhywouldInotmeetherwhenwewereinthesamecity?That’sbecause…Idon’tknow.I’mweird.

AllthankstothemassiveFacebook,whichhashelpedmanypeoplefindtheirmissinglovedones,ofwhichIwasone.WhenIstartedcollege,Igotmyfirstcellphone,andImademyfirstFacebookaccount.Otherssawitasamatch-makingplatform,butIsawitasawaytoreconnectwitholdfriendsIhadlosttouchwithaftergraduatingfromhighschool.Ifoundseveralofthem,includingNikita.

Thankyou,God!Attheveryleast,Icanlearnaboutwhat’sgoingoninthelivesofmyfriends.Ifnotall,atleastNikita,becausewewereapparentlyveryclosefriendsbythetime.Webeganbysaying“Hi”onFacebookMessenger,andafterexchangingnumbers,shesentmeapicture.Man!Isn’tittruethatatleastonepersonshouldhaveaconversationaboutthepicture,orthatthepersontowhomyouaresendingthepictureshouldbeawareofit?But,asItoldyou,wewerethatclose.

WhenIaskedaboutthatpicture,shetoldmeitwasherboyfriend’s.She’daskmenext,“Remember?Itoldyouabouthim.”That’saroundtwoyearsback.ButIhaveagreatmemory.Iinstantlyreplied,“Yesyes,Ido!”Andthenwehadaprettygoodtimeconversing.

Afterafewdays,shetoldmeshewantedmetobeaddedtoaWhatsAppgroupshehadcreatedonlyforthethreeofus.

Three!

Nikita,Nikita’sboyfriend,andI“Okay!”“Isaid.Thenwetalkedforafewdays,andasourbondgrewstronger,Nikitaaskedmetoplanameeting.Itwasamorecasualmeeting,andshehadacondition.Sheaskedmenottotellherfatheraboutherboyfriend,whoisalsoaccompanyingher.“Wait,what?Yourboyfriend?”

Umm…Iwasnotpreparedforthat.ButwhatcouldIpossiblysaytoherinsteadofOkay?

Wethreemetforamovieandhadfuneatingoutside.Butsoon,Irealizedtheplanwasnottomeetme.Itwasforthembecausethe