The Self-Love Habit E-Book

Fiona Brennan

• Herausgeber: Gill Books
• Kategorie: Ratgeber
• Sprache: Englisch

Veröffentlichungsjahr: 2021

Beschreibung

Many of us find it easy to love others but do not know how to love ourselves. Do you struggle with the seemingly 'difficult' parts of yourself that lurk in the shadows, often hidden from the world – frustration, anxiety, self-doubt, anger? The Self-Love Habit is about learning to bring these parts of yourself out from the darkness and into the light. By loving and paying attention to the rejected aspects of ourselves, we give ourselves the power to transform in ways we never thought possible. Fiona Brennan's four powerful self-love habits – LISTEN, OPEN, VALUE, ENERGISE – will teach you how to do this. When you truly love yourself, your whole world opens to serenity and your self-imposed limitations fall away. The accompanying hypnotherapy audios will rewire your brain as you sleep and help you to start the day full of loving energy by changing the negative, unconscious habit of living through fear into the positive, conscious habit of living through love. Get ready to transform internal battles into inner peace and external relationships into a source of endless joy as you discover why self-love is the most selfless love of all.

Leseprobe

For Mum, Dad and Orla.Thank you for loving all of me, all my life.My heart will always remain your home.

Contents

Cover

Title Page

Dedication

Foreword

Introduction

Part I

The Journey to Self + Love

The Divided Self

The United Self

Part II

Habit One – Listen

Habit Two – Open

Habit Three – Value

Habit Four – Energise

Conclusion

66-Day Chart

Notes

Further Reading

Acknowledgements

Copyright

About the Author

About Gill Books

Foreword

Human beings are fairly complex compilations of stardust. How we navigate our worlds is influenced by our biology, past experiences, psychology, culture, and relationships. These influences are nuanced and layered, and they can often leave us feeling unable to get out of our own way. In the relentless war for our attention, the modern world has also designed a pretty extensive and subtle range of distractions, which even the most resilient of defences cannot protect against.

When I look back from a space of relative peace and contentment at my own journey, things that once seemed hazy now have clarity. One of the building blocks of my recovery came from the realisation that, although human beings are deeply complex and intricate, our needs aren’t. Our culture often tricks us into believing we need certain things in order to be happy, and we find ourselves constantly chasing that moment of enlightenment. I spent fifteen years doing it – believing my happiness lay in achievement, material things, success and acceptance from others. I would set a goal, achieve it, and move on to the next one. Ironically, by chasing a certain life, I was missing out on living one. It always felt like there was something missing. It was an unquenchable thirst that I could never satisfy.

As I voyaged through the therapeutic process, it became pretty evident what that missing piece was: I never let myself experience pride; I had little to no compassion for myself; I had these unrelenting standards, and even when I managed to meet them, I brushed my accomplishments off. It was realising this that allowed for the rebuilding of my sense of self. This insight was important, but insight requires action.

The foundation of a strong sense of self is compassion. For me, it is the most basic of human needs. It is also a brilliant starting point for creating a more sustainable defence against the hostile elements of the modern world, so that we can embrace and enjoy the amazing and joyful stuff we all experience too. But the journey to building self-compassion doesn’t mean we can bypass the inevitably difficult stuff that life throws at us. So much of the narrative within the wellness industry is about airbrushing out negativity, dismissing it as a bold child, and creating an almost synthetic positivity without any clear road map for how to actually get there. The reality is that it’s often the darkness that can teach us the most about ourselves.

In Fiona’s first book, The Positive Habit, she explored how the human condition relates to positivity and how positivity is much more than an inspirational quote or meme that we are force-fed in some Facebook thread. She looked at how we can hold our negative patterns to account. How we need to find ways to challenge them. How the neurological mechanisms that send us into a spiral of negativity are the very ones we can use to build a habitually more positive mindset. The Positive Habit provided a clear road map that was practical, tangible and, most important, impactful.

Fiona’s writing doesn’t come from a place of hierarchy. It feels like she is talking with you rather than to you, and that is very important. None of us have this mad world, or our mad heads, all figured out, but with Fiona it always feels like you are in safe hands – like she is shining a torch so that you can see your way in the dark. That is what resonates with me and hopefully it will resonate with you too.

Reading Fiona’s second book, The Self-Love Habit, I am enlivened by the fact that she has continued this incredible, relatable style that made her first book such a success. Once again, the key here is the road map. Working on both a conscious and a subconscious level, Fiona explores four crucial habits for building the ability to accept and love yourself in a world that sometimes makes it hard to do so. Listen, open, value, and energise: these words don’t mean a hell of a lot out of context, but once you start to delve into the content of each one, they really open up our reflective natures, which makes books such as this so important. Fiona’s ability to disarm the ego and provide a window of self-awareness to the reader before rolling out the techniques and the rationale behind them is what makes her books so impactful. I don’t feel condescended to, and, if I am honest, when I read books about the human condition I often find myself feeling that way.

This pandemic has tested us all – and continues to do so. Just when you think you have some form of control over your state of mind, you hit a wall. But it has also presented us with an opportunity. An opportunity to become better guardians of our own minds. To re-evaluate value systems and belief structures. To take personal responsibility for our own emotional wellbeing. To decide where and upon whom we want to place our precious presence and attention. But here’s the thing: it takes work. It takes commitment. There are no shortcuts – you need to take the scenic route. It’s longer and there are some crappy roads with potholes and hills, but, my God, it’s worth it. This book can guide you on that scenic route and will act as the North Star if you are veering a little bit off course. In essence, what’s important to remember is that, although the mind can be weakened, it can be strengthened. Life is not a straight line; trying to pretend it is lies at the root of a lot of our suffering.

I will finish by reiterating the key principles of the practice of mindfulness-based interventions. Nurture ‘beginner’s mind’, or curiosity. Bring fresh eyes to this book. Open your mind to its content. Engage with it. Challenge it. Explore it. Knowledge and education diminish fear, and this book has those in abundance.

– NIALL BRESLIN, NOVEMBER 2020

INTRODUCTION

‘Vivre sans aimer n’est pas proprement vivre.’

(‘To live without loving is to not really live.’)

MOLIÈRE

EXTRACT FROM MY PRIVATE DIARY ENTRY, AGE 20. SUNDAY, 3 SEPTEMBER 1995, ISSY-LES-MOULINEAUX, PARIS.

I can hardly move. I am motionless. I feel lost and long for Mum. I know how pathetic this is. I mean, here I am in my worshipped blue studio in Paris, the dream I have been looking forward to for months and I feel totally empty and alone.

Things at home were so good before I left. I had so much fun that I almost wish none of it had happened. I spent the most loving and precious time with Mum, who could never have been more kind. All my friends were full of love and last but not least Ciaran came to see me coz he really wanted to! I find him so much fun, so kind and so sexy. I was so sad saying goodbye to him.

The tears of self-pity are rolling down my face. Have I made the right decision? I can’t help thinking of my last disaster as an au pair. I am afraid and I feel trapped. I am here now miles away from the people I love. Why did I think I was able to deal with this? I think I am very tired and really need to relax. It physically hurts to be away from Mum, she means so much to me.

I am in a great city; I am determined to make a go of my acting career but I can’t help feeling lost. Life is too precious to whittle away feeling sad. I have loved and I will keep on loving. People are the most important things in the world.

× × ×Love and Fear

THERE ARE FEW certainties in life. Death is one, love is another. Despite humanity’s desperate search for certitude and security, many of us invest too much of our lives in fearing death and doubting love.

In this book, I will do my utmost to trust your ability to love and be loved and to give you the courage to become comfortable with death so you can live fully. Many people look for security in all the wrong places and worry that they are not good enough. The etymology of the verb ‘to worry’ is Old English and it means ‘to strangle’. If you feel anxious or overwhelmed, you may feel like you cannot breathe and are being psychologically choked.

Love is the antidote to fear. Love is life itself.

The primary focus of this book is self-love. When you love all the parts of yourself, you have the capacity, the compassion and the patience to love others. That well-known maxim, ‘the whole is greater than the sum of its parts’ (attributed to Aristotle), is true. For example, a family that strives to include each member is stronger, happier and more united as a result; or a sports team in which each member focuses on the overall effort rather than being a solo player is more successful. Clearly, it is easier to love the parts of yourself (and others) that you already like, for example being kind, generous and productive. My intention is that you begin to love the parts of yourself that you may hide from the world, the seemingly more ‘difficult’ parts that may lurk in the shadows, for example frustration, anxiety and anger. These are the parts that need your love, care and attention more than any other.

Loving all of yourself is not an indulgent or selfish act – ultimately, it is one of survival. It is the most selfless skill you will ever learn, and it definitely is a skill. It took me a long time to realise this on a cognitive level and longer still to live it. I have now made it my mission to share with you how to fall in love with yourself and ultimately with life. To do this, we must start with a still mind.

Have you ever experienced the immediate relief when an irritating background noise like a cooker fan or a radio is turned off? It is the absence of the sound that you enjoy. Peace ensues and you wonder why you had not turned it off sooner. Can you imagine being able to turn off unnecessary fear? Imagine living a life without selfimposed limitations. This is the transition you make when you choose to live through love. Your whole world opens to serenity. You no longer hear or feel the background hum of anxiety and your mind is clear. The realisation that you have a choice is your ultimate liberation. It is acting on that choice that makes all the difference.

Self-awareness and proactivity is love.Love is everything.

It is not a coincidence that you picked up this book. There is a reason that you selected it, so trust your instinct. You have my word that there is no concept or exercise in this book that I have not applied to alleviate my own anxiety and that of my clients. The four LOVE habits explored in this book will teach you the art of how to love yourself and others more deeply. They will transform your internal battles into inner peace and your external relationships into a source of endless joy. As Oscar Wilde said, ‘To love oneself is the beginning of a lifelong romance.’ So here we are, at the beginning.

× × ×Be Yourself

IF YOU HAVE ever felt anxious before an important event, a wellintentioned loved one may have said, ‘Just be yourself.’ But what if you genuinely do not know who that is? How can you just ‘be’ a stranger? What if the ‘you’ when you wake up in the morning seems like a different person from the one who goes to bed at night? Or different from the one who is at work or at home with your family or out with friends? What if you are confused by these disparate, often divided parts of yourself? How do you respond when the ‘wrong’ self turns up at the most inopportune of moments, for example the anxious part surfacing at an important meeting or when giving a speech? ‘Véritable soi’ is a French phrase that originally comes from Latin and means ‘true and genuine self’. This book will help you to live and breathe your one true self no matter where you are or whose company you are in.

The French philosopher Blaise Pascal wrote, ‘All men’s miseries derive from not being able to sit in a quiet room alone.’ Could this be true? And if so, why are more of us not doing it? My diary entry above is an example of a lost young soul who was very much alone in a quiet room. I was unable to carry the burden of silence. Being myself, by myself, was too hard. The intensity of the emotions I felt, swinging from despair to determination in the blink of a tear, was exhausting. I was blinded by fear in the perceived absence of my mother’s love and was unaware of my innate ability to love myself.

The two seemingly opposing emotions of love and fear have both played a crucial role in our evolution and survival. Love and fear are deeply and intrinsically interconnected – one cannot exist without the other.

Without experiencing the transformative energies of both fear and love, your development remains stagnant, stunted and small.

Your emotional comfort zone can become increasingly uncomfortable. Fear of being hurt and lack of confidence may lead you to shun new opportunities. You may unconsciously and automatically flee as soon as any fear emerges in order to protect yourself. For example, if you have been hurt by a partner in the past, you may remain single as it seems safer and you are less exposed to potential rejection.

Many of us will resist feeling our fear at all costs. We will distract ourselves, ignore, ruminate and attempt to anaesthetise the pain with food, alcohol or drugs. Fear itself is what we fear most. This resistance leads to either a low or high level of habitual anxiety, that background din that drains your energy. Recent data from the World Health Organization (WHO) shows that: ‘The proportion of the global population with anxiety disorders in 2015 is estimated to be 3.6 per cent. As with depression, anxiety disorders are more common among females than males (4.6 per cent compared to 2.6 per cent at the global level).’1 This estimate is based on diagnosed disorders, but the figure is likely to be far higher, with many people, especially men, staying silent. Undiagnosed day-to-day anxiety is rampant. I know this because I see it in my clinic, and I can’t keep up with the clients who need my one-to-one help.

Fear is one of the most contagious emotions and is especially infectious in groups of work colleagues and families – when one person panics, their fear spreads like a virus. On a broader level, the media can inflict collective hysteria. The good news is that calmness and other positive emotions are equally infectious. A centred person has the ability to shift a crisis into a manageable event. Dr Brené Brown, the international bestselling author and researcher, defined calmness as ‘perspective, mindfulness and the ability to manage emotional reactivity’.2

Resisting fear does one thing only: it creates more fear.

If I were to tell you that by accepting fear and yourself as you are, not how you think you should be, you will transform your life, would you believe me? It sounds too simple and also counterintuitive. How can you accept something as debilitating as anxiety? I’ve seen many clients struggle with this principle and it is one we will return to often. In the seeds of acceptance, love emerges. Acceptance takes time, patience and love. Fortunately, we have an abundance of all three, so it is much more important to get it right than to get it quickly. When you have truly mastered the power of acceptance, you are liberated.

There is, of course, a wide spectrum of emotional states that dwell between love and fear. The subtle and nuanced rainbow of emotions that shapes your everyday world includes joy, happiness, calmness, serenity, irritability, frustration, anger and so on. Like most of us, you will sway unconsciously through this gamut of mental states, unaware that the two potent underlying energies of love and fear dictate your greatest decisions.

× × ×The Unconditioned Self

WHEN YOU LOOK in the mirror, what self do you see? Does the image reflect acceptance (love) or resistance (fear)? Can you look in the mirror and see beyond the immediately physical? Can you see past the lines on your face or the shape of your body? I would add to Pascal’s quote above that much of our misery also comes from our inability to look at our own reflection without judgement. We are constantly looking to fix what is wrong with us, both externally and internally, and this creates a harsh, persistent message of ‘I am not good enough as I am’.

Contrast this with how a toddler looks at him or herself in the mirror; often they will gaze with curiosity, warmth and joy. They are inquisitive, not critical, and accept all of themselves effortlessly. There is no internal critic questioning if their arms or belly look too chubby. They have not yet learned the cruel habit of self-comparison.

Next time you have the joy of being with a pre-school child, observe how comfortable they are in and with their own skin. Watch how they move their bodies like dancers, so at ease and full of grace. You and I were both this toddler once, totally at ease and comfortable in our skin. Can you remember that feeling of freedom?

In his 1762 book The Social Contract, Jean-Jacques Rousseau, the French enlightenment philosopher, wrote, ‘Man is born free, but is everywhere in chains.’ The Christian concept of original sin and the fall of man burdens humanity with guilt and shame for disobedience and for giving in to temptation in the Garden of Eden. With this theological backdrop, what chance did the notion of self-love have? How could we love ourselves in totality if we are identified as sinners before we can even talk?

Rousseau’s concept of the ‘noble savage’ contradicts this notion. Essentially, he states that humans are born into nature pure, innocent and good and become corrupted by ‘civilisation’ and religion. The external influences cause catastrophic disharmony within the self and lead, over time, to becoming conditioned to loathe the more vulnerable parts of our nature. Rousseau also wrote, ‘What wisdom can you find greater than kindness?’ Imagine living free of guilt and being wisely kind and compassionate to the tender parts of yourself rather than harsh and unforgiving.

When you dwell in the province of self-love, life’s greatest traumas become bearable and everyday mundanity is lifted into the sublime.

In the extract from my diary above, I had just turned 20 and was clearly confused. I felt like an independent, mature adult embarking on a new adventure, but at the same time I felt like a homesick child. I had moved to Paris on my own with big plans to make it as an actress. I did not know a soul in the city, had little money and only school French. As an extrovert who depended totally on social interaction, how was I to survive alone?

I had no choice but to be with myself. There was a void in my young heart that literally hurt as I was in a strange city away from the people I loved. I did not know who my véritable soi (true self) was. I craved my mother’s love in much the same way a child might on their first day of school. I yearned to return to a cocooned state of being. The threat of loneliness lingered deep in my heart and the hours, days, weeks and months stretched out ahead of me. Now, with the benefit of hindsight, I can see clearly that in my youth I was prone to being dramatic! It was my fuel. I believed my thoughts as facts, not rumours. I did not take the time to understand my fears. I thought that all love was conditional. Such can be both the folly and innocence of youth.

Imagine if your daughter, sister or friend was in the same position. What would you say to them? Would you tell them to come home? Would you fly over to be with them or would you encourage them to stay and ride out the storm, reassuring them that it would get better? In my case, I was an adult, albeit a young and anxious one. Even if my mother had dropped everything and run to my rescue in my little studio, would it have been the solution? Even then I knew it would not have been, and so did she.

As we mature, the relationship between a parent and child must evolve from the original dynamic of protector and protected to one of two balanced, emotionally self-reliant individuals, equals who operate on mutual respect and who have let go of any true or perceived pain from the past.

In my clinical work, I see many people aged 20, 30, 40 and beyond who remain stuck in old, static versions of the parent–child relationship. They are acting out their conditioned personal histories. This often leads them to be unintentionally consumed with blame and anger and they are often deeply repressed. They then unintentionally transfer this to their loved ones through guilt and irritation. For example, a person who cannot forgive an alcoholic parent transfers their unresolved fears to their non-alcoholic partner and becomes rattled each time their partner has a drink. Making insights through self-knowledge is imperative for your happiness and for those you love.

× × ×The Beholder

THE QUINTESSENTIAL QUESTIONS ‘Who am I?’ and ‘What is the self?’ have been debated by philosophers for centuries, from Socrates (Ancient Greece, 399 BC) to Philo of Alexandria (Judaism, AD 50) to St Augustine (Christian, AD 430) to Voltaire and Hume in the European Age of Enlightenment (eighteenth century). While this desire to explain our consciousness remains very much alive in philosophy and, indeed, psychology, the birth of modern neuroscience means that the brain can now be scanned for evidence of where human consciousness resides. Despite this, neuroscientists still have not been able to find it … yet.

Our greatest power is invisible.

In his essay ‘The Mystery of Consciousness’, Sam Harris, the eminent American neuroscientist, states, ‘The problem, however, is that no evidence for consciousness exists in the physical world.’ The evidence is the experience. In lieu of science, the sceptics among us can perhaps learn something from spiritual leaders like Eckhart Tolle:

There is one self that is the illusion, which is the identification with the mind and the ego, which is the unobserved mind that says ‘what about me?’ … but I refer to who you are beyond the form, beyond the thoughts and emotions. You as the consciousness is the self. The self has no form ... you can never say ‘there it is’, because who is saying this? You are the consciousness! You are it!3

Can you imagine this state of oneness? In Hindu philosophy, Ātman is the Sanskrit for ‘universal self’. I refer to this presence throughout this book as ‘the Beholder’, the one who witnesses your thoughts, emotions and behaviours but is not defined by any of them. The Beholder is always with you – even now, it is the part of you that reads these words while your mind analyses the concepts we explore. Would you like to be totally in harmony with reality, even when – in fact, especially when – it is difficult? To accept life as it unfolds? To be free from a mind that is plagued by thoughts that never end? To live without an inflated ego that is either constantly seeking more power, wealth and acknowledgement or not feeling worthy and self-conscious?

Is this possible? Absolutely, yes, it is. It is my life’s work and now this oneness can become yours. The four LOVE habits that you will learn have been created to capture fleeting moments of loving presence and to allow them to grow organically from moments to hours, weeks, months and years to a lifetime.

Although possible, this is not without effort.

Is there anything that is meaningful to you that you have gained without effort? Do you have a relationship with someone you love that requires no effort? Viewing effort and work as a positive in this process – or, indeed, in anything you do – is paramount. However, as I mentioned earlier, many of us look in all the wrong places to feel loved and secure. We look to convention.

× × ×The Conventional Calendar

‘Have patience with all things, but, first of all with yourself.’

SAINT FRANCIS DE SALES

AT THEIR FIRST CONSULTATION, my clients will often have a genuine sense of urgency that is palpable. They may have been waiting months for an appointment and are now really desperate to be free of the anxiety or issue they have sought my help for. I can relate to this need for things to happen now, but love cannot be rushed and fear needs time to be quelled.

So what causes impatience? There are many reasons, but one of the most toxic beliefs I encounter with clients that fuels impatience is that you must conform to the conditioned expectations of your family and society at key points in your life. However, it is more often your own conditioned expectations that you strive to meet. If you fail to do this according to the conventional calendar, you may constantly feel like a disappointment and like you are not good enough. While convention can give the illusion of security, it often does the opposite. You fail to feel accepted until you have ticked the next box. Love is therefore conditional and is always deferred.

A typical example of a conventional calendar, in chronological order, starting with childhood, is:

Do what you are told

Don’t bring attention to yourself

Don’t question authority

Do well in school

Get good grades in your final exams

Go to a good college

Study something that has good earning potential but is not what sets your heart on fire

Get a good job

Get married

Get a better job

Buy a house

Have a child

Have another one

And maybe another

Get promoted

Send your kids to good schools

Put off anything you want to do until you retire

Put your kids through college

Put the same suffocating social expectations on them

Retire with a good pension

Help to take care of your grandchildren

Die without too much difficulty and don’t be a burden to your children

How many of the items on this list have you checked? It is not just family and society that create and maintain these expectations – we do it to ourselves. The roll call of assumptions about how your life ‘should’ play out leaves no room for the immense range of possibilities that do not follow this prescriptive path. For example, if you are not academic and do not fit in with the standard school system, you might believe that you are not smart enough to go to college. If you wish to pursue a more creative path, you may easily be talked out of it for fear of not having a secure income. How many latent artistic geniuses are sweating it out in offices until retirement?

When it comes to having children, there are many pressures: being single and not having met the right person at the right time; fertility issues; miscarriage; desperately wanting kids but being in a same-sex relationship and having to navigate the best way to make this happen; or perhaps one of the greatest social stigmas of all, especially for a woman – not wanting to have kids.

If you are in your twenties or thirties, you will be at the busiest box-ticking stage in your life. If you are in your forties, you may have ticked some of the boxes and still have some more to do, or maybe you have reached the stage where all the boxes are ticked and you realise that there is still something missing, a void in the empty nest or retirement years that you can’t fill.

None of the things on this list is inherently negative – in fact, most of them are positive milestones in life (I’ve ticked a few myself) – but it is important to realise that they are not the only options available. They do not need to be followed in the order that society expects of us, or even followed at all. The fear of being left behind can keep you desperately propelling yourself forward in a bid to ‘keep up’ with the presumed and socially conditioned trajectory of your life rather than explore what you might really want. Even if you consider yourself to be ‘a free spirit’, you are likely to fall prey to these conditioned expectations. The energy you use not to conform can be equally exhausting.

The comparative culture of social media feeds on this insecurity, encouraging you to scroll through Instagram or Facebook. This can leave you feeling utterly deflated when you emerge from the digital fog. Social media does not take into account context and perspective. For example, a mum of three young kids will look enviously at her single friend’s freedom to go for a run and a night out whenever she desires, while the same single friend looks at the pictures of her friend’s three adorable children and worries that she will never have her own. The unfortunate compulsion to compare ourselves to others is nothing new, but the digital world amplifies this impulse and provides a constant platform for us to berate ourselves.

Part of you already knows that your ‘achievements’ – the house you live in, your salary, the car you drive (or do not drive), where you go on your next holiday – are not who you are or why people like you. You are not loved for having the perfect body or not. It may seem obvious, but part of you remains a servant to conditioned beliefs.

We are subconsciously hardwired to fit in and not stand out.

In the teenage years, being different in any way can be terrifying and the comparison habit can last a lifetime if you allow it to. However, I have yet to be at a funeral where the priest or a loved one gave a eulogy like this: ‘We loved Peter or Sandra so much because they drove a brand new Mercedes, lived in a big house and worked 12 hours a day.’

It is often through the death of someone close or a collective experience such as the global coronavirus pandemic that a clearer perspective emerges of what is truly important. Without adversity, many of us whittle away our precious energy on ticking boxes. Most of us care way too much about what other people think of us. Even when you think you do not care, many of your choices are being guided by the primitive motive of trying to be included, to be a part of the pack.

The Self-Love Habit will help you to see this archaic impulse as something you can overcome by standing up, standing out and taking action.

This can also translate into your political, social and civic responsibilities. One of the countless examples of injustices that need our attention is that in Ireland, we live in a ‘developed’ society where children are being made homeless every day. According to the Dublin Simon Community, statistics show that in November 2019, 10,448 people were homeless. One in three people seeking emergency services is a child. Stopping to have a chat to a homeless person, volunteering or donating are all ways that can help to alleviate some of the pain for those affected. Love teaches us to cut through divisive social chains, as referred to in Rousseau’s The Social Contract.

The Self-Love Habit is first about becoming one with yourself, of feeling whole and complete, and then feeling connected to every individual. A homeless statistic is not just a number that you read – it could be yourself, your child or someone you love.

Love wakes us up to endeavour to help every human being to the best of our ability.

Like all transformation, it begins and ends with self-knowledge.

× × ×You Are Love

‘Self-knowledge is no guarantee of happiness, but it is on the side of happiness and can supply the courage to fight for it.’

SIMONE DE BEAUVOIR

IF YOU ARE ASKED the question, ‘Tell me about yourself,’ what do you say? Imagine that you are not permitted to give any facts about where you live, how old you are or what you do for a living. The immediate impulse is to jump in with the facts that we believe define us. Our work, relationship status and number of children all act as acceptable codes of where we take our place in society. However, knowing and loving who you are in the deepest sense of the word is the essence of what this book is about.

Knowing yourself fully allows you to love yourself fully.

I recall quite vividly being about 18 years old and going for a walk on my own along a stunning coastline in Greece. I felt lost at the time, as too many late nights and too much alcohol were compounding my already low self-esteem. Suddenly, I felt that I was not on my own. Instead, I was with this lovely person (me) who I was content to be with and wanted to get to know better. A calming energy was assuring me that I was well then and that I would always be well if I listened to myself. This soothing part of me wanted me to stay. I did, but only for a short while and I quickly forgot my ability to self-soothe. As I mature, this energy has become a familiar warm glow that often comes to me as I nod off to sleep or walk by the sea. I do not actively create this feeling; it emerges all by itself. I have learned that it comes from stillness.

× × ×Dare to Love Yourself!

THE WORD ‘PHILOSOPHY’ comes from Ancient Greek and literally means ‘the love of wisdom’. Philosophers from the Age of Enlightenment, also known as the Age of Reason, such as Voltaire, Rousseau and Diderot, took a strong stance against the feudal system in which France was controlled by the Church and the monarchy. Their opposition helped to sow the seeds of the French Revolution and led to the separation of Church and State in France. They believed that society should be based on reason and the needs of the individual, that we are masters of our own fate. We can hear the echoes of Aristotle’s and Socrates’ philosophies here, as they also strove to set humankind free and enable us to think for ourselves rather than blindly accepting strict religious doctrine.

The phrase ‘sapere aude’ (dare to know) captured this growing sea change. A message of hope and self-agency was born – that you are in charge of your own happiness and, crucially, that you do not have to spend the rest of your life repenting for original sin.

Consider these two important questions:

1 Do you dare to know yourself?

2 Do you dare to see the goodness in yourself?

Interestingly, the study of philosophy has been mandatory in all French secondary schools since 1808. To this day, the French education system desires to produce enlightened citizens and has a thorough four-hour philosophy exam in the baccalaureate (the final exam in high school). Students write essays on questions such as ‘Is it one’s own responsibility to find happiness?’ or ‘Is man condemned to create illusions about himself?’ In tackling such metaphysical questions, young adults develop the most useful intelligence of all: emotional intelligence. Pierre-Henri Tavoillot, head of the Philosophy Department at the Sorbonne University in Paris, proudly stated, ‘If there is one reason to be optimistic about France, this is it.’4

I can’t help wondering that if I, too, had pondered such questions in my Leaving Certificate, would I have been just a little bit better equipped to deal with the loneliness I felt in Paris? If developing emotional intelligence helps you to love yourself and to contribute to creating a more peaceful world, then surely this is a habit worth learning.

× × ×Why Make Self-Love a Habit?

‘Habits are the way you embody identity. True behaviour change is really identity change.’

JAMES CLEAR

WHEN YOU ARE learning a new habit, your brain uses a lot of energy to hardwire the new behaviour into your neural structures. This way, it can transform a conscious activity in the prefrontal cortex and hippocampus regions of the brain into a subconscious pattern in the more primitive basal ganglia area of the lower brain. Wendy Wood, psychologist and author of Good Habits, Bad Habits, describes this process in more simple terms as ‘the rudimentary machinery of our minds’.

Automating positive habits is a boon to the human brain, as it frees up your conscious mind to focus on new tasks and make decisions. If you drive, compare the nervous energy you spent when you first learned to drive (remembering which pedal and gear to use) with how you are now when you get behind the wheel. You can now drive a familiar route on autopilot, arriving at your destination safely and yet with no real memory of the journey. When a habit becomes automated, the conscious mind can roam freely to either solve problems or create new ones, which is why many people find the car to be a good place to think.

The flip side of the automation of habits is that negative habits are actually more automatic than positive ones and often occur before you have time to become aware of their destructive force. This is where the habit of rumination and catastrophising can kick in.

Imagined worries become as gripping as real ones.

The Self-Love Habit will train you to automate the process of being an emotionally intelligent individual. Positive behavioural habits will become your default state. By developing a loving presence, all your encounters become ones where you listen to understand, are open to reality, value the other and inject a loving energy into the exchange.

Subconsciously you know how to love, but the habit of showing love is one that few of us have consciously learned. The difference may appear subtle, but the impact is immense. For example, many people only find the right words to express their love to a parent when the parent is on their deathbed or vice versa, when a parent will express deep feelings of love for their child in their final hours. Many of my clients who were fortunate enough to be present when their parents passed have told me that they never realised how deeply they were loved until that moment.

Doubts and grievances melt away in the final prized moments of our lives.

Death wakes us up to the importance of speaking our truth. We finally find the courage to say what we want to say before it is too late. Establishing self-love as a habit now means you do not wait until your or a loved one’s dying hours to enjoy deep, honest and loving relationships. And that includes your relationship with yourself.

In one 2011 psychological study,5 it was estimated that 40 per cent of what we do on a daily basis is an automatic subconscious habit, including our behaviours, thoughts and emotions. Are you in the habit of giving and receiving love? Many of us struggle to form new positive habits not because we are incapable of making the change, but because the new behaviour does not match our old identity. For example, I may want to lose weight, but in my mind I identify myself as someone who has always been overweight.

In his book Atomic Habits, James Clear outlines what he calls ‘The Four Laws of Behavior Change’ that apply if you want to change a negative habit to positive one:

1 Make it obvious.

2 Make it attractive.

3 Make it easy.

4 Make it satisfying.

It is my mission to help you change the negative unconscious habit of living through fear into the positive conscious habit of living through self-love. I have incorporated these four ‘laws’ throughout the book as an underlying methodology. Once you begin to feel the reward of living a more loving life, any old habits of stress and anxiety will melt away into the past – where they belong.

× × ×How to Use this Book

YOU MAY HAVE read hundreds of self-help books or maybe this is your first. Either way, you will have doubts about whether what is proposed will really work. I appreciate that, I really do. It would be a mistake for you not to question what you read. While a healthy level of scepticism is normal, I want to gently highlight at this stage that two common beliefs have the potential to block your progress. These are:

× ‘This won’t work for me.’ This is true if you believe it. For the duration of the process, trust me and trust yourself. It will work if you allow it to.

× ‘I already know this’ or ‘This is obvious.’ Perhaps, but knowing something intellectually and living and breathing it are two different things.

If and when these thoughts arise, remember that they are normal, then consciously choose to gently let them go.

There are a few other essential points that will help you to engage fully with the book:

× Remember, the Self-Love Habit is unique because it works on both a conscious and subconscious level. Listen to the audios every day.

× Give the book your full loving commitment and keep an open mind.

× If I repeat myself, it is intentional, as neuroplasticity and habit-building work on repetition.

PART ONE

Part One is broken into three chapters. Below is a brief summary of what we will cover.

THE JOURNEY TO SELF + LOVE

× What is self-love?

× How to understand yourself better

× Hypnotherapy – what it is and what it is not

× The connection of self-love and the relationship you have with your body

× The science of self-love and falling in love

× Practical exercises on all of the above

THE DIVIDED SELF

× What are the different parts of yourself?

× Examination of the two main players: Part A: The Beholder (the unconditioned, conscious mind – love) and Part B: The Shadow Self (the conditioned subconscious mind – fear). For clarity, I will often simply refer to these as Part A and Part B. These two parts often experience the most conflict. For example, A says ‘I am going to start exercising’, but B turns on Netflix. Another brief example might be that A wants to leave her job, but B is afraid to do so. These are relatively common experiences and many of my clients have been consumed by such inner battles that express themselves as anything from mild irritation to a full-blown war.

× The four main blocks to self-love (read on to find out what they are!)

× Understanding the purpose of the Shadow Self

× The inflated ego and how to tame it

× Practical exercises on all of the above

THE UNITED SELF

× How to unite Parts A and B – love and fear

× How to live and breathe your ideal self

× The malleable self – understanding your past, present and future selves

× How looking at the world from different perspectives will help you to unite your orphaned parts

× Practical exercises on all of the above

PART TWO: THE FOUR LOVE HABITS

When you are feeling more unified, whole and complete, we will move on to the second part of the book, which introduces the four LOVE habits. These four key habits are formed and expressed through four active verbs and are designed to be highly practical and easy to recall. You can apply them to any situation, person or place to achieve the happiest outcome for yourself and everyone around you. They contain the requisite emotional intelligence to help you transform all areas of your life from the influence of fear into one of love.

These four habits are contained in the easy-to-remember acronym LOVE. You won’t forget that!

L – Listen. Listening to your heart and other people in a way that seeks first of all to understand.

O – Open. Opening to compassionate presence, vulnerability, honesty and relinquishing the ego.

V – Value. Valuing yourself and others, learning to appreciate gratitude, trust and respect.

E – Energise. Energising, evolving and transforming yourself and the world with a loving presence.

Please note that these four habits must be learned and practised in the order in which they are presented. Do not be tempted to skip forward.

As you practise them and they become embedded in your subconscious, you will begin to be able to choose the most useful habit for your current situation. For example, when you feel hurt that someone has let you down, it may serve you best to be open to compassion both for yourself and for the person you feel hurt by.

THE LOVE INTERVIEWS