Ubomi obunye kuphela E-Book

Wagner Eduard

• Herausgeber: neobooks
• Kategorie: Geisteswissenschaft
• Sprache: Deutsch
• Veröffentlichungsjahr: 2022

Seitenzahl: 71

Beschreibung

Xa ufunda lo msebenzi, kunokwenzeka ukuba ucinge ukuba andinakuphila ngolo hlobo. Yinto nje yokuba ndandisoloko ndizenzela izigqibo zam, naxa kufikwa kwiingcebiso okanye iingcebiso. Ukuba ngendandiyamkele okanye ndandingayamkeli yenye into. Ngokuqinisekileyo zazininzi izigqibo kwicala lam ezathi kamva zajika zingalunganga. Kuphela oku kudlule kwaye kuphelile. Eyam imbono yeyokuba kufuneka uphile kwixesha langoku, awusenakuphinda ulungise into oyenzileyo ngaphambili. Ngoko ke ndijonge kwikamva. Oku kunokoyikisa abanye abantu, kodwa yindlela obahamba ngayo ubomi bam. Akucaci ukuba ezi bezisoloko zizigqibo ezifanelekileyo okanye akunjalo, kuba oko kudlulileyo kwaye ndiphila ngoku kwaye ngoko ndijonge kwixesha elizayo. Ngamanye amazwi, kwenzeka njalo kwaye awukwazi ukuzitshintsha ezi zigqibo. Ndizakushiya kuwe, mfundi, ukuba ulinganise lo msebenzi, kodwa ndiyavuya ukuba ndawulahla umlutha wam emva kwamashumi eminyaka, nangona kunjalo oko kwenzeka.

Leseprobe

Ukuphila okanye ukubakho nje 4

Ndanelisekile?

Edward Wagner 2017

Intshayelelo

Ungayibona ngendlela ofuna ngayo: ngaba ezi memoirs okanye lulandelelwano lweziganeko ebomini bam. Ndingathanda ukuthi ngela xesha ndidibana nalo ndandinoluvo lokuba oku kuchanekile. Andizange ndifumane naliphi na icebiso kwizalamane okanye abahlobo malunga nokuba oku kulungile okanye akunjalo. Kodwa kwakusoloko kukho umbuzo wokuba ingaba ngendiyithathele ingqalelo na le nto. Kakade ke, ekuhambeni kwamaphepha alandelayo, kuya kuhlala kukho iindawo apho ndisemngciphekweni wokuba semthethweni. Kodwa ekubeni ezi zazikho kwixesha elidluleyo yaye mna ngokobuqu ndimile kwinto endandiyenza okanye endandingayenzi emva koko, andiboni ngxaki ukuba le miphumo inokuvela. Ingaba oku kuzalisekile okanye ubomi obonwabileyo abukho kum, kodwa kumfundi, kodwa ekugqibeleni ndiya kugqiba.

Intsapho 1970

NgoDisemba 1959 ikhaya labazali

Ekupheleni kowe-1959 ndabona ukukhanya kwemini eVienna, kwakukho kodwa andikwazi kuyikhumbula. Weza njengowesibini uzelwe, umntakwethu wayesele eneminyaka emi-6 kusapho lwaseDanube Swabian. Ukuchaza imvelaphi yam: Ekupheleni kweMfazwe Yehlabathi II, abazali bam bagxothwa kwiSerbia yanamhlanje ngabavukeli bexhobe ngemipu yaye ubomi babo busesichengeni. Ekubeni babephakathi kweqela lamaJamani (amaDanube Swabians), ulwimi lwabo lweenkobe yayisisiJamani, nto leyo ethetha ukuba babekwazi ukuthetha nesiSerbo-Croatian. Ookhokho babo ngoku bahlaliswa yiNkosana u-Eugen kwindawo eyayiyiYugoslavia ngoko ukuze bomeleze iziseko zophuhliso apho, nto leyo nabo abaphumeleleyo ukuyenza. Ebudeni besiphithiphithi seMfazwe Yehlabathi II, bagxothwa kumantla nasezantsi ngabavukeli ababesongela ubomi babo. Ukuza kuthi ga kweli nqanaba ekuhambeni kwexesha baye bazuza impumelelo nodumo, yaye kwakungekho butshaba phakathi kwamaYugoslavia awayehlala apho nabantu abathetha isiJamani. Abazali bam (abaneminyaka eli-12 neli-14) neentsapho zabo bamkelwa ngobubele ngo-1944 ngala mazwi: Wenza ntoni apho? Kutheni usazi kakuhle isiJamani? chwechwela ekhaya Ngelo xesha kwakukwamkelwa "abasemzini". Awunakuthelekelela namhlanje. Kulungile ndibuyele kum. Ndikhule ngokulula, ubuncinci de ndaba neminyaka eyi-10. Utata waqalisa umsebenzi wakhe womsebenzi awayesele ewazi eSerbia, yaye umama, njengoko kwakuqhelekile ngelo xesha, wayengumfazi wekhaya. Kangangoko abazali bam babendivumela, ndandifumana yonke into endandinokuyenza ukususela kwizinto zokudlala ukuya kwiibhayisekile nokunye okunjalo. Nyaka ngamnye ehlotyeni ndandihamba nomntakwethu nomama ukuya kwindlu ehlala abantu kangangeeveki ezimbini ukuya kwezintathu kumazantsi eOstriya esemazantsi. Utata, ekubeni kwakufuneka ephangele phakathi evekini ngenxa yemali, weza kuthi nge-moped yakhe ngoLwesihlanu waza wahlala de kwangeCawa. Kufuneka kuqatshelwe ukuba ilayisensi yakhe yokuqhuba wayifumana kuphela ngo-1972. Isizathu soku kukuba wayesele eqalile ukuthengisa amaphephandaba kwaye ngokuqinisekileyo oko kwakungasekho lula nge-moped. Ngelo xesha ndaye ndaqhelana nentsapho eyayihlala kufutshane nomhlalaphantsi. Kule nto kwakukho iintombi ezimbini, enye ineminyaka emihlanu ubudala kwaye enye ingaphezu konyaka.

Sep 1966 isikolo

ukuqala kwam umsebenzi wesikolo. Kwisikolo samabanga aphantsi ndaya kwiklasi yamakhwenkwe onke. Umntu owaphumelela kwindawo eyayibizwa ngokuba yiPädag ngoko wazazisa njengomfundisi-ntsapho. Wayeneminyaka emalunga nama-25 ubudala yaye eyinzwakazi, ngokokubona kwam ngaloo minyaka. Ndisayikhumbula ianecdote eyandothusa kancinane ngelo xesha. Ekuqaleni kweentsuku zam zesikolo ndaya kumama ndaza ndamxelela oku kulandelayo: Umama, utitshala wapeyinta iminwe yakhe ebomvu ngokuqaqambileyo. Ungayenza njani into enjalo? Imvelaphi yayiyeyokuba utitshalakazi u-Ulrike wayepeyinte iinzipho kuphela, nto leyo eyayingaxhaphakanga kum ngelo xesha. Ndicinga ukuba umama waguqukela ecaleni ngelo xesha kwaye mhlawumbi kwafuneka ancume, emva koko wandicacisela ukuba yintoni na le nto. Kaloku, ndaphumelela kwisikolo samabanga aphantsi ndaphumelela ngaphandle nje kokupeyinta nokuzoba. Kodwa ndandinentlonipho naku "Mrs. Teacher" owayesohlwaya amatyala "ngokuma ekoneni". Indlela eya esikolweni, ngelo xesha yonke into ihamba ngeenyawo, yayisoloko ilucelomngeni, kuba kwakusoloko kukho umntwana ofunda naye omnye, ababini okanye abathathu onokuthi ujijisane naye ecaleni kwendlela.

Ndandikhangeleka ndimhle ngoko

NgoSeptemba 1970 kwisikolo samabanga aphakamileyo

Emva kokuba ndihlala ndiphupha ngomsebenzi wam wamaphupha njengogqirha kule minyaka kwaye isiqinisekiso sam sesikolo samabanga aphantsi sasifanelekile, abazali bam bandibhalisa kwisithili esisebumelwaneni kwisikolo segrama. Ngo-1969, utata wam wabuyisela ilayisenisi yakhe yokurhweba yokulungisa iibhotile zamanzi anesoda kuba yayingasenangeniso waze emva koko waguqukela kumsebenzi omtsha, wokuthengisa amaphephandaba emihla ngemihla. Oko kuthetha ukuba wathengisa elona phephandaba likhulu kwilizwe lethu njengovulindlela ngokuhlwa de kwamalunga nentsimbi ye-11 p.m. kwindawo enye. Ekubeni oku kwakunengeniso esengqiqweni, nomama waqalisa ukuthengisa amaphephandaba, enoba yayinjani na imozulu. Baye bakwazi ukugcina imali eninzi kwiminyaka, sobabini, oko kukuthi, mna nomnakwethu, impilo yayingahoywa. Kaloku, ngoku ndandikwiklasi yokuqala kwisikolo samabanga aphakamileyo sobuntu. NgoMvulo kwakusoloko kukho imathematika nesiNgesi ngokulandelelanayo. Kaloku, oko kwahamba kakuhle okwexeshana, kodwa emva kwethuba ndagula baza abazali bam bandibhalela bengqina ukuba ndiyagula. Noko ke, ekubeni abafundisi-ntsapho bengazange balithabathe kum eli phepha, ndandizigcinele lona. Ngoku ngoMvulo ngesiNgesi kunye nemathematika ziye zanda ngakumbi nangakumbi kum, ngoko ke ndeza nombono wokuthatha enye okanye enye ngoMvulo "blue" kwaye ndingayi esikolweni. Ndaye ndavelisa isiqinisekiso sokuba ndiyagula nam ngokutyikitya kwabazali bam. Ekubeni ubukhulu becala yayizizifo ezifanayo kwaye utyikityo lwalungaseyonto ilungileyo, yenzeka njengoko kwakufuneka. Ngequbuliso abazali bam bafumana isamani yokuba beze esikolweni. Ewe kunjalo, babuzwa malunga neentsuku zam ezilahlekileyo kunye namanqaku aphumayo kwaye bamangaliswa okanye baphoxekile ndim. Ngenxa yoko, ndagwetyelwa “ikati” (iiyure ezi-4 zokubhala isohlwayo ndedwa esikolweni) sisikolo. Ngokokwazi kwam, isohlwayo esinje asisekho namhlanje. Ekugqibeleni, unyaka wesikolo waphela kukho ababini abahlanu. Oko kuthetha ukuba kwafuneka ndiphinde iklasi yoku-1, njengoko kwakusafuneka ngelo xesha.

NgoSeptemba 1971 kwisikolo sokuhlala

Emva kwesi siganeko sibalulekileyo, ibhunga losapho ladibana ngendlela yabazali bam kunye nomnakwethu oneminyaka elishumi elinesixhenxe ubudala. Kufuneka kukhankanywe kwangaphambili ukuba utata waya kwisikolo sokubhoda esithetha isiJamani iminyaka emininzi ngexesha lesikolo sakhe eSerbia. Oku kwandinika icebiso lokuba ndifanele ndiye kwesiphi isikolo.Kuba xa ndandineminyaka eli-11 ubudala ndandingenalo nofifi okanye imbono elinganiselweyo yento emandiyilindele, kwafuneka ndamkele isigqibo sebhunga losapho. Kodwa ekubeni ndazalwa ndingumProtestanti, akuzange kwamkelwe ukubhaliswa kwam kwizikolo zamaKatolika, ezinjengeSchulbrüder eStrebersdorf. Esi sigqibo sathetha ukuba ndaya kwisikolo ekuhlalwa kuso kwisithili se-13, apho kwakukho nesikolo samabanga aphakamileyo sobuntu. Ndasokona ixesha elide nesigqibo sabazali bam kuba ndandizivalele apho ukusuka ngokuhlwa ngeCawa ukuya kutsho ngoMgqibelo emini emaqanda. Ukuba "ndenze ulwaphulo-mthetho" into phakathi evekini, ngokuqinisekileyo kwakungekho kuphuma ngempelaveki. Ngethamsanqa, oko kwakungafane kwenzeke kwisithili se-13. Enye into yayinomdla kule ndlu, kuba intloko yeli ziko yayingumzukulwana ka-Adalbert Stifter (igama lakhe lalifana). Lo mlawuli wayengumntu otshayayo wombhobho apho umsi wawunokunukelwa kuso sonke isakhiwo kwaye ukhula ngamandla esazi ukuba ingozi isondele. Ndahlala I 3years eHimmelhof, yilaa boarding school yalapho. Emva koko ndafudukela kwisikolo esinegama elifanayo kwisithili se-2 kunye nomfundisi-ntsapho ofanayo uFranz. Kodwa ukusetyenziswa apho kwakufana nesithili se-13. Oku kuthetha ukuba ukuba kukho nakuphi na ukungaziphathi kakuhle kwam phakathi evekini, nam ndandivunyelwa ukuba ndichithe impelaveki ngokungazithandiyo kwisikolo ekuhlalwa kuso ngezohlwayo. Ekubeni ulongamelo lwalungelukhulu kakhulu kwaye nam ndiye ndimdala, kwakudla ngokubakho iimpela-veki kwisikolo ekuhlalwa kuso. Ngelo xesha, xa ndandineminyaka eli-13 ubudala, ndaqhelana necuba, nto leyo eyabangela ukuba ndihlale ekhaya ngenkani. Obu buhlobo nenikotini buhleli kum nanamhlanje. Yonke into yahamba kakuhle ukuya kutsho kwibanga lesi-4 emva koko safumana umfundisi-ntsapho waseCarinthian kwibhayoloji owayesandul’ ukugqiba izifundo zakhe. Ngokuqinisekileyo ebengumceli mngeni kuthi bafundi abaneminyaka eyi-14-15 ngokwexesha lokufikisa njengoko wayengumfazi omhle onomzimba ohambelanayo. Ke, ndiye ndazivumela ukuba ndithathwe ndisiwe kwilizwi elinye ngexesha leklasi elandifumana elona phawu lokuziphatha libi. Ukongezelela, ndiye ndafumana awona manqaku mabi kakhulu kwizifundo ezahlukahlukeneyo, kangangokuba kwafuneka ndiliphinde ibanga lesi-4. Oku kwaba yimpumelelo yaye ngoko kwafuneka ndiye kwisithili esiselumelwaneni kwibanga lesi-5 kwisikolo samabanga aphakamileyo sobuntu, ekubeni oku kwakungasafundiswa endlwini. Ekubeni ndandisenawo umnqweno wokuba ngugqirha, ndaba nobuganga bokufunda isiGrike samandulo, ekubeni ndandisithanda ngokwenene isiLatini, ulwimi olwalunamabanga aphakamileyo. Kwakunomdla ngelo xesha ukuba ndagqiba kwiklasi edibeneyo okokuqala, kodwa kwakukho amantombazana ama-6 kuphela kunye nabanye abafana. Kwisiqingatha sonyaka sokuqala ndandisenenzondelelo ethile xa kufikelelwa kumbandela wokufunda, kodwa ekubeni ndandingasithandi kwaphela isiGrike samandulo, amanqaku abonakala efanelekile. Yayingesiso nje esi sifundo sisodwa, ngoko kwakuza kufuneka ndiphinde iklasi, kodwa oko kwakungasenakwenzeka ngelo xesha. Ngoko, ekubeni ndandineminyaka eli-17 ubudala, abazali bam bagqiba kwelokuba ndiqalise ukufundela umsebenzi. Xa ndandineminyaka emalunga ne-16 ubudala, xa ndandisesikolweni, kweza uErnst, unyana womhlobo kamama, waza wandibuza enoba ndandingathanda na ukuya kumdaniso rhoqo ngooLwezihlanu. Kambe ke, lo yayingumsebenzi onzima kwisikolo ekuhlalwa kuso, ekubeni ukuphuma ngolo hlobo kwakungengomthetho. Ekugqibeleni, ekugqibeleni ndavunyelwa ukuba ndiphume ngoLwesihlanu ukususela ngentsimbi yesi-6 ukuya kweye-10 ebusuku. Umdaniso wesintu wenzeke kwikhaya leDanube Swabians kwisithili se-3. Ukufika kwam apho, ndafumana abafana namabhinqa aselula amalunga nama-30, yaye ndandingomnye waba bancinane. Inzalelwane yaseSwabian yaseDanube yazazisa njengenkokeli, eyaqhelisela imidaniso yesintu kunye nathi. Kodwa ngenxa yokuba ndandingumntu ochasene netalente ngokugqibeleleyo xa kufikwa kumba wokudanisa, le ndoda yayinengxaki yokundifundisa indlela yokwenza. Ndisasikhumbula isiqendu apho inkokeli yathatha ithanga lam esandleni sayo kuba ndandingaqondi ukulandelelana kwenyathelo lokutshintsha. Oku mhlawumbi ayikatshintshi ukuza kuthi ga kulo mhla. Ngezi ngokuhlwa sasiqhelisela imidaniso yesintu kunye nezibini ezisi-8 ukuya kwezili-10, esasizicula ngexesha lebhola ngoJanuwari nangoFebruwari. Ekuhambeni kwexesha, kwaphuhliswa iqela labantu abakubudala obufanayo ababehamba ngebhola kabini ngeveki eVienna Prater. Lithetha uqeqesho kanye ngeveki kunye nobuntshatsheli ngoLwesihlanu. Ekubeni sasinomxhasi, inkampani yokuthumela iinqanawa, ayizange ibize kakhulu. Ebudeni bonyaka we-1982, amadoda angama-7 kunye nabasetyhini bahamba nale nkampani kwinqanawa ye-10-indoda esuka eSplit ukuya eDubrovnik ehlotyeni. Yonke imihla kuloo veki sasisiya esiqithini, siphumle size siqhubeke. Yayingamava amnandi

NgoAgasti 1972 indlu yempelaveki