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Elena Ioana Melanson

• Herausgeber: BookRix
• Kategorie: Sachliteratur, Reportagen, Biografien
• Sprache: Englisch
• Veröffentlichungsjahr: 2023

Beschreibung

I am an artist and author, I have 3 pennames: Elizabeth saturn, nygvik nomza, and Eleanor A. Foxstars. I am also hoping to be a tattoo artist. I love talking about my life, and hobbies, also I enjoy coffee. I am tattoo and piercing fiend, mental health warrior!

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Elena Ioana Melanson

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About me

 Hello there my name is Elena Melanson or Elena Ioana Melanson if you're wondering why I use that name, well, it's my legal name. My name is Elena Ioana melanson, I was born in Romania and left for dead many years ago when I was just a baby 34 years ago on February 4 that was my birthday, and I was left for dead for two years until I was adopted a large traumatic thing that happened to me when I was younger, particularly there was a lot brutality in Opression. This kind of thing was not something I wanted, even though I was a baby. Do you not start this bullshit about children not being able to understand what's going on around them when they are just babies babies do have brains and they know how to use them and they're not stupid. That being said when I was adopted, I was out of that bad situation. If you were to call it the Apple I ended up with PTSD, Asperger's and ADHD from the whole shit show that was my life up till two years to months. When I made it to Canada, I thought I was safe until my parents drop me off at daycare. That was the biggest mistake of their life. I think. Because I thought I was into deep again, and I didn't want to deal with kids my age. When I went to school, it was a Catholic school. It was a horrible place for me because the teachers were prejudiced against how intelligent I was not being sarcastic but I actually truthful I was always being targeted because I was girlfriend full of energy and full of intellect and the school did not like that soon enough that I was getting bullied by my friends who were really shitheads to begin with. I learned to read at age 4 before school and I was able to write pretty quickly with some practice after I wanted to school and then I ended up graduating from grade 8 with no honours or anything with you it's kind of a pain in the arse but then I ended up graduating high school with honours and with an award. That was pretty good . That being said, I am an artist, author, musician, and photographer. I like to do a lot of interesting things. This is what I enjoy doing it designing my own tattoos., getting sad, tattoos done and getting piercings professionally done, of course and having coffee reading and writing. This is where I end up talking about my pen name is Elizabeth Saturn, Nygvik Nomza, and Eleanor a fox stars.   I am currently writing on her my legal name which is Elena Ioana melanson.

I write because I have PTSD as a manager not just from the war zone that I was born in but also because of the sheer amount of bull crap I had to deal with her BS that I had to deal with in school Catholic school to be honest with you what is not exactly my parents High Point in their life. But they've done some good things to make up for it like taking me on trips almost around the world except at Asia. They had something against Asia but then they ended up adopting an Asian girl particularly me, so that's kind of strange. I have three brothers, Mark John, and some other asshole. I'm not gonna mention excuse my language is there, but that is the truth. The other one was trying to hurt me in someway and was not a very good person. That's why I'm trying to figure out my life right now after that. Also, I was in an abusive relationship about 10 months ago when I was just in the age and 33 it was pretty awful for me to deal with when I broke up with a guy at age 34 he ended up , hating me for everything and threatening me with even more abuse. His name is Brian Werner. He was a horrible human being, but anyways not too much about that. I will block more about that later, but anyways, I also have a good friend named janara. Also, I have friends in my group home I live in a group home because of my PTSD and Asperger's and the severity of the PTSD has made sure that I live in a group home for quite some time, and to be on disability for quite some time I wish I wasn't because I have an IQ of 196 and I feel that being on disability is an affair for me, so this is kind of a fuck up in my life is a disability part I want to take the money from someone that actually needs it, where is that? I can actually get a fucking job and do something with my life but for some odd reason there's something holding me back and this is why I am blogging to know what is holding me back. It is most likely PTSD that is holding me back. There is a safety issue with me trying to get a job elsewhere. If I were to get another job, I would be  a tattoo artist, and I will be where I know best of the perth  ink witch Emporium because I trust these people nachos with the safety of my body, but also with the safety of my mind as well if I were to work there.   Right now I'm just trying to work on my artwork and trying to do better with my artwork. It doesn't take very much longer but it will get to the point where I'll go to an apprenticeship and I'll be able to be a tattoo artist and may be a pier sure, I'm hoping that one day that I am able to get off the disability though because I kind of find that it's unfair that I should be on disability want my IQ is through the roof and someone else who is more deserving of it doesn't have it it's kind of bad.  That was my mothers second biggest mistake was to put me on odious P when I really have a intelligence of a elephant or iPad or whatever that is fire marshal faster here than any human. I don't like to brag about my brain, but that is what it is, if I remember when I was a baby, I'm pretty damn intelligent so that being said, don't put me on disability again mom .

Last year my mother had passed away after my brother trying to hurt me and that being said I was distraught and still, I am to this day a little distraught with the fact that my mother had passed away now I make stone cairns all over the group home that I live not just for my mother, but also for fun, they're usually use for funerary purposes, but in some cases are use for our order that I use mine for our order goes well for the most part. My father and I never got along so that's one thing you must know is that I want to be father Bashan, and my aunt she is something else a real psychopath. 

That being said, is important to enjoy life as it is and that's what I'm trying to do. I will try to maintain this blog as much as possible and this is what I am trying to deal with is some time to myself. To do the maintaining of the blog.

October 21, 2023

 Today I went to a firetruck pull and partake in the firetruck pull as well because of the the perth Special Olympics was it entered in, and I was going to help pull a truck that was probably borrow 30,000 pounds which is very awesome indeed that I did. I didn't think this was going to make it over there. It's going to rain today but luckily it did not have to rain until the very end, and it was very interesting to see where this was going to go here. There was four trophies, fastest pull, and then the best team name, and then the best costume and the slowest Pull.  We were stretching and everything just getting ready to get to pulling the truck. I knew that was gonna be some interesting things for the day they were going to do a lot of things and I heard copperhead Road being played by the DJ, which was pretty interesting I love that song copperhead Road!

And that's when I got my groove on and started getting ready to pull the truck towards my team. I was in my team Perth Special Olympics, but it was very interesting to actually pull some thing that was heavier than you, other than human body and see that you're actually going to go through with us. Usually you are entered into these vehicle poles via a gym or fitness membership I had neither one of them since I was born but I have been a strong little cookie for quite some time 34 years. I've been strong and flexible and been able to do a lot of interesting things. I was in the martial arts and I was into contortionry contortionry I'm still into contortion really is the art form of putting your body and strains positions dress to Add artistic flair to stretching. That's why I do a lot of stretching in the first place. Because it's also good for the mind as well as a spirit to be stretching. As well as it's interesting to see how it helps the body as well as mind and spirit. When I found out that the rest of the team was coming, I was relieved that I didn't have to pull the truck with a couple of other girls. You know I don't downgrade my own gender but still I was wondering what the hell we're gonna do and then the guys came in and thank God for that I was the first to lead the Paul and then I ended up getting help from everyone else behind me. I was literally in front of the truck afraid of getting smart, but thank God it wasn't getting smart day. This is just a polling day, and I wasn't certainly not my eyebrows it we're getting pulled.

When we realize that we were going to win the trophy, I realize that personally myself, and they said perth Special Olympics, and then I realize that when they mentioned as for the slowest Paul, I ended up having to do rock paper scissors to be the keeper of the trophy, which is just about the size or hide my iPad, which is very interesting.

When I came down to lunch, it was being paid for by the fire department because of our achievement, and the slowest pull, and was very interesting to see that the launch was on for free and I was able to get a chocolate bar, a hotdog and a orange crush soda. I love orange crush soda. I've never had it since I was a kid. I've always used to be addicted to the stuff, but never been able to get a hold of it since I was in the group home. Most of my addictions are taste face like an orange crush.  taste base like an orange crush Fanta and coffee and mocha's.   But I also have an addiction. The phone is not that kind of an addiction .But I also have an addiction. The fun is not that kind of addiction. I didn't think it was just more of an addiction of enjoying yourself and having a good time and trying your best. That's what I try to do in my life. And that's what I did today with the pull, with the help of my friends.

Now I am like Smigel, from lord, of the rings, where I have to be the keeper of the ring or the keeper of the trophy. That trophy is not leaving my room unless I show it to someone or if I have to go somewhere other than that it's not going anywhere without my eyes on it. Which is pretty interesting to be the keeper of the trophy is interesting and I'll show you that the trophy is kind of interesting. It's a fire man with a fire axe is very interesting to look at, and I am very happy to share. This is my first trophy ever getting anything for it.

October 22, 2023

A.m.

 Right now I'm not having the best of fucking days because of the actual issue of my iPad not charging or recharging it's kind of a pain in the ass to deal with, I've been awake since let's say 3 o'clock in the morning because of this and it's been driving me completely batty, instead I'd rather just check the fucking thing and just be done with it but I can't because it cost so much money but I would like the satisfaction I guess, throwing it out the window or not having to deal with it at all. That being said, I would rather not deal with this kind of shit again. I am sorry for my language, but that is beside the point I've been dealing with a faulty charger for quite some time and it's kind of annoying. Also, I was kind of earrings that I keep waking up at the same time of the day 4 o'clock in the morning for some Frick the reason that seems to be the time when I get woken up naturally, I don't know why are around 330. What would be the witching hour which is not my cup of tea.

Then I would see a very unusual, repeating number and angel number if you want it because it would just keep repeating itself and it will always constantly say that I am doing better and stuff but I'm not too sure about that. I know I'm doing better both otherwise everything I'll just show you what I had to see. It's very unusual. The last time I saw a needle number was 24 hours ago is very unusual to see them and it's kind of creepy and unusual. If you ask me I don't like creepy an unusual unless it's through horror, movies or horror novels. Being told that I am going to be manifesting something that I want in the first place is kind of strange I know I have heard about manifestation. Where are you manifest? What you want to happen to come true. But that is the side the point that is so strange !

As you can see, this is very upsetting to me to me because every time I get a angel number it's kind of strange the last time I got an angel number I don't know what it said but it was something positive but as I said, I'm not used to positivity is the saying that a Lotta good things you're gonna have a Lotta good changes and stuff which is kind of strange for my taste of positivity. I am not used to this all the time. And I am not used to waking up at 3 o'clock in the morning just to deal with a goddamn iPad or whatever else is going on in my life . And I've been having some really funky dreams. I'm gonna start doing a dream blog one day and it'll be this where I have been dealing with a lot of dreams that are unusual and off color. 

They had to be said I am very unusually strange Dowd by this batch of dreams. I have been having her either version of the order, something a little unusual, either way, I don't really enjoyed is having these weird dreams the kind of psychedelic the last time I could've sworn I saw the devil in the form of a female flight attendant, which was kind of strange. I will tell you that right now, and I did not enjoy, having to wake up in the console myself telling me that I was gonna save her place at the time it was not my cup of tea to say Elena it safe to go out of your bed, or go out at your house!

These are on usual am I losing my mind? No I'm not, but I am just saying that these are very unusual things that have been happening to me early early in the wee hours of the morning. I don't know what to make of this, but it is kind of unusual. There are some good parts, but as I said, and convinced that I saw the devil, Lucifer was kind of strange when I don't even believe in him, because he is not a naturally occurring, or she is not a naturally occurring. I am is kind of unusual for me. 

So that being said, I don't know what my dream was last night it might come to me and if I do, I will be writing this down in my dream journal but anyways, this is what I have to deal with from time to time and it's kind of a pain in my ass to begin with!

Why a flight attendant would be the devil I don't know why but the size that's kind of strange, but I don't know how my mind works, it is a confusing and creative brain, but it is unusual, nonetheless to say that this will be the devil, and that this will not be the devil. This is kind of strange for my liking. I will be going to my job this morning or this afternoon to clean and I'll be listening to classical music for the most part because that helps me calm down and relax and focus in on my task at hand that I can say is pretty good, but I am not too sure about this whole angel number situation. I don't mind the three digit repeating numbers, but when you get in the four digit repeating numbers, and one things get a little rare and unusual. That's the kind of thing I have to deal with from time to time usually happens once in a while 1111 or otherwise. Or something to get that sent but when I was 4343 that was when I started picking my nose and wondering what the hell is going on here. This is not usually what I want to deal with in my life instead I want to deal with things that are a little bit more usual. I don't know if it's an Asperger's thing or a PTSD thing but it's just the way it is when I'm trying to deal with things in my life I just rather deal with things that I know are not as exotic or unusual. I think I might be deleting that particular app that keeps showing that amount of notifications because it's wigging me out. I know I sound like a freaking schizophrenic, but that is beside the point this is kind of strange when they believe in numerology and all this New Age stuff where the hell is the universe getting this idea that I am going to manifest something that is something that I want in the first place to happen nice kind of strange what is it where who how  you don't give it the 5W's I've had it because I'm kind of an usually strange that I wake up at this time of day and I have to go and then my stomach bugs the shit out of me because it's hungry and stuff it's not my cup of tea. I'll tell you that much and it's kind of not my idea of a good morning and then I have to wake up again because it's time to go to sleep , instead I'd rather just deal with this kind of thing like this kind of thing I mean the idea of trying to just trying to fall asleep and never mind the actual thing so I do have insomnia because of PTSD but this is kind of getting ridiculous and stupid if you ask me. And when I deal with these angel numbers it sweeter but that's beside the point I'm just hoping for a better day I know the days gonna be good but that's beside the point I'm gonna be making my final 20 dollars for this tattoo I'm getting number 66 from the Halloween flash drop something that I didn't even think I'm doing before and I want to have this one tattoos that I have an annoying I will show you if I have a picture of it. It's of a tarantula legs with an a human eyeball. It's kind of interesting.

Maybe that is what they are talking about manifesting because that is kind of the only thing that has been on my mind lately other than that I don't really see what is so different. I've been doing everything the same for the past four years and so I moved to my group home, so that's strange, it Hass to be the tattoo. If you ask me it is a tattoo that is Wiseman a fasting I think that's the only exotic thing in my life right now other than that, I don't see you very much differences in my life.

Is unusual but hey, it's a good thing that's happening with these are angel numbers, so why should I look a gift horse in the mouth? I just wish it would wake up at 8 o'clock in the morning instead of the fucking 3 o'clock in the morning, which is kind of unsettling for me, but that's beside the point a good thing is a good thing I guess.

Late A.M.

 I finally slept in today. I was pretty good. But the worst part of it was that I nearly missed my pills this morning because I was sleeping in. Other than that I am pretty good. I had breakfast and enjoyed myself watching Buffy the Vampire Slayer as well as getting some new sunglasses swap sunglasses with a friend today which was pretty good. I don't know where my interesting sunglasses came from. I think they came from my first set of aviators, which were pink and then it started off with a collection. And now I'm with the fashionable sunglasses, which is pretty good. My friend had a whole bunch just like me and was able to give them to me right away. That being said, I'll show you what they look like.

Soon enough

When I realize that the day was going to go well except for the fact that it's raining out so I couldn't really take these on a test drive so that was kind of a pain in the butt for me but doesn't mean I can't take them for a test, drive all the time because I do have a right. That being said, I am very happy to say that I didn't fall asleep in the morning and my iPad started to recharge itself right away without me cursing and swearing. Thank God. Are there is something occultish about 3 o'clock in the morning anyways, that's kind of the god-awful thing about 3 o'clock in the morning and when I wake up from a weird dream but I did not have some dreams that I don't think I had. I did I think they were very usual going into the spirit world and otherwise. I was going  walking around in my dream, but not in avoid or anything else. Avoid meeting adore play soon as you're an actual like play so I think I was going to a store. That being said, I still feel like I'd like to go to sleep because of the just of the sheer tiredness of it all I really should get back in my reading, even though I have been trying to read and stuff like that which is good I should get back into that, so that's good and I'm also watching a movie and a TV show that I have a dog Siri what is Casper, the friendly ghost with the girl going to the haunted house as well as I am watching Buffy the Vampire Slayer a little more about Buffy the Vampire Slayer in bit.

Buffy the Vampire Slayer I've been watching since I was in third grade. It's very interesting to see where the third grade will take you on your own at all even though I have graduated high school I finally remember the third grade very well. As it was the spirit of Halloween all year round, and there is also an interest in spiritual paranormal at the time dad sent me all the course where I am now. That was a former ever in my life the third grade, which is very important to me in the first place! I remember being interested in Egyptian mummies another things anyways, here's some of my sunglasses.

As you can tell, I had to shave my head for the better because the hair was driving me completel Picture that it was completely gone off of the deal with her in the first place I don't know why people deal with hair to begin with, but that's what I had to deal with even see the scars from scratching at my hair. That's kind of sad but that's what it is so I shave my head so I didn't have to deal with the hair anymore. It's very interesting to see where I can actually go and enjoy a bald head or shaved head. I'm not have to worry about hair, except when it grows back then I have to shave it. Other than that I'm pretty good with what's going to happen today to me it's not a spectacular as the truck, Paul, but it will be interesting on the last to get some money into my parking for my tattoo soon enough. I've been doing a lot of low Cost activities trying to avoid spending anything and trying to avoid stores as much as possible. FYI I am not going to the store. I take a picture of a certain item in the first place and add it to my visual Christmas list because there's no way in hell can I ever be able to buy what I want to buy in the first place, so that's why I am going around Walmart one day with my smart phone, taking pictures of things that I've been wanting to either read or watch. Something that is been something that I had to do because I am going completely nuts. If I did not have to shave my head, I would've pulled out my hair dress trying to save. 

I've been working two hours twice a week cleaning trying to get a tattoo money which is good and it's also good for mindfulness as well to be able to clean and you'll be able to help yourself be better in your headspace as well as in your pocket as well. I think there should be more cleaning jobs out there for people who enjoy cleaning because it's a lot easier than going around grumpy pants and going around being a pain and everyone is a bird. I think I mentioned this in my other box before that my idea of being cranky is that you should stay home just like in with the COVID-19 pandemic that you should stay home on your circuits, the same thing when you're cranky. 

That being said, I enjoy a lot of cleaning and killing germs. That's what I do when I get angry or whenever I do, I do it twice a week Wednesdays and Sundays it's very fun to do when you get a star party you can see how close to two hours he can get even though they rounded after two hours at the house and Sherry interesting to see that I can get close to two hours, at least a good amount of movie time if you were to say that. But that is what it is, it is what it is for tattoos and piercings and her money because there was your nephew where I tried to do my own piercings, one time, and that was a real shit show, where I ended up in the hospital, and had to take out all my piercings, the garage ugly, and had to save up to buy tattoos and piercings to professional means, which is a good thing.

But it really does put a strain on how I spend my money but it's important to be safe than sorry our save the DIY do it yourself idiot. I don't believe in do it yourself or anything with the tattoos piercings or home decor I think you should be getting a second job cash to pay for a professional because God knows what can happen when you do it yourself it can go royally bad.

So I've been trying to save up a lot of money within the past month for a tattoo. I will get it working at tarantula legs were high as in what you see in and I with the pupil one step is very interesting so I wanted to get that tattoo I didn't think of that design for myself Carolina love seeing it on Facebook with my favourite tattoo parlour the Perth ink witch Emporium, which is very good to Savon money if you want a tattoo or piercing, I would rather go to the person Quincy's and ending up, saving money instead of ending up somewhere else, and having to work like a dog for my tattoos even more so. At least if you can enjoy the tattoo and just go and take care of it or the piercing and take care of it and then be done with that for the day and then just do the two hours again for the money and then you are sad to spend some money for yourself. I would rather be going to the Perth ink witch Emporium because it's very important to me and my pocket I am kind of getting sick and tired of the having a dig deep in my pocket but also I'm trying to find the Roy tattoo artist that is going to be good for the whole process as well thank God for the Perth ink witch Emporium. Right now I'm just having a dose of nostalgia before I go to work. There's nothing very much going on except I'm watching casper for the movie which is very good, are used to watch that movie obsessively when I was six years old and would end up being obsessed with it for a long time because it had to do with Goshen. Stop when I was six. I understood that there was life after life when I was even young because I knew there was some form of goings-on in the night that you needed to know about also, I'm in watching Buffy the Vampire Slayer when I've been trying to watch Casper as well, which is very interesting, so double dose of nostalgia!

I remember a lot of things when I was a kid watching Rugrats mommy, July, Buffy the Vampire Slayer, and other good interesting thing is that I have never seen until YouTube came around and other interesting things. This is why I would recommend YouTube Disney+ and sometimes Netflix when it comes to finding your nostalgic TV shows if you can. I would rather just watch something from the 90s that I've been watching for quite some time instead of something that's brand new except for cobra Kai that is an option that is completely different cobra. Kai talks about anger management. Some thing that I need to work on even though I don't really have that much of a temper anymore. I still gotta work on it so I watch cobra Kai not just for the entertainment value but also because it's good for, anger management and other things like that how to be paid for mindful and how to clean to be mindful in the first place. That's where I got the love of cleaning from in the first place was the fact I watch cobra Kai, first place you could watch that on Netflix if you want and it's not gonna bother you. But there is one thing that drives me insane with cobra Kai and that is John Kreese, to me he is a big faker when it comes to PTSD and I don't like people who fake PTSD when really they're psychopaths...... more on that later, when I deal with the actual subject matter later on in life!

p.m.

I was able to get to work just fine which is good but it was not at the time but I wanted to. I was ready to blow if I remember correctly. But that is so I am going to talk to you about one of my favourite shows first of all Disney kinda took me off because they ended up saying that they need payment and I don't have payment which is kind of a pain in the arse for me but anyways, I still have Netflix, and one of my favourite shows involves cleaning, which is cobra Kai, especially with Maigoi go Karate, where you end up doing the wax on wax off routine where you end up learning to clean, as well as train your body to be a lot more powerful than you think, and when I go to work, I don't just go to work. I also want to meditate just like in Miyagi do karate. Where I end up learning to be with myself while trying to clean up a place. And I find out that I'm getting pretty strong, but there's one character in this cobra Kai series that I really can't stand. I'll show you who he is one day but well you know who is sweep the leg John Kreese. 

This boy think you can get away with everything because he supposedly has PTSD and those keys in the show I called him a tasty Twirl, or a faker when it comes to PTSD another words, a psychopath. Here's one for the record box as he is nothing more than sweep the leg. He's not a very good person to begin with, and he makes mantle. Wellness look like a pile of crap. Well, it's not exactly ideal that I have a mental wellness plan is not for me completely ID only if you're going to be a psychopath. Making it even more undesirable for you. Why I can't stand this guy he's a psychopath no difference from or anything from kill Bill. He is nothing more than a yakuza in my opinion, a Yakuza in my opinion doesn't always have to be in Japanese mafia. It just Has to me that you're no it's enough to use a samurai sword of you blame the delay on this floor, which is fine or not right for the whole thing it's not interesting to see someone who's supposed to be emotionally unbalance to go use a samurai sword that slasher flicks stuff if you that is not right in my opinion, he has a couple tattoo less Yakuza.  Do you have to be a gentleman? Yakuza obviously know John Kreese has showing us that anyone could be Acuña and it's kind of embarrassing for everyone water like me or you're over there French ethnicity that's one thing but I just don't like the idea that anyone to be like a yakuza.

I know this guy was a bad guy in the karate kid movie but anyway, he didn't think he was gonna go around with weapons on Waze JoJo anyways, that's something that is a no go for me and samurai swords in the karate dojo even know so I might use them. For decorations to the teacher continues to Dom in theI know this guy was a bad guy in the karate kid movie but anyway, he didn't think he was going to go around with weapons in movies dojo anyways, is that something that is a no go for me and samurai swords in a karate don't know even though some might use them. For decorations to the teacher continues to have in the first place is going to sickening in my opinion, be able to use samurai sword the freeway, Andrew actually be insane not PTSD but I actually insane. This is what I think is really wrong in the martial arts community. I've gone martial arts for a long time and I've never had a psychotic episode or anything like that or any behaviour similar to this jack ass.

This guy, John Kreese from the actual cobra, Kai dojo and the actual martial arts, where Henry on all time he's actually one i find should be a Quentin Tarantino character as he is completely nuts and off o his rails.

This train wreck was nothing more than supposed to be a one time or three time character in the trilogy movies. Now he's in the cobra, Kai saying that aggravating is the fact that he ends up using PTSD as an excuse of it is no different from Oren Ishii from kill Bill, shame on him for using PTSD to be using that as an example to be a bad guy. I have been martial arts long time in my life. I am never once had an inkling to do anything wrong in my life not even a prank I'd rather just try to chill. I always clean person or no Peter side and go and joy my life as it is. This is why I do not like the idea of psychopaths going in the martial arts. I think that they should be more or less have a psychiatric test before you go in the martial arts because this is what kind of force you get into trouble with. Is so bad this John craze. I'd like to punch him in the nose. The guy who actually plays John Kreese is actually doing a good job making me hate him. He is a good actor on the last button. Yes, girl hey dementia hate everything in the world and that is what he is doing just fine! He is paid well for his job and I don't blame them for paying him a big box for his role in cobra Kai because he is a pain in the arse his character that is.

Who is tasty tomorrow as I call someone who fakes PTSD is a pain in my hours as far as cobra Kai is concerned as much is I like wearing about the different mindfulness activities from the Miyagi do karate and the anger management from cobra Kai as much as I can learn self-respecting self control from the show takes a lot of self control self-respect North a call this guy a bad word, or Lisa Parker on the show because it's kind of aggravated a deal with this, John kreese. It's inspiring to see how annoying this tasty twirl is so annoying that it makes me want to be a better person actually to be a better person with PTSD and to be able to cope better with my PTSD and see where I can go at least my PTSD is not imaginary or fake. Where is this tasty total as I called him he's a fake son of a gun.   And I'm done with the stereo types of PTSD really what PTSD is Israel's just emotion and nightmares and flashbacks another psychological problems especially emotions when you are dealing with that event in your life which is completely normal. What is tasty twirl as I call him is actually a psychopath and that is not the ideal way to deal with you trauma when I deal with PTSD I deal with it with a paintbrush, not a  fist or a samurai sword, and I use restaurants to help me cope with my symptoms, as well as I need a lot of different medication that I unfortunately have to take that. I usually do crystals to help me as a healing crystals to help me cope with PTSD. The next day will I will talk to you about the damn phone crystals good for people with PTSD in the first place instead of just having a take the right medication.

What is Frank is the PTSD cause they just the man who I was not a mental sickness. And I'm gonna be frank about that right now. Metal sick message psychopathy or sociopathy. The idea that someone can be psychopath again. Blame it on. PTSD just drives me completely battier  to use them there. Which makes me want to scream when I think about is kind of characters that are on TV saying that they do stupid stuff because of PTSD yeah well I had my PTSD since I was a young child and I've never really pulled anything that was a gradients or leave all the lol or involve the rules to be broken. This is the kind of thing that I'd rather stay clear of. And I even when I get martial arts, I stayed away from the yakuza and I stay clear of drugs, alcohol and smoking still new to this day, and I'd rather just trying to live a life of decency like Daniel LaRusso that's a better way of trying to deal with your PTSD instead of trying to act a fool or act, like an animal with a samurai sword, or some kind of god-awful weapon.    How to deal with your PTSD is to clean like a son of a gun like Daniel LaRusso would do or to do mindfulness do something creative or do something that's going to help you grow as a human being being an animal is not exactly ideal way to deal with PTSD. I would rather be crying my eyes have been punching someone in the face, but that's just my stance on the whole PTSD thing is that I'd rather be crying instead of sacking (punching) and someone in the face.

That being said, I think there's more peaceful way to PTSD person without being a jerk. There's a lot of ways you can go about suffering or coping with PTSD, then acting like a Quentin Tarantino character and I'm sorry if I hungry, but this kind of thing we should not Laura find the bad side of my homework in Spanish glorify the hard work someone does to go over and over come the mental illness instead.

If I had my choice of characters, I would rather someone else instead of John Cruz to be in cobra Kai. But as I said, I was more or less didn't think he was going to show up at the first or second different episodes that's when I realize he was gonna be there forever. He's annoying to me.

I don't like how John crazy Asians, PTSD, and his character to act like an idiot in his character. That's what I'm trying to say when they're a good meaning people who have PTSD breather really suffering or they're trying to overcome the whole situation in the first place and I don't need this stereotype to begin with in the first place distance makes it harder to deal with, and the stigma even worse to Cole Porter. Let's pray for us take my love, either violent people or yakuza like people in the PTSD community!

End of rant

crystals for PTSD 

if you're like me who has suffer from PTSD or suffering from PTSD at the moment, might I suggest a few good stones that will help you in the long run. As well as taking your medication and swirling your meditation Balls.  The one thing that I find that helps out is it meditation balls are good if you're officially person. Also, if you're interested in art, that can be very good for you to help with the creativity. I will tell you that story the next time I have a flashback Thursday or throwback Thursday but anyways meditation balls are very important to have but also are crystals added to your medication. No I'm not talking about drugs. I'm talking about actual crystals that might actually help you with your problem of PTI. See your post traumatic stress disorder or anxiety. I've had suffered from PTSD for the past 34 years. This is coming after 35 years a huge feed for someone with my condition is that I have made it to 35. Some people are two chronic and they cannot seem to get out of bed let alone live their life. I was lucky to have good parents and good crystals as well as medication to help me along the way. But let's talk more about the crystal shall we

Now these may come from different websites are on the same website is yohumanz which is about crystals and New Age thing. It's very interesting to read. But they talk about that PTSD is caused by other songs, not war and violence at all so messy break ups, and other stuff, this is very important to note that even the smallest thing can cause PTSD, or that the smallest negative thing I should say, can cause PTSD is caused by more or less ignorance on the avengers end of the spectrum, not the person who suffer from PTSD and let's talk about the crystals shall we.

Black Tourmaline

Black tourmaline is thought of as a "bodyguard" because it's powerful in the way it can clear energies around it. It can protect you as it absorbs negativity. This can help create a calming environment where your anxiety can rest.

Since people with anxiety and trauma often have negative thoughts, this can be a good stone for helping clear that energy.

Amethyst